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Love Lies Bleeding fucking ruled

#me the second it happened lol

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TOXIC YURI LOVE LIES BLEEDING! TOXIC YURI!! LOVE LIES BLEEDING! TOXIC REPRESENTATION WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR! LESBIANS FUCKING! TOXIC GIRLS AND THEYRE BOTH GIRLS AND THEYRE ROOMMATES AND THEY KISS AND THEN BLOOD AND THEYRE FUCKED UP AND GIRLS AND TOXIC AND MUSCLES

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Jackie says she was bullied as a fat kid and learned "how to fight back;" she goes crazy in Vegas when she hallucinates someone calling her fat. I think there's a direct line connecting this with Jackie's fight instinct to Lou constantly reiterating that Jackie killed J.J., and Lou locking Jackie inside the house. Over the payphone, Jackie's foster mother, curt: "Stay away from us, you monster." Lou doesn't know she is treating Jackie like a monster. Jackie can't have that feeling. Perhaps that's why she needs to run away to Vegas and win so bad: to disarm her size and her strength, to have those qualities be unimpeachable, only for show and admiration.

Jackie in turn is tripping all of Lou's wires. We know Lou thinks her mother ran away, and fears that Lou Sr. maybe killed her. But Lou Sr. goads her about an even deeper fear: that Lou's mom ran away not only to get away from her husband, but also to get away from her awful, complicit daughter. (Lou is so terrified this is true that she has red nightmares about it all movie long. When she's more afraid, there's more red on the screen, like the glow from the hospital's Coke vending machine when Lou Sr. confronts her about J.J.'s body.) If Jackie's response to being perceived as a monster is to fight, Lou's is to take flight: exit the situation for fear of abandonment. She comes close to doing this in the confrontation with Jackie after dinner with J.J. and Beth (a confrontation aborted only because of the lingering F.B.I. agent), but J.J.'s murder flings the shit into the fan.

Lou does everything in her power to cover up J.J.'s murder, and then Daisy's, so that Jackie doesn't leave her. But everything Lou does reminds Jackie that she's a monster (Daisy naked, victorious, whispering: "Lou doesn't want you anymore"). When Lou frees Jackie from her binds in the shed, Jackie takes off running, so caustic is the effect of this reminder ("I wish I never met you!") We know she's not running away for fear that Lou will kill her, because Jackie only really calms down when Lou convinces her that 1) she still desires Jackie, and (2) Jackie is not morally culpable for the murders of J.J. and Daisy. She was forced, for fear of Beth's life, for fear of Lou Sr. (Lou in her recounting was also forced to sleep with Daisy. Everyone is only ever forced to do bad things; no one is ever a bad person.)

Lou has freed Jackie from several mental hang-ups. So Jackie joyfully reclaims her size and strength and breaks a guy's arms as easy as wringing a wet t-shirt. And Lou is now more aware of Jackie's inner turmoil than she was before. In the last scene, when she slips quietly out of the truck to kill Daisy, she is loathe to disturb Jackie's sleep, yes, and also her conscience.

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Kristen Stewart & Katy O’Brian on Love Lies Bleeding for Them Magazine:

“What I love about this movie is that queerness isn’t the conflict. It’s the type of film that I, as a queer person, would want to watch — to not have drama around my sexuality and just admire these two absolutely whacky individuals.” - Katy O’Brian

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I love you fem women i really do but there so incredibly special about a 5’4 chainsmoking butch and her barbarian class pretty attack dog girlfriend

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the love that you need will never be found at home

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what a lesbian situationship does to a person

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yeah i support women’s right

but more importantly i support women’s WRONGS

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love lies bleeding has something for every lesbian: muscles, greasy working class twig of a butch, mind fucking, fucking, gore, insane relationship timeline they met less than 24 hours ago and are living together, slime, don't forget the cat, girl that makes your skin crawl, eroticism of smoking, eroticism of injecting, eroticism of committing unspeakable violence for someone, normal eroticism, acab, bugs, juxtaposing eroticism of smoking with the reality of it in a metaphoric representation of a character's drive toward both rebellion and destruction as well as adding to a through-line motif of inevitable ends, triumph, toe stuff, artifice, (and how it collides with reality), revenge, decent, ascension, running away, being stuck, being found, being found out, home haunts you, you can't ever go home, the 80's, obligation, freedom, having a fucked up relationship with your dad, having the fucked up realization that despite everything you've done to fight it maybe you really are exactly like your dad, deciding that all the thousand ways in which you are not like him are more important, you will tear yourself bleeding cursing spitting from the jaws of being like your father with the very tools he handed you, new mexico

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crying

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don’t worry everyone the doctor who wiki has everything under control

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personally i think you should be able to afford a place to live with a part-time job

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Y'all, the world is sleeping on what NASA just pulled off with Voyager 1

The probe has been sending gibberish science data back to Earth, and scientists feared it was just the probe finally dying. You know, after working for 50 GODDAMN YEARS and LEAVING THE GODDAMN SOLAR SYSTEM and STILL CHURNING OUT GODDAMN DATA.

So they analyzed the gibberish and realized that in it was a total readout of EVERYTHING ON THE PROBE. Data, the programming, hardware specs and status, everything. They realized that one of the chips was malfunctioning.

So what do you do when your probe is 22 Billion km away and needs a fix? Why, you just REPROGRAM THAT ENTIRE GODDAMN THING. Told it to avoid the bad chip, store the data elsewhere.

Sent the new code on April 18th. Got a response on April 20th - yeah, it's so far away that it took that long just to transmit.

And the probe is working again.

From a programmer's perspective, that may be the most fucking impressive thing I have ever heard.

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