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"Nepotism at it's finest, I suppose." Ginny sighed, shaking her head. It was aggravating enough, being prejudiced against because her family didn't believe in the blood supremacy that most of the pureblooded families still clung to. It might not hurt to get some help, but that was assuming his offer was genuine. "Or he'll accuse me of copying an old paper of yours and I'll get no marks at all." She replied, though she did nudge the chair across from her with her foot out a little bit. An invitation, if he wanted. "Don't you have your own homework?"

"Actually I was going to say a mean bat-bogey hex." He wasn't one to often admit when he was wrong, but when it came to Ginny Weasley, he could admit she was a powerful witch. Perhaps more so than the rest of her family. But it was to be expected, there was magic in being the seventh child. "I'm about ninety percent sure Snape fails people on purpose, even Slytherin's. The only person I've known to get good marks in his class is Malfoy, and he's his godson." Blaise shrugged lightly. "If you'd like, I could help you with buzz words that he'll be looking for so he doesn't have a reason to complain at you."

#acourtcfmuses #MUSE / Ginny Weasley #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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"If you didn't think I could do it, you wouldn't have hired me, now would you?" Not that she was sure it was Evelyn's idea entirely - Daisy was used to being used, feted around because of her talent. She won't say she's worked on these day and night, but the idea that she isn't putting her all into it pisses her off. She gives Evelyn a pointed look. "What's wrong with it, exactly?"

Evelyn's tough exterior seems to soften if only for a moment as a smile forms on her lips. "The tough exterior is essential as a woman trying to be taken seriously you must know that." She picks up the page of lyrics and looks them over. "This movie is my first chance to actually win an Oscar so it's my baby. It has to be perfect down to the music so I am gonna have a stick up my ass about this I"m not blowing my big shot."

#lcveblossomed #MUSE / Daisy Jones #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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An addendum to my earlier post about my revamp - I still have not gone through all of my drafts, or even touched the inbox, so I will wait until my next day off to officially drop everything that I won't be keeping, but the queue is beginning to cycle things through tomorrow.

#ooc / a whole ass yikes #to be deleted / trash

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Guilty as sin Elriel plots when? Fresh out the Slammer Neris plots when? Who's afraid of little old me Nesta embracing Lady Death plots when? So long london Feyre about the Spring Court plots when? The Albatross being Nesta plots when? I hate it here Nesta plots when? The Prophecy Lucien plots when?

#WISHLIST / Meet me in the pouring rain #[ my brain is half ttpd and half acotar all the time now ]

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the tortured poets department sentence starters.

i was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me.

i love you, it's ruining my life.

my husband is cheating. i wanna kill him.

thought of calling you, but you won't pick up.

who's gonna hold you like me?

who's gonna know you, if not me?

sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me.

everyone we know understands why it's meant to be. 'cause we're crazy.

who else is gonna know me?

i should've known it was a matter of time.

we could've played for keeps this time.

once i fix me, he's gonna miss me.

he told me i'm better off, but i'm not.

fuck it if i can't have him.

i might just die, it would make no difference.

fuck it if i can't have us.

'cause fuck it, i was in love.

i stopped trying to make him laugh.

how much sad did you think i had in me?

you say i abandoned the ship, but i was going down with it.

just how low did you think i'd go before i'd self-implode?

you swore you love me, but where were the clues?

i'm just mad as hell 'cause i loved this place.

i forget if this was ever fun.

no, i'm not coming to my sense.

i know he's crazy, but he's the one i want.

i'd rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning.

i'll tell you something about my good name - it's mine alone to disgrace.

you ain't gotta pray for me.

no, you can't come to the wedding.

it's gonna be alright, i did my time.

i will never lose my baby again.

ain't no way i'm gonna screw up now that i know what's at stake.

they said i was a cheat. i guess it must be true.

yes, i'm haunted, but i'm feeling just fine.

tell me i'm dispicable, say it's unforgivable.

am i allowed to cry?

i keep recalling things we never did.

someone told me there's no such thing as bad thoughts.

if it's make-believe, why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow?

they're gonna crucify me anyway.

what if the way you hold me is actually what's holy?

you don't get to tell me about "sad."

if you wanted me dead, you should've just said.

who's afraid of little old me?

