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I’m at a loss as to what to do with this acc, and with my diet and life in general… i’ve been so bad the last few weeks with extreme bingeing and no motivation to exercise… all the weight i lost this year had made me “skinny fat” so i don’t even look thin and i’m torn between trying to build muscle now or keep on shedding pounds so i end up doing neither :(

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I’m finally back to that point in my ED where I just feel.. euphoric. It’s the best high in the world. I’m numb to everything but ⭐️ving and I never want it to stop.

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TW: ED

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does anyone know how to help with the tiredness of not eating besides coffee? i can’t drink coffee bc it really messes up my stomach but i get so tired from not eating that i sleep all night and all day and eventually have to eat something before my family gets mad at me. im homeschooled and really depressed rn after my brother just passed so every day is basically just school and sleeping so if you have any hobbies/exercises/anything to recommend pls give them to me <3

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having a cold and st*rving at the same time isn't fun brothers

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i love it sm when companies portion their snacks in actual reasonable sizes , i cant stand it when one pre-portioned snack is more than 110 cals like atp i’ll go eat actual food

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Usually I’m competitive asf but when it comes to my weight, I’ll happily lose 🙃

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challenge:

don’t eat until he/she/they text you

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can anyone else not take that mean$po shit seriously? Like, maybe it’s because I’m 19 and more mature than I was when I was 13 and consuming mean$po all the damn time and taking it seriously. Now i just think its funny as hell. Like, an edgy 14 yr old insulting whoever comes across their mean$po post with the same 5 insults… i genuinely can’t take that seriously anymore it’s so dumb to me.

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omg ive just hit 52 hours into my fast!!! ahh im so happy ive never gone this long before and im not even done!!

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"I ate over my cal budget today but at least I didn't binge" you mean you failed? Maybe go on a walk instead of opening the fridge next time you whale. You have more than enough fat to skip food for a week

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i go to metal/rock concerts a lot, so i see SO MANY goth/metal th1nsp0 in rl, it's hella motivating but also i feel like a pig in the crowd

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i’ve been eating a little more (around 450cal total) since i’ve been sick bc i know i need nutrients to get over this illness but i feel so guilty & like a failure!!! im used to my daily max being around 375 so having more has been hard & not allowing myself to p*rge has been harder. but i go back to work tomorrow & im not trying to end up in the hospital so im just going to convince myself this is a meta reset lol

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I told my friend I’m “on a diet” and she said she can tell that I lost some weight. ITS WORKING

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I’m feeling pretty groggy today so I’m going to go on a two day fast Tuesday and Wednesday, hopefully I’ll feel better ❤️‍🩹, I think I’m becoming more pale, I went in the sun today and was shining bright like Edward Cullen in Twilight ✨✨. Anyways, I’m going to try some new makeup looks I saw in a game. I want to look unreal this summer, thinly unreal and beautiful, ughhhhhhh. Toodles buttercups, this girlie is going to sleep, take care of yourselves and hope your day went well.