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He likes the way her fingers feel in his hair, itās soothing. He smiles at her words, shrugging lightly. Heāll say it again and again, because itās true. Thereās a pang in his chest when she turns her head away from him. Sheās right, of course sheās rightĀ ā but Levi doesnāt want to act rationally tonight, is that so bad? Heās being selfish, heās self aware enough to know that, because heās not the only one whoāll have to pick up the pieces after tonight, sheāll be, too.Ā And he hates to be the cause of that.Ā āIs it really a problem?ā he asks quietly, because heād argue loving someone does that to you, renders you unable to think straight, so that doesnāt necessarily make it a bad thing. But maybe, in their case, it unfortunately is, because every time they reunite, they fall back into each otherās arms, knowingly theyāll have to part ways. Itās something they both know and yet they go against every time. He shakes his head and looks down for a moment, letting out a sigh.Ā āI know that it is,ā he agrees now, feeling like heās losing. He eyes look at her hands as they trail down his arms and eventually drop at her sides. Thereās another pang in his heart as a result of her words, but this one is painfulĀ and sharp. Heās experienced heart break before, so he knows this is exactly what heās feeling right now. He also feels like theyāre breaking up, despite never actually dating. He hands drop her from cheeks, tooĀ ā itās probably one of the hardest things he ever had to do and he takes a step back, and he has to look away for a moment, because looking at her hurts. Heās strong enough to pull away, but not strong enough to leave.Ā āFuck, Allie. How am I supposed to ā ā Go back inside and pretend like youāre not in the same room? Like everything that happened now didnāt? He stays quiet because heās smart enough to know his words will only hurt them more and make the situation harder than it already is. He takes another step back and just leans back against the wall, like heās in need of some support.
ā IT'S BECOME INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT TO LOOK HIM IN THE EYES, not just because of how much it'll hurt to see the desperation on his features, but because it's also difficult for her not to get drawn in. after all, she's just opened up to him completely, told him what she's been trying to hold back for a long time : she loves him. and he loves her back. under most other accounts, it should be a celebration, something to be happy about, and she doesn't know why her feelings keep coming up as an inconvenience instead of something to smile about. " i think...for us it is, " she says, " you have a whole life here, levi, you're graduating tomorrow and you...you should be with your friends. celebrating. " she feels GUILTY for taking him away from that, for showing up here at all and she now completely understands why caden regarded her with such apprehension. she doesn't blame him. " supposed to... ? " she furrows her brow at his sentence fragment, not sure what he was going to say. it's becoming increasingly clear, however, that she's going to have to be the one to part ways. she's never had to walk away from something she's wanted to badly, and she gathers every bit of strength within herself to do it, a sharp inhale as she glances back at him, trying not to think about how it could be the last time. " and um, congratulations on that, by the way. i heard about your big mission, too, and i was...i don't know, really proud, " she admits with a smile on her lips. it's only slightly strained when she thinks about how much it proves how different their lives are. allie lingers in the doorway for another second, perhaps a mistake because it gives time for a singular tear to slip down her cheek. " i'm not...super good at this, but, um, good night. " allie can't bring herself to actually say goodbye.
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Ā Ā Ā Ā HUDSON CAN TELL FROM ALLIEāS EXPRESSION that his question probably wasnāt a pleasant one, and itās not like heās going to ask his ex-girlfriend for more details about her ex. itās questionable that thereās even a chance sheād want to spend the night willingly at gallagher, but heāll choose to ignore it, giving her a nod.Ā Ā ā i promise. iām not leaving here without you. āĀ Ā he means it too, sorry levi.Ā Ā ā hey, you said it, āĀ Ā he points a finger at her, before smiling.Ā Ā ā do you think weāll get invitations every year to whatever cool events gallagher has no, as repayment for everything ? ā
ā ALLIE SMILES WITH RELIEF IN HUDSONāS DIRECTION, it makes the entire night feel a lot less treacherous to her. ā okay, good. thanks, hudson, ā teeth drag across her lower lip as she debates saying more, ultimately deciding NOT to dump everything sheās feeling on her ex-boyfriend. ā doesnāt mean you had to back it up ! ā she gasps, jokingly appalled before she laughs at him. ā maybe, i guess it depends if the administration stays the same, i doubt any new people would feel guilty enough...or want to deal with us on campus. eventually everyone we know here will have graduated anyway. i feel like we had to be here for luce more than anything else. was there anyone you really wanted to catch up with ? ā
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āYeah, honestly... I debated on even coming tonight.ā While she loved BeyoncĆ© and Luce with her heart and soul, it was the trauma and memories of last year that frightened her. She didnāt want to say it or jinx it but Harper was scared that they were going to leave tonight with one less person. While they only lost one friend last year, it was one too many.Ā āOkay, so,ā Harper began, pushing aside all of her doubts and sadness from just a few seconds ago.Ā āLike I said, this plan requires everyone. First, Iām gonna need you to walk to the middle of the ballroom. When I give you the signal, you have to faint. And not just some pathetic falling over, no, I need it to be dramatic. All eyes on you as you collapse to the ground. Nearby, weāre gonna have Hudson and Imogen ready. Theyāre both gonna direct all eyes on you and try to call for help. Get the ambulance to come or a medical major, whoever! We just need everyone to be looking at you three for less than a minute.ā Harpoon pleaseāĀ āWhile thatās going on, Iām going to be near the front with Steph. Thatās when Iāll hope on stage and introduce myself to BeyoncĆ© and Steph is going to record the moment. By then, her bodyguards will notice us and might try to throw me off the stage. And thatās when! Luce comes in and uses those badass Gallagher spy moves on them.ā Her friend has been attending the school for a year now, she believed that the other has picked up on some fighting skills.Ā āOnce those guys are down, everyone has to run and get in the car. Where our lovely getaway driver known as VG will be waiting for us.ā Boom.Ā āYou like it?ā
ā āYEAH, ME TOO,ā ALLIE ADMITS SOFTLY. ā weā¦ went through a lot here and most of it wasnāt good. but imogen flew in and i heard all of you were coming...and iām really happy we could all see luce tonight. itās just even harder to be here than i expected it would be. ā the levi of it all is not even the hardest part, itās the fact that she spent the months following her brotherās death here, scared and in the dark, and they lost another friend after a dance in this particular ballroom. harper might not be one to get super sentimental, but allie will reach for her hand as she launches into her plan anyway, just to ground herself in the fact that she does have friends here. ā i LOVE it, ā allieās eyes sparkle, especially the part where she gets to dramatically faint in front of everyone and cause a scene, it feels very charlieās angels of all of them to do something like this. ā though, harper, i really just have one question...like, itās foolproof and sounds super fun, iāve always wanted a getaway car, you know, like the taylor swift song, but...whatās the point ? like, why are we trying to make a getaway when we could just leave at any time ? this plan wouldāve been better for last year, when we wanted to get mcdonaldās. āĀ
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā the mention of a simulation makes her jaw go slack as if sheās hearing about it for the first time, even though sheās hung out with enough stoners whoāve claimed theyāre on the threshold of enlightenment to make it the seventh time.Ā āĀ Ā make sure me and allie have the best night ever !Ā Ā ā cranes her neck to where the supposed controller is, because the only way she can wrap her head around a simulated reality is likening it to a game of the sims.Ā āĀ Ā promise i wonāt.Ā Ā āĀ smattering kisses all over before she loops her arm in her, all the strength of a chain-linked friendship bracelet.Ā āĀ Ā heās somewhere ā¦ i think he wanted to practice his twerk for beyonce.Ā Ā ā a fruitless scan around the room comes up empty, but her gaze lands right back on allie who fills her heart just as much.Ā āĀ Ā if weāre being honest, think iām getting kicked out like. well, not think. know. which sucksĀ ācos i really wanted to stay with ā i just really wanted to stay like. but you have to passĀ your classes, the first time round.Ā Ā ā
ā ALLIE FOLLOWS LUCEāS GAZE, though sheās not sure what sheās supposed to be looking at. it makes her feel like a sim, and honestly as long as they donāt put her in a room with no doors, itās an improvement from all the other things the simulation has granted her prior. allie lets go of the thought, dissolving into laughter as luce kisses every inch of her face. ā oh, gosh...i didnāt practice MY twerk, ā allie admits, looks back as if she can check out her own ass in this dress. itās rather disappointing, she thinks, but her spirits are lifted when she looks back at luce. ā wait, really ? ā allieās eyes widen. sheās extra glad that sheās here. ā luce, thatās...well, itās bullshit, ā she whispers, ā iām so sorry. in all honesty, i think this place is definitely cursed and that youāre better off, but...i know that doesnāt make it suck less. ā
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā I MEAN, YOU SHOULD GO SAY HI. iām sure heād like to see you. āĀ Ā because thereās no way levi would not be upset if she chooses to ignore him the entire night. none of his advice really matters anyway, we know how this unfolds. caden hates that he knows levi well enough to know that heād gladly ignore his gallagher friends for a chance to spend the entire night with allie, which is stupid. she seems like a nice girl and all, but even caden can tell their relationship isnāt exactly healthy.Ā Ā ā from seeing her ?Ā Ā yeah, a little. but like i said, we still keep in touch. i care about imogen, āĀ Ā he tells her, because one year later, that still hasnāt changed. what would the alternative of his relationship with her be anyway, what levi and allie have ?Ā Ā ā yeah, i do, āĀ Ā caden smiles a little, despite the question feeling pointed.Ā Ā ā sheās around here somewhere, if you wanna meet her. red hair, will talk to a wall. āĀ Ā he hopes they donāt get a chance to meet.
