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I wish rich people went back to keeping artists as pets. Like when you’re wealthy enough you pick a cool weirdo to do regular commissions for you, and if you really want to flex on your peers, you’ve got several.

 And you visit them every once in a while like “hello, I’ve paid for your rent and your tools, have you worked on that commission giant oil painting of me getting sucked off by my political opponent, who is unfortunately still the mayor of this town, like I requested?”

 And your favourite feral art person looks up - mouth full of gravel and completely surrounded by art-related trash like “no, but I designed a helicopter.”

And you’re like “that’s fucking lit, the mayor doesn’t have a helicopter. Please carry on as you have.”

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happy lesbian visibility week

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#greetings from germany it snowed here today

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For Johnny Thunders

Closer to someone I've never met Than to some people I know Your music as personal to me as can get Tell me why you had to go

Too much too soon You were born to lose just like me More mysterious than the moon Locked in a cage, longing to be free

Tried to put my arms around a memory Seems like I never ever learn You've said it for almost half a century Yet I can do nothing but yearn

All the nights spent on the bedroom floor Crying and listening to all your records Your voice and lyrics shake me to the core You're a rose with equally petals and thorns

I light my cigarette on a candle And for you I blow a smoke halo You're so untouchable Like a distant yet relatable hallow

Now without you I feel so alone If you knew I'm still looking for a kiss Could I summon you from the tombstone So I wouldn't have to miss you

You’d want me to go out so I dress in leather Deep down I know you must still be here Legends are never truly gone forever Still I'll close my eyes and shed a tear

#please read pleaseeeeee i'm so proud of it i put my everything into it actually #if you can name all the references to his songs i love you #srb

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I NEED TO COVER I LOVE YOU BY JOHNNY THUNDERS PROPERLY AGAIN

#i recorded a shitty little clip three years ago as a sort of valentine's confession serenade to my friend back then #and i need to do it again but better (but first i gotta practice a lot more guitar) #mel talks

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whenever i'm trying to talk myself out of buying something i don't need i always hear my old russian professor's voice echoing in my head: "WHAT??? WILL YOU DIE THE RICHEST MAN IN THE GRAVEYARD?" and then i make an unwise financial decision

#me ordering johnny thunders' so alone vinyl and nina antonia's biography about him today #and buying concert tickets and merch in bulk

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Big fan of women

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Carmen Maria Machado, from "Meat Eater No. 5" [ID'd]

#galaxy brain i'll start doing this #poetry

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You are not ready for my poem dedicated to Johnny Thunders. You will explode from my sheer genius and emotions

#i can have a little parasocial relationship with a dead rock star. as a treat. #i wrote it on the back of my cafe receipt today and it just needs some tweaking and more verses because the paper was too small #mel talks

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frick it. hyperspecific poll

#vintage style dress with pockets!! i'm obsessed with it i can't wait to wear it again when it's not fucking snowing and cold

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you! the person reading this! please tell me one good thing that happened to you today

#3 y/o adorable girl sat on my lap and refused to leave because i was just back at the kindergarten to say goodbye to everyone 😭💕 #i bought a ticket to see spread eagle and toxic rose (+ two or three more tba) in september #got my vixen cd and my office manager certificate in the mail (98 out of 100 points in the exam despite not having worked in the field 💅🏻)

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I hate work I should be at the (remembers I don't want to go to the club) the imagination

#being at the club is great actually the bad part is finding the energy to go there

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