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You didn’t say I couldn’t buy heroin *finger guns*

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When you meet someone who also likes hard drugs

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People always think I am “uncool” when I say I don’t smoke weed, but what am I supposed to tell them? “After banging heroin for so many years, weed just doesn’t really do anything for me anymore,” doesn’t seem like something I can tell people who think smoking weed makes them a badass.

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sometimes you’ll see wheelchair users get up and walk a bit or a cane user pick up their cane and carry it instead of using it to walk and it doesn’t mean that they’re faking or they don’t actually need it, and it doesn’t give you the right to question them or ask them to prove they’re disabled. if you see a disabled person temporarily stop using their aids, mind your business and stop assuming you know anything about their situation. people who wear glasses don’t suddenly gain sight when they take them off, and i don’t magically become able-bodied when i carry my cane instead of use it. don’t assume otherwise.

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ppl will be like ‘i support people w mental health issues!!1!!!’ until it’s about a societally demonised disorder. ppl will be “allies” until they’re asked to stop using psychotic as an insult, to stop equating low empathy with being inherently evil, to stop calling anyone they don’t like a sociopathic narcissist. it’s so telling how people will immediately resort to the exact same ableist language the second they’re not talking about a ‘sympathetic’ disorder like depression or anxiety.

if ur respect for people w mental health issues is conditional on what sort of issue they have, it’s not respect at all.

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Things that don’t make you a bad person:

Displaying “scary” symptoms of mental illness

Being diagnosed with multiple disorders

Having one or various personality disorders

Being diagnosed with NPD, BPD, HPD, or ASPD

Having very low empathy, or no empathy

Having symptoms that cause anger, emptiness, or paranoia

Having triggers or “strange” personal boundaries

Needing extra help or accommodations

Having intrusive thoughts about upsetting or scary topics

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supporting mental health issues means that you can’t exclude the illnesses you think are bad

stigmatised disorders will always be included in mental health discussions and if you won’t support them as well you’re not an ally.

this includes:

• calling people with bpd manipulative

• calling people with hpd attention seekers

• using the term ‘narc abuse’

• calling people with aspd psychopaths

• calling people with did evil

• calling people with schizophrenia dangerous

etcetc. (there are many stigmatised disorders and these are just a few examples)

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i hate it when people think medication works as a ‘cure’ for everyone. 

medication helps manage my symptoms, you’re not going to see them magically disappear bc i took my abilify thats… not how it works!!! the medication just helps be to be able to use my coping skills to minimize my symptoms (from pain, to tics, to OCD, etc.,,). 

stop asking chronically ill/disabled people “but isn’t there a medication you could take to fix it?” 

just stop. we wish. 

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Mobility aids and sensory aids aren’t a “worst case scenario”

Stop acting like it’s a tragedy when someone starts using a cane or wheelchair, and stop acting like it’s someone admitting defeat if they need ear defenders or stim toys.

Aids are a good thing. They allow us to live better than we could before, and that’s something to celebrate, not demean and be doom and gloom about.

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me: nice day out, shouldn’t waste it

*disassociates on the couch until sunset*

me: fuck

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You should be allowed to kill yourself and not die like a form of stress relief

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Everyone gets tired of me at some point. Then eventually they’ll leave. They all do.

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sleep schedule: fucked

eating schedule: fucked

me: not getting fucked

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They tell me "that's good!" when asked if my suicidal thoughts are just passive and don't have a plan.

But I don't think it's so good. I don't want to have these thoughts at all. I'm so tired of these thoughts.

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i am unwell and not in the quirky cute and gentle crying way, in the hitting head and sobbing type way