ā ALLIE SMILES WEAKLY IN RESPONSE TO CADENāS ADVICE. ā iām not sure thatās such a good idea, i mean...we donāt have the best track record for just saying hi, ā allie admits, because sheās sure caden is aware of how d.c. went down. ā besides, it is his big night. i wouldnāt want to keep him away from all of you guys, but...you can tell him i said congratulations. ā graduating from gallagher is a pretty big achievement, though sheās sure it was no sweat for levi. sheās still thinking about him traversing the world, saving hostages...probably in a suit, too, handsome as ever. she wishes it was easier to daydream about without feeling so out of place in his life. ā okay, good. iām glad, ā allie smiles slightly, though she canāt imagine that imogen WONāT be affected by seeing caden tonight, and sheās the person who will talk about it with her in the aftermath. itās hard not to be protective of her after theyāve both lost so much. ā oh, awesome ! ā allieās smile is genuine, sheās not one to harp on people in a healthy relationship, even if she has her reservations about caden. ā how did you meet ? ā she loves a good love story.Ā
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āHave you tried any of these snacks?ā She asks the blonde standing next to her.Ā āI had like three of those macaroons so far. I need to try something else.ā She laughs.Ā āIām a sucker for a good macaroon.ā
ā SHE DOESNāT KNOW THE GIRL THAT WALKS UP TO HER, but she smiles politely with a nod. she wonders if itās obvious that she doesnāt go here ā she canāt imagine that she blends in very well, theyāre practically trained to spot outsiders here. ā oh, yeah, the snacks are half the reason to attend these things, right ? ā allie agrees, ā you should go for the chocolate strawberries next. ā
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Itās no surprise the kiss is desperate, especially when Leviās been desperate to have her in his arms and his lips to hers. Heās always been better in expressing himself through actions, and although heās said more than he anticipated to Allie tonight, his head is full of so much more unsaid things. So heās putting his all into the kiss, expressing the intensity of his feelings and need for her through it. Itās a kiss with months of missing one another going into it, itās a kiss where both of them know whatās coming next. Heās crazy about her and he canāt get enough and itās evident in the way heās kissing her ā hungry and hard. His arms go around her waist, keeping her as close to him as physically possible, eliminating any space between them, lips melting together. He doesnāt think of the aftermath of the kiss, because right now, the kiss it all that matters and really, he wants to drown himself in Allison Beckett. He doesnāt know how long they kiss, but the moment she pulls away, he desperate to feel her lips on his again. He has to take a short breath, from the force of the kiss alone. He rests his forehead to hers, giving her a slight nod, as if in agreement, though what comes out of his lips is the total opposite, āI donāt regret it.ā Rationally, they shouldnāt have kissed. And yet, Levi has zero regrets. He would do it all again. He would kiss her again. Heās still refusing to really think of the aftermath of this. This time is deeper, too, because they have confessed their feelings. And yet, all Leviās thinking about is the fact that sheās here and in his arms.Ā He hasnāt had enough of the kiss. He moves to lightly trace his thumb along her lower lip and leans in for another kiss, this oneās shorter, but still passionate, because his self control and self restraint is pretty non existent right now.Ā āYouāre making me lose my mind, Allie.ā His eyes are alternating between her eyes and her lips, faces still too close. He keeps her close to him ā wanting her to remain in his arms. āFuck, I missed you.ā
