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i h8 ppl who try 2 sound so smart n then u ask ab smth relating 2 tha world an they r dumbfounded R u fr rn

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i eish ibcould be better at mling friends and being social and normal . sigh

#i feel so out of place Always forever

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i should invest in a pack of gum . or 5

#wish i could just pump nutrients into my body instead of . you know #what a hypocrite . #im overdosing on copium every day of my life but i havr got to. i gotta. idc . #Whay i say applies to every1 but me im the only biych that needs 2

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may will never be my month the way this is going . sigh

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Might just kill myself

#may will be my month fr

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(voice of a man invariably alienated from the human experience): Hey guys

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how old r u

3 😄

#dm for an actual answer i dont like sharing my age publicly :p

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im fine rn But omg im still feeling the after effects of thay crazy crying sesh yesterday Like i feel like i could burst into tears at any time But like im finr

#SLASH SRS im alright . But got damn...

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U r doing this 2 me on purpose !!!!!!!!!!!!!

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😂😂 so like 😂😂😂😂😂 when am i going to get the instructions for making friends and talking to people everyone else got 😂😂 its a little late 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

#Whyd rhey have to make this human connection shit so hard . Why doesnt anyone care abourt what i care about #how come everyone else can hold conversations about nothing without getting bored and i cant . #how come i feel like im receiving automated responses. i feel like my interactions are all surface level #whh doesnt anyone seem as interested in anything as i do . Why do i feel like im being judged for indulging in my interests #how come when i say something it doesnt feel like anyone is sayi g anything back . Why do my friends turn my sentences into filler . #why does it feel like im in the middle of a hivemind and i dont know it . why does it feel like its all computer generated . #why can everyone else talk and laugh and converse withoit trouble but when its my turn everyone treats it like an obligation #nobody wants to watch what i wsnt to. nobody wants to listen to what i want to. nobody wants to talk about what i want to. #And if they just go along with what i wsnt to do im just wasting their time . we wont even talk about it . theres no expression . #i hate enjoying mhself when nobody else is. and i hate when others are enjoying themselves without me #but apparently im not a part of 'together' #how come even in small social circles nobody is treated equally . Whh does preference come into it. #Man. whatever.

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trying to make friends makes me feel like im in 5th grade again

#outwardly i feel like im in 8th grade again but inwardly i feel like a 5th grader #I always feel like the kid who didnt pick a partner bcuz they didnt have anyone to go to #I always feel like the last to be picked for teams in gym #i always feel like the kid you sit next to and discuss eith but never remember their name #<- but during discussion they talk a little too much and too loud and the rest of the table trails off #i always feel like im following around the nice teen taking me to the lost and found after i got separated from my parents #i always feel like the kid who gets invited to play the first couple times but they have too many weird ideas and dont get invited anymore #im always too quiet or too loud or too dumb or too smart or too emotional or too stoic #And so everyone says im weird and wont play with me unless im the only option . #im a toddler that wandered into a world of grownups

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im outgoing but im shy but im friendly but im reserved but im charismatic but im offputting but im caring but im apathetic but im social but im asocial but i want friends but i cant make friends SAVE MEEEEE

#Who else up as an introverted extrovert #Wanting to be friends w people is like a trial of fire and ice

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Man wgat does it matter to anyone anyway like im legit Kinda goin crazy here and everyone is just stones to me . Everyone is rocks . roucks in a big circle and im in the middle and the rocks go NOOOOO LEAVVVIIIIINNNNGGGG and i go PLEWASE MR ROCKS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!! And the rocks aay We are rocks Timr to rock your world and then do nothing.

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Me big stoic man me dont rely on anyone Me have no companions lest they betray me Me so strong me so reliable Me so unbothered

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me so alone waaaahhh me so lonely waaahhh nobody love me waaaaaaaahhh waaaahh waaaaahhhhh me worthless me have no friend nobody care me waaaahhhhh

#Shut up stupid baby God damn

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i hav an ego twenty times the size of my body

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Nothinf bad has ever happened to me!