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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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i think loving someone can be described as the desire to make things easier for the other person

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Hanif Abdurraqib, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us

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There isn’t enough time to do everything. i need my own pace. This life isn’t natural

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maybe there’s something more traumatising than morals underneath which is why the person is always available. Maybe they value soulful connections so intensely but are afraid they can’t hold even one, in such a situation a hungry man will eat whatever is given to them. all the attention seems safe, because at least there is someone to turn to when they fail themselves. If they only have two friends, losing them will hurt more and they wholeheartedly believe they will fail themselves, it’s a tragic story

i don't like it when someone is easy to reach. when someone is open to everyone, when literally anyone can get their attention. it is a question of values ​​and principles not to be open to everyone and not to have the need for everyone's attention. people who are easily available won't value soulful connections.

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Grieving, grieving, constantly grieving. I mourn what could have been, what should have been, what will not be, what I cannot save.

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Another day of being a sweetiepie. Just clocked in

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gay sex will not fix this situation. honestly, it'd probably make it worse. that being said i think we should give it a shot anyway

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my friend took in a stray and she’s the cutest kitty ever but he named her oil so whenever he sends a picture of her me and my other friends look like we’re roleplaying as the US military

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emotional processing is so funny because sometimes you’ll be violently sobbing on your bedroom floor over something that happened 4 years ago and then you’ll just. get up and make coffee. and go to the grocery store. and take all this fundamental sadness for a walk. and ponder the cosmic experiences of humanity while eating a sandwich. and that’s healing.

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Leila Chatti, from "Postcard from Gone"

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Intimacy is not just about sex. It's having heart-to-hearts, staying up all night talking, sharing childhood memories, thoughts, fears, dreams & hopes for the future. It's uncontrollable laughter, direct eye contact and feeling each other without touching - it's exchanging energy

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Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.

I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.

There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.

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never stop reminding your girl how much you want her

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girls who say “one more” after you kiss them multiple times are wifey material

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girls i don't know how many "ill figure it out"s ive got left