ā SHE WAS RIGHT TO BELIEVE THAT THIS WAS A BAD IDEA. itās pathetic that sheās even tried to deny the prospect of seeing him for so long, deluding herself into believing that it isnāt what she WANTED the entire time. of course sheād wanted this, there was no doubt that sheād see him if she showed up at gallagher unannounced and sheād wanted to ā sheād tried to avoid it for some semblance of self control, but it had been pointless from the moment she stepped on campus. no ā it had been pointless from the moment she thought about him. and it was a bad idea, sheād known that, because now sheās here in his arms wanting more than she should, and heās here wanting her back. her heart isnāt the only one that sheās going to have to break tonight. ā youāve already said that tonight, ā she says softly, affectionately as she runs her fingers through his hair. she doesnāt regret it either, blurting out how she feels or being this close to him, it makes her feel ALIVE in ways that she hasnāt felt since...well, since she saw him last, and she wonders if all people who are in love feel like this : like they are the first to ever feel this way, that this feeling is unique and entirely theirs, like it gives them purpose beyond the confines of daily life, going through motions like school, homework, making dinner. since her brother died, sheās gone through the motions without all of her purpose, smiling because she should, nodding when sheās supposed to. being in leviās arms makes her feel like sheās part of something greater, and thatās not an easy thing to give up. allieās head tilts upward so that her lips can meet his, heart fluttering in her chest with the way he looks at her. ā thatās exactly the problem, ā she sighs softly, finally turning her head away from him, ā neither of us can think straight when weāre together, itās not...levi, itās not good for us. ā sheād never want to be a liability to him ā allie never thought sheād be in the position where she has to be the strong one, and it feels like sheās opening a wound. if she canāt stitch it up, itās better that he wonāt be around to see that. her hands trail down his arms, lingering until she finally drops them at her sides. ā you need to go. ā
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āi donāt know that itās either.ā every job has the boring bits, heās almost certain. he doesnāt find his job entirelyĀ dull and it keeps him busy, which has been fairly crucial while living alone and over an hour away from his girlfriend.Ā āerrā¦i donāt know, i donāt watch a lot of it.ā especially the thrillers and he certainly hadnāt taken spies on film during his one year at gallagher.Ā āat the risk of sounding biased, i did like london spy.ā heās not all that concerned about being offed and shoved into a trunk himself.Ā āand killing eveā¦both are bbc affiliated, but to me that just means less episodes and more thought put into storylines.ā a lot of spy content comes off as sensationalized and cheesy.Ā āphysically, yes. thatās all right, i didnāt stop you.ā lord knows he could have!Ā āconsidering it happened yesterday and i nearly bled outā¦yes, it hurts. i wasnāt scared for myself.ā
ā ALLIE CRACKS A SMILE AT THAT. ā well, i guess i donāt blame you ā you already live it, ā she wouldnāt find it surprising that he looks for an escape when heās occupied with the reality of it all day long. allie doesnāt want to ask, but she wonders if the casualties that grayson sees in his work are anything like what they happened to experience at gallagher, if the assassins that snuck into their lives were an abnormality or just a taste. ā itās hardly biased anyway, you gave the american thing a fair shot ! and it was pretty convincing, ā sheād been fooled at least, not sure if he will take that as a compliment or an insult. allieās going to get obsessed with killing eve when she starts it next week. ā oh my gosh, yesterday ? i canāt believe you showed up ! i mean, iām so happy you did, but if i got shot yesterday...sorry, iām staying home, ā she shakes her head. ā is...did anyone else get hurt ? ā
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āĀ Ā ow !Ā Ā ā she yips, because allieās squeezing super hard, wondering if sheās just not used to her hugs because sheās gone so long without or if sheās been lifting.Ā āĀ Ā so whatās the consensus. am i real ?Ā Ā āĀ she pushes out through her allie-made fish face, which glubs against her palms every time she tries to smile, which is a lot, especially when sheās treated with a forehead kiss.Ā āĀ Ā and you look like an angel. you always do.Ā Ā ā she puckers her lips, trying to escape allieās clutch even though it feels nice.Ā āĀ Ā you have to let go. i gotta kiss those cheeks otherwise iām gonna go insane.Ā Ā ā
