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eclipse

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jimajeen

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me: *dedicates life to a band*

me: *has fan account*

me: *knows everything about them*

me: *skips their songs on shuffle*

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i honestly believe human beings are not meant to live like this. we are meant to live in loving communities and be around nature every day and grow our own food and create art and not work day and night until we die. this longing for another life is not human nature, it’s a symptom of modern society.

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things to notice

- how eyes sparkle when people talk about something they like - the colour of the trees in fall - birds chirping - the moon and the stars at night - how people react when you compliment them - blossom trees

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reasons to be happy:

- kind-hearted people exist and the world is full of good things that aren’t broadcasted

- dogs are always happy to see you

- you can look at works of art for free - the sky, stars, sunsets, the moon, flowers, books, your lover/friends

- you can make art and make someone a little happier whenever you want to

- you are made from stardust, and magic exists if you look for it

- good things and lovely feelings exist everywhere

- there is no limit to restarting your life and creating new beginnings for yourself

- you can learn anything you want and the world is out there for you to explore

- you can travel to other universes and time-travel in the form of dreams, books, art, movies, music and your imagination

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we can never be normal

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Me: good morning

My brain at 6:57am: you should have killed yourself when you were 15

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release the tension in your shoulders, unclench your jaw, take a few deep breaths, have some water, everything is going to be okay

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its really comforting to know that all the times i was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the whole time i had my self in the future and present who had survived those things looking back with love and tenderness and wishing desperately to offer comfort…i am my own guardian angel and i can use that knowledge when im struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in her heart

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self doubt is a bitch and im gonna kill her

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Come to think of it i hardly ever look at someone and think they’re ugly? they just are what they are and i don’t think of anything further than that. at the end of the day what sticks with me are the impressions people leave, things like how much they smile/laugh/feel genuine to me. I’ve never really met someone ‘ugly’ in my life unless time proved their personalities otherwise.

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In 2019:

- do more things that make you forget about your phone

- do not compare yourself to other people: trust that you are progressing in your own way

- keep your heart soft, remember that there are genuinely kind people & good things in the world

- finish what you start

- be consistent, and do not be swayed by temporary moods or criticisms from people who don’t matter.

- smile more often

- be okay with being bad at something

- do not blame yourself for people who make you feel unworthy. find new people to talk to and don’t isolate yourself even if you feel awkward or unlovable. don’t convince yourself that you’re better off alone.

- go outside more often and find beauty in small things

- read more books

- be the kindest person you can be

- be so busy you have no time to be bored or dwell on the past

- learn to be patient. don’t rely on instant gratification, wait for the sense of accomplishment after completing a daily goal or achieving a long-term goal

- see bad days as a chance to start again

- always remember that negative thoughts are not the truth. you can do amazing things even though you may feel stupid. you are worthy of love and self care even though you may hate yourself. you deserve kindness and friendship and unconditional love even though you don’t feel that way. people don’t hate you even though you think you’re unlovable. you made mistakes and had bad times but that’s ok - you can always start again.

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That Big Mood when you’re sleepy and tired all day but as soon as the clock strikes midnight you want to draw and paint and steal the mona lisa and do some cart wheels