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you are exactly...

...where you need to be right now.

if it's a good place for you, then it's a reward for facing your past struggles bravely and a respite before you move on to some other challenges.

if it's a tough time that you're going through, then hold on and breathe. you're almost through. it's a necessary struggle that will help you grow and move forward. learn from this and keep going.

better things are coming your way, either way. for now you're here, so breathe ✨

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3:20am

October 8 2023

Always fighting with him ever since he left Texas in May.

Not a single week where we’re not fighting at all.

I’ve said a lot of rude things to him during each fight and the fights and rude comments I make get bigger and bigger.

I have a huge grudge against him bc he left Texas before even talking to me about it and planning things out.

If he would’ve talked with me first about it then we wouldn’t have issues like this every week.

I don’t even know if he’s saving money like he should be since he’s a huge spender. It’s so annoying that he doesn’t know how to save money at 35 y/o! So embarrassing! And he has a 9 y/o son but can’t do an adult task for himself ! He should be embarrassed to call himself a man !

For him jumping state to state for a job is fucking embarrassing. He made better money in Atlanta, GA and still quit bc the female servers didn’t talk with him or interacted with him (probably bc he was the only male server). Just bc of that he should’ve suck it up like a real person and dealt with it until he received his work permit and SSN! That would’ve saved so much money and time! He should be fucking ashamed and embarrassed!

My first job , not everyone liked me or wanted to interact with me and some of the workers accused me of stealing tips ! But did I quit ??? NO ! I stayed bc I needed to make money ! The main purpose is to make money! Making friends at work is nice but it’s not necessary! As long no one is treating you badly then there shouldn’t be a reason to quit ! But to quit bc the co workers isn’t interacting with you is a fucking dumb excuse!!! HE SHOULD HAVE SUCK IT UP AND WORKED THERE TILL WORK PERMIT AND SSN WAS GIVEN THEN QUIT FOR A NEW JOB!

35 Y/O MALE, DIVORCED, WITH A 9 Y/O SON

THAT’s PROBABLY WHY HIS EX WIFE LEFT HIM FOR ANOTHER MALE BC HE CANT SAVE MONEY OR BE SMART BC HE MAKES BAD CHOICES! UGH!

One friend is telling me I should’ve broke up with him since May. The day I found out that he quit Texas. Bc it was INCONSIDERATE OF HIM TO DO THAT AND NOT DISCUSSING IT W/ ME!!! WHAT A FUCKING ASS!

I WANT TO KNOCK SENSE INTO HIM

MAYBE IF HE WOULD STOP SMOKING AND DRINKING THEN MAYBE HE’ll BE SMARTER THAN NOW!

I WANT TO SLAM HIM

HE KEEPS SAYING HE WANTS TO GIVE ME THE BEST LIFE BUT HE’s GIVING ME ONE OF THE WORST ! HE MAKES ME FUCKING STRESSED THAT I WANNA PULL OUT MY HAIR AND FUCKING PUNCH THINGS

WHEN WILL HE UNDERSTAND THAT HE NEEDS SOME FUCKING SENSE

I DONT WANT TO HATE HIM BUT THE MAIN THINGS THAT HE DOES MAKES ME HATE HIM

he’s genuinely a nice person, with patience, but he’s super dumb

I think in Texas they say “Bless your heart” when someone does or say something dumb

Bless his heart then

I’m surprised he made it this far in life

Crazy world we live in

Do I enjoy saying rude things and guilt tripping him ???? No, but he’s so dumb that I feel like that’s the only way to talk things into him so he can understand.

I don’t want to speak rudely to him bc he doesn’t say rude things to me when he’s angry and I know it hurts when someone says something like that to you, but I can’t help it.

I do want to talk things out w/ him

Make this relationship work w/ him but IDK anymore

It feels impossible

I want to seek relationship counseling with him

Maybe that can help us

idk anymore

I just want us to be a happy & healthy couple

I hate having a giant grudge against him

Ever since I knew about him leaving in May, I felt hurt and betrayed

All my anger would be taken out on him and I don’t like that

I wish I had a better way of coping with my anger

I know this is unhealthy of me and for us that I am being rude and guilt tripping him

I just don’t know a better way of talking about it to him

All I want is for us to be happy and heathy together

😞😞😞💔💔💔

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this is the sign...