āĀ āOH, SORRY!ā ALLIE APOLOGIZES,Ā ā very real, i think, thank god. unless iām ALSO part of the simulation and neither of us are real at all, in which case...well, no point in worrying about it ? ā she shrugs weakly, but the smile on her lips wonāt go away, sheās just so happy to see her. another reason to despise gallagher is that it took luce from her, she canāt help the bitterness.Ā ā okay, okay, you just canāt disappear, ā allie instructs, loosening her hold.Ā ā how are you ? whereās scott ? did you ace your first year ? ā she only asks the final question because she assumes the answer is yes, duh.Ā
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āAm I?ā Thereās disbelief in his tone. He doesnāt believe either of them is stronger than the other when it comes to their relationship. Heās never been able to suppress his feelings for her.Ā āI canāt control myself around you, Allie. I lost focus of everything around me the moment I saw you tonight,ā he explains. He holds her gaze when she looks at him. As a result, thereās a silence that hangs. All he wants is to do the right thing, to lessen the hurt both of them are feeling. But he has no idea what the right thing is, it all seems painful for him.Ā Her words make him weaker and weaker. Months of thinking he was doing well moving on, all thrown out of of the window. He never moved on. And he already knows the moment she leaves campus again, sheāll be the only thing heāll be thinking of for months. And heāll use partying and alcohol and sleeping around, and eventually, his new job, as a distraction, to bury the feelings thatāll never go away.Ā āI donāt know how to move on from you.ā And he tried, he really tried. All he wants to do is reach for her and hold her, act on his urges, because itās actually killing him how just out of reach she seems. Itās that conflict of staying away and protecting each other versus acting on his feelings. Levi knows once he reaches out, the last shred of control he has left will dissolve. The conversation is getting more and more painful by the second. Their admissions and confessions, their feelings all coming out into the open, the realization that itāll all have to end tonight as well. Itās the cruel reminder that their different needs, wants and goals in life and their timing will always be a son of a bitch. āFuck. I donāt know what to do. You think Iām not in love with you still? This is all so damn hard,ā he blurts out. And just like that, this is the the first time they both have confessed their love towards each other, and in true Levi and Allie fashion, it comes under stressful and painful conditions. He throws caution to the wind, says fuck it to logic and repercussions, decides to act on his feelings, and reaches for her in a quick and swift motion, cupping her cheeks and pressing his lips to hers hard. And maybe Allie will be the smartest one of the two right now and break it off, because Levi surely has lost any semblance of logic and control.Ā
ā ALLIE DOESNāT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY TO HIM NOW, all she can do is look at him slightly slack-jawed, lips parted in surprise. this should feel like a step forward, the fact that theyāve gotten everything theyāve been feeling over the past YEAR out in the open, but it doesnāt change the outcome, so itās more like theyāre walking in place, trying to change a future that doesnāt seem to come. it doesnāt change the horrible feelings that she has associated with the espionage career, the fact that they killed her brother, the way she canāt wait up every night wondering whether another loved one will be lost or not, but it ALSO doesnāt change that she feels like his smile lights up an entire room, that when things are good for them, theyāre so GOOD, that he makes her feel giddy and light, and all she wants is to be around him. when she first came to gallagher, sheād felt so cold ; like everything was numb and empty, and sheād tried EVERYTHING to fill that void, but there was no fire that provided as much warmth as he did. only now, she feels like sheās burning. how else should she feel when he says heās still in love with her ? allieās already meeting him halfway when he moves forward to kiss her, arms draped over his shoulders as she returns the kiss. the kiss is desperate and intentional, like someone who believes this is the last time theyāll ever get to kiss the person they consider to be the love of their life and they need to say EVERYTHING that words canāt with it. she canāt get enough. her heart beats loudly against her chest in unison with his, pressed so close to him that sheās no longer sure where she ends and he begins. it hardly matters, and for a moment in time, they are on the same page about something, doubts melting away in exchange for the bliss of being in his arms. but eventually she will have to catch her breath, and the moment cannot last forever. sheāll miss him already when she tears herself away, feeling like half of something rather than whole.Ā ā we shouldnāt have done that, ā she says, voice soft and slightly raspy because she hasnāt recovered from the kiss. which is probably why sheās still looking at his lips.Ā
