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Diaper Training Your Little: Messing!

After training your little to lose control over their bladder, you can begin training them to have no control over their bowels, and an inflatable vibrating butt plug is the best tool to use! If they feel a little bit of pain, release a little air from the bulb and turn up the vibrations a little bit, and after a minute, you’ll be able to pump it back up again without protest!

The best way to use this diaper training tool is to thread it through the leg gathers; that way you will always have full access to the front of the diaper, the squeezable bulb, and the vibrator controller. This makes it blatantly obvious that you’re the one in control, not them.

Have them lay down on the bed on top of a waterproof pad and snuggle with them. Hold them in your tight, loving grasp as you slowly make the bulb bigger and bigger inside them. Tell them to squeeze down on it as hard as they can; doing this wears out their sphincter, then instruct them to slowly push it out for you.

Set the vibrations as high as they can go, and use one hand to caress the front of their diaper while your other hand slips down the back of their diaper. Let that hand come to rest on the base of the butt plug, and as it’s about to pop out of them, gently wiggle it back inside until it’s fully seated within them again. Repeat this ten to twenty times once a day, and in time, they’ll find it harder and harder to keep from messing themselves, so it’s a good thing you’re there to change their diapers, right? If you think they need additional stretching training, you can allow them to bounce up and down on one of the many thick dildos you bought for this very purpose.

Once part one of their daily training session is done, it’s time to move to part two. Let them rest for a little bit, then fill up an enema bag halfway and fill them up with warm water. Have them hold it for as long as they can, and mark on the calendar how long they were able to hold it all in for. In time, you’ll see a steady decrease in how long they can hold the enema, showing that your training is working as intended, and after a while, they’ll get so used to being in a messy diaper that they won’t think twice about hesitating to mess themselves!

Extra Tips!

1. Taping them into thick diapers gives them the confidence they need to give in to the effects of the enema. If they think that they’d leak, they’ll protest and ask to use the potty; this is a bad practice, so to avoid it, pamper them in the thickest diapers you can afford. Girls have needs, after all, and thick diapers are definitely at the top of the list!

2. Short shorts or bottoms from pajamas are fantastic for your little to wear during untraining. Onesies are also acceptable, same with wearing nothing over their diaper. Let them wear any of the items mentioned above, but it must be obvious that they’re diapered.

3. Lots of lube is required. Have a safe word in place for when a part of this process gets too much for them. Learning their boundaries and limits allows you to readjust the training schedule to keep them on track to full diaper dependency.

4. Link to the toy: https://www.amazon.com/Trinity-Vibes-Vibrating-Inflatable-Anal/dp/B00B5Q28DU/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=hpc&ie=UTF8&qid=1539031845&sr=1-1&keywords=trinity+vibes+inflatable+butt+plug  The plastic housing for the vibrator controls is very fragile, and if pieces come out, it’s very easy to put back together!

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Messy at the Restaurant

Well, I had an interesting night.

Knowing fully well that Mexican food gives me an upset tummy, I still went out for dinner with a few friends I hadn't seen in a while. They came back for the holidays so I'm glad they found time for little 'ol me.

I ordered what I normally order: chicken fajita nachos drenched in queso. I had thought I'd be good until I got home where I could do my messing in private but nooooo, I was wrong. Everyone kept talking and chit chatting once we finished eating and I didn't want to leave. I was having too much fun. I ignored how my tummy was feeling, thinking I'd be able to hold it at least until I got to my car.

I reached a point where my body gave me no choice. I excused myself to the restroom, feeling pretty nervous for what was about to happen. Messing at home is easy, but messing in a public bathroom is scary. Good thing I've practiced changing in public before. The restaurant was so crowded. I was thankful for the loud noise of everyone talking as it disguised the noise of my diaper as I hurried to the restroom.

All the stalls were full; I had to wait for one to open up. I was praying I'd get the stall meant for disabled people down at the end; it's a lot bigger and would help me change with relative ease. Plus I wouldn't have to worry about people on either side of me wondering what's making all those crinkly and taping sounds.

God was against me tonight. A stall in the middle opened up. I took it; I couldn't wait any longer. I felt some you know what escape me as I hung my bag on the door's hook. I contemplated squatting in the stall, but the walls didn't reach the floor, so to preserve my dignity, I pulled my pants down and plopped my padded butt on the potty and pushed, knowing that the sooner I got this done, the less time I'd have to spend changing a messy diaper.

