angeldiaries777

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goodbye.

I want to make a post formally saying goodbye to my followers on here. It's been a long time coming. If you follow me you know that this blog is basically my diary in a lot of ways and I've been through a lot on here but I think its time to say goodbye to this era of my life. I can't post on here casually. I've mellowed out and grown up a lot since janurary of 2023 and this blog witnessed a lot of that. I would write a lot of my thoughts out on here some from other people's perspectives some with hidden truths but a lot of it was just purely my reality and perspective at the time. as you may already know i have a lot of weird habits with how i use this site for starters i rarely tag any of my posts or post original photos i don't know why thats just how my brain works. anyway i know that not a lot of people will see this its mainly just closure for myself i don't wanna just dissapear from what has been my life forever. i grew up on the internet as an escape from my real life. ive tried to leave multiple times but i always come back to either reblog something or just scroll and its just not healthy. its better than it used to be i don't crave the validation from it anymore and im not blaming my past self for wanting that cuz its perfectly normal thing to want especially when ur dperived of that in your real life. i went insane for a while. having to basically parent yourself because your parents are inadequate is difficult. i would be lying if i said i didnt regret how certain things in my life went or certain "choices" i made (i do not believe you can make decsions when you are as sick as i was at the time) i don't know what to say theres so much i could talk about as the topic of life is never ending but i just i wanna say this because chances are if you know my account exists or have found my account that you also use the internet as an escape in some way. and just know that it never ends well. it doesnt matter how much u showcase or minimize your pain. no one can help you until you decide you're sick of yourself. and this will happen multiple times as it literally mirrors withdrawl and addiction for some of us. theres no conclusion to draw here. nothing is ending in my actual life. infact the opposite is happening im trying to live life for the first time and set less limits on everything if anything my narrow view of thinking is expanding and will continue to as i reach young adulthood. which is crazyy to say cuz i feel like i was 14 being a loser on twitter like it was yesterday. anyway another thing i wanna say is don't let people shame you for your past or things that you're working on changing. you're already aware something wasn't working for you. life does not have to be cookie cutter. im glad mine is not. Im done with this chapter of my life. i do have another private blog but thats just for me. if you wish to say anything to me or about my blog before i leave for good then just dm me or send an anon. I'm not playing the saviour role anymore. I'm done with self desctruction and degeneracy. I'm done with things that damage my soul.

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I'm done with this blog. its been over a year now and ty to everyone who follows me and likes/reblogs my posts . again its just its not doing anything for me anymore. its not healthy to continue to be on here cuz its not just a small thing to me this blog was a big part of my life since i was 15. im just so done with being online in this way. idk if you've noticed but as time has went on i have been less and less active on here ive made lots of posts about quitting but i didnt i was like whatever it can be casual but cuz of how ive utiliezed this blog its just never gonna be casual it always ends up with me oversharing about my life and then people see it when its really not supposed to be seen. im not here to help anyone. im done playing that saviour role. theres no inpso. im done with things that damage my soul. its just self desctruction and degeneracy that i was okay with for too long. i felt trapped in my real life so why not be insane online. most my posts were genuine im just bored. like im not having fun its not inspiring more than half my followers are dead accounts. im nobodys little tragic girl. im done preforming online and in the real world. i do have another blog but im not sharing it on here. if anyone wants to say anything to me before this blog becomes inactive forever then dm or anon me on here as soon as you can. this is a really messy goodbye. im done. goodbye. hopefully this blog helped or inspired you in a way or maybe you felt less insane seeing how consistently insane i was. im done with all of this.bye.

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Cats are cute in theory but taking care of anything when I don't even take care of myself sounds awful

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My mom will always be my first abuser in life

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Inside my head - meg and Dia such an underrated song

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My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

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My sexual awakening as a child was cosplay why do you think I'm this fucked up

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I like how no one in this world is as pretty as me

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I was a kid but I wasn't clueless

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magical flowers ... digital powers ... rhythms and tunes ... the sun and the moon!

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We can't be friends

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can we talk about the withdrawals that come with no longer speaking to a person u spoke to every single day?

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Sorry for being a deeply deeply sensitive child and taking everything personally then mentally and physically destroying myself at age 14

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I'm a male I'm a man I'm a he I don't get into that mentally ill bullshit