...that you were looking for.

don't wait anymore. it's your time to shine.

you are capable and you are ready. there is nothing too tough for you.

there is no need to wait anymore. a brighter future awaits you. start your journey towards it, today ✨

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July 24 2023

3:28AM

Wow haven’t been here for a while

It’s been a rocky road but there’s always something good to look forward to I guess

Yuyang and I have been BFGF for 5 months

I hate that Yuyang and I fight every month amount something and it’s been small arguments but lately some arguments have become big

Like today he was talking about flying from Utah to Texas for my graduation and using Uber to get around town or rent a car

I thought it would be cheaper for him to just drive to TX bc he’ll have his own car and doesn’t have to rely on someone for transportation

But after arguing about it , I don’t care anymore and that if he wants to fly then fine do it , because it’s not my money

Also before that argument , he kept asking should he show up to my graduation because of my parents and I guess I got annoyed of the question, since he would ask that question a lot and so I told him that if he doesn’t want to come because apparently it’s so difficult even just thinking about it , then not to show up and forget about the graduation

He also asked me which Hello Kitty keychain that I liked from what he sent few days back and that same day I kept telling him how the Hello Kitty with the “KT” name tag was so cute and would like to have and so when he asked today which one I told him No and he asked why and I said I don’t want it, but I didn’t tell him why I didn’t want it because if he can’t scroll back and look at the texts I’ve sent then that’s his problem

But the main reason I was angry was bc of him not saving money

He loves to spend but where’s the saving ?????

Before he left TX, he told me the reason he quit TX and works in a different state is bc he needs to earn & saving more money , so that he could provided for the both of us so we can live in a Apt together and eventually house , and show my parents not to worry about us when it comes to money

I think he lost more money than save when it came to that 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I also kept telling that whatever he does and how he spends is none my business anymore it’s not my money and life and that if he goes broke then I can’t help him with that bc I barely have money to help myself

I also kept calling him a “fucking idiot” bc of how angry I was at him , which I shouldn’t have bc no matter how mad I was since that was not nice of me

I also told him that he’s embarrassing bc he’s 35 and can’t save money bc he was probably a spoiled child

I also told him that if he wants to smoke 10 packs of cigarettes a day then go for it because that’s his health and not mine

And the reason I said that to him bc every time I get an update about his smoking it keeps going up bc I swear few months ago he was doing so well like 1 to 2 cigarettes a week !

The more I think about it, I think he lied to me about how much cigarettes he’s been smoking bc he’s been smoking 1 pack a week for a month or longer

But whatever it’s none of my business if he over spends, and smokes over 10 packs of cigarettes a day because it’s not my money and not my health

Bc obviously he doesn’t care about money and his health

And he wants me to marry and have kids with him !!!!

How the fuck will I agree to that ????? When money is not being saved like it should be ????????? Fucking embarrassing for a 35 y/o

Also apparently , I have inherited my father’s anger issues 💅💅💅

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

#1 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

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May 15 2023

My first week of break and tmr I got a Dr appointment for blood drawn , so hopefully I’m healthy :)))

I’m very glad I passed my DANB ICE EXAM bc sheeeesh I was soooo nervous about it and was ready to cry LOL

When time comes for the DANB radiology + chair side , I PRAY I PASS THOSE TOO 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💛💛💛💛💛💛

thank goodness I finished 2nd semester successfully , even though I was on the pass or fail line ! SKAJSJSKDNWKSNKQNDWJJSS NEVER AGAIN !! I NEED TO KEEP MY SELF UP AND TOGETHER BC WOOOOOO THAT WAS TOUGH

Summer semester , I guess I’m ready 😭🤣

Remember to always read the book 💀💀💀

3 months anniversary of dating Trae is in 2 days ,,,, crazy

I don’t think he remembers 💀💀💀

For some reason today , I’m feeling toxic and decided not to respond to him , but I did reply to his Good Morning message but after that I just didn’t

Idk whats wrong w me , maybe bc it’s almost my period day , and it’s supposed to start tmr ,,, it’s also been really hot bc summer is about to start

Idk why I keep doubting Trae,,,, maybe bc of my past 2 relationships that was in HS 💀💀💀💀💀 but I know Kass said not to bring those feelings into this relationship bc this is a new start and that it’s not fair to Trae if I’m being toxic with myself like this ,,,, ugh I hate my brain

I wrote Trae another anniversary letter and gave it to him on May 9 , but he never gave me a proper response ,,,, he did say that the translation app couldn’t translate it well ,,, but idk about that bc I sent the other 2 before this and I think it was fine ,,, but whatever ,,,, I don’t think he even really cares for those letters even tho he said he likes them ,,, I kinda expect him to respond with something meaningful,,, but I guess a “Thank you baby” is enough ?????? I shouldn’t expect much from him like Tanya said bc in the end , I’m only hurting my feelings and no one else.

I was also supposed to write the 2nd letter in my hand writing since he wanted a hand written one for memories instead of the printed one , but I’m not doing it bc I don’t think it’s needed since I don’t feel appreciated enough with the letters I wrote.

I don’t think I’ll be writing anniversary letters to him anymore , I think that 3rd letter is final, it’s just a waste of my time to write those letters, if I’m not getting a proper response from him.

On May 1 , he was worried about me bc he thought my parents blocked him from my contacts , so he wasn’t focusing well at work and kept making errors, and so Vicky sent him home , so he could rest.

^^^^that’s what Vicky (Co Boss) and Manager told me when I went to go buy a to go during that week.

So idk why acting toxic , and not responding to him today ,,,, but I did this night when he texted jokingly on Snapchat that he’ll need to call 911 since I’m not responding. And I responded back with “🤣💀 they’ll call you stupid” and responded with a sad character sticker and I opened the chat but didn’t reply and that was around 11pm I think and now it’s 12am and he didn’t text back,,,, so whatever.

I know he worked today and doesn’t have time to text me constantly , but idk why I keep thinking this way.

I don’t think I’ll reply to him tmr , maybe just the morning message I’ll respond but after that I don’t think I will ,,, he doesn’t even have any decent / in depth conversation with my thru text messages. It’s all “I miss you and love you baby” “I want to kiss and hug you” that’s about it thru out the whole text messages and I really appreciate that he miss me , loves me, and what’s to kiss and hug me, but where’s the conversation???? There’s nothing, so it causes me to be bored and don’t even want to talk.

I’m always the one trying to have conversations thru text w him , but he doesn’t even do that with me ,,, I think in person we’re fine but thru text it’s awful that I don’t even want to talk to him ,,, I rather watch YouTube all day than text him probably.

I used to ask him the basic questions like “how’s work?” “How’s he feeling?” “Did he sleep well?” “How was his day overall?” But now I don’t bother to do so bc he doesn’t even ask me those.

Whenever I’m having toxic thoughts, I think about breaking this relationship off , it’s bad that I think that but I can’t help it.

I guess him worrying about me to point that he can’t focus on his job properly should be a sign that he truly does care about me , but idk ,,,, I really do love him ,,, but whenever I keep thinking more and more , I start to think that I will be better off single than be w him.

I guess I’ll hold on a for the time being and if I’m still not happy with myself being in a relationship with him then I guess I will break up with him.

Sometimes I want to tell him to stop texting me bc I’m tired and don’t have the energy or capacity to talk but I don’t want him to think it’s bc of him , bc sometimes it’s not and it’s just my brain being toxic to myself again.

I told him before my 3 week break started that I’ll be working May 22 & 29 @ Pizza , so he could come see me ,,,, idk if I want him to come any more ,,,, I guess I’ll try not to talk to him as much during this week and see how it goes, maybe he might not show up bc of me not responding back to him frequently.

I feel like I always want to get to know him more by asking questions about his likes and dislikes ,,, but to me it seems that he doesn’t want to get to know me more or even care about that. Or maybe the reason he doesn’t ask is bc he doesn’t want to weird me out and rather learn what I like and dislike along the way.

I really hate my thoughts ,,, they always get to me to the point that it’s toxic for my mentality.