I had chosen to wear a LFB vintage baby diaper that night; I love how those fit me like a glove. As soon as I sat down, my body knew what to do. My diaper grew hot and heavy. I felt myself start to sweat from my nerves.

Feeling like I was empty and good to go, I ripped off the tapes, uncaring as to what the others thought. I placed the used diaper on the toilet and tipped it over to get rid of my waste before I rolled it up and tied it in a baggy. I hurried because I noticed a few small drops of pee stain the inside of my pants. I really can't be out of a diaper for too long haha.

I made sure to focus on my needs, trying to keep myself from thinking about what the others thought. Wasting energy on useless thoughts like that never helped. I made quick time wiping myself clean before I taped myself into another LFB diaper, one of the last purple ones I had. I flushed the potty, threw the bagged-up diaper in the trash, then went back to having fun with my friends.

That's definitely the last time I go out to eat food that'll make me mess in public... or is it? =P

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December Update + Tips!

Adapting to a life where I'm strictly banned from using the potty for #2 felt daunting in the beginning of this challenge. Never had I imagined it would ever go on for this long. I have a few select individuals to thank for that; you know who you are! <3

The warmth of my pee mixed in with the warmth of my daily messes has grown to become more reassuring, that I was a good girl, rather than of shame and disgust when I started. Diapers are very-well designed to handle such things and even though it took me a while to come around, there are certain things that really helped me enjoy the dark side of messing my diapers.

For starters, I conditioned myself to associate messing with pleasure. For the first month or so (and I still do this occasionally when I'm feeling really frisky), while I squatted and prepared myself mentally to do the deed, I would tease myself, playing with my vibrator for several minutes. I would only allow myself release after I messed my diaper, and only after I had pushed everything into my diaper. I would then try to spend a few minutes in the messy diaper to get used to the heat, the weight, and the sheer pleasure of doing something so naughty.

Secondly, I would then spend some time doing a little aftercare. I would take a shower (I usually get my messing done in my bedwetting diaper to keep costs low and make my little diaper stash last longer). I would thoroughly scrub myself, cleaning every inch of me that was... ahem, dirty. I use special scented lotions, shampoos, and shower gels that remind me of a job well done. I remember reading something about scent association online a while ago so that's what I've been doing, only using my special products after I've fully messed my diaper.

Thirdly, I would tell myself how proud I was for doing such a thing. I had to associate good feelings, like a sense of accomplishment, with messing my diapers if I was to make this challenge work. This, combined with associating pleasure with messing, has really helped cement the fact that messing my diaper is right, justified, and a perfectly normal thing for someone who is dependent on diapers to do.

Fourthly, writing about this on a public forum helps a lot of people who wish to experiment and join the messy diapers club. I also receive a lot of praise (I tooootally don't have a praise kink) Pssst! I actually do! I love getting praise for this because it helps remind me that I'm doing something good. I've been helping others for years and I've surely helped improve myself over these years throughout this challenge of mine.

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November Update

I woke up around 4 AM last night with a very upset tummy. I woke up with my body screaming at me to get out of bed to go to the potty so I acted out of instinct, barely awake, stumbling to the bathroom so I could relieve myself. I plopped my slightly soggy diapered butt down on the toilet seat because I had a feeling that this was going to take a while. Felt rather odd sitting there tbh; I hadn't sat on a toilet seat in a very long time. I started to miss the warmth of my sheets after the first half hour.

I kept myself entertained with my phone while I sat there in my messy diaper on the toilet waiting for my body to do what it needed to do. I felt pretty helpless because my tummy hurt so bad. I have a feeling what caused this; it's just another food to add to the list that I can't eat anymore if I wish to avoid such a negative response. It's crazy how my body has become so intolerant of shitty processed foods. I've lost a decent bit of weight switching to foods that don't make my tummy protest in anger.

It's funny how as soon as I stood up, thinking my ordeal was all over, I felt my tummy gurgle again, telling me I wasn't quite finished. I waddled my way into the kitchen so I could get a big glass of water (it helps me a lot in shitty situations like these), doing my best to keep the heavy weight of my mess firmly centered in my diaper. It felt really heavy. I couldn't believe how heavy it felt. I pondered if I should change and go back to the potty but I'm on a bit of a tight budget; wasting a diaper for the last little bit of what my body had to push out immediately felt like a bad decision so I went back and finished my business, changed into a fresh diaper after cleaning the mess, and went back to sleep.

I bet you can guess what happened when I woke up. I didn't even get to have my coffee and I'm already on my hands and knees on my bedroom floor, feeling the same pain from hours earlier. I felt like shit because my sleep got interrupted by my messing episode in the dead of night.

