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I’m difficult to love. I’m either clingy or distant. Either too much or not enough. I get hurt over the simplest things and shut down. I’m difficult to love and I’m sorry.

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Examples of bpd episodes:

just being really silent, suffering from unbearable self hate, believing everyone hates you

feeling watched, paranoid in public and judged

experiencing life trough a white fog, not being able to see, hear everything - not feeling anything

feeling numb and unreal, depressive episodes - not being able to move

self harm

feeling highly agitated, experiencing anger, rage - behaving violently against loved once - being verbally and physically aggressive, abusive

behaving like a little kid, child-like expressions, speech and behaviors - needing constant attention and help

often experiencing more than one of the above at once

other disorders factor in - such as eating disorders

feeling completely helpless during those episodes - watching yourself from the outside

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when u realise no one will love u to the intensity that u would love them…

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and that’s on ✨borderline personality disorder✨

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pull up?

more like “pill up” because i’m always getting more medications

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craving abuse and neglect in intimate relationships because you don’t feel loved without mistreatment