Sorry to get on here and ask for money yet again, but I would like at least $50 for food to last me for a few days until I get paid again. I’ve already borrowed money from my parents this month ($150) and if you follow me you know they’ll be bothering me to pay them back already, so that’s just not an option again.
"I would die for you, I would kill for you" okay but would you live for me. Would you go outside and watch the birds go by for me. Would you breathe in the air and savor it and think about how it tastes just that little bit sweeter for me. Would you stop self deprecating for me. Would you love yourself for me.
At the end of the day, are you your own worst enemy or a friend to yourself ? Are you talking yourself down, or are you comforting your hurt feelings ? Do you repeat the mean things people say to you or do you find nice words for yourself ? It matters. What you say, what you think about yourself, it matters, it shapes your reality, and this year, let's all make an effort to make that reality a little more supportive, a little more gentle.
this post is for you. yes, you! you are so deserving of a good, happy, content life. you are so strong and resilient, and i am proud of you. you will make it through all this hardship and come out the other side doing better than ever.
hellooo making a new post for April, lots of stuff to cover and start saving up for aside from the usual rent expenses and trying to pay off credit card balance (i have not made a dent in it since the last couple of posts / months so it's still roughly $655)
rent, due by May 3rd - $600
credit card - $655
medical evaluations (including tilt table test) - $800
i am trying to get on cash assistance for disability but since i have been overseas up until last year, i have no relevant medical records here. and due to my family's abuse and neglect and general medical gaslighting, i don't have anything from other places ive lived either. i am starting from scratch and pursuing medical testing and treatment as a poor disabled woc with past trauma is incredibly daunting, to say the least
anything extra will go towards building an emergency fund and a relocation fund so i can start planning to move somewhere more wheelchair accessible as my disabilities continue to progress and make the need for one more and more difficult and dangerous to continue putting off. i don't see this happening til the next 2-3 years but i NEED to be able to start saving now, as my health can be very unpredictable. it hasn't landed me in urgent care yet but i will be woefully unprepared for that if it happens anytime soon and that's a big stressor on my shoulders
i have talked before about stress of any kind being a trigger for my chronic pain and fatigue, which makes the community support all the more vital to my survival and safety. it also helps me stay in a decent condition to be an emotional and social support to my girlfriend, and gives me more brain space to map out a more sustainable future for myself.
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rent, due by May 3rd - $600
credit card - $655
medical evaluations (including tilt table test) - $800
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anything extra will go towards building an emergency fund and a relocation fund
ppal pool (i definitely don't expect to meet goal by the time it's set to expire but it does have an overview of my situation thus far if you need that info)
normal ppal link
please share and don't tag this with anything other than for accessibility purposes !! thank you for the ongoing support, genuinely wouldn't still be here without it 🥹🫶
hii kind of between a rock and a hard place rn with food and id really appreciate some help getting groceries + stuff to pack and transport my belongings as i'm moving next month. any help is greatly appreciated. thank you
hi my storage is a week late and i need $50 by today to make my afterpay payment. afterpay is more important atm but my stuff in storage is also at risk of being auctioned off 😔
ppal | vmo | cshapp
oh and also i ordered the wrong size of catheter securements. i need $50 for that too - uti might be brewing and im having a lot of bladder pain and my tube being unsecured is just making it worse 😔