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easily the ugliest years in fashion of all time have to be the 2010s (post-recession stagnation, embracing Poser attitudes, the [beginning of the] end of Sovl -> business casual, athleisure...)

#not even the 70s polyester craze comes close #& as much as the 1980s make me feel nothing most of the time (SORRY but i have been coming around lately...) #like there was so much originality & experimentation Waht da eff were people doing in the 2010s other than Nothing (ugly) Artifice #by the late 2010s it was the start of the current culture of trying to rehash everything almost completely as it was yet worse -_- #like obviously there were cool people & their calves&followers but that will always be true like anywhere #i do think things are getting better Doe 🦌 lately ^_^_^_^_^ so yay !!! #it just pissed me off as a teenager caus i spent the latter end of that decade as one & everything was just so ugly all the time #which explains why people look to the past now more than ever before #& i know those two things i listed existed before in the 20th century IDC at least there was some variety then #& they looked more interesting than they would later on decades later obv through repetition you lose the Essence & such

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i hope whoever's idea it was to shut down skyblogs suffers endlessly for the rest of their life & never sees a day without misery

#HOW COULD YOU do this to me #seriously never forgiving this decision ever this is my one grudge #all those kikoojap blogs all those blogs of millennials i know IRL such as my tenth grade maths teacher i hated ( the feeling was mutual ) #fashion blogs emo people from my country just an archive of how internetheads behaved on the francophone side of the web back then #facebook is just NOT the same so much less Sovl & authenticity way more normies than not Plus it came later #sad about this again a year or like two later ughhhh so disgusted #i even still have my own skyblog password saved on this very browser</3 but it was like basically empty i had at most one to three posts #easily the WORST part is i have no way of accessing archives #so so damn UNFAIR. #of all people i should be able to browse those. for free

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changing my filler words & noises in order to quirk up my International School Accent

#so sick to death of it & i never even went to one i just taught myself english at age 6/7 via internet surfing #i WANT to sound (more¿) ESL now in an act of hipsteresque postirony i am saying NO to conformism #it just sounds so much better & more endearing & cooler &/or Chic but because i cannot decide on just one “region” to focus on #i sound all over the place As Per Usual & maybe this is a good thing i mean whatever. keep Them on Their toes #just another little twist

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TFW someone you previously had respect for uses the Short Height flirting tactic...

#*guy who visited his friend face* ( <- see how i keep up with trends ? ♯TrendyGirl ♯HipWithTheYouths ) #this goes both ways both if someone says awww you so short & tiny just like a little kid *PUKES EVERYWHERE* or the #OMG i am like sooooo short & small hehe what can i even reaaachhh everything sooo big on mee #stop that... #do that somewhere other than in my vicinity anyway please have some respect where is your dignity. BLOCKED & ghosted #sorry for hating all the time That would be because there is just so much to hate on especially things of this sort #get ein bißchen schadenfreude when that crap gets shut down whether or not due to my involvement

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gatekeepers fear me the way i instantly advertise things as soon as i know i like them

#with exceptions of course like only to people i actually know #i am so pro gatekeeping BTW but i am once again a huge hypocrite in this case #i just want everyone to Enjoy (- Björk) the things i like might make their life better... #if they had no prior knowledge WHY would i keep that from them... #& i always inadvertently pressure people when i shill i am relentless cause i KNOW my thing is good like Do you not trust me </3 #OK so you want me to kill myself...

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i have this "alter ego" that only exists in my head where essentially i am a fat sloppy drunk old fisherman with no loved ones living in misery & isolation & i often imagine myself as him especially in moments of patheticness

#& he is always a fisherman not a farmer not a fisherwoman either ( too badass... ) #past life ?! caus my ♯azn side was all fishers & stuff like my grandfather ETC but like all of them looked anorexic instead of fat so #also i imagine the guy as kind of vaguely mediterranean looking so maybe not because that side of my family are mountain farmers #when i read the old man & the sea ( i hate hemingway BTW ♯NotPete ♯ActuallyMikey ) ( uhm sorry about that... ) #i was like this is my life/future if it was better... 🚬 But that was a good while after i was already thinking of myself like that #closest thing i felt to a kin moment is when we analyzed miss brill like wow me & i am not even old that is genuinely just my life #as a (at the time) seventeen year old. & also carol ledoux from repulsion literally 100% only i am an ugly freak instead of beautiful #i pretty much never think of myself as myself in my head & actually never when i was younger up until age 9 i remember vividly #& i just had this thought while making my lazy “bite sized” onigiri ( bowl of seasoned rice +tunamayo +vache qui rit +avocado +spoon ) #but even when i make the non lazy version i get so overwhelmed & irritated & SLOPPY i feel like a drunk old man with nothing to #live for #anyone else feel like this sometimes... #if any of you weeaboos judge my terminology by the way i will kill myself just FYI #IDCCCC about the actual name you know what i mean. quasi poke bowl but each “component” has its own dish. whatever OK...

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if i were an animal i would be a hyena i am very Curious & resourceful & i always intrinsically believed that males are below me (morally) & i love lying & deception it makes me laugh :3 ETC

#& like the spotted hyena i am androgynous but like not in a bigger size way ( much to my dismay formerly... ) #other duality: i am both bossy yet have “Cuck” type of personality (IDK a better word to use here so...)