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October 2023 Update: I Changed a Messy Diaper in Public

I still find it rather funny how much time this challenge has. I realistically thought I'd be doing this for a couple weeks to a month tops but nooooo, a select few of you deemed it necessary that I mess my diapers for years.

I'm not one to back down from a challenge, but... holy shit. The timer reached 5 years total time earlier this year, long enough to enact some sort of change in my level of control. Messing is so much easier and has become something that I just let happen. It's relaxing to let my body push it out on its own. Why bother exerting myself and let it take my attention away from what I'm doing when my diaper will inevitably handle whatever is going on down there? What's a little extra warmth and weight?

Speaking of how easy it is to mess, I was out shopping for books last week and felt the urge to poop come out of nowhere. I haven't been able to hold it as long in recent months and I didn't want to drive all the way home; it was going to take me too long and I didn't want to sit in a messy diaper for that long. I didn't want to mess around the shop's few customers; my body only lets go when it's safe to do so. Yes, I've tried to get around that but I've been and probably always will be a shy pooper.

So I did the best that I could in an iffy situation. I walked as fast as I could to the restrooms, praying that it'd be empty. I was so relieved when I found out they were. I locked myself in there (it was a single person restroom), then stopped worrying about what was going to happen.

I let it happen, right then and there. At least my diaper was halfway soggy; I think it was some LFB diaper if I remember right. I don't mess in public all that often so I figured this would be good practice for changing a messy diaper away from home.

Thankfully, the mess wasn't as bad as I thought. The wipes I brought in my bag made quick work and got me clean in a jiffy. I stowed my messed diaper in a scented trash bag and figured I'd dispose of it elsewhere because the trash can they had in there was so small. I threw it in the dumpster at my apartment when I got home.

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It's quite surprising how easy it's gotten messing my diapers.

Unless I'm out in public, I don't have to waste any thought when I feel the urge to mess. I don't even have to stop what I'm doing if I'm busy.

I've messed my diapers watching TV, laying in bed reading, making food, and in so many other places that it's become normal.

I've conditioned myself to enjoy the warmth of a messy diaper the same as the warmth of a freshly-wet diaper.

Warmth = happiness.

Warmth = a job well done.

Warmth = joy.

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Have you ever spent a morning drinking coffee on your porch in your soggy night diaper and felt that familiar tickle down there?

I have.

I pushed without getting up.

I became content.

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Little Update!

Challenge Start Date: July 26, 2021

Current Ending Time: August 15, 2026

My timer got extended another 4 months. 1076 days to go before I can ever poop in a potty again. That's 2.97 years. Anyone care to make it 3 years total? Everything adds time onto my timer through my wishlist here.

Do you think I'll have much control by then? I've been messing diapers exclusively for over two years now and while I've noticed that my ability to hold it has lessened, I wonder how much more it'll drop in the next 3 years.

Do you think this challenge of mine will ever end?

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Two Year Messing Challenge Anniversary!

Two years?

TWO WHOLE YEARS???

AND ALMOST THREE MORE YEARS TO GO???

I truly cannot believe it's been this long since I started my 24/7 messing in diapers only challenge. I, too this day, have not pooped in a potty since July 26, 2021. At my current end time, I won't be able to use a toilet until April 18, 2026. That's 997 days or 2.73 years away.

Pooping outside of my home during this challenge was a bit scary at first because I had no choice but to use my diaper for everything. Not only was it very embarrassing to fill my diaper in that manner in public, it was such a turn on. I remember blushing really hard on my drives home, sitting in a messy diaper, knowing that I was the only one in a several mile radius that was messy and soggy. Part of the excitement is that nobody but me knows just how naughty I was being messing my diaper.

I've been working hard to get over changing a messy diaper in public and make it a routine part of my life. It's hard. It's really hard, at least for me. I keep at it, though, because I know that what I learn could help at least some of you one day. If I can help at least one person going through the same thing I am, then it's worth it.

It's still scary to do, though. =P

Doing this challenge has resulted in a sharp uptick in the amount of diapers that I use. Even though I usually use my nighttime diaper for messing each morning, I still find myself messing during the day occasionally. Even though this throws a wrench into my day, I'm able to adapt and move on. It still makes me spend a lot more on diapers, so... to help offset my high costs and to keep me doing this challenge until I'm so used to messing, I sure would appreciate it if you could send some diapers my way.

I don't know if I should even advertise my wishlist anymore with that much time left on the timer, but... here it is anyways.