at all costs, keep your good name.

you don't get to tell me you feel bad.

so tell me everything is not about me, but what if it is?

say they didn't do it to hurt me, but what if they did?

i'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said?

i'm fearsome, and i'm wretched, and i'm wrong.

you caged me, and then you called me crazy.

i am what i am 'cause you trained me.

i can fix him. no really, i can.

come close, i'll show you heaven.

trust me, i can handle me a dangerous man.

you said i'm the love of your life.

well, you took me to hell, too.

what we thought was for all time was momentary.

are they second-hand embarrassed that i can't get out of bed 'cause something counterfeit's dead?

you're the loss of my life.

i can handle my shit.

he said he'd love me all his life, but that life was too short.

i can do it with a broken heart.

i'm so obsessed with him, but he avoids me like the plague.

i cry a lot, but i am so productive. it's an art.

you know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart.

i'm sure i can pass this test.

they said, "babe, you gotta fake it 'til you make it" and i did.

'cause i'm miserable! and nobody even knows!

was any of it true?

who the fuck was that guy?

they just ghosted you. now you know what it feels like.

i don't even want you back.

you didn't measure up in any measure of a man.

were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?

'cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden.

i would've died for your sins. instead i just died inside.

i'll forget you, but i'll never forgive.

i haven't come around in so long, but i'm making a comeback to where i belong.

this town is fake, but you're the real thing.

the crown is stained, but you're the real queen.

you're the new god we're worshipping.

it's hell on earth to be heavenly.

#MEME / Specify Muse #[ this meme falls under the new rules / reply to them same day so ] #[ let's go we're a new person ]

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Most of this will be under a cut because it's long so strap in if you want to know what's happening here moving forward:

The muse list and rules are both being rewritten. Some muses are being dropped, some are being added, and the rules are having minimal changes, but things are still changing.

90% of drafts and memes will be dropped. I am going to strap in to writing today, and whatever is not posted or queued today will be dropped. I need a fresh, or at least semi-fresh, start to get things going again.

I will not do starter calls moving forward, unless they are one-liners, but I will continue to try and post open starters. I know that I have posted starter calls that have received plenty of traffic and then never posted starters - I am often just unable to think of something on the spot, so this will help me moving forward not promise things that I cannot deliver on. I apologize for this being a pattern in the past.

Memes will be replied (or queued) the same day they are posted, in order to keep up and not fall so drastically behind again. If they are not replied/queued that day, they will be deleted from the inbox. I am going to empty the inbox at least once a week, if not daily.

There is a chance that, later today, I do decide on an entirely fresh start, in which I will make a second announcement and launch a new blog. If that is the case, I will always greatly reduce my following list, because I do follow simply too many people that have shown absolutely zero interest in every writing with me. In that case, the same things as above will apply - I will reply to things as they come in when I am able more often, rather than hoarding things and trying to binge-reply.

If you read this much, thank you. I know my activity has been grossly sporadic lately. I won't go into the nitty gritty of how terrible my life has been (despite my appearance on this and other social media platforms, where I put up a surprisingly good front), but it has been absolutely fucking miserable. I miss writing as an outlet and a fun hobby, and whenever I was signing on here to write and have fun, the 300+ things between the inbox and drafts got me incredibly overwhelmed to the point of just shutting my laptop and crying honestly. This isn't something that should cause that kind of reaction, and so I've spent some time ruminating on everything for the past couple of weeks, trying to come up with a solution that doesn't totally fuck over my RP partners, who have been endlessly patient with me, or cause me to have a panic attack over a hobby. If you are interested in what is being kept, please feel free to ask me later this afternoon, and I will let you know what is queued/ready to post. <3

#ooc / a whole ass yikes #[ for the afternoon crowd ]

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Most of this will be under a cut because it's long so strap in if you want to know what's happening here moving forward:

The muse list and rules are both being rewritten. Some muses are being dropped, some are being added, and the rules are having minimal changes, but things are still changing.

90% of drafts and memes will be dropped. I am going to strap in to writing today, and whatever is not posted or queued today will be dropped. I need a fresh, or at least semi-fresh, start to get things going again.