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SPERG YOUR HEART OUT

#EVERYONE #NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #& FOREVER #i love it when my friends &/or mutuals post about their interest & Passions i will like your posts but really i Loved them. #i deleted some tags because they might be interpreted as weird(er than usual) but 0_0 i am ♯Passionate about ♯Passion (for fashion - Bratz) #still kind of feel like a worthless human being but i secured another hangout in like a week so yayyy ^_^ #I GET TO BOTHER SOMEONE TOO NOW i just wish people did that to me too why am i like always the one raving #literally have to beg my friend to give me updates on her things even if i normally hate it even i go out of my way to look for things #for us to discuss -_- GIRL please i am for real not just faking for politeness who do you think i am I WANT TO KNOW #so effin excited OMG i have like so much to say & the greatest thing is that this girl has no knowledge at all about my Thing #so i can explain from the very beginning You literally have no idea how much i practiced the conversation in my head #ever since she told me & she said she wanted me to go on & talk about it more i have been Devising My Plan #OMG YAYYYY ^_^_^_^_^_^ AIMU SO HEPI AAARRRGHHHHHGSJDJSHSJDHSHSG #& OFC i had to plug it in the first time i met her in person i just could not help myself there was an NF on that day & i told her i wanted #to catch it i had to go in the end for a different reason & BTW it was such a whiplash the show itself was so fun but the winner... 0_0 NO. #next i will ask her about berserk & maybe even read it so we can talk about it because she really likes it #i dropped it when i was 14 because the laptop i was using to read it was complete crap Just like mine is RN #like a section of my keyboard is completely dead T_T so i have to use the on-screen one...

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#this reminds me of amy winehouse & how Swag it was of her to wear actual ballet dance flats as regular shoes #i want to do that........... #i want to bleed on them too *-* #most of the shoes i own are painful to walk in in some way or other i doubt it would bother me too much #& anyway i am very resilient when it comes to matters of Swagger

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so many of you are wonderful interesting perplexing specimens i am so happy to be attending tumblr dot com with you all

#c: #i honestly learn a lot being here everyone i have is so insightful in various ways & i am so grateful for it #i hope tumblr dot com never ends ^_^ <3 yay

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i belong to the fringe group of tumblr users that has absolutely 0 desire to ever go to japan

#i would rather go to like mongolia or kyrgyzstan & get smashed off that kumis !!!!!!! SORRY that makes me sound like an ♯NLOG #but like for the most part i have Cuck Spirit wherein i always prefer to not be involved first & foremost & Observe to get my enjoyment #like when it comes to most things #i think there is a connecting idea there that i forgot to add Uhm but you get it right my line of thought... #i think that country & i are generally incompatible in multiple ways i love weeaboo women more than i even like it #only secondhand for me you know i am the opposite of a 'respectful otaku' if you catch my drift i only like their Materials so to speak #their Tangibles but also music most of all so not really but yes really... 0_0 #they are one of if not The most excellent curators & i am eating that up as evidenced by my imgblogposts

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#reminds me of the time my friend told me that her aunt was warned not to wear her upside down cross pattern clothes #because she could be executed by DAECH #i think that literally every single time i see that motif anywhere & how could i ever forget...

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聖なる桃色のリスのお話 - ゆり

#GIRLY WRESTLING YURI

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that awkward moment when somebody hands you their phone to control the music with & their BPD girlfriend starts frantically texting them

#*looks away & pretends not to see* sorry for bearing witness to such a private moment Uhm good luck with that everyone #this happened to me yesterday in the car with my brother when he took me to the cinema #not shading her i always think of how i will take her side no matter what if ever there is a fight i have to say something about IRL #sorry not trying to make fun of her but she was crytyping too & it was in english it totally reminded me of when i was 15 #at my quasi-e-GF in 2020 only i was a horrible person & she was in love with an anime guy #some of you here saw that... 0_0 some of you here even reblogged her art piece she made of/for me 000_0000

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i wish i was a lice on a beautiful girl's head

#i always wanted to ever since i read gratte gratte poux in the first grade on bibliobus i so wanted to be a louse #my bio elsewhere says i am the lice in your hair & i never let anybody but girls follow me which are of course all Beautiful #so i am !!! *ponysquee.wav*

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i miss going to school because i always knew everybody's business but nobody knew mine due to being a huge loser. & it ruled

#now i am still a loser ( well actually this cool bubbly normie girl likes to pull me along with her but it makes me feel bad ) #( also i hate going outside & barely do now because i am having an androphobia flare RN which is to say agoraphobia like i vomit... gay AF #but anyway i also went to small private schools with declining enrollment numbers all my life Well only two one for 13 years #& then i switched to a cheaper one on my senior year. i would lurk & people would be like No worries you can say it it's only nyumie here #or they would tell me directly when nobody would want to talk to them due to drama & then leave & forget me as soon as they could #nobody would ever ask about my business it was so effingg awesome. altho there were rumors i was gay ( completely true ) #the fact that both schools were small made it so that it was easier to know what was happening in most grades #but now IDK ANYTHING EVER even if i were to eavesdrop my faculty is just way too big & i barely even attend anyway +i hate that dump ETC ET #this is so detrimental to my QOL & need to Observe &Lurk my life is so EMPTY & boring i want to know somebody's petty drama #& i KNOW it happens you just have to be in a circle & attend everyday which I CBAAAA. when people pull me aside to hang out i know then #but i want NO INVOLVEMENT !!!! i just want to be in the background leave me alone i already have a girl i can relate & be loyal to #& she dropped out i never thought i actually would but here we are. i just want to acquire information from a distance on a regular basis-_ #the reason why i never hated going to school despite bullying up until like my last year is because well i grew up in my original school #so i was familiar with everyone & everyday there would be something new & funny to discuss with my bestie who lives far away now -_- #i meanwe only really saw eachother at school anyway Man i wish i could GO BACK but not really vut yes but no...

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The hipster asian

#Two attributes completely inextricable from my personhood