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I get second hand euphoria from my spouses top surgery. Like lemme explain.

We had been together over two years when we got the surgery scheduled. And all that time the picture I had of him in my mind wasn't in line with material reality. Something was always off and it felt so fucking weird and bad to look at him and not truly see him.

Then after the surgery, like immediatly after even tho he was all bandaged up and still dopey on drugs something clicked in my head. 'This is correct!'

Then after healing and getting to see him bare chested, god I just felt so happy for him. And everything felt right. The dissonance of my mental image and what I saw was gone and that space was filled with joy, happiness and euphoria.

It's pretty amazing to awe him flaunting around without a shirt on. So happy and clearly feeling right in himself.

Side note: this is why t4t is amazing. Why it matters. We can relate, share our pain and rejoice over the wins we get in our transitions.

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"Listen," one guard said, "I know we have only just met-"

"No," the other guard said, "we've worked together for years!"

"-but you can trust me when I say-"

"I can't, you have the curse that's opposite from mine!"

"I don't care for you at all."

"Well, I… oh… I love you too."

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Y'all, the world is sleeping on what NASA just pulled off with Voyager 1

The probe has been sending gibberish science data back to Earth, and scientists feared it was just the probe finally dying. You know, after working for 50 GODDAMN YEARS and LEAVING THE GODDAMN SOLAR SYSTEM and STILL CHURNING OUT GODDAMN DATA.

So they analyzed the gibberish and realized that in it was a total readout of EVERYTHING ON THE PROBE. Data, the programming, hardware specs and status, everything. They realized that one of the chips was malfunctioning.

So what do you do when your probe is 22 Billion km away and needs a fix? Why, you just REPROGRAM THAT ENTIRE GODDAMN THING. Told it to avoid the bad chip, store the data elsewhere.

Sent the new code on April 18th. Got a response on April 20th - yeah, it's so far away that it took that long just to transmit.

And the probe is working again.

From a programmer's perspective, that may be the most fucking impressive thing I have ever heard.

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fireflies lighting up a rural Pennsylvania field at dusk

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I will never cease to be annoyed by the fact that most websites do not use a tagging system similar to AO3's. I know, I know, AO3's tagging system is one of the wonders of the modern internet, and has me spoiled. But it makes it really hard to search bookstores and libraries for queer books. At best, they'll have "LGBTQ" tagged as its own genre, which is ridiculous and usually means you cannot specify literally anything else about the book, genre-wise, because the idea that a book can be, say, both fantasy and queer is apparently beyond the people who design these search engines. And god forbid if you want to find something more specific than that.

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Honestly, the longer I live, the less respect I have for being ~as nature intended~ in any way whatsoever. Like I legit do not even give a shit about whether I have a valid medical reason to fuck with any part of my biological construction, I'm literally just doing that because I'm allowed to and nobody's stopped me.

I'm on stimulants to improve my cognitive function and two antidepressants to fuck with my brain chemical levels, I had plastic surgery and I'm taking hormones to keep my body in the shape I want it to be, I get chemical treatments on my skin and put vasodilator ointments on my scalp to keep my skin nice and my hairline from receding. And if I start developing the facial features that my mother always complained about as I get older, I will not hesitate to get my family resemblance surgically removed.

Call me Frankenstein for I am both the monster and the maker. I owe it to no god to remain as nature intended.

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Okay, but what if fantasy world with healing magic that works by using your own perceptual template of your body to restore damaged sections, and a hero discovering they're trans because they're the party tank and have to get healed a bunch

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Please note that I'm NOT specifically asking about legal name changes, just what you go by! And feel free to add whatever details you'd like in the notes.

reblog for bigger sample size!

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sherlock holmes deduces you are trans before you've figured it out yourself and refers to you with those pronouns and then when you look confused is like "ah...had you not arrived at that conclusion yet?" and wafts away in his dressing gown to smoke seventeen pipes, leaving you in a gender crisis

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Elon Musk bought the company. He has nothing to do with the development. #CosplayEngineer

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I just heard the term "sex change", did a google search to figure out what that meant, wound up on a wikipedia page explaining what trans people are, and was just like "holy shit this makes way too much sense"

(for me I never felt like a girl, my friends helped me, and the internet also helped me realize it lol)

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The brotherhood of steel respecting pronouns was not on my fallout bingo card

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wikipedia is a gem

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I like to think of hunches, vibes, instinctive responses and other subconscious reactions of the emotional mind as the guiding voices of my ancestors. That's more or less what genetic memory is, if it really is a thing at all - the voice of some nameless, voiceless, long-forgotten ancestor saying "hold on, I know this situation. This is how I survived it. You must do this, and you will live."

Unfortunately I have anxiety so the ancestor in charge is that one tiny prehistoric mammal that survived the dinosaur extinction, and there is no convincing that thing that this time the sky is not falling, and "bolt underground and hide there until the rumbling stops" is not a solution to human problems.

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this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog