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[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

so i’ve been giving this plenty, PLENTY of thought and

i really can’t see myself using this blog anymore. as much as i’ve prided myself on keeping the same blog for like, five years now? all these absences have made me too anxious to return here. i genuinely believe i need a fresh start, with lower stakes. a new place where to build and work on characters – and interact with yours, of course!

so i remade.

this is my new blog: leopardos.tumblr.com

i’m not following anyone yet. i want to give people a chance to follow me first. just so there’s absolutely no obligation to follow me back. just do it if you’d like to continue to interact with me, and if not then feel free not do it. no hard feelings, i’ve been gone for a while, and it’s not like i can promise to be more consistent with my activity. if anything, i just want to do this so i feel less pressure on myself to provide a certain level of content

anyway. i don’t know what else to say. except – oh, yeah, general status update. im fine, im vaccinated. i am in a new semester! hence i haven’t been around much (on top of general anxieties and some other personal problems). but right now im in the middle of a small vacation period before resuming the semester, so i have a little time to update all of you and tell you this is where i’ll currently be located. 

there’s no many pages up yet, there’s barely any content, but who cares tbh! i’ll go through it at my own pace. as for this blog, it will stay up as an archive while i retrieve any headcanons and writing i wanna keep and stuff, so there’s no pressure to go through your likes or anything to avoid dead likes if that’s something that bothers you. this blog will remain! 

anyway, love you all. hope you’re doing okay. see you on the new blog, hopefully! 

[armsdealing]

exmateria​:

“and i’m not chinese but a whole lotta people think i am anyway.” love bites his lip, his hands now back at his sides, he observes with his usual sleepy stare before chuckling to himself. “you know you say “illinois” as if there’s any other place people would remember outside that laundry basket of a city…anyway so guessing you’re a small town boy.” he entertains the vendor for a bit, as he watches charles fiddle with the array of sunglasses, he puts on a pair of black cat eyes with the tag swinging from the side of his face, looking at the small mirror before taking them off and trying another random pair. 

love scoffs, loudly and boldly at that last comment, “ain’t no body just passin’ through baby…especially here. not if you’re us.” he looks at charles arms crossed, heart shaped glasses on his face. “you say that like it’s a bad thing. if you can handle living here then you’ve lived everywhere else–thats just how it be. I don’t make up the rules. but imma entertain what you’re saying–so where to after this? london? taipei?….ugh vegas.” he smiles. “well if this is just your pit stop imma miss you really….you’ve left a real dent on my couch.”  he pauses for a moment.

“try these ones.” love walks over to charles, puts on a pair of sleek aviators on him, he smiles. “you like em?” he waits a beat for charles to look at himself in the mirror. “they look good on you baby.” 

he makes a face at small town boy, but he supposes he might be just that. every fiber of his being disavows it, though. rockford is as much a part of him as peace and quiet is a part of new york. “not sure yet, i’m making it up as i go.” that isn’t quite the truth, but he’s not ready to spill his guts over to the other boy, much as he likes them. much as he finds this conversation easy and agreeable. “but who knows?” he stares at love through a pair of nearly black-tinted sunglasses that seem straight of the terminator. “sky’s the limit and shit. maybe i’m staying here for a few weeks -- maybe it will be for five years. don’t look for a replacement just yet.”

he takes the glasses off, lets love put the aviator ones. tilts his head ever so slightly, glancing at his reflection on the mirror on the vendor cart. then at the vendor in question, finding his attention drift from them to a pair of blond girls looking to purchase some necklaces. “yeah, maybe for some other time,” he muses, as he grabs both pairs -- the terminator ones and the aviator ones -- and makes the deliberate gesture of putting them back in the stand, just so the vendor can see it with the corner of his eyes.

he drops his hands to the sides, “what’d ya mean, ‘nobody is just passing through’?” he asks suddenly. once they’re a safe distance from the vendor, he puts the aviators on.

#m. charles derane. #charles x love. #thread. #ht. #exmateria #exmateria: love.