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March 19 2023

Wow it’s been a month and 2 weeks (???????) since I’ve been on here and so much stuff has happened !!!!!! who would’ve thought so much can happen in a month and few days ? NOT ME ! but March 17 was Trae (he’s no longer called AirPods guy bc he has up graded LOL)and I ONE month anniversary as BFGF and so far it’s been such a sweet journey.

He would come to visit me at school whenever he’s free and when it’s a day that I have more free time, he makes sure to come so that way we can spend more time together and on Tuesday March 21 he’s coming to see me !!!!! I’m so excited we get to spend one day together this week bc last week was Spring Break and we couldn’t hang out bc obv my parents would’ve known and idk how would I come up with an excuse of that, but I’m SO excited that I want to see him already !

He keeps saying he wants to marry me and the idea of marriage kinda scares me bc I don’t want to go thru what my parents are going thru which is an unhappy marriage full of constant fights and it’s so annoying. So I told him yesterday night that I do want to marry him in the future but I don’t know when and he said that if I end up not marrying him in the end then he’ll leave USA and I said for him not to say that bc I never said I didn’t want to marry him bc I DO want to marry him, but not this soon, I’m only 23 and yeah I know some people already marry before that and have kids but I don’t want that so soon, maybe 5 to 8 years later I would. So I told him that he’s making me feel pressured and rushed and that I don’t like that bc I’m not the type of person to rush and I just take things little by little bc I don’t like being overwhelmed and he apologized. Plus he doesn’t force me into something that I don’t want to do so therefore he shouldn’t pressure me into rushing to marry him. I am happy as we are now and I want to take it slow.

Other than that, I gave him another letter (I gave him a small letter before this during the first few weeks of dating) for our first anniversary and I haven’t asked him for his thoughts on it but I know he liked it bc he said he did but I would like to know in depth about how he feels.

He’s very physically affectionate and I love that a lot bc that’s my way of showing love too but he’s not clingy and not the jealous type either so that’s very good and he’s very straight forward too and enjoys teasing me a lot that it’s annoying but I like it bc it’s not the bad annoying it’s the good annoying that it’s fun LOL

He’s also a family person, so he FaceTime his parents and child often and he FaceTime his cousin too and they’re really close that he just calls her sister, and his cousin is so nice and hopefully I can meet her in person soon and same with his parents and child.

He’s already a great dad to his son bc the videos of him and his child spending time together is so sweet like omg makes me want to cry lol , so I know his future child is gonna be spoiled lol bc he wants a daughter like omg he would talk about wanting a little princess! That’s so cute !

He’s also been paying for our meals whenever we eat together which is so sweet of him. But he really is a sweet guy and I hope to have a future with him that him and I will cherish a lot. It’s funny how I said I didn’t want to date him at all and if I did then it would be after I graduate but here I am dating him and I don’t graduate until August 2023 LOL

I pray all my classes are finished with 85 above and that I pass all my Board Exams too bc those are expensive $275 PER SECTION LIKE WHO HAS THAT TYPE OF MONEY AND FIRST OF ALL WHY IS IT SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE FOR ?!?!?!!?!!??!?! I THINK IT’s ONLY 80 QUESTIONS TOO AND YOU GET ONE HOUR TO FINISH LIKE WHAT DJOASJDSDJKHAHDSJKJHDJLDIHCIOSACJHFJCBDAKJHCKUCHJAKEHKJHEWC GONNA CRY SO I PRAY I PASS ALL 3 SECTIONS

PRAYING HARD BC THIS SEMESTER WAS ROUGH

So nervous for tmr internship at the dental office 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Praying everything goes smooth 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😭😭😭😭😭

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Something that I first applied to working with children, and have applied in a limited form to working with adults: you don't need to tell someone when they read your instructions wrong. Sometimes it's enough to point out what they did right and then whatever they didn't do? You ask them to do it in more precise words, and you make it sound like it's a new request. Remarkable how fast things get done this way.