I will not do starter calls moving forward, unless they are one-liners, but I will continue to try and post open starters. I know that I have posted starter calls that have received plenty of traffic and then never posted starters - I am often just unable to think of something on the spot, so this will help me moving forward not promise things that I cannot deliver on. I apologize for this being a pattern in the past.

Memes will be replied (or queued) the same day they are posted, in order to keep up and not fall so drastically behind again. If they are not replied/queued that day, they will be deleted from the inbox. I am going to empty the inbox at least once a week, if not daily.

There is a chance that, later today, I do decide on an entirely fresh start, in which I will make a second announcement and launch a new blog. If that is the case, I will always greatly reduce my following list, because I do follow simply too many people that have shown absolutely zero interest in every writing with me. In that case, the same things as above will apply - I will reply to things as they come in when I am able more often, rather than hoarding things and trying to binge-reply.

If you read this much, thank you. I know my activity has been grossly sporadic lately. I won't go into the nitty gritty of how terrible my life has been (despite my appearance on this and other social media platforms, where I put up a surprisingly good front), but it has been absolutely fucking miserable. I miss writing as an outlet and a fun hobby, and whenever I was signing on here to write and have fun, the 300+ things between the inbox and drafts got me incredibly overwhelmed to the point of just shutting my laptop and crying honestly. This isn't something that should cause that kind of reaction, and so I've spent some time ruminating on everything for the past couple of weeks, trying to come up with a solution that doesn't totally fuck over my RP partners, who have been endlessly patient with me, or cause me to have a panic attack over a hobby. If you are interested in what is being kept, please feel free to ask me later this afternoon, and I will let you know what is queued/ready to post. <3

#ooc / a whole ass yikes #to be deleted / trash #[ in other news - my friend and i got matching twilight tattoos yesterday so that was fun ]

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✵ “ 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒. ” —- 𝐑𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐃.

[ 𝑵 𝑰 𝑮 𝑯 𝑻 𝑺 𝑻 𝑹 𝑰 𝑼 𝑴 𝑷 𝑯 ] ; an independent, private roleplay  blog for the 𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐇 𝐋𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐓, of the acotar book series.  heavily  influenced  by  personal  headcanons  /  au  inspirations.  iconless.  mature  themes.  ||  immortalized  &  loved  by  𝐥𝐩.  25+.  pst.

#promo / let me show you power #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"Well, what was it if it wasn't Stockholm Syndrome?"

"You're the one telling me, people think I had a Stockholm Syndrome"

#mysticaltwoface #MUSE / Snow White #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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Training has been instrumental in her healing process. The Library had become a safe haven, but it had also become a shield, a way to hide from the world at large, and Gwyn was tired of hiding. Her sister would have been disappointed to see her cowering away for so long - training was mending a hole in that loss as well. "I don't know about that. Strength isn't exactly my forte." She replied with a small smile.

@denydefeat asked: ❝ you’ve actually made me feel like a person again, like i’m … normal. … thank you. ❞ / gwyn @ az

"You have never not been normal. Trauma has a funny way of making us feel like we're the one out of place or in the wrong, but we've always been exactly who we are." The Shadowsinger assured her. He might have not went through the pains that she had, but the scars that littered his hands were there for the world to see for his trauma. For Gwyn, her scars were invisible, but cut deeper than most. "You are, and always will be one of the strongest people I know Gwyn."

#acourtcfmuses #MUSE / Gwyneth Berdara #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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"It's lovely." Sansa offered her best attempt at a smile. She truly did like and admire Margaery, who was making the best of the worst situation. However, Sansa suspected that Margaery was more aware of Joffrey and his true nature than Sansa had ever been. The quiet of the Godswood being disturbed by only the pair of them, she does her best to make the smile more genuine. Sansa might like and admire Margaery, but she was unable to trust anyone here. A hard lesson learned.

"I would have liked that. Highgarden really does sound beautiful. I still hope to see it someday." Her hopes of marrying Ser Loras and being able to retire peacefully away from the Lannisters had been dashed by her upcoming marriage to one, but that did not mean she might never see it someday. Hope was all that kept her through the days: hope that her brother might win the war and get her out of King's Landing, or that she might find a way out on her own. "Do you miss it?"

she had been saddened not to find sansa in the gardens today. she always appreciated her companionship, and found her to be one of the few who was honest with her besides her grandmother and brother. margaery could tell that she was unhappy, but did not know how to help. none of this was sansa's fault, she had no reason to apologize in margaery's eyes.