[armsdealing]

🎶 I won't bore you with the details, baby I don't even wanna waste your time Let's just say that maybe You could help to ease my mind 🎶

#( charles & love. ) #could this be better? yes. #do i care? no #i did this in 5 mins #outta LOVE

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exmateria​: love

“ha…” the color of sarcasm coats his voice. love rolls his eyes, “what other places are there in the middle of this stupid country besides michigan or ohio?” he thinks for a moment taking another guess anyway, “nebraska?” he laughs a little, unrelenting in his poor guesses. “give up?” his eyes blink slowly, “ do I really look like the type that gives up?” he nudges charles playfully, “i’m just gonna guess until you finally tell me… not like you’re all that forthcoming or…whatevah.” he narrows his eyes, “maybe you’re just one of those california boys after all…” he shakes his head knowing no rational queen from california would want to live here let alone run away. “no…maybe chicago.” he reaches out holds charles chin up inspecting his face “italian too huh? yeah…” he drawls out knowingly, “i can tell start to tell you’s ‘talian’s apart now” he teases, rubbing a small sticky streak of ice cream from charles’ lips. 

“so, whats a nice kid like you doing in a place like this? don’t give me the whole “oh new york’s the place to be crap neitha.” 

he keeps shaking his head until the mention of chicago crops up -- then he stops on his tracks, eyes wide and smile telling.  “illinois, not chicago -- you finally get it. and i ain’t italian. not by last name anyway.” which, as far as italian people go, seems to be what counts. 

he swats love’s hands away and laughs, opting to do that over his initial impulse -- to kiss the finger. much like the whim to kiss the red off love’s lips, it stays a whim. just an intrusive little thought. old habits die hard, experience still clinging to his spine and keeping him rigid, at least for now. 

the question makes the laughter fade a little, but not quite. he looks away to spot a nearby vendor, apparently offering sunglasses for “quite cheap”. (charles wouldn’t know about that -- he’s aiming for a discount.) “i’m just checkin things out. i’m just passin’ actually.” he looks back at love, winks. “i’ve always wanted to see the world, you know? no -- you wouldn’t. you new yorkers think you already know all it.”

#m. charles derane. #charles x love. #exmateria: love. #exmateria #thread.

[armsdealing]

exmateria​: love

@armsdealing | charles derane x love 

“At least tell me they have ice cream in whatever hole in the wall city you’re from.” love sucks on his creamsicle for the last time before finishing it up. he looks at charles now with cherry lips, “theme parks? at least….” he pointedly makes a gesture “im sure where ever you’re from can’t be as sad as…this.” he snaps his fingers taking the tenth guess now on where Charles must have hailed from, “you’re from Michigan.” 

the sun’s already setting behind them, a bright glare that keeps charles’ eyes squinty and his flannel shirt tied firmly at the waist. it’s not all for show either; he has to eat his ice cream in big bites, almost not enjoying it in the rush, lest it melts all over his hands. almost. 

he grins wide at love, his eyes pausing almost a second too long on the boy’s lips before rolling his eyes. “s’ not michigan. not ohio either -- you’ve said it like three times, no need for a fourth.” he licks the leftover chocolate off the popsicle stick, before tossing it into a trash can. “and yes, we got ice cream. there’s parks too, but i guess nothing like this. nothing this  -- big.” or populated. all kinds of people walking around, talking to each other, selling things, walking their pets. some of them are dressed just as interestingly as love is.

he nudges him. “you giving up, or what?”

#m. charles derane. #charles x love. #ht. #thread. #exmateria #exmateria: love.

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@exmateria​ sent: "hm, don't you wish sometimes you could forget, that you could get your memories wiped then you wouldn't be a person wandering but a person who was almost somewhere... a person about to arrive, and when you arrive...you could just stay?" // young! charles + bishop

eyes narrow, head tilting back: " -- what?"

a tentative smile sneaks its way out as he actually bothers to process the words. sitting up against the bed, her bed, his hands fidget with one of the pillows. "you askin me if i'd give up my memories -- ?" funnily enough his mind gotten rid of many already. his childhood, when recalled, comes to him in only bits and pieces. they roll in disjointed clips, no rhyme or reason, just madness -- bad moment, after good moment, after bad moment, after bad and after bad, and in between the moments nothing, just gray.

he tosses the pillow at her and it lands on her lap. "i dunno. would you? maybe i don't get the question. y’know me, not the brightest."

#m. charles derane. #charles x bishop. #ht. #exmateria #exmateria: bishop. #answered ic.

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CHARLES DERANE, circa 1992.

#fellas... maybe im obsessed #( charles derane. ) #ht. charles derane. #i promise to write and talk to people tonight