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“mind passing me the other one?”

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🚬😔🪚

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every time i start to feel cringe for being too deep in the hyperfixation i remember the intense depression i have waded through and have to remind myself that enjoyment is fleeting (so grab it with both hands), and life is for loving (so hold that love close), and if anyone thinks i’m cringe they must not be having a very good time (and i hope they can find a good time soon).

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Jackie was TIRED of hearing about that damn leg

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i have this picture as my current desktop screen so everytime i close my laptop i say ‘game over’ and slam it shut

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ella being… uhhh. ummm. ella.

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fuck it I made these when I was bored

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I don't even know where you end and I begin.

@yellowjacketsnetwork event 01: dynamics ↬ Jackie Taylor & Shauna Shipman

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“Yellowjackets isn’t a show about good people”

I NEVER understand that very common statement. That idea that the main characters aren’t “supposed to be”, from a moral point of view,  rootable or likeable. In my opinion, it shows a great misunderstanding of what the show is portraying, what expectations it’s trying to subvert, especially considering season 2.

The show tells and shows us, over and over again, that the Yellowjackets never grew to enjoy whatever they had to do to survive as teens. They’re not enjoying whatever terrible things they’ve been doing as adults. They’re a danger to themselves and others due to extreme trauma: they need psychiatric help.

They never became sadistic, immortalistic cannibals, as the first episode intentionally misled us into thinking. They became cannibals because they were slowly but surely dying. Pit girl accepted to be part of the hunt, had already hunted other people. Her option to run wasn’t sadistic: considering the group’s beliefs, this option existed so that the Wilderness could “save” someone by killing someone else during the hunt (like with Natalie and Javi). So, she chose to run instead of having a quick death. Her eventual death was quick. The group ritualistically ate her due to their beliefs and to protect their own sanity.

Season 2 was all about Lottie not being immoralistic or “a villain”, but also about how no one else is (except Misty, she’s not “a villain” nor sadistic but she’s definitely not a “Morally Good” Person in the common sense of the concept). Season 3 will probably focus on how Van isn’t immoralistic either. She just learned early in life that in some desperate situations, ruthlessness and selfishness are necessary for protection, and paralyzing guilt doesn’t save anyone’s life or sanity.

The women of this show need psychiatric treatment, but their personal trauma stops them, just as their environment does. I’d say the real “villains”, the ones we shouldn’t root for, are those who enable their trauma responses and participate in triggering them. The journalists, teammates and family members who try to sensationalize and/or utilize their story for their own benefit. The intrusive strangers who ask for details. The cops who aren’t sorely looking for justice, who find pleasure in judgment. The adult family members who become complicit in their crimes, complicit because the justice and healthcare systems might fail their loved ones. Might fail them by assuming what we assumed in the first episode; that they’d become and stayed monsters, deep down. What Ben assumed.

Characters we don’t consider to be good people are characters we don’t think would deserve to be safe and loved if they were real. It doesn’t fit the Yellowjackets.

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i feel like we don’t talk enough about the existence of this picture

#good god

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Taissa would be princess of a whole kingdom & she would refuse to marry no matter who proposed to her & while suitors were pouring their hearts out to her in her courtroom she would just make direct eye contact with the knight stationed at the opposite side of the room (Van, obviously) and smirk, and eventually tell Van to get the man out of her sight. Van would think that Taissa had noooo idea how bad Van was crushing on her but Taissa would be fully aware & would tease Van on purpose. She would call in favors with the captain of the guard and get Van stationed outside her bedroom every night so when she couldn’t sleep they could talk. At first, Van would panic & protest when Taissa invited her into her bed chamber but eventually she would go & Taissa would very slowly start taking care of Van—convincing her to sleep more, offering her food & water while she was on guard duty all night, bringing her warm tea when she was stationed outside. And Tai would come to all of Van’s tournaments and tie favors to her sword & cheer obnoxiously loud. Van would be experiencing levels of yearning previously unknown to man. It would never occur to her that Taissa might be gay too. Even when Tai would coincidentally walk past the armory right after Van was done training so she could casually offer to help her out of her armor. Van would be panicking & telling herself Taissa was just really generous with her time. Taissa would be living it up getting to undress a sweaty butch knight (the dream). She would help Van braid her hair & tuck it up under her helmet. Van would kill anybody who even thought about hurting Taissa—she takes her guard duties extremely seriously. Eventually they would kiss. Van’s mind would be entirely fucking blown at the realization that the princess of her home kingdom has been hitting on her for months. Tai would think it was funny. Eventually they would get gay married bc it’s Tai’s kingdom and she can do what she wants <3. The end.

#THIS IS SO CUTE #cries #taivan #yellowjackets

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//season 1/season 2//

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this big ass layer in tai and van's relationship haunts me

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I NEED to know how Van handled Tai marrying Simone. Did Tai call to tell her?? Was she happy for a second to see Taissa's name lighting up her phone? Did she think, just for a second, that Tai actually wanted to speak to her? Actually wanted to see her? Or did Did Shauna tell her, or someone else all together?? Did she read about it in a newspaper?? Does she have a google alert set up for Tai's name?? Did she see it totally by surprise, going about her day, until she read the news and broke down?? No matter the circumstances, it must've caught her off guard how absolutely fucking terrible it made her feel, right? She must've crumpled to pieces in an empty video store, barely managing to flip the sign to 'closed' before she stumbled upstairs and landed in her bed so she could just cry and sleep and cry and sleep for days. Did she get drunk? Did she think about calling Natalie for something stronger? Did she think about crashing the wedding in a suit and objecting? Did she have drunken fantasies of whisking Taissa away to New York City and taking her on a carriage ride through midtown?? Did she almost smile imagining it until reality came crashing back down on top of her?? Is that when she fully cut herself off from the others? Is that when she gave up on getting Tai back? Stopped thinking of her and Tai as 'us' and started thinking of Taissa as something she actually, irrevocably lost? Did she scour the internet for wedding pictures? Did she masochistically beg Shauna to send her updates throughout the entire ceremony? All of Taissa's vows, what she was wearing, what song they danced to? Did she think about running straight into the first forest she could find, into woods deep enough that she couldn't hear the cars on the highway or see the glint of streetlights behind her? To a place where pain made sense and life was simple? Did she wish she could go back to the second floor of that cabin, sleep with Taissa's wrist tied to hers, shivering in the frigid cold of the worst winter she's ever lived through? I NEED TO KNOW. Did anybody come looking for her? Maybe one of the baby gays she took under her wing who noticed the store had been closed for weeks? Did Shauna call her? Or did she just lay there feeling sorry for herself until she realized nothing was going to change? Did she watch as Taissa's first anniversary passed, then her second, then her third. Did she watch Taissa's son make headlines in the backs of local newspapers? Wilderness survivor turned politician welcomes first child with lauded doctor of comparative literature. Did she buy political magazines that interviewed Taissa, rereading brief soundbites about Simone being the love of her life, the reason she gets up in the morning? Did she watch campaign adds with Simone and Taissa smiling into the camera together?? Did it ever stop hurting??? (Obviously it didn't). BUT I NEED TO KNOW.