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Dumaan ang ilang araw at buwan ngunit hindi na siya nag paramdam saakin nakakaramdam na rin ako pagod ngunit hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa na babalik siya at sasabihing mahal niya ako na naliwanagan na siya sa nararamdaman niya para saakin, sabi nga sa kanta ni dean lewis “ I know you love her, but it's over, mate ” ayos lang naman na sumuko na ako diba? nakakapagod din kasing sabihin sa sarili ko na babalik pa siya saakin

Nag isip-isip ng ilang linggo pa hanggang sa naisip ko na tama na kung baga sa isa lyrics ng be alright na “let her go, It'll be alright ”, sarili ko na muna ang uunahin ko ngayon.

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Ngunit, eto kaming dalawa ngayon ay para bang hindi na magkakilala nung araw na sinabi niya saakin na “ mahal, i need space ” napaisip ako nung araw na iyon kung bakit, may nagawa ba akong mali na hindi niya nagustuhan? na meron na bang iba? , ngunit sinawalang bahala ko lahat iyon at binasa ang kanyang sumunod na mensahe saakin

“ gusto ko lang isipin kung gusto ba talaga kita, kasi nung araw na sinagot kita hindi talaga ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko ” napatigil ako sa aking nakita at sinabing maghihintay ako sa kanya.

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Hindi sigurado ㅤ sa nararamdaman

Ako na yata ang matatawag nilang pinaka masayang tao sa mundo nung araw na mapasagot ko siya ng oo sa araw na iyon na para bang nakapanalo ako sa isang jackpot sa lotto ngunit siya ang premyo na talaga bang hindi mo aayawan.

Araw araw at gabi gabi kaming nagpapalitan ng mga mensahe sa isa't-isa ngunit may iba akong nadarama na hindi ko maipaliwanag sa bawa't mensahe na kanyang ipinapadala sa'akin ngunit isinawalang bahala ko iyon. Bawa't “ I love you ” na aking natatanggap ay tuwa sa aking puso ang aking nararamdaman na parang bang may paruparong lumilipad sa akin tiyan.

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champagne problems

In every love story, the couples will share a gentle love and care for each other, but have you ever tried to reject your lover? In the midst of chaos and ravaging storms, our love once bloomed but began to take on a different form. In the bustling crowds, he asks for my hand with a smile, but upon seeing that smile, I feel a fear that I can't really explain, which led me to leave him out there standing alone.

A thread of our hope untangled, against our will. A ripple in time, where our dreams began to crumble. "Heart was glass, I dropped it.” A word that I can't bring to it's same figure. No vows escaped from our quivering lips, no joyful tears to share, it all faded gently in one snap. Am I really the problem?

"She would've made such a lovely bride. What a shame she's f*ked in the head," they said. Everyone thinks I'm a really bad and crazy woman. Just because I was not ready, I watched him go. What a stupid reason for some people, right? But for me, it's the easiest way to make him happy, even though I gave him a painful past. We once shared a path, but now we are veering about. Without hearts entangled in chains of dismay, we parted ways, even though it's hard to do. This scene gives us a chance to grow, shine brightly, and be strong even when we are not together. In the depths of loss, there's a story that we shared, and in the future, our love will forever sway.

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The villain

 I am the villain in every story. When the shadows came and the darkness bloomed, they saw me as a person full of sins and bad things to do, like painting their moments with turmoil and being the antagonist that etched the pages of their lives. "Kaya laging sinisisi lahat ng maaaring mangyaring mali sa lahat."

A villain that always hasn't had a good ending, but why? Don't you think I don't deserve any happy endings just because I'm the antagonist in every story that always does bad things?  I am easily judged by people without knowing my real story. I just feed on fear and steal hope because of the judgments in society. I am a soul misunderstood by others and a person who is trapped in a room of darkness and blames myself because of their judgments. But who am I, truly? the villain they try to banish? or a normal person full of dreams and hope? No, even though I will be good, in their hearts, my presence is still the same and will remain bad.

The livelyness of my life began to fade, and my dreams became distant echoes. My future seems unreachable for me. But in every story, my past is always a mystery and more painful than anyone else, giving them a remarkable scene. That story is leading me into madness and being a cold and ruthless person. Is this the villain they despise? Or is this what I really want? I let them paint me as their foe in their narratives, and I will be forever like that. In every word and adversary, there's a lesson that you need to cherish and hold; sometimes it's a chance to heal wounds that they cannot hide. Because without me, your story cannot be done greatly." I'm just the villain in your story, right? But to me, I'm just another player that needs to dance along with fate."

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"Sana mahanap mo ang hinahanap mo" yan ang lagi nilang turan.

Tama nga siguro, Sa larangan ng mga pangarap at pag ibig. Nawa'y matuklasan ng iyong puso kung ano ang hinahanap nito, dahil tulad ng nawawalang paslit sa isang iglap maraming pwedeng mawala kung hindi mo matutuklasan ang mga bagay. Dahil minsan ang pagnanais ng iyong puso, ang isang kayamanan upang masdan, Isang pangarap na naghihintay na mahayag.

Hayaan ang pagsisiyasat ng sarili na humantong sa iyong layunin. Sa iyong bawat hakbang, isang paglalakbay upang galugarin ang mundo, At sa bawat sandali, isang pagkakataon lang ang maaaring makuha. Kaya tulad ng ibon nawa'y makahanap ka ng aliw sa matinding katahimikan sa isang tanglaw ng liwanagna gagabay saiyo sa gabi. " Sana'y makahanap ka ng lakas na pang gagalingan upang gamutin ang mga sugat na naukit nang malalim"

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