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Ā Ā Ā Ā ā HEY, IāM JUST KIDDING, āĀ Ā his smile widens as if to show proof, when in reality caden wasnāt kidding at all.Ā Ā ā but iām glad to hear it. because itās his big night, and he should have some fun. āĀ Ā and not have to worry about nursing his broken little heart tomorrow during graduation when allie goes back to her normal life.Ā Ā ā oh, yeah. you know levi, he can handle anything. he killed it. āĀ Ā heās not completely gassing up his friend blindly ;Ā Ā thereās pride in cadenās voice when he talks about leviās mission. allieās pointed tone has caden holding back a roll of his eyes, though he just casually shrugs his shoulders.Ā Ā ā couldnāt exactly keep in touch with her too well, her being in england and all. āĀ Ā unlike levi, caden had known better than to keep close ties with imogen last year after the semester ended, when it was better for them both to keep the ocean of distance between them. harper had been another story, but he is a man. his self-restraint isnāt THAT good.Ā Ā ā eh, thanks, āĀ he says, because caden is trying hard not to think about cyrus tonight.Ā
āĀ āOH, OKAY,ā ALLIE SMILES BACK BECAUSE EVEN AFTER EIGHT MONTHS AT GALLAGHER, she will still believe any lie at face value.Ā ā yeah, i...iām going to try and stay out of his way, iām sure that he wants to be with all of you and to celebrate. iām just here for imogen and beyonce, donāt worry, ā she does believe herself as she says it, so thatās got to count for something. still, thereās obvious admiration in allieās eyes as caden speaks, nodding. levi was MEANT for this, expecting him to be anything different would be holding him back. she just doesnāt want any part in it.Ā ā right, the time zones make it so difficult, ā allie says, though she talked to imogen every day so she doesnāt know what cadenās on about.Ā ā and you have a girlfriend now, right ? āĀ
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āright,ā he echoes. unsurprising that sheād remember a detail like that, given the alumni crawling all over campus for much of her time at gallagher.Ā ātheyāre like tv in all the boring ways.ā theyāre not shooting at each other from speeding cars most of the time.Ā āa lot of former agents have written books, some of which end up becoming shows.ā like mindhunter! āyouād learn more from reading those memoirs than from spending a semester at gallagher where everyoneās lying to you.ā gallagher students donāt know anything frankly.Ā āian fleming wasnāt even a james bond type,ā he comments with a snort. personally, grayson prefers chitty-chitty-bang-bang.Ā āwellā¦iām actually not sure how much i can say. which has nothingĀ to do with spies.ā being a first child is far more secretive, with a long list of things to never be discussed publicly.Ā ābut i got shot in the process of protecting ruby.ā he shrugs, mostly with his good shoulder.Ā āi donāt think the president will be informing the public on what happened.ā and well they are in a very public location currently!
āĀ āOH. I DONāT KNOW WHETHER THATāS A GOOD THING OR A BAD THING,ā allie says.Ā ā i guess itās good, if it keeps you safe at your job. but bad if youāre bored. ā allieās never gotten the sense that grayson really ENJOYS this all that much, but she canāt say that she really blames him. while the idea of training with spies for the temporary self defense classes sheād taken had been cool, in actuality, sheād just been sore and tired and missing georgetown more than ever.Ā ā do you have favorite spy media ? ā she asks, curious about what heād recommend. and...there is still a part of her that wants to learn more about all of this, considering it was such a huge part of the most impactful year of her life.Ā ā oh my gosh, ā allieās eyes widen several sizes, like the grinchās heart on christmas. then sheās firing out questions in rapid succession.Ā ā is ruby okay ? iām so sorry for hugging you, i was so excited i just didnāt think. are you okay ? does it hurt ? were you scared ? āĀ
