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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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Just found out I'm prob not seeing my bf over the weekend and that's literally the only thing i live for lol

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Lol I'm crying rn bc I'm still not sure if my ex raped me or not. I mean when i type it out it's obvious but I've managed to convince myself I'm just dramatic or smth. He begged me to do stuff w him for like two months until i said yes so he'd leave me alone and broke up with me like a week later i was also barely 13 at the time while he was 16. I mean it's just ugh I'm over it i don't think about it often but some rare days i get so sad about it. I just wish it didn't ever happen and i feel like my first time was stolen from me. I feel dirty. I try to convince myself it doesn't affect me alot but it's kinda obvious I'm constantly oversexualizing myself bc i think that's the only way I'm worth smth and I'm a bit hypersexual.... I'm scared it's going to ruin my current relationship and I'm scared my boyfriend will think of me as just a stupid little whore. Obv my bfs not like that and he's so nice and he'd understand but idk. Imagine i have to tell him i lost my virginity like a month after turning 13 and i lost it almost wilingly. It sounds so gross. I wish i could just earase that and pretend it never happened. Also sad that there were people at that point in my life who knew he was always begging me to do stuff and didn't tell me i shouldn't give in and just let me get basically raped. Tbh there's probably a connection between my ed and that event but i just can't see it. I feel so disgusting. I had to vent bc i have literally nobody to talk to abt this irl

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i refuse to trust hair dressers

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i have a thing for unavoidable self destruction

it always finds me, it's like fate for me to hurt myself

or for others to hurt me

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Hot people on tumblr are even scarier than normal people because you know something has to be wrong with them

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How can I justify starving myself in order to gain male approval while also considering myself a feminist and holding strong feminist beliefs? Its simple really you see i

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Museum date???? Coffee shop date???? Art gallery date???? Walk in the park date???? Late night walk date???? Nap time date???

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we’re all gonna be so hot by october. so happy for us

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every day I step on my silly little scale and want to jump off my silly little roof

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what you'll have:

- a petite body - boney fingers - amazing collarbones - thigh gap - flat stomach - visible ribs - smaller clothing sizes are you really gonna throw all that away for something as temporary as food ?