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It's April 30th!

REMEMBER TO LEAVE MILK AND COOKIES OUT FOR JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE TONIGHT!

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The boy who didn't get to exist

Has wrapped bloody knuckles

A boxer's body

And a shaved head

He's pale and doesn't look like me

Though the ribbed tank top looks like

What it was supposed to look like on me

My wide hips

My soft arms

Are wrong

The boy who didn't get to exist

Is roaming abandoned buildings

Like that scene in Fight Club

Punching walls and waiting for the plaster to fall

He is also the fake one, hallucination

Or is he?

He is the one who wants to kill me today

By doing toxically masculine shit

He wants to punch the mirror

And reopen the wounds on his knuckles

He wants to drag a shaving razor across my throat

And laugh while it bleeds

He wants to hit the base of my neck with the weight

That is shackled to his ankle

Who put the weight there?

Was it the wife who was told she was too honest?

Was it the girlboss who was told to smile more?

Was it the teenage girl being slutshamed for her friendships with boys?

Was it the little girl who was afraid of men?

Was it me?

Was it un-me?

Which me is fake?

(Cycling)

You know who he looks like?

Eminem

I've always hated his music

Because it is abusive to women

We don't talk about

The abuse that is done to boys

Who don't get to exist

I need to love him to release him

Trust him enough to take off the shackle

I am honest

I piss people off

When I let myself speak

So I usually don't

I can't fake a smile

Though I bare my teeth when I'm angry

I am still afraid of getting in trouble for talking to boys

I am still afraid of most men

I don't think I did anything wrong

He crosses his hands over his chest

Pink and wingéd one

Evanescing into the sky

Was he a guardian angel?

What's left is a little boy

Who looks like my brother

I have seen this child before

I will make him mac and cheese

And let him drink root beer and watch cartoons

Until he grows up

I am sorry

I am sorry

I am not the one who should apologize

But I am the adult who is here

I threw the weight in the ocean

But the boy who didn't exist will come back to haunt me

Next time I don't let myself speak

Or throw myself on the floor for someone who didn't ask me to

He already says he hates me

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no matter the struggles there is always ao3 in bed

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GLEN 🔥🔥

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“youre so mean” if you guys werent fucking stupid i wouldnt have to be mean to you. change starts with you

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rewatching tg86 like somehow hop 31 will go differently

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Despite being head over heels in love with Ice and Mav's dynamic in the original Top Gun, the same dynamic in Top Gun Maverick with Rooster and Hangman never worked for me. This is my attempt at voicing why:

DISCLAIMER: This was not created with the intention to offend anybody who ships Hangster/Sereshaw. It is simply my understanding of their relationship, and why it doesn't appeal to me. Opinions are like the butthole, everybody has their own. By all means, continue shipping them if you want to, this is only for fun.

Hangman and Rooster's entire relationship is based on resentment.

Unlike Mav and Ice, they have history. There's something from the past that lingers in all of their interactions, poisoning all of their words and actions.

Hangman is frustrated with Rooster, all the time. Of course, he banters with everyone, Phoenix about her gender, Bob about his callsign, but those are more 5th Grader Playground insults than anything. It's different with Rooster, and not in a good way.

When it comes to Rooster, Hangman goes straight to insult his character. He doubts his judgement, insults his way of being and flying, prods about how he needs to change if he wants to fly the mission.

With Ice, he was criticizing Maverick, not insulting him. Hangman is both criticizing AND insulting Rooster because he perceives him in a less that ideal light.

Hangman doesn't understand why Rooster flies the way that he does, and doesn't try to either. He just sees it as wrong and doesn't think twice about it. He goes straight to insulting him because he thinks that it's wrong, and that it's something about Rooster that needs to be fixed.

And Rooster is constantly exasperated because of it. Hangman prods, and jabs, and insults Rooster, but it never works. The more Hangman pokes, the more Rooster closes up, frustrated. He gets angry, pissed and becomes much LESS inclined to listen to anything Hangman is saying.

Rooster doesn't work well under pressure. And that's the only way Hangman operates.

Throughout the movie, Rooster doesn't listen to Hangman once. He might've been right about Rooster being too slow, but it only fell on deaf ears (not to say that he was right to bring up Goose's death, he was defo wrong about that one). All it causes is strife, to the point where Rooster almost punches Hangman because of how infuriating he was to him.

The entire movie, Hangman provoked Rooster to get him to stop being the way he is, because he sees it as a flaw of character. And it doesn't work.

Rooster only drops his need for playing it safe when Maverick tells him to 'Not think, just do'. Because Mav only gave him a push in the right direction, not throw in his face all of his flaws.

(Side note: This is also the reason Rooster doesn't listen to Mav in their argument, because he thinks Maverick was insulting his way of being by saying he wasn't ready. On the mission, by selecting Rooster as his wingman, he recognizes that he is ready, and that he trusts him with his life. Making him more inclined to listen to Mav once in the canyon.)