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Ā Ā Ā Ā ā YEAH, OF COURSE. āĀ Ā hudson has no qualms driving all of his friends home, if for no other reason than to make sure they all leave gallagher academy in one piece.Ā Ā ā i take it youāre not, uh, still seeing that guy here ? āĀ Ā he doesnāt know much about that, but has heard enough to know it could be a potential thing.Ā Ā ā i would hope she better security detail than you, āĀ Ā he laughs, shaking his head.Ā Ā ā this will easily be the coolest thing iāve ever done. since we canāt brag about training with spies or any of that. ā
āĀ āTHANKS,ā ALLIE SMILES CHEERFULLY, a bit relieved to have that secured. itās possible that thereās no one in the world she trusts more than hudson, heās the most reliable person that sheās ever known, and the feeling of safety she gets when heās involved...itās never gone away. she breathes easier.Ā ā oh, um, ā her eyes wander the dance floor, as if they might land on him. they donāt.Ā ā no, iām not. and making a pact myself not to fall prey to old habits, so...please make sure i leave with you. ā a weak smile on her lips that basically says : donāt let me be weak enough to try and spend the night with him.Ā ā youāre saying that beyonceās a bigger deal than me, hudsonĀ ? ā allie jokes with mock offense.Ā ā true, at least we can brag about this concert. āĀ
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āĀ thanks , āĀ theĀ littleĀ smileĀ thatĀ comesĀ isĀ genuine ,Ā softĀ asĀ herĀ voiceĀ isĀ quiet .Ā āĀ you ,Ā too . āĀ Ā aĀ smallĀ squeezeĀ ofĀ theirĀ hands .Ā allieĀ andĀ imogenĀ wereĀ alwaysĀ bonded ,Ā firstĀ asĀ bestĀ friends ,Ā thenĀ asĀ potentialĀ soonĀ toĀ beĀ sistersĀ throughĀ jeremy ā¦Ā andĀ evenĀ withoutĀ him ,Ā thatĀ doesnātĀ goĀ away .Ā butĀ theyāreĀ alsoĀ bondedĀ inĀ theĀ wayĀ theyādĀ bothĀ leftĀ boysĀ hereĀ whoĀ perhapsĀ meanĀ moreĀ toĀ themĀ thanĀ theyāllĀ admit .Ā facingĀ themĀ againĀ isĀ difficultĀ andĀ scary ,Ā evenĀ ifĀ theyĀ werenātĀ atĀ gallagher ,Ā butĀ sinceĀ theyĀ are ,Ā itāsĀ evenĀ moreĀ difficultĀ andĀ scary .Ā imogenāsĀ indexĀ fingerĀ willĀ gentlyĀ tapĀ atĀ allieāsĀ foreheadĀ onceĀ orĀ twice ,Ā becauseĀ maybeĀ sheāsĀ aĀ LITTLEĀ sweaty .Ā Ā āĀ itāsĀ warmĀ inĀ here ,Ā thatāsĀ all .Ā āĀ sheāllĀ nod ,Ā convincingĀ herself .Ā āĀ iĀ just ā¦Ā iĀ feelĀ likeĀ ifĀ weāreĀ goingĀ toĀ bailĀ weĀ needĀ toĀ doĀ itĀ NOW . āĀ aĀ nervousĀ laugh ,Ā sheāsĀ tempted .Ā āĀ noĀ āĀ ignoreĀ me .Ā weĀ shouldĀ stay ,Ā atĀ leastĀ forĀ oneĀ drink ,Ā anyways .Ā seeĀ howĀ weĀ feelĀ after ā¦Ā Ā weāllĀ beĀ fine .Ā āĀ nowĀ sheĀ justĀ canātĀ stopĀ rambling .Ā āĀ letāsĀ justĀ findĀ someĀ . āĀ aĀ smallĀ sighĀ asĀ sheĀ startsĀ walkingĀ aĀ bitĀ closerĀ toĀ whereĀ sheĀ thinksĀ theĀ drinksĀ are .Ā Ā
āĀ āSO, YOUāRE SAYING ITāS OBVIOUS IāM SWEATY,ā ALLIE SAYS WITH A BREATHY LAUGH, wiping her forehead off with the palm of her hand. if this was allie going in ALONE, she probably would have turned back long before this, because the idea of facing not only the people at gallagher she left behind but also the feelings, the trauma...itās daunting. but with imogen by her side, theyāve already proved that they can get through anything together. and so, she doesnāt have to run away from her fears now. in a way, the jeremy of it all that bonded them...well, he hasnāt gone away, and the two of them might as well be sisters, perhaps even more joined than they were before.Ā ā youāre right, ā allieās smile is soft,Ā ā weāre going to be fine. and itās a freaking beyonce concert. letās get drinks ! ā allie says, eyes wandering over toward the bar.Ā ā are you going to be okay seeing...himĀ ? ā she asks.Ā
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graysonberkshireā
āitāsā¦it wasnāt as bad as where iād transferred from, so.ā if anything, he least enjoyed the attention garnered from being both a berkshire andĀ a gallagher, and having to fake the american accent for half his time there had also been less than ideal.Ā āyou donāt really know anything that interesting, in fairness. being a federal agent is not a private career. havenāt you seen any movies or tv shows? fbi have to flash their badges all the time.ā it might be a different story if the witness protection students had also been around for the burn book.Ā āi have a desk job at the nsa, allie, iām by all accounts a normal bloke.ā which was by design.Ā āprobably, it was romantic, and all.ā she allegedly fell down a bunch of stairs and out of a window, actually, which is hilarious.
