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I’m going through my old posts, and this is from 2013. It’s so funny because now it’s 2018 and I live with my future husband in a new city where I got to start over.  I met him online, but he was truly himself from the start. He was such a breath of fresh air, and he still is. Every day when I come home from work and he’s already home reading in the front sitting room I am reminded about how absolutely lucky I am to be so in love with a wonderful man.

To My Future Husband:

I don’t want to meet you in a dark dingy bar where people have one thing on their mind. I want to meet you in a used book store, or a coffee shop, or while you’re walking your chocolate Labrador  Somewhere away from pressures and beating speakers. I want to meet you where you are you.

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I really needed to hear this. I conteantly struggle with my mothers abuse and her thinking she’s never don’t anything wrong makes me think that maybe she didn’t. She did.

Your abuser doesn’t have to recognize that they’re abusive for your trauma to be valid.

Many abusers don’t, and never will realize that their behavior is wrong. That doesn’t make it any less real.

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Drunk on champagne while my wonderful Mr. is asleep between my legs

I’m so happy to have found my person

#tipsy thoughts

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Please come to bed and let me see you and feel you.

Ernest Hemingway, The Garden Of Eden (via finegoodsfinefolk)

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I don’t need another temporary person. I want someone who, even when I am an unlovable mess, will look at me with love in their eyes and stay.

palestiniansunset (via c-isnenegro)

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yesterday: tired today: tired tomorrow: tired next week: tired next month: tired next year: tired next life: tired

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At the end of the day we can endure much more than we think we can.

Frida Kahlo (via psych-facts)

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Zuhair Murad

Fall 2017 Couture

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Chile: Volcán Llaima

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I am so

so so so so so so so so sooooo madly in love with someone who is madly in love with me.

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I'm so lucky to have this kind of love.

that kind of love that’s “i was scared until i found you.” that kind of love that’s worth it to try romance again. the “fuck i’ll try cheesy if it just makes you smile” love, the roses and love notes and wine bottles. the twinkle light love, the “let’s go on this romantic date only to spend the whole thing being silly” love, the dancing badly to slow songs love, the “i don’t know how you make me laugh so much but seriously stop it i’m trying to drive” love. the “i trust you love,” calling late at night because a secret just welled up in my throat love, the first person i talk to so i can figure out this decision is you kind of love. the “i was hurt before and had given up but then i found you” love, the incredulous in-awe love, the wonder love, the are you actually real or am i dreaming you love. the “i didn’t believe in soulmates before you” love. that kinda love.

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Things I am currently craving

- hot sex - a warm shower - milkshake - cozy blankets - warm, loving cuddles - kisses