A relationship where one person is constantly frustrated by the other and the other is constantly exasperated by the former doesn't work.

Because that's how they are, and that's how they function, and it isn't going to change.

Rooster isn't going to stop frustrating Hangman because that's how he works, and Hangman isn't going to stop making Rooster exasperated because he doesn't know how else to voice his feelings.

I can see where the ship comes from, because obviously. Their homoerotic tension could be seen from space. I totally believe that they might have had a fling in the past that ended badly, and that they possibly could have hooked up at some point in the movie in the 'Hate Sex' vein of things. I just don't think it'd be anything beyond that.

They wouldn't work in the long haul, is what I'm trying to say.

They're too similar, and too different at the same time.

They're both hothead stubborn motherfuckers that couldn't come to an agreement if they tried.

And you might show me the scene where Hangman is happy about Dagger 2 hitting the target, and him being absolutely devastated when the same hornet is shot down. I recognize it, it demonstrates care. Hangman cares.

Thing is, that doesn't change anything that I said prior to that.

It's possible to resent, despise, be bitter towards and irritated by someone and still care about them. It's possible to hate them and still care. Hate them, and feel like you don't hate them all the time. Human emotion is a funny thing like that, nothing is ever black and white, always varying shades of gray.

Just because they hate each other (and yes, that is the reading I have on them, doesn't stop them from being horny fuckers about each other tho) doesn't mean they want the other dead.

I believe it's similar to the sentiment of "I hope you get everything you ever wished for, and that I never hear a word about it". Similar, but not the same, in a way I do not know how to describe. Thus, I used that to give the same vibe.

I can't see any future for them, in any shape or form. They hold too many grudges against each other, and both of them have a tendency of holding on to old (bad) feelings far too strongly. Even if they work through whatever problems they have now, new ones would emerge and they would go through the same process again and again and again.

That isn't healthy nor stable. It's not what either of them should strive for in a relationship. With that, I'd probably say that both of them need stable people that hold logic to high regard, and that are easy going (I say that in general terms, with no one specific in mind for either of them).

All that being said, this is my opinion. This is how I view them, and understand their relationship. They don't work for me because I see no logical way they could.

If they work for you, that's great! Enjoy the air gays 2.0 to your hearts contentment, I'm happy for you.

This was just a fun analysis of my vision, with no intention to diminish anyone who might enjoy them.

#i believe hangster could work if they both do a little maturing #this was very well written and i enjoyed reading it

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“men aren’t pretty” wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong bad incorrect stop talking

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me @ my mutuals

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IT HASNT EVEN BEEN UP FOR A FULL DAY YET AND ALMOST HAS 30 VOTES I FEEL UNSTOPPABLE

fanfic options

the fic that’s been cooking has two ways i can see it going and i wanna know which yall would be more interested in reading

are you more interested in:

option 1: phoenix, bob, rooster, and hangman get shot down on a mission and the story focuses on their time as prisoners of war

option 2: hangman gets shot down, half the story is what he suffers as a POW, the other half is how he tries to readjust to regular life after

both fics contain: platonic hangster (it might end up romantic, but i also would like to see more platonic hangster in this fandom, so im not too sure, but part of both will def be platonic), hangman whump bc im nothing if not self indulgent, and a shit ton of angst bc why not

i apologize for any spelling or grammar mistakes i might’ve made, im typing this on my phone 😔

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The person I reblogged this from is awesome as fuck.

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THIS IS SO FUNNY BC I WENT ON A THREE NIGHT FOUR DAY TRIP WITH MY ROBOTICS TEAM IN MIDDLE SCHOOL AND THE BOYS HD THIS EXACT CONVERSATION BEFORE WE LEFT 😭😭😭 they ended up sharing but it was so funny to hear them say they were gonna sleep on the floor or in the bath tub bc they didn’t want to share 😭 we also had like 6/7 girls instead of 2 so we had four in a room too but the difference was that the girls were excited to share lmao

So I’m on a trip with my robotics team and there’s only two “girls” (me, an enby, and a cis girl), so we get our own beds in our own room, but the guys are rooming four to a room, but there’s only two beds in each room. Which means that two guys are sleeping on the floor every night.

I’m not joking. They were literally arguing over who’s sleeping on the floor tonight (apparently they plan on rotating).

And I asked them “why don’t you just share a bed?” And they all gave me the same answer:

“No, that’s weird! That’d be gay!”

And I just looked at them and I decided to break the bad news to them

“If lying next to another guy makes you wanna suck dick, you already wanted to suck dick.”

I’ve never seen so many Straight Guys™️ enraged by a single sentence before

#robotics #middle school #middle school robotics my beloved #the best trip i’ve ever been on

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