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Diet plan, oct 26-november 26:

Are allowed to drink any amount of tea with honey (stops boredom eating)

Is allowed 20 almonds a day

Must walk 10,000 steps/day

Do 3 workouts a day

Eat lunch and dinner daily

Fast 2 days each week

Food:

Lunch: veggies with quinoa: 350 cals

Dinner under 500 cals

No snacks other than tea and almonds

Goals:

Get down to 45 kg (lose 7 kg)

Visible abs

Get splits down

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I dont care if its cringe. I dont care if its weird. Im going to tell everyone about everything i find wonderful, and ill dance even when theres no music, and even on days i hate myself, ill tell myself that its just a day, even if it lasts for another year. I just have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to point out pretty lights and nice pets and how pretty all my friends are and how nice spring is even if it makes my depression worse. I have to notice every single good thing there is because if i dont, i will die, and i cant die just yet, because if i do, my best friend will cry in the shower.

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when you’ve mastered the art of being quietly mentally ill, especially at a young age, being loud only ever feels wrong

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Listen. Cut your own hair. Dye it blue, then shave it off when you’re bored of it. Wear that outfit with those shoes. Paint your nails with all the colors of the rainbow. Get that tattoo. Go to the movies alone. Get coffee, then drink it at that special place you like. Mouth the words of the song you’re listening to on public transport. Put that thing on your wall. Bake. Draw. Dance in your underwear. Life is so much better when you don’t give a fuck

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Reminder that i am 18 and if you are uncomfortable with that as a minor i urge you to block me and/or unfollow. I feel weird having kids follow me, especially since i know how long eds last since i got on tumblr at 14. Please unfollow me if you are a minor

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I used to want to be thin just to be thin. Thats why it never worked. Now i want to die again. I want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. This is my new reason to starve. I hope to god this want lasts so that im finally skinny

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Now i have tinnitus lol

music on max volume so I don’t hear my own thoughts

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One day you’ll sit in the sun and things won’t feel so bad

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Me today especially

I hate being in public I feel so disgusted and scared and embarrassed I just wanna hide in my room 4ever until I die

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my life is a little bit of ?? with a bit of ¿¿ and some !! with a lot of …

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My thighs are so fat

#catsocksweaters

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adulthood really does hit you like a fucking truck when you spent all of your teenage years thinking you were gonna kill yourself eventually,

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Binged today :/

Back in the 50s

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You cant be in recovery and have a tumblr account

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Im finally under 50 kg again!!!

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Guilt for doing something. Guilt for not doing that same thing. Guilt for doing something one person wants, but the other doesnt. Guilt for wanting to be happy. Selfish selfish selfish.

yo does anyone else feel CONSTANTLY guilty? like you’ve always done something wrong but you don’t know what it is?

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Ate too much today, over my cal limit and out of my eating window, but at least worked out