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Feb 6 2023

YOOOOOOOOO SO AIRPODS GUY (name upgrade lmao) BOUGHT ME AIRPODS 3RD GEN, AIRPODS CASE , HE LET ME BUY SOME STUFF ON SHEIN USING HIS CARD (only spent $24 bc I’m nice like that and bc I don’t need much) AND HE’s GONNA PAY FOR MY NITROUS OXIDE LICENSE AND IS GONNA BUY ME A NEW WALLET LET’s GOOOOOOOOO

He’s also been buying me food at work and letting me choose what I want skskskskskksks

My BFF said men paying is just the bare minimum bc they should pay anyway and that women already spend so much on themselves for feminine hygiene products, so it makes sense I guess but I feel so weird being able to do all this bc I’ve never been treated this way OSKSKSSKSKSKSKSJEHDWJDVEJSBSJSKWN

but I’m enjoying it and I actually like seeing him at work now lol

But I hope everything goes well between us even tho we’re not dating yet LOL

He’s literally “head over heels” for me is what my bestie told me LMAO bc he talks about me to his parents and they’re okay with him having interest in me and that his dad would like to meet me when he comes to TX LIKE OMG WHAT

But he’s actually so sweet tho 🥺🥺🥺

I pray for a successful semester and that me and him are going into a good path !

I also pray for my dad to win the lottery asap LOL

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January 25 2023

So on January 14, my co worker (server) at China Buffet asked for my number but I didn’t give it to them bc I don’t like giving my phone number out so I got them to download Snapchat instead bc I rather txt there since that’s where I communicate with my friends the most on

Anyways, almost 2 weeks talking with them

They told me on that day that they liked me and I’m thinking “wtf lol okay and ?????” But yeah I don’t even act like anything at work. I just focus on my job and don’t really talk to the severs unless needed so I’m surprised I caught his interest

I did tell them multiple times that I have no interest in them and even if I did I wouldn’t want to be in a romantic relationship with them bc I’m so focused on school and nothing but that and that if I were to be in a relationship then it would be one sided bc I would lack so much interest since I’m a student like I already have so much on my shoulders that I can barely manage so relationships aren’t important

He knows I don’t like him like that and that I just see him as a friend / co worker but asked me to give him a chance to “pursue” me and I’m like okay why not lol

Probably the only interesting that will ever happen in my life lmao

He’s 12 years older than me LOL divorced and has an 8 yr old kid like omg but I guess we’ll see how this turns out LOL

The fact I posted a picture of a purse I thought was cute and he asked if I liked that purse and I said yeah it’s cute whatever and he ordered it asap like crazy bro crazyyyyyy AND I DID RECEIVE THE PURSE LIKE OMG CRAZY

and he was supposed to give me AirPods 3rd Gen the same day I got the purse but he forgot so hopefully this Saturday I’ll get them bc omg I want some AirPods lol PRAYING I GET THEM 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏skskskskksksks

Apparently he ordered $100 worth of Korean ramen for me to try ????????? But we’ll see about that too 😂😂😂😂 and he cashed me $20 for BOBA asap too and I didn’t even asked for it like I was literally just talking about how I like boba 🧋 LMAO

And for some reason he had an idea that I was financially struggling probably bc the old manager told him and he offered to give me money so I don’t have to focus on working but rather focus on school and I said no bc they shit crazy like hello sir how can you offer someone that ?!!??!?!?!???!? If it was another female they WOULD ACTUALLY RUN YOUR MONEY UP AND YOU WOULD BE BROKE BROKE SIR LIKE YOU CANT ASK SOMEONE STRAIGHT UP LIKE THAT! SO I JUST WANNA SAY HOW LUCKY HE IS THAT IM NOT THAT TYPE OF PERSON TO RUN HIS MONEY UP LIKE THAT

I hope I have time to go buy boba 🧋 on Saturday and bring it to work bc I really craving boba 🧋 I also I have to get him one lol and he’s not picky so good thing !

