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I had a strange experience where I almost lost my eyes today. Who was in my head and I was creating situations where I couldnt do anything except to complain, since the artificial intelligence is designed to make you angry and do things you dont want to do. As well as a bug inside me that is crazy powerful that any witch can control. All because I was suicidal? And I get too into my head sometimes? The nightmare I thought was getting easier just got more horrific, and I dont understand why. But it would make sense that all of my troubles are caused from a situation I had a year ago when I posted online about my youth and the imaginary or inamaginary thought that someone had touched my heart. Now I am pizachu richu and pikachu for whatever reason. Electricity seems to come from my side. its like the hell never ends. I'm a danger to myself, and dont feel safe at home. Thats what they will say, but honestly my mental illness has gotten out of control. I dont know who to turn to, and just when i thought I was getting better, the sense and sensability flew out the window. It started to go dark in each eye, and I was using my brain like a telephone? Which is the craziest thing I can imagine. Like the future, but within my imagination. All centered around spell crafting. I fear someone is slowly trying to end my life. And the only person I know who practices witchcraft Id cut off a long time ago. This may be too literal but I am in a state of panic