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July is an Exciting Month!

Not only is my birthday on July 5, my 2 year messing challenge anniversary is on July 26. It won't end until April 18, 2026 so I still have a bit of time left on the timer.

Quick Updates:

I haven't had another messing accident at night. I'm still 50/50 on this as if I'm able to mess at night, I'd have to deal with higher risks of health complications. While I enjoy messing as much as the next person, I find my opinion on staying messy swaying back and forth as I truly prefer being clean over being messy.

With my challenge not ending for another 2 years and 9 months, I still have a lot of time on my hands to allow this reconditioning of my bowels to happen. Also gives me time to really think things through and make some real decisions.

I had my first messing while I had friends over at my home last weekend. We got takeout and something in the food didn't sit right with my tummy so I excused myself to the bathroom, squatted down, and did the deed in my diaper as I have no other option. I had the fan on to make some background noise and I was able to clean myself up and change into a fresh diaper. My friends don't know about my challenge and it's going to stay that way.

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My First Messing Accident at Night

Color me surprised.

I woke up two nights ago to roll over, just awake enough to get more comfortable before I let sleep take hold of me once more. You know what I'm talking about, right? How you wake up for mere seconds to get cozier before you're asleep again?

Well, as soon as I rolled over, I felt the oh-so-familiar feeling of something warm and heavy sliding into my diaper. I thought I was dreaming and tried to fall asleep again but then the smell hit me like a ton of bricks. I sat up in a flash to check but the heat radiating from the seat of my diaper was undeniable proof of what I had done.

What was shocking was that I hadn't even felt the urge grow within me. I hadn't felt any sort of movement from my tummy that would signify that I needed to go #2 until it was already coming out. I didn't push. I didn't cough. I didn't do anything that would help push that hot load into my diaper and yet, it happened anyway.

Granted, I had a few drinks that night and snacked on some popcorn, so I wonder if that had anything to do with it. Guess I can't eat microwave popcorn anymore; it would seem that there's something in there that just upsets my tummy in such a way that I have a "negative reaction" if you catch my drift.

I'm sorry it took me a couple of days to gather my thoughts about this; I was genuinely shocked; scared even. For the hypnosis to work coupled with almost two years of exclusively messing my diapers is just... I don't know. I think I liked that it happened out of my conscious control, but a small part of me also doesn't like that it happened out of my control, if that makes sense.

For those wondering, I've used a mix of subliminals and hypno files from various high quality sources. What works for me might not work for you, so I recommend doing some research to find what works for you. I like using the files from Fiona Clearwater and some Mindmaster files. Should I keep listening to those files that encourage messing?

As always, you can add more time onto my timer by sending me gifts from my wishlist here. As an incentive, each book bought will make me listen to those hypnosis files 5 times. I've been reading a lot of adult fantasy romance lately and I crave more.

More gifts = more messy updates, too!

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22 Months Messing Challenge Update

Okay, so today I learned that 1 cup of coffee helps move things along and helps make me do my thang in my diaper. However, adding a glass of cranberry juice throws my tummy into overdrive and totally clears me out in a way that I don’t like. You ever feel like you totally clear yourself out then your body is like, “Go back to the potty right now cuz you’re gonna poo right now!” twenty minutes later?

Guess how many diapers I went through because of that? Four. Four diapers because each time I thought I was good. I waited in my third diaper after messing to make sure that I was as empty as I could be, then changed. I’ll give you one guess as to what happened next.

Since I have sensitive skin, I used gobs of Desitin rash cream down there so I could practice staying messy for longer and longer periods of time. I want to be able to tolerate being messy for a bit longer than I’m comfortable with because there may be situations in the future that keep me from changing as soon as possible.

I’ve started making notes of places that have bathrooms that are “safe” for me to change in, saving a long list of places on my phone with Google Maps for my local area. I wear plastic panties every time I go out if I’m anticipating a messy accident. Even then, I sometimes wear one just to be safe. Feeling safe, and using things to help me feel safe, have been really helpful in this challenge because it gives me the peace of mind to keep pushing forward. It’s been almost two years and I have not given up.

I know I need to get over myself and stop worrying about changing a messy diaper in public but it’s so nerve-wracking. It’s scary; just as scary as it was getting over changing a wet diaper in public. However, I’ve been searching for single room bathrooms where only one person can be inside at a time. Changing a messy diaper in a stall would just suck and be so scary.

I went out to a local Mexican restaurant with my parents last week. I’ve always loved eating nachos, especially if they’re drenched in queso. I’ve been eating them less and less as of late because I have a near-immediate negative reaction to them now. Yes, I know I’m stupid for eating them but I can’t help it sometimes; I just have a need to eat nachos. After we had finished eating dinner, my stomach was twisting itself into a knot so tight that I knew I was going to make a mess in minutes. With my home so far away, I was glad when they got up to go. I scurried back to my car with a slight waddle, praying that I would be able to make it home in time so I could mess in the safety of my home.

I didn’t make it.

It’s been getting really hard to hold #2 these last several months because I’ve conditioned myself to let my body take care of its needs. It’s what the diaper is for, after all, and I no longer view messing as a negative thing. I was able to make it to the fourth stop light from home before I tried to pass a little gas. I think you can guess what happened. Since I felt so much relief from letting some out, and since the light was still red, I lifted my butt off of the seat and pushed as hard as I could. The relief came almost immediately, though my stomach still churned like it was telling me I wasn’t done yet. I winced as I sat down in the hot mess, trying to keep it from squishing up front where my sensitive bits are. It wasn’t the solid kind of mess that I prefer; it was the complete opposite. 

I will admit that the sheer helplessness of the whole situation was a huge turn on. Being unable to keep myself from using my diaper like that, even though I fought hard and valiantly, was all useless in the end. My body knows that I’ve been wearing diapers for so long that it just knows by now that it can do whatever it wants and I’m fine with that.

I showed up to my home with a very full diaper. Thankfully, I had worn a pair of plastic panties, so I wasn’t smelling anything at all. I was super grateful that I didn’t notice any of my neighbors out and about; I would have avoided them like the plague at all costs if they came near me.

Lastly, I've been considering doing challenges to lessen my time since I have so much time left. I'm thinking about doing erotic hypnosis tracks that'll help keep me going in pursuit of my messing goals. Some may include messing on a trigger word, messing at night, and more. I'm still looking around. I was thinking listening twice would take off a week's worth of time and once the effect has taken permanent hold, I'd take off a month's worth of time. I want to keep this challenge fun and interesting.  

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Current Ending Time: April 11, 2026 (2 years, 10 months more!)

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If I was to do challenges to lessen the amount of time on my messy diaper timer, what sort of things should I do? I'm just looking for ideas. I haven't made any negative changes to the timer.

I was thinking it would give me more content to write about on my side blog here.

As for the challenges, I was thinking along the lines of changing a messy diaper in public and other sorts of similar things. No more than one challenge a week/every two weeks and no more than a week or two of time taken off the timer. Challenges could stop with 6 months on the timer, too.

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I swear, I blush so hard sometimes when I carry my messy diapers out to the dumpster. I pray my neighbors don't smell you know what when I walk past them. 😅

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20 Month Update

I’m 50/50 on continuing this baby pants hypnosis file that’ll make me mess in my sleep. There’s gotta be some sort of incentive to push me to listen to it every night before bed, and no, don’t tell me I’ll wake up to presents in my diaper. The idea of waking up messy as something I trained myself to do is both tantalizing and frightening because if I change my mind in the future and want to only wake up soggy, there’s no way I’d be able to “fix” myself and get right if it starts happening.

If I’m asleep, how can I stop myself from doing something when I’m not in control? The idea of giving up control of another bodily function to my diapers has always been alluring to be sure but to such an extent of surrendering control is scary. Diapers are supposed to make me feel safe, complete, and whole, but when I think of training to mess in my sleep, I feel hesitation, excitement, and uncertainty. Sometimes I feel like this is something I want and sometimes I’d decide against it and want to stay safe in my comfort zone.

At the time of me writing this, my 24/7 messing challenge ends on January 24, 2026. That means I have 1026 days or 34.2 months or 2.81 years left to go; isn’t that insane? I started doing this on July 2021 meaning that I’m already almost at my 2 year anniversary.

I’ve been cutting out foods that might upset my stomach. An upset stomach for me usually leads to multiple small messes spread out over a few hours; it’s crippling and keeps me locked at home. I’ve cut out foods with dairy and olive oil because that seems to be the culprit; sometimes alcohol can upset my stomach if I don’t drink enough water with it. If I’m stuck at home making multiple small messes, I have two options that I’m still experimenting with. Do I stay messy and wait for my body to make another mess in 30 mins to an hour or do I go ahead and change with every fresh messing?

As always, you can add more time onto my challenge by sending me gifts from my wishlist here. Anything would be really, really appreciated.

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