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People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

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Ruining it for myselfffff

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Why am I drinking again

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I literally cannot stand my boyfriend's presence rn. I better get over this soon

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Wanting to do the impossible. Wish I could speak it out loud. Wish I was infallible.

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*tearing my shirt off, groaning and twisting painfully like I'm about to turn into a werewolf* I need a kissy

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can i go to your house on monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday and sunday

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The photomatt twitter shit is literally so tame why r ppl so dense

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Discarded Love Dolls

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Grrr I went to Facebook to try to block him and I accidentally hit send friend request 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ now when I unblocked him to see if it was in sent requests it's not there. It better not have sent

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Why did I do that... I was so happy

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I've been having dreams about him but I think he blocked me back. Feeling apathetic towards everyone rn. Outlook not so good

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Can we get Married already so I can focus on myself. Anyways I am in love with you. I think you're perfect. Sometimes I don't feel as strongly as I used to but that's life. I wonder if you feel the same way still. It doesn't seem like you do. I really enjoy your company to say the least and I think that's all anyone could ever ask for.

So let's get married. I'm planning it already. Our honeymoon will be in a corporate hotel on Maui where Leigh Cheri and woodpecker met.

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I'm a lesbian. I don't know what to do

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jonny bolduc, “gut” 2015

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Do you wanna get married? I know I'm only your second girlfriend but I feel so sure I want you for the rest of my life. If you do break up with me I will probably kms though. Damn. I hate myself

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put up wet

#my future