But we’ll see how this goes never know what will happen with this friendly relationship

I just only hope for positivity and progress ! :))

I pray my school semester is well this year and I pass with all 80’s above and that I pass all my license so I don’t have to retake bc they cost $275 per section which money I don’t have so I pray 🙏 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

But I hope everything goes well as planned and that I graduate in August 2023 with dental assisting license and start working in dental office asap so I can make decent income and live a better life and at a better place 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️

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Jan 13 2023

I got my Pizza H paycheck and it’s $170 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 all that extra days of work (2 days more) but still 🥲🥲🥲🥲 COULDVE BEEN MORE IF FEMALE BOSS WOULDVE PUT $9.25/HR ON DEC 30 LIKE IT WOULDVE BEEN $70 MORE UGH

Wanna fight her a little 😭😩😭😩

Well at least better than just $60 paycheck 🤣🥲💀

Also NOT excited for school (Jan 17) bc I’m overwhelmed already 💀💀💀💀🥲🥲🥲🥲

Gonna cry everyday this whole semester 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

I pray I pass all classes and exams and license exams 🥲🥲🥲🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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Jan 13 2023

Friday 13 😮😮😮😮🤣🤣🤣idk the real meaning behind this in USA 🤣

Anyway I’m so tired of my mom being so mad about every detail or thing that I do in this home like Yo chill go to therapy or something like go away for a year and I wouldn’t mind at all

I WONT MIND IF BOTH MY PARENTS LEFT TO CAMBODIA BC THEY HAVE NO USE IN THE USA

Also my aunt (Collin’s mom) came back from Cambodia since the 3rd week of Dec and apparently my grandma put my earrings and money together but my uncle only gave me my money but not my earrings even though he said he would bring it to me when he came to my home but NEVER gave me the earrings

My mom said that grandma said that maybe my aunt is using the earrings like damn well I don’t want it no more now 😐😐😐😐😐😐 the earrings were made for me NOT for her so if she liked it so much then she should’ve ordered her own ! I specifically requested new earrings bc the ones I’ve been wearing can’t be worn in the clinic at school bc it’s “loop earrings” which isn’t even big loop earrings it’s literally wrapped around my ear lobes snuggly but okay (???)

Like I know I bought USED uniforms for school but that’s bc it was 2 pairs of USED uniforms for $50 and it was much needed bc ONE new pair cost $60 EACH and I was really struggling that semester

Hopefully I get money from school to purchase new uniforms bc definitely needed since I’m going to school extra days now (Monday - Friday)

NEVER HAD A FRIDAY CLASS IN COLLEGE

GONNA CRY

LIKE I BARELY HAVE TIME TO DO HOMEWORK ON FRIDAY WHEN I WAS OFF FROM SCHOOL AND NOW I GO TO SCHOOL FRIDAY TOO ?!!?!?!!?!? RIP

I plan to ask the school if I can Loan more money for my classes bc supplies are so expensive this semester 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 AND THEY BETTER SAY YES BC I NEED GRANTS AND LOANS FOR SUMMER SEMESTER TOO

WHY SCHOOL SO EXPENSIVE?!??!?!?? SUPPLIES SHOULD BE FREE 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

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Jan 12 2023

So I got $9.25 / hr from Pizza H on Tuesday now and damn wished it would’ve been put in on Jan 1 instead bc I would be making more ://///// hate forgetful bosses but like I don’t actually hate my boss tho just hate they’re forgetful ://///// honestly I deserve $10/hr at Pizza H

Might throw hands at them

Chinese buffet better not okay no tricks on me bc I’ll throw hands at them too smh

School starts Jan 17 and I’m already stressed bc we got the dates we need patients for X-rays and I’m still looking for 2 more 😭😭😭 ughhhhhh hate it!!!

I hope this semester goes as planned and more organized bc last semester felt disorganized :///// sucks ass !!!

Then there’s summer semester and I hope the government can pay for that bc I definitely don’t have money 💵 to pay tuition and fees

Wish college was free 😩😩😩😩 or at least the supplies !!! Bc supplies are SO EXPENSIVE LIKE WTF I BETTER GET MY MONEY WORTH OF THESE SUPPLIES THAT WE’re BEING CHARGED FOR LIKE $1K+

CRAAAAAAZZYYYYYYY

Gonna cry

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Jan 8 2023

I went to work at Chinese buffet today and they decided to give me a $2 raise so now I make $13/hr

