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These last couple weekends were kinda demanding of me, and I need to recharge, but it's kinda difficult to do so because blah blah blah yadda yadda personal stuff.

Regardless, the feels are coming in... even if they're not super coherent.

I just want everyone to imagine Dark in Wil's garden.* It's a lush, beautiful, amazingly well-kept family of plants -- one of three, actually, with another garden in the front yard and a greenhouse as well. Dark just... happens to find themself there sometimes, sat in front of a row of flowers, able to listen to nature without the Ringing drowning everything out.

Sometimes they take the time to change into their work overalls, sitting in soil and all... and sometimes they just go out in their slacks.

Sometimes they take their cats out, on their leashes, and let them explore the outdoors safely... and sometimes they're out there alone, in the name of finding solitude.

Sometimes they're relatively stable when they make it out to the garden. Sometimes they're anxious. Sometimes they're steaming with rage. Sometimes they're already crying.

Absolutely, they've been out there in the rain. Just as long as it isn't thundering, I mean.

It's just... it's a peaceful place for them. Their husband made something beautiful, something to be tended to with the gentlest of hands, and that gentleness has been absorbed through every root, echoes off every petal and leaf, is carried through the air on every flake of pollen.

He is Persephone, as far as they're concerned. And they are his doting, devoted Hades.

So, today... or at least this late morning/early afternoon... Dark is in the garden.

*This is all based on conversations I've had with respect-the-stache. I love Plant Dad Wilfy with all my heart, and I want other people to know about and love him too)

#honestly real

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anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful

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Introject culture is making an OC you think is SO cool only to fucking absorb them.

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Introject culture is having terribly conflicting feelings about a sourcemate. I need him, but I resent him. I miss him, but I want him to stay far away from me. I don't want to love him. I want to hold him again. The waltz was lovely. He was so sweet. I don't know what to do.

- 🔔 of 🎠

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Introject culture is one of your singlet friends stating that they like every character in your fictive's source except for that fictive's specific character source, meaning they like an actual child abuser more than your fictive's source, and then clearly have a favorite from a different series, because they always ask about that fictive and want to spend the most time with that fictive, and other shit, and it's like yeah, alright, I can see who is and who isn't welcome here. - 🐋

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Introject culture is missing the royalty life you had in your source, but also appreciating the more modern/civilianized life you have now.

I can actually eat chips and stuff!! And ramen noodles!!! And candy!!!!!!! And I'm not socially isolated from anyone outside my class!!!!!!!!!!

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slight vent incoming

introject culture is missing your family so much but knowing they weren't real. i miss my house even though it's only a psuedomemory. i miss my dad but he was never even a real person. i miss my brother and my sister and my mom. i don't have that kind of bond with my real family. i just have this life here and years i don't remember.

i just... hate being homesick for a home that never existed. sorry for venting. i just feel especially lonely lately. no one in my system is even my same species and they don't have the same psuedomemories i do. how did my brain consider this coping when i'm just lonely?

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introject culture is wanting to seek out sourcemates but not only do you feel awkward, there are probably very little

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Gym bros will eat a scp and call it 'bulking season' and 'protein'

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Googles advice on how to write an apology

“Show empathy”

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i think if someone hugged me and told me it wasnt my fault and everythings gonna be okay id break down sobbing

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Fanfic writers are like crows. If you give them treats (comments) they will bring you shiny things (fanfic)

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The version of you right now is deserving of love. Not you two years ago when you had more of your shit together, or the five years later version where you’ll surely be thriving. The version of you right now. The one that might just be okay, or is really struggling, or is bored and unproductive. That version deserves love. Having trouble accepting this is fine, but actively denying it is not. Your value is intrinsic, and finding confidence in that is mandatory.

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HELLO YALL- It's Chol!

You may or may not have seen my HH stuff on Tiktok 😭😭

I wanted to post my Hazbin redesigns on here one bc l've literally been neglecting Tumblr and I feel bad and two, they've been getting a ton of love on Tiktok so I wanted to share them here as well!

Pt 1!

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Loser baby

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They’re going to the movies