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they did not have to zoom in on them both straight after this line...,,,,

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noticed similarities between virginia woolf and my myriad of selves

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not now kitten daddy is busy being right all along about gay firefighters

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SIR I'M THE ONE WEEPING HERE WHAT 😭

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#Ryan & Oliver Whenever They Say Something They Shouldn't About Buddie

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but like fuck just imagine. imagine it. your best friend’s shot right in front of you and there’s a moment where time stands still. where it’s just you and him and the red string that keeps you in each-other’s orbit. and then he’s falling to the ground and bleeding out and you drag yourself under a fire truck to save him. and you get him inside and it’s a flurry of motion, sirens blaring as you press your hands into his broken skin trying to hold him together. you beg him to stay with you as you scream yourself hoarse, and the only words he manages to say before he lets go is are you hurt? and he’s wheeled through the hospital doors away from you, and your captain told you once long ago that you don’t go beyond the glass doors, but that’s fine. your heart’s lying somewhere on a gurney inside anyways. everything slots together in a dizzying motion and oh. it’s him. it always has been. this. this goes beyond friendship. it always has. you love him to the core.

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eddie was bleeding out on the pavement and he reached for buck. by the way. if you care

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“it was brought to me a long time ago” how long are we talking? was buck in love with eddie when he was clawing at the dirt, screaming eddie’s name until his voice was shot, collapsing in bobby’s arm sobbing in despair? or was it later? was buck in love with eddie when he watched his best friend get shot in front of him, was he in love with him when eddie told him about the will? was “because, evan. you act like you’re expendable, but you’re wrong” the closest he thought he’d ever get to eddie loving him the way he loved him? maybe later, even? breaking down eddie’s door to get to him, leaving his girlfriend behind to take care of his best friend because there’s no world where someone comes before him? maybe it was before all of that. maybe buck’s heart stopped seeing eddie in the locker room and restarted when their hands met, when eddie promised to have his back and then kept his promise. when he chose buck and kept choosing him. when he loved buck and kept loving him. really, what was buck supposed to do besides love him back?

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So that's why this scene was so... like that... noted.

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#Buddie Wedding Season 10 Everyone's Invited

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#What a year this week has been

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Oliver Stark talking about Buck/Eddie in 2x01 on the I've Never Said This Before with Tommy DiDario podcast [x]

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buck + gay shit going down in his kitchen

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if you told the me who sat through bucktaylor saying i love you to each other that a few years later oliver stark would be confirming that buck turning around and “whatta man” playing as he saw eddie for the first time was, in fact, buck being attracted to eddie and not knowing how to process that emotion i would’ve dropped dead like a victorian child after shotgunning an energy drink

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Q: When you first met that character, and you seemed a little standoffish and maybe threatened, and not a big fan. Do you think it's because deep down you had these... something there brewing, but you didn't know what it was?