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YUTA’S LAUGH IN 2023 ♡

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"IT's You."

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Bang Chan ✧ Perfect Day with SKZ

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I was always the one who lacks alot.

I was the uglier one in the group of friends.

I was the least popular one.

I was the one that the guy’s mother didn’t really adore cause she preferred my good friend.

I was the one who lacks in a relationship.

I was the one who didn’t do much.

I was the one who was being rude choosing silent when my heart was broken.

All those words, actions and looks of affirmation to all these disappointments made me the person I am today and I’d break at a single negativity that break the fragile walls of my heart.

Yet, I chose to give my all to the people who showed me love and genuine care.

But I’m still that girl, stuck in that tormenting negativity world because of someone’s words.

I would love to be strong, to not give a fuck like what others told me to do.

But I can’t.

When I’m hurt, I chose to be silent so that my ego and feelings won’t cause me to make rash decisions.

Because I forgive the moment an apology is being brought up. I quiver and caved in.

But you know what happens to me over time? I didn’t forgive myself. I couldn’t forgive myself.

I questioned myself because I started believing that I was the problem. I am the fault that should be removed from the equation.

Bit by bit, all these little things just makes me feel worthless.

I saw how those eyes look at me every time and I understand.

I’m a writer, I observe when hidden messages are being expressed in the most covert manner.

Don’t tell me I am over reacting. I am an emotional wreck but I am still aware.

Most of the times, I just pretend that it didn’t bother me because if I did, it would have been so much worse.

And I am so close.. so close to give in to my inner thoughts that will lead to my self destruction.

And I’m honestly afraid because I know I am capable of that.💔

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I would love to go silent on the whole world.

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If I tell you I'm hurting and then you gonna turn around and make it like it's my fault. Then wtf do I even need to say it right in the first place?

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contemplating old habits. if you get what I mean.

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pop pills for my flu. fucking shit.

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low quality lee know gifs » 2/?

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I've been so tempted to go back to the old ways.

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chan, probably: ah shit here we go again

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BANG CHAN ✧ CASE 143 for @decembermoonskz ♡

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Don’t you also kiss your hommies when you’re drunk? a.k.a Woo living my dream and Yuyu being adorable