"you need not apologize, sansa. i didn't want to disturb you." she had come in quietly so as not to bother sansa in her reverie. in her hands, she carried a wreath of delicate flowers woven together. there was one on her own head as well. "i made you this, if you would like it. were we in highgarden, everyone would be wearing one." she would have loved to include sansa in the celebrations of her home.

#amongthevipers #MUSE / Sansa Stark #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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"I don't think I'm exactly wanted in King's Landing most days. In fact, you must be the only one pining for my presence."

getting frisky with @denydefeat. ♡

❝ i enjoy the gifts, but i would much rather have you here, uncle. what good is a pretty necklace if you aren't here to see me wear it? ❞

#theirmadness #MUSE / Daemon Targaryen #QUEUE / So she kept trying

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Incorrect quotes: Nesta & Elain feat. off camera Feyre.

#muse / nesta archeron #muse / feyre archeron #muse / elain archeron #nadiaedits

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WHEN I SHUT MY EYES    [   …   ] indie,  private,  selective.   mcu original character,   illyana kozlov [   …   ] ALL I SEE IS DEATH.

#promo / let me show you power #[ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 out of 10 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]

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Perspective's Sentence Starters; MIDNIGHTS by Taylor Swift (Part III)

HITS DIFFERENT

"You made a mess of me."

"They say that if it's right, you know."

"Each bar plays our song."

"Nothing has ever felt so wrong."

"Love is a lie."

"It hits different this time."

"Moving on was always easy for me to do."

"It hits different 'cause it's you."

"Rip the band-aid off."

"Skip town likе an asshole outlaw."

"Freedom felt like summеr then on the coast."

"The sun burns my heart and the sand hurts my feelings."

"I never don't cry at the bar."

"My sadness is contagious."

"I slur your name 'til someone puts me in a car."

"I stopped receiving invitations."

"I find the artifacts, cried over a hat, cursed the space that I needed."

"I trace the evidence."

"Make it make some sense."

"Why the wound is still bleeding?"

"You were the one that I loved."

"It's simple enough."

"This is why they shouldn't kill off the main guy."

"Dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief."

"You once believed in me."

"I held you for a while."

"Bet I could still melt your world."

"I heard your key turn in the door down the hallway."

"Is that your key in the door?"

"Is it okay?"

"Is it you?"

"Have they come to take me away?"

THE GREAT WAR

"My knuckles were bruised like violets."

"Cursed you as I sleep-talked."

"Maybe it was egos swinging."

"Maybe it was her."

"Flashes of the battle come back to me in a blur."

"All that bloodshed, crimson clover."

"Sweet dream was over."

"My hand was the one you reached for all throughout the Great War."

"I vowed not to cry anymore."

"Drank my poison all alone."

"You said I have to trust more freely."

"You were playing with fire."

"Maybe it's the past that's talking."

"I justified it."

"The bombs were closer."

"I vowed not to fight anymore."

"It turned into something bigger."

"Somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed."

"Soldier down on that icy ground."

"That was the night I nearly lost you."

"I really thought I'd lost you."

"We can plant a memory garden."

"Say a solemn prayer."

"There's no morning glory, it was war, it wasn't fair."

"We will never go back."

"The worst was over."

"We're burned for better."

"I vow I will always be yours."

BIGGER THAN THE WHOLE SKY

"No words appear before me in the aftermath."

"Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness."

"It's all over now."

"You were bigger than the whole sky."

"You were more than just a short time."

"I've got a lot to pine about."

"I've got a lot to live without."

"Did some force take you bеcause I didn't pray?"

"Every single thing to come has turned into ashes."

"It's not meant to be."

"I'm never gonna meet what could've been."

PARIS

"Your ex-friend's sister met someone at a club and he kissed her."

"Turns out, it was that guy you hooked up with ages ago."

"Some wannabe Z-lister."

"All the outfits were terrible."

"Did you see the photos?"

"No, I didn't, but thanks, though."

"I'm so in love that I might stop breathing."

"No, I didn't see the news."

"We were somewhere else."

"I was taken by the view."

"Privacy sign on the door and on my page and on the whole world."

"Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours."

"Levitate above all the messes made."

"Sip quiet by my side in the shade."

"Not the kind that's thrown."

"I wanna brainwash you into loving me forever."

"I wanna transport you to somewhere the culture's clever."

"Confess my truth in swooping, sloping, cursive letters."

"Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight."

HIGH INFIDELITY

"I didn't know you were keeping count."

"High infidelity."

"Put on your records and regret me."

"I bent the truth too far tonight."

"Your picket fence is sharp as knives."

"Do you really wanna know where I was?"

"Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?"

"Dragged my feet right down the aisle."

"I'd pay if you'd just know me."

"Seemed like the right thing at the time."

"You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love."

"The slowest way is never loving them enough."

"Do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?"

"It's never enough."

"You were keeping count?"

GLITCH

"We were supposed to be just friends."

"You don't live in my part of town."

"But maybe I'll see you out some weekend."

"I think there's been a glitch."

"I'm not even sorry."

"It must be counterfeit."

"I was supposed to sweat you out."

"In search of glorious happenings of happenstance on someone else's playground."

"It's been two-thousand one-hundred ninety days of our love blackout."

"Our love is blacking out."

"The system's breaking down."

"I'd go back to wanting dudes who give nothing."

"I thought we had no chance."

"That's romance."

WOULD'VE, COULD'VE, SHOULD'VE

"If you would've blinked, then I would've looked away at the first glance."

"If you tasted poison, you could've spit me out at the first chance."

"If I was some paint, did it splatter on a promising grown man?"

"If I was a child, did it matter if you got to wash your hands?"

"All I used to do was pray."

"I damn sure never would've danced with the devil at nineteen."

"The God's honest truth is that the pain was heaven."

"Now that I'm grown, I'm scared of ghosts."

"Memories feel like weapons."

"Now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering."

"If you never touched me, I would've gone along with the righteous."

"If I never blushed, then they could've never whispered about this."

"If you never saved me from boredom, I could've gone on as I was."

"Lord, you made me feel important."

"You tried to erase us."

"You're a crisis of my faith."

"If I'd only played it safe."

"God rest my soul."

"I miss who I used to be."

"I regret you all the time."

"I can't let this go."

"I fight with you in my sleep."

"The wound won't close."

"I keep on waiting for a sign."

"If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?"

"Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts."

"Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first."

DEAR READER

"If it feels like a trap, you're already in one."

"Pick somewhere and just run."

"Burn all the files."

"Desert all your past lives."

"If you don't recognize yourself, that means you did it right."

"Never take advice from someone who's falling apart."

"Bend when you can."

"Snap when you have to."

"You don't have to answer just 'cause they asked you."

"The greatest of luxuries is your secrets."

"When you aim at the devil, make sure you don't miss."

"I prefer hiding in plain sight."

"These desperate prayers of a cursed man."

"But darling, darling, please..."

"You wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking."

I was walking to a house, not a home, all alone."

"My friends found friends who care"

"No one sees when you lose when you're playing solitaire."

"You should find another guiding light."

#meme / specify muse

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I placed my hand on the back of his neck. I pulled him toward me. And kissed him. I kissed him. And I kissed him. And I kissed him. And I kissed him. And he kept kissing me back.

#WISHLIST / Meet me in the pouring rain

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"Oh, if it's someone we know, it's gotta be Randy. Could still be Billy. Or what if it's Syd and she's throwing us all off?" He said, laughing. The notion of it being one of them had to be ridiculous enough to throw everyone else off, no matter how suspicious one of them might seem. "Who do you think it is? My vote is the janitor. He's gotta be tired of cleaning up after us all these years. Finally must have snapped."

“DON’T  GET  MY  hopes  up.”  tatum  crossed  her  fingers  and  grabbed  the  remote  to  change  the  channel.  at  least  the  party  would  get  everyone’s  mind  off  the  murders  for  the  time  being.  “god,  what  if  it’s  someone  that  we  know?  some  tarantino  wannabe  will  make  a  movie  about  it  in  like  two  seconds.  seriously,  though,  if  it’s  someone  that  we  know,  who  do  you  think  it  is?”

#vntagetee #MUSE / Stu Macher #QUEUE / So she kept trying