āĀ āRIGHT, BLACKTHORNE,ā ALLIE REPEATS, because she did pay attention when she was told about certain things.Ā ā well, here everyone was telling me that spies are NOT like tv, and now they are just like tv, ā allie says, holding her hands up in mock surrender, but sheās mostly just accepting that sheās always going to be a little bit wrong about this stuff,Ā ā but okay, good to know, i happen to like hanging out with...normal blokes, ā she repeats his words, because she thinks the wordĀ āblokeā is a fun one.Ā ā so, iām glad youāre not a james bond type. ā because he was always getting shot at. waitĀ ātil grayson tells her what happened to his arm.Ā ā ooh, okay, then tell me, ā her eyes light up, sheās sure it has to do with ruby.
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cadenluccaā
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā REALLY ?Ā Ā THATāS WEIRD, āĀ Ā caden says casually ā far too casually for it to not have been a set-up.Ā Ā ā youāre not here to break my boyās heart, are you ?Ā Ā because heās been through enough this year. he was sent on a mission to the uk, actually. i probably shouldnāt be telling you this. āĀ Ā except caden is an amazing wingman, so all he does is lower his voice a little and continue.Ā Ā ā he saved, like, all these hostages that had been abducted by these bad guys. had to fight his way out. āĀ Ā alright, maybe heās exaggerating a little. caden would keep going, but the question of imogen makes him pause, shaking his head.Ā Ā ā i have, yeah. we still keep in touch. āĀ Ā which caden assume she knows, since he flew imogen out for this.Ā Ā ā itās not that big, āĀ Ā he counters.Ā Ā ā ah, yeah. that was an accident, though. it wasnāt anythingā¦ evil. āĀ Ā heāll spare her the secret society arc.
ā ALLIEāS EYES WIDEN AT CADENāS QUESTION,Ā ā no ! of course not, ā she feels pretty defensive, especially considering SHE didnāt screw any of leviās friends over thanksgiving break and then show up in a relationship. yeah, she is not part of the caden fan club, all things considered. cadenās story does fill allie with both admiration and pride, but it also emphasizes how different her life is from leviās, that her finals were spent in a library without a hostage in sight.Ā ā that sounds really dangerous, ā she says, her voice soft and full of awe,Ā ā he was okay though, right ? i just...it doesnāt surprise me that heās really good at this. ā allie canāt imagine him not doing great things.Ā ā right. but not like you keep in touch with harper, ā she notes, eyebrows rise in disapproval. so, she knows that and then some.Ā ā oh, okay. well, iām sorry...that you all had to go through that again. ā all the times that death has touched her life and itās still hard to know what to say, best to keep it simple.Ā
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harperkentā
āNot surprised by that.ā The gardens fit into Allieās aesthetic. Honestly if Harper had her phone, she would be out there taking millions of pictures of her friend each and every day.Ā āYeah, it looks like Gallagher is just trying to cover up their traumatizing shit and show everyone how nice they look,ā Harper said as she rolled her eyes. But she will give the school credit for what they did for Cassie.Ā āGood because I actually do have a plan. It involves the entire crew. Ready for it?āĀ
āĀ āTHAT...SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT,ā ALLIE GRIMACES, not one to usually take on a negative attitude, but harperās pretty good at igniting her rage ! and so is gallagher. she understands that everything they did last year was supposedly for her safety, but not everyone was safe so sheās still pretty upset.Ā ā itās hard being back here, honestly, but i couldnāt not come with you guys. ā so, naturally, her eyes light up at the mention of a plan, reaching to grab harperās arm in her excitement, ā YES, tell me everything ! ā
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