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MOEKA HOSHI as USAMI FUJI in SHŌGUN (2024–) Chapter Five: Broken to the Fist

#ALSO. i love her sm #might not add but ill def use her as an fc

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wanted to write today but then I found antique furniture by the roadside and now I have to rearrange my room , I'm sure you understand

#HOPEFULLY I will be here tonight tho bc my fingers have been itching and I've drafted some replies mwah #tbd.

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Mariko + Smiles SHŌGUN (2024)

#dumai???? dumai <3

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listening to h/ttyd for the first time ever wish me luck

#historically i do love a little dummy and his pet beast #tbd.

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the fc potential <3

#tbd. #fuck he who shant be named but the costuming and makeup on this movie is unmatched

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#medea fc.... i am shaking rn

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ueeeuuughrrrgh (meme call)

#my laptop shat the bed halfway through designated writing time this morning so im about to re-attempt that #let's hope he (yes my laptop is gendered when he's acting up) did not fully leave us #tbd.

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gnaws at the bars of my cage

#i want to write so bad but my brain does not!!! imy </3 #I am here to plot tho. perhaps my brain will be tickled #tbd. #and you can always send memes ofc. i shall do a little night spam #and my interest tracker is also floating around + i am likely (if brain not smooth) to hit u up if you fill it out <3

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medea voice claim <3

#I am on my Knees . #tbt.

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SEND ME 👑 + A CHARACTER NAME OF A CHARACTER YOU THINK I SHOULD WRITE ! 

I’LL REPLY WITH 

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#twiddles thumbs #meme.

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🐦‍⬛ 𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘 𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 — quotes taken from ava reid's novel. some edits have been made to allow for rp purposes. feel free to adjust for pronouns/names/etc.

❝ It began as all things did: a girl on the shore, terrified and desirous. ❞

❝ The ephemerality of things is what gives them meaning. ❞

❝ They were both creatures of rage and salt and foam. Both could strip me to the bone. ❞

❝ I wanted nothing more than to tempt their wrath, because if I were brave enough, I might earn their love instead. ❞

❝ I was a treacherous, wrathful, wanting thing, just like he was. Just as he had always wanted me. ❞

❝ Although the tide pools had not shown me my face, I had been revealed. ❞

❝ It was fae-like trickery. There was no answer that wouldn’t damn me. ❞

❝ You’re so pretty. You really are. You’re the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever seen. Do you know that? ❞

❝ We must discuss, then, the relationship between women and water. When men fall into the sea, they drown. When women meet the water, they transform. It becomes vital to ask: is this a meta-morphosis, or a homecoming? ❞

❝ I wanted to say I don’t believe you. ❞

❝ I wanted to say thank you. ❞

❝ I wanted to say tell me more about who I am because I don’t know anymore. ❞

❝ I could tell the whole story as if it had happened to someone else, and it would be completely painless. ❞

❝ The weight of a memory is one thing. You get very used to swimming with it dragging you down. Once it's loosed, you hardly know what to do with your body. You don't understand its lightness. ❞

❝ You don't have to take up a sword. Survival is bravery, too. ❞

❝ In the end I learned that the water was in me. It was a ghost that could not be exorcised. But a guest, even uninvited, must be attended to. ❞

❝ If you can learn to love that which despises you, you can dance on the shore and play in the waves again, like you did when you were young. ❞

❝ Anything can be taken from you, at any moment. Even the past isn't guaranteed. You can lose that too, slowly, like water eating away at stone. ❞

❝ It saved me in more ways than I can count. Because I knew no matter how afraid I felt, I wasn't truly alone. ❞

❝ Are there any ships on the horizon? Will they signal back to me? I never got the chance to know. ❞

❝ But stories were devious things, things with agendas. They could cheat and steal and lie to your face. They could crumble away under your feet. ❞

❝ I wish I had fought. ❞

❝ I know I beat him in the end, but for so many years all I could do was run and hide. I just sat there and let the water pour in around me. ❞

❝ I didn’t know that I could fight back. I didn’t know how to do anything but wait to drown. ❞

❝ Every wanting man has the same wound he can use to slip in. ❞

❝ I wanted you, too. For so long. It was terrible. ❞

❝ Sometimes I could barely eat—sorry, I know that sounds like the strangest thing. But for days I didn't feel hungry at all. I was... occupied. ❞

❝ You took away all the other wanting from me. ❞

❝ It was a beautiful house, but not a clever one. It was a house with no imagination. ❞

❝ Fear could make a believer of anybody. ❞

❝ Didn't all drownings begin with a harmless dribble of water? ❞

❝ There's very little worse than when our heroes fail us, is there? ❞

❝ Men just say whatever they want and everyone believes them. ❞

❝ Love transcends petty theological squabbles. ❞

❝ But if fairies and monsters were real, so were the women who defeated them. ❞

❝ It doesn't matter. I'm not afraid to care about you. ❞

❝ It's very hard to believe something when it feels like the whole world is trying to convince you otherwise. ❞