Craaaaaaazyyyyyyy

I hope Pizza H boss didn’t forget to give me my raise bc I WROTE IT ON STICKY NOTE AND STUCK IT ON THE COMPUTER SCREEN FOR A REASON! IM GONNA DOUBLE CHECK TMR AND THEY BETTER SAID THEY PUT IT BC I DIDNT ASK THEM FOR A RAISE IN DECEMBER FOR NO REASON! I ASKED THEM IN DEC SO IN JAN I WOULD BE MAKING $9.25/ HR BC IM ON BREAK SO I DECIDED TO WORK 2 MORE DAYS THERE

PRAYING 🙏 BC I DIDNT ADD 2 MORE DAYS FOR NO REASON

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Jan 6 2023

Yesterday was my bday and still coughing ! My throat itchy and dry (been like that since last Thursday) ! My parents and friends think it’s COVID but I don’t think COVID is like this bc then I would be trouble breathing !

Idk why it’s taking so long for this to go away ! I definitely do feel better than the days before, but I really hate that it hasn’t fully gone away and also there’s so much mucus every time I cough it’s like how is that even possible !?????

Ughhhh I hope I getting better today! I’m so tired of taking medicine and coughing so much !! Like nothing tastes good either and I’ve drank so much water and ughhhhhh I’m just so tired of it !!!

Also my boss at pizza H forgot to put in my $9.25 for the pay that’s coming so I wrote a sticky note and placed it on their computer so I hope she didn’t forget this time and like she said to remind her like bro how the fuck I supposed to remind you ????? You’re the boss you gotta write that down yourself and make sure you put that in the sys asap like bro you’re make me lose $1.25 per hour when that should’ve been given weeks ago !!! Like I can’t remind you every fucking day that’s just ridiculous! I better get my $9.25 on this coming check or next but I hoping for this coming one bc like bro you’re just doing my wrong at this point like y’all not even gonna reimburse me bc y’all cheap as fuck!! How the fuck your say you gonna give $9.25 to me but forget to put it in the sys like we gonna have problems here bc it’s not fair a new co worker started w $9 while I’m still stuck at $8 like how the fuck you gonna start a NEW worker on $9 but not even give your worker that’s been there almost 3 years $9 or more than that before the NEW worker ???????? Make it make sense !!!!! Like boss a chill person but that shit gonna make me pissed if I don’t get my pay that I am supposed to get !

Also fucking Chinese buffet won’t give me a raise even tho I worked there since 2021, I asked for $2 and they’re not giving it to me bc I only work one day a week there like bro just give me $1 raise then it’s not gonna hurt your fucking company. Y’all gotta stop being so fucking cheap ! Also on that inflation calculator I’m supposed to get paid $12.38 anyway like bro come on now and they don’t even give me a 50% discount when I buy food there like bro they only give me 10% like that’s barley anything man and that one time I asked for left over food to take home they gonna be so ducking stingy and said 3 egg rolls is enough like y’all gonna throw it out anyway like why you being so fucking ass stingy for and plus I work for y’all so it shouldn’t even matter !!!

I can’t wait to make decent amount of money so I can buy what ever food I want to eat without worrying about discounts and how much money I’ll need to save before buying food !!! It’s so annoying and stressful like I just want to eat something good for once !!!!

My cough is getting better than few days before so I hope it’s gone today so I can eat what ever I want to eat and drink too !! I bet if I drank a margarita I would get better asap !🤣🤣🤣

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Dec 29 2022

I got $300 from my grandma yesterday that she gave to my uncle to give to me but before this I remember my mom telling me I was getting $500 maybe grandma could only give me that much this time

I hope it wasn’t a confusion on communication

I also was supposed to get my earrings but my uncle didn’t give them yet and they’re still with my aunt which if she knew he was coming to us then she should’ve went ahead and gave it to him to me SMH

They always give my stuff late as possible SMH

I also wish I can work at a better job sooner that isn’t a restaurant and with higher pay like maybe $12/hr or more and that can work w my schedule bc I’m salty about how a new worker got paid more than me for this time being like bro that’s not right and wish I could get reimbursed but knowing restaurants they won’t do that

I wish I can work at the yogurt shoppe for temporary until I finish with school and start a career bc I think I would’ve gotten paid more if I was there even though they hired a new crew bc it’s new owner but I think that if I started working there again I have a feeling I would get paid more there than Pizza H bc I have the experience from working there and I don’t think much has changed tho I haven’t been there ever since they got a new owner