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Misha...

... what were you going to do with that hand?

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(Russian version of this post for Russian speakers: X) Just for the record - I'm an ordinary human who can make mistakes. Please don't think that my words are real truth. This is just my subjective observation.

To begin with, as we all know (our wonderful Cockles fandom), there was something wrong with W*lker's situation from the first place.

For quite a long time (since the information about Winchesters was leaked), we have observed a very ambiguous situation. As we remember, J*red personally announced that Jensen will direct W*lker. While Jensen himself was in no hurry to officially inform anyone about it. Then a rather strange period of several months began, when J*red and Jensen talked about the “exact” dates of the directing, which wasn’t coming again and again. We don’t take the situation with “Rust”, because it’s a serious and, unfortunately, painful circumstance. Although it also mattered.

Then during the panel there was a conversation about Jensen's birthday, which was quite far from the date of this con. I wonder why Jensen would do this not in his any free time, since he promised it, but on his birthday? Why does he need such a specific binding to this date? What is it? A hopeless attempt to delay directing until the last possible moment, after which he can no longer find excuses not to do it? A very interesting set of circumstances, I think. Very strange, ambiguous and interesting.

Even if we abstract away from Cockles and look at everything from the point of view of Jensen fans, it still looks strange. When two celebrities come to an agreement on some kind of joint work, they negotiate the terms in advance and back it up with official documents, because nothing works without contracts. No one can just show up on set and say: "I'll direct it." This should be backed up by official document, right? Then, based on this whole situation, we can immediately come to the conclusion, which was obvious from the start. That this whole agreement was only in words without specific confirmations and deadlines, because Jensen wasn't sure that he would do it. He wasn't sure until the end.

Why? There are several reasons exist, I think.

First of all, Jensen was really busy. And unlike Jared, who likes to make strong empty statements, Jensen always plans what and how to do. And "squeezing" an apparently unsuccessful show between the schedule of more important and serious things wasn’t clearly part of his plans.

Secondly, the agreement was J*red’s pressure instrument from the first place, who knows how to press the right points and turn the situation in his favor.

And thirdly, another no less important detail, did anyone find the moment of pause of W*lker strange? Why would they put filming on hold for quite some time when, as Jared tried to tell us, the show was supposedly fine? What's wrong? Maybe because just no one needs this show, and there is no expected success from it? In this case, if we summarize it, then this didn't happen by chance, right? The suspension of filming and a deadline are directly interconnected. Because J*red knew that Jensen would really do nothing until this moment, and filming the second part of season 2 without him could be a complete failure. So, it is quite clear that these are interrelated factors.

But something else is more interesting here. I have always been curious personally, what does Misha think about all this? And what does he relevant for W*lker and the fact that Jensen "owed" Jared for no reason? We don't have information about all the details, we see only the tip of the iceberg. But Misha knows everything firsthand (from Jensen). This remained a true mystery, which, unfortunately, no one could solve, because Misha didn't share any emotions on this topic, and no one can read his mind. I had speculations, but they weren't backed up by any facts to indicate his thoughts on the matter. And I don't want to throw information without any basis.

But now the last con has happened, during which I finally saw something. Those were the seconds, and my brain exploded after this moment. It didn't occur to me right away to pay attention to it. When I was watching a video from someone's phones, I didn’t notice. But while watching the whole JenMish panel, when I had a long recording with the right angle in front of me, my eyes still caught it.

So, that was (who would have thought, yeah?) a question about W*lker. Oh, you all saw this moment, right?

It's their nature, yeah? When Misha waits with curiosity for Jensen's reaction to the question. They exchange glances, Jensen shrugs, it's okay. But.

Look at the beginning of the question again. And now pay attention to the first emotion on Misha's face. Not the one that appears when he tries to look in Jensen's eyes. Before it. When he abruptly turns his head. Just fix your attention on it.

It's very strange expression, isn't it? It doesn't look like his standard calm face, or curiosity, or joking "yeah, got it." No. It's… strange. This was much weirder expression than his usual. I rewatched it a few times to make sure that I understood right. It's difficult to find an interpretation for this moment from the first time, however, the more I looked, the more I realized that this emotion is directly related to Misha's opinion on this matter. Not just this emotion, this whole moment.