❝ You're not just one thing. Survival is something you do, not something you are. ❞

❝ You're brave and brilliant. You're the most real, full person I've ever met. ❞

❝ The sea is treacherous, but women are even more treacherous. ❞

❝ You don't see yourself very clearly. ❞

❝ Challenging me isn't pestering. I'm not always right. Sometimes I deserve to be challenged. And changing your mind isn't foolish. It just means you've learned something new. ❞

❝ Everyone changes their mind sometimes, as they should, or else they're just, I don't know, stubborn and ignorant. ❞

❝ Moving water is healthy; stagnant water is sickly. Tainted. ❞

❝ If you want to see what you are, look into the tide pools at dusk. Look into the sea. ❞

❝ I will love you to ruination. ❞

❝ You can die as easily of thirst as you can of drowning. ❞

❝ Love is a fire that cannot burn alone. ❞

❝ The better you know someone, the more terribly you could hurt them. ❞

❝ You don't have to love something in order to devote yourself to it. ❞

❝ A romance is a belief in the impossible: that anything ends happily. ❞

❝ If a story repeated itself so many times over, building itself up brick by brick, did it eventually become the truth? A house with no doors and no windows, offering no escape. ❞

❝ How terrible, to navigate the world without a story to comfort you. ❞

❝ That was the cruelest irony: the more you did to save yourself, the less you became a person worth saving. ❞

❝ I was a woman when it was convenient to blame me, and a girl when they wanted to use me. ❞

❝ I believe you. ❞

❝ Things are only beautiful because they don't last. Full moons, flowers at bloom. You. ❞

#leave me alone i wanna hoard <3 #i have some creative time scheduled tonight and tomorrow so hopefully i will be here mwah

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one thing abt me is that im gonna not write but keep adding characters <3

#﹙ &* D. THE TALL ﹚ #im sorry my love i think thats such a dumb name KJSHDKJFSHF ser duncan of fIeabottom would've gone so hard

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oh..

#ooohh im gonna go insane. oh im gonna go absolutely batshit #its about to be clinical #tbd.

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i stand firm on korean aIice but i have to say i do love her with a mississippi accent . like yes ma'am say more 🥰

#mississippi gf and texas bf is wild #my comfort blorbos.... #tbd.

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as fun as clicking the boop button is, remember to also do your daily clicks for Palestine 🇵🇸 !!!!!

#don't forget to boop for justice

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i've been watching him for my entire life / i hate the air he breathes, his foolish decrees / his words so contrived / and i hate the way the townspeople gather outside / they hang on every breath, cling to his chest / home to his heart full of pride

the oracle told him to beware the ides / and i'd be lying if i said i wasn't wishing / for untimely death or demise / or am i just wishing i could be like you? / that the people would see me too as a poet / and not just the muse

oh, it's not true, i don't wish harm upon you / from birth we've been like brothers of different mothers / within the spirit of the same womb / may the gods strike me down if i forsake you / frater meus, you're beautifully made / and to you i'm forever grateful

i'll never forget that you showed me to make art / and i know the love you showed me came / from a pure and noble heart / i love you, and if you want, i'll call you king / but why do i lie awake each night thinking / instead of you, it should be me ?

something wicked this way comes / and as i set to face it, i'm unsure / should i embrace it, should i run? / what motivates me? hatred? is it love? / what's more wrong; that i too wish to be great / or my mother wished she'd had a son?

and even if i can't be the one / maybe i could at least help make way for him / until the day that he comes / maybe my name could also be known / that i helped return good to the people / and restored greatness to rome

my name is brutus and my name means heavy / so with a heavy heart / i'll guide this dagger into the heart of my enemy / my whole life, you were a teacher and friend to me / please know my actions are not motivated only by envy / i, too, have a destiny / this death will be art / the people will speak of this day from near and afar / this event will be history, and i'll be great too / i don't want what you have, i want to be you

i always knew i could be the one / though i feel the endless pain of being / and i am scorched by the sun / of humble origins and born of the cursed sex / my name is brutus, but the people will call me rex.

#﹙ &* R. TARGARYEN ﹚ #long post // #ugh. throws myself into the trash. fully THROWS myself away. #something about r/haenyra always being pitted against men (be it dead or nonexistent or conceptual or dot dot dot) #historically there has been too much fucking around. and some people. are about to find out . #did i just spend an hour on this web weave only to now lay down and writhe in pain as i listen to this song. the answer is yes

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my interest tracker should be fully up to date now so mayhaps check it out!

#I am soooo snork mimimimimi #trust and believe I will be in those dms tho. since that's all I seem to be good for currently