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it is honestly *unreal* how often i get caught in the rain

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done and done

Has anyone else ever seriously considered starting up a smoking habit to lose weight? Cause same.

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Nude man sitting on rock, 1923

Williamina Parrish :: Nude man sitting on rock. Signed W. Parrish, 1923. | src SLPL, Grace and Williamina Parrish Photograph Collection

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I hate having a body, it’s so high maintenance! Shower this, eat that, drink this, sleep that, it’s all very stupid

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Further Investment Strategies

In the same way that I see periods of fasting as insurance against those social situations in which I’ll be forced to eat, I see the occasional small meal as an investment to offset the risk of binges in the future. When I binge, I regularly consume WAY more calories than I would have if I had just taken the initiative to have a small meal or snack at some point beforehand. 

As I’ve said on this page before, I further protect these periods when I *do* eat by developing a weird palate (fish eggs, oysters, organ meats,etc.) that both limits my options, and decreases the likelihood of being in a situation where others will force me to eat. 

Recently, I have gone beyond that by only having meals that are extremely time consuming to make, like fresh pasta, or a lengthy roast. That way, if I’m starting to wig out from being hungry, I can remind myself that I’m in the process of making something (even if it’s been in the works for several hours), and by the time I’m done cooking, I’m more likely to have a better control over my portion size. Today, for instance, my only meal was a pasta puttanesca that I made with fresh pasta: it took several hours to make, and ultimately only amounted to about 250 cal., and I now feel very confident about my ability to fast at least until noon tomorrow. 

These strategies are especially important when I’m at higher risk for binges: periods when I’m less tied up in school or work, at home more often, etc. 

#ana

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Julian Vassallo  

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wut?

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Gino Pasqualini

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Alessandra Ferri, the untouchable 

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suzanne farrell w/ the great george balanchine 

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Balmain, Resort 2021