I discussed this point several times with my lovely @astrariia and we both agreed on a few things. In order to see this, you need to slow down the frame. Misha's lips are pursed and his jaw is clenched. As if he understands that something not very pleasant will happen now. And not from a fan's side, but from Jensen's side, because Misha is looking at Jensen. What is this emotion?

Light irritation. This is the only phrase I could come up with. It immediately develops into their mutual exchange of glances, after which Jensen shrugs, and Misha has a different facial expression (crooked grin). Everything happens in less than a minute, but you can see it.

So. Light irritation. It appeared during the question about W*lker. And that sharp turn of his head? Why didn't he do this slowly how he did it many times before? What is this sharpness? And what's with the expression? These questions went round and round in my head for several minutes, until I realized that this was exactly what I thought of in the first place.

What's even more remarkable is Jensen. When Misha tilts his head, he does it on purpose to meet his eyes and see what Jensen thinks about it. The nod was a silent question. Something like "ready to answer?" Then Jensen looks up at him and shrugs like "do I have a choice?". Then a smirk appears on Misha's face and (again! It's happening again!) some kind of emotion flickers, which is difficult to interpret. It's interconnected with the first emotion, but is no longer it. It's something else. But why did he grin crooked? Was there anything strange in fan's question? No, it wasn't. It's about the topic of the question and what Jensen is going to answer.

And, as @astrariia rightly pointed out, there is an emotion like “oh, I want to watch how you will lie to them now”. Also, Jensen's intense gaze at the fan when he realized the question is about W*lker.

I’ve always wondered what the conversations were between Jensen and Misha because of this show, were they arguing or not. I don’t know. But, perhaps, these seconds answered my question.

Follow this silently emotion's sharing which they will never tell us about. Light irritation. Nod. Jensen shrugs like he's making excuses. Misha's smirk. Question keeps going, as if nothing had happened.

And this wordless exchange of something, clearly not intended for our ears, made me think that yes. Yes, W*lker was the reason for their conversations. And yes, he was probably their stumbling block. Jensen looks like he understands what Misha tries to say, but since he still has to answer the question, so now he can only shrug and to convey wordless something like “I signed up for this myself”.

I can't say how does Misha generally feel about the fact that, for example, Jensen played a character (as far as I know) in love with a girl named Cassie. Although W*lker has nothing to do with the SPN, and making such a reference to Destiel is simply disgusting of them.

Whatever the case, Misha knows how Jensen feels about certain things and knows that he'll have to lie to the fans because he can't tell the truth. And that's what his smirk seemed to mean.

We still have a lot of unclear points. But this convention convinced me of this completely. I don't know about you, guys, but it's enough for me to know that yes, there was something wrong with Jensen's involvement in this from the beginning. Misha (probably) initially didn’t approve of this, knowing where everything was leading. But to say what their discussions led to, unfortunately, is impossible.

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pacing

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broken (x)

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Tattoo (x)

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I can’t breathe 💙💚

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*stripping music starts playing*

jensen:

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like... i understand if some of you don't like cockles, but don't make up shit just to make it seems like they hate each other

because from what i've seen, removing the rose tinted glasses and all, those guys genuinely like each other and are each other's good friends, so really if anything you sounds like an ass for being bitter about other people's relationships :\

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Or evidence that Misha and Jensen actually talk to each other 🥺

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cockles panel!!!

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Misha raised his hand and shyly and quietly said "I'm all three."

Just look at his breathless, little smile right after.

Our introvert, extrovert, bisexual king, we are so proud of you.

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The way he said “introvert extrovert bisexual” loudly in the mic and then almost shy and dismissive “i’m all three” like his heart must have been BEATING loud in his chest but he did it. He did it. So proud of him

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misha collins coming out via a supernatural convention is the absolute funniest and most on brand thing he’s ever done

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no but seriously his post confession tweet about wishing he was as brave as cas. him saying all the time how meaningful the confession was for him personally that he and cas merged into one during filming. his real voice breaking down. homosexual declaration of love. how it shouldn't be a big deal but it is. i am very emotional about this man okay

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Coming out of Misha was the most strongest and emotional thing at this con. I'm not sure if anything can be more meaningful than this moment