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I do “suicidal jokes” all the time, it’s like i’m suddenly saying “i want to kill myself.” and everyone is like “haha, ok.” can’t you see i’m actually asking for help? maybe i’m too ashamed to admit it, but i do need help, i’m about to do hurt myself and I don’t actually know what to do, don’t laugh at my “joke”, talk to me, please help me.

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Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.

Charlotte Eriksson (via wordsnquotes)

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How paradoxical it is to be your own demon and your saint. To convince yourself to live, While sitting in a pool of your own blood. To remember your meds, Without devouring the bottle. To attempt eating a sandwich, a fruit, or a fry Disregarding the last 5 meals that poured out of you, like an overflowing toilet, gurgling and disgusting How can you urge yourself to escape this earth, And in the same beat of heart ask yourself to stay. I often ask myself how things went to shit so fast. How the sun was shining down my back, Just the day before the world around me turned to a blur of white. Frozen breath and bloody fingernails. Nostalgic for how i use to live my life, With thick winged liner, that never smeared Now the only design my face wears is the circles around my eyes. My melancholy soul aches to be freed; Freed from the demons that stole mind.

stolen mind (via smokingkillsbutwewereborntodiee)

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I want to cry and I want to scream and I want to punch something and i cant do any of it and I feel like I’m literally going to fall apart at any second and I fucking hate this so much I want it to stop

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when the fuck will i be ok

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I’m literally a ghost of my former self and it fucking hurts

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And I’m not going to tell you…

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What if I just never woke up? And the darkness never ended? Would I notice? Would I care?

(via mypenleaksiridescence)

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I`m never enough.

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Im done..

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not all scars are visible