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bored ka lang.

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kaya pala napansin ko lately parang tinatry niya

na lapit siya ng lapit in a way

makikipag chikahan siya kay kei (kei katabi ako obv)

nung nagreready for defense, nakatayo talaga siya sa harap ko (me nakaupo) habang ewan ko ba kung ano ginagawa niya nakikipagtalk sa ibang tao

tapos kapag makikichika din siya sa friend group nina shella, lalapit din siya sakin in a way

angge ah

pero ewan ko parang di na ko interested

parang i got the ick

ever since nalaman ko kay kei yung ano

parang nauurat ako HAHAHHAHA

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“The broken will always be able to love harder than most. Once you’ve been in the dark, you learn to appreciate everything that shines.”

— Unknown

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practice ng arnis kanina (April 29, 2024)

basta ano

nagyayaya na si aljur na mag practice

tapos di pa tumatayo ung iba (including me)

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hehehe

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yesterday nung defense namin

aljur stood in front of me

and then tumalikod siya, sabay he handed me his towel/panyo

nagpapunas sakin si aljur ng likod niya

then i proceeded to do so as if it was the most normal thing on earth

but my mind was like-

'omg why me tho?'

'is jar ar looking? i hope he's looking (like the petty bitch i am)'

'does this mean something? like- are my suspensions about aljur true?'

'or is this because the guys see me as someone who's very approachable?'

if someone took a close look at me at that moment, you could tell that i was so flustered

and then when i finished i gave him back the towel

and he was like "uy salamat ah!"

and as he walked away i proceeded to look around with a slighty flustered and confused look- looking for kei out of habit to make a face to her, and her reciprocating with her own reaction

but she wasn't there still

so i looked to jj instead

and he was like a confused mother fucker being like "bakit??"

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“Until you get comfortable with being alone, you’ll never know if you are choosing someone out of love or loneliness.”

— Mandy Hale

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all my fictional character/anime crushes

yoosung kim

shinomiya hayato

karma akabane

shouto todoroki

tamaki amajiki

shinsou hitoshi

leviathan

mammon

kokichi ouma

nagito komaeda

scaramouche

diluc

atsumu miya

tsukishima

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hehehe

i think he likes me

not super confirmed yet

but i can tell

so cute and torpe HAHAHAHA

exactly what i like in a guy

why shouldn't i?

it's a free world

and i'm perfectly capable of doing

it wouldn't be anything serious

just play a little

plus, he is pretty cute

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nilapitan niya ko ulitttt

eye contact

and then asked me again if okay lang ako

told him it's just something going on at home

sabi niya okay lang kung gusto niya sabihin sakin or ganun something ganun

ahh so cute

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yieeee concern si bapbap

yieeeeee

ang cute

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“You deserve the love you keep trying to give everyone else.”

— Unknown

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a wednesday, april 17, 2024

the day I am so fucking done with jay ar

i don't even feel forgiveness anymore, i just feel absolute hatred

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a monday, april 15, 2024

the day na-turn off ako kay hapin.

dahil sa nalaman ko from kei

#angeline #angge status

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OH MY FUCKING GOSH

I JUST HAD THE REALIZATION OF A MOTHER FUCKER

i was venting to ai about angge because yeah i don't talk to real humans about my feelings because i'm a bitch with a lot of things wrong with herself

and as i was typing and describing my situation with angge i fucking realized something

fucking Marshy from ig yeaaaarsss ago

fuck

yeah

it was all like deja vu

i started to remember her all over again after idk literally forgot she existed

i was typing this out:

"the weird part is that she was the one that liked me first, she was the one that confessed to me and promised me things like she will stand by her desicion of liking me. at first, i didn't even like her like that and only saw her as a friend but I still gave her a chance because i don't want to lose our friendship. and now, i've actually started to feel things and want to take her seriously, then i realized she wasn't that committed to me at all, and i'm not sure but sometimes i feel like I'm the only one that's interested. and now that we've stopped talking and she didn't fight for me or even at least try for me, i feel so betrayed and that it just confirms all my overthinking"

and fuuuuck it reminded me exactly about the Marshy situation

how i didn't even like her at first but gave her a chance anyways

and then it ends up where i fall harder, then they leave and i am the one to be hurt most

OH MY FUCKING GOSH

ANGELINE HAPIN SITUATION ACTUALLY SMELLS LIKE MARSHY SITUATION

that is so fucking mind-blowing to me

how it has all happened before and yet i didn't even learn shit, i didn't remember no lesson

now that i have thought about more, i now feel like Marshy situation was preparing me for if something like this ever happens in the future when i'm older

and boyyyy

did i NOT learn shit

oh my gosh tho

deja vu is fucking mind-blowing

#angeline #angge storytime

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a saturday, april 13, 2024

she misses me guys

she also reposted a few sad vids on tiktok

#angeline #angge status

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cuz idk if i know myself enough

FAVS:

color:

light pink / light blue

flowers:

light pink roses

forget me nots

movies:

mean girls

it (2017)

show:

anime:

games:

characters:

songs: