celestyrai

[celestyrai]

I am burdened.

By the things, I don’t say.

The smile, people adore,

covers my words,

hides my emotions

And let me be,

Not me.

The silence within me

is so loud for only me to hear.

The dreams for life,

feels like begging from myself.

I hate tears,

For it, doesn’t stop.

I’ve sunken, fallen, broken and melted

To a new low.

Yet,

I hold onto myself,

Wakes up to manifest,

To be the smile that brings smiles.

:)

[celestyrai]

Do you still like the way I write?

Or have you forgotten to read now?

Do you still read every line, twice?

Or just a glance is enough now?

Do you still take every word to the heart?

Or are you now heartless?

Does the nighttime rests you to sleep?

Or the harshness of it keeps up the mind?

I weaved words into poems,

With shuffled verses,

Of our unmatched truths,

Adorn it with the tears.

For, it is my distorted treasure,

And I don’t mind sharing.

Did you find the gold in it?

Or just the hunt sufficed your soul?

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“For you, a thousand times over”,

he said.

Ask me!

Just one moment is enough.

Take the rest to yourself,

For I am content with the lies you whisper.

Just this once was enough,

For I, can’t stand yet another.

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Vo gaata tha ghazal khaas, mere liye,

Aur jeeta tha harek lafz,

Unn panno mei ghuskar,

Mashoor shaayro k kitab se.

Zikr hi karna bhul gya mera,

Jiske panno mei jahmeel tha vo.

Ab unhe apni yaad kese dilau,

Jo hardin khayalo mei rahte hai.

Ki aashiq toh hai kai saare,

Jaam lagaakar hichki dila hi dete hai.

Lekin, taraste ye kyu nahi hai,

Jo sharaab k nasho se durr rehte hai.

Ab jo b likhu toh tumtak kese pohchau?

Ab toh mere inn shabdo ka bazaar lagta hai.

Sabke beech mei rakhkar,

Bas tumhe padane k liye.

Tum vahi ho na?

Jisne kabhi mujhe khuda maana tha,

Kya hua, ibadat chord di?

Jo sath beetake samay bhul jata tha,

Aaj ghadi se roobaru ho gye?

Jo mujhe mujhse zada jaanta tha,

Apna parichay dena hi bhul gaye?

Fir jao,

Jaane diya tumhe, azaad ho tum

Mere har sawaal se, shikayat se.

Mere aansu b tumhe haaye nai denge.

Mere lafz bhi ab tumpe kharch nai honge.

Ye fizool ki likhawat bhi,

Jo raato ko jagaye rakhti thi, ab neend paenge.

Rabb di hui mher milange,

Haaye ni apa fer milange.

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My mind is shouting

And I can’t even hear

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Twin Flame 🔥

I am a witch,

Enchanting in the forest.

By a clear moonlight

And a stream, near

Come as a wizard,

For we’ll do rituals together.

I am a mermaid,

Led by the waves.

Come without a boat,

Without a net

Dive into the water

And let it sway.

I am a bird,

Attacked in the sky.

Falling from above

Come to rescue me.

Keep me under your wings

That will be enough

For another fling.

I am a flower,

You come as a bee.

Singing all the way,

And choosing me.

The sun is shining,

And I don’t mind your buzzing

I am a soul,

Awakened and aware

With a flame, same

Burning inside of us

Come as my Twin Flame. ✨

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My mind is a place of free thoughts

Then why has it you, still captured?

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Your lips were sweeter than most of ‘trick or treat’ candy. Perhaps, my Halloween was early💀

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Perhaps, I would smoke a whole joint to kiss you again.

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You are nothing what I wished the Universe for, but you’re surely sent by the stars.

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Am I growing old 😭

How adorable my niece is growing, it makes me wish to be her godparent & a friend, whom she can totally rely upon anytime and seek guidance. Oh god! Bless me to guide her correctly and unconditionally.

To future you, Mishtu, just so you know I be your ‘I-can-turn-upto-her’ aunt.

And

‘Buy-me-fanciest-ice-cream’ maasi

‘Tie-me-the-prettiest-braid’ maasi

‘Let’s-bake-cake’ maasi

‘Suggest-me-theme’ maasi

‘Pink-or-black?’ maasi

‘Let’s-go-shopping’ maasi

‘Shoot-for-ig-post’ maasi

‘Sneakers-please’ maasi

‘Don’t-gift-me-book-anymore’ maasi

‘I-will-drive’ please maasi

‘Money-for-concert’ maasi

‘Maaaaaasi’ maasi

And someday, We’ll make a trip.

She’s just an inch away to reach me, and I already know the tantrums coming along.

Open when 10💕

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Where else could you be?

Where else could the lush green mountains be, if not in front of my vision?

Where else could these clouds be, if not above the mountains?

Where else could this breeze be, if not tangled in my hair?

Where else could I be, if not here, breathing in this?

[celestyrai]

Two and a half men

I started watching this iconic, American sitcom series once when I was so high, and didn’t stop ever (both getting high and laughing till I have enough air just to breathe), until the end of course. I binge watched the series for months and it was a house-full loaded laughter every time. It’s not like you watch it and then think about it, but it is something you enjoy while watching. The different characters, savage dialogues, dirty sex jokes, unexpected plot, the brilliant vocabulary (ok just Alan’s) would tickle you.  

Starring Charlie sheen as Charlie Harper, was the spine of the show. The show portrays this person as a drunk/ coked rich, gambler, man-whore bachelor. Dressed in his signature look, wearing a bowling shirt and shorts, he writes Jingles for living in his beautiful Malibu beach house, which attracts a lot of women. He is also a free spirit and a generous person who lets Alan (his brother) who is a chiropractor and Jake (Alan’s son) live with him for 8 years rent free and constant puns after Alan’s divorce with his wife Judith who took his house and other belongings in Alimony, yet ends up in two failed marriages. Alan is an awkward sponge who won’t leave the house and continues to live there rent free till the end, with obvious sarcasms. Contrary to his brother, he is miserably poor and poor in his dating life which is not the case at the end. Both the brother agrees on just one thing which is hate towards their evil-genius, self-centered, Satan referred, bisexual mother Evelyn who is as free and a property estate agent who expresses her love to his family in a strange way.  Jake, her grandson is a dimwitted, constant-eating and terrible in studies, later-pot smoker kid who makes his way through this ability. The three continues to live in this beautiful beach house which is taken care of by Charlie’s savage, sharp-tongue house keeper, Berta.

Charlie is constantly stalked by his crazy neighbor-millionaire ex-girlfriend Rose who is actually the cause of his pretending- death after they get married in Paris. After the death of Charlie Harper, the show couldn’t have progressed if it wasn’t the new face of main character Ashton Kutcher showed as Internet entrepreneur billionaire, Walden Schmidt who bought the house after his unsuccessful attempted suicide. He is depicted as an emotional, immature, needed to be taken care of kinda person who incredibly pretty and can be rightly said as the descendent of Thor. He successfully managed to keep up the genre of the series. He later marries Alan so as to put up an act to adopt a kid, Louis which is nullified after the adoption and dates their social worker.

I came to the last episode of the series today, which is so bizarre and so Unexpected, wherein Alan receives a letter informing Charlie’s left millions of royalties which is later showed already claimed by Jake. Charlie has also left money for his later revealed, lesbian, Charlie-trait daughter, Jenny and other ex- girlfriends/fiancés. Rose reveals that Charlie wasn’t really dead and that she has imprisoned him in a dungeon for four years, from where he escapes and wants to take revenge, which goes unsuccessful when he drop by his doorstep and a giant piano falls on his head, killing him which later falls on the Director of the series, Chuck Lorre who was dissing him.

Men, men, men, Manly men, men, men, Mennn.

It wasn’t too much even for the show when it ended.  Nobody gave a fuck. Me neither and the fact Charlie Sheen wasn’t aired for the last episode. It is all showed in a comical way even the revenges for real. The recurring appearance of the actors was impeccable and justifiable to the plot then. I love how Ashton Kutcher took place and did a great job in maintaining the comical manner of the show and kept intact the female audience with his hot looks, after the first main lead was fired. If haven’t seen it yet go keep yourself busy for another two three months with laughter and new vocabs.

Cheerio!

#two and a half men

[celestyrai]

Sometimes, its better to let go, 

For you don’t understand the signs

stars have been showing

since long ago.

Sometimes, its better to let go,

of the job, the person or even the place.

For it doesn’t mean wrong,

But for you to grow.

Sometimes, its better to let go,

but not of yourself.

For you will be a better version

Tomorrow. 

#loveyourself

[celestyrai]

It’s either the time at night when I am done for the day, lying in bed and with complete silence around thinking of galaxy no of thoughts until I pass out or I am high alone in my balcony.

Hi,

I am Celesty, spilling my most random thoughts amd journal here, certainly bc I am out of pages in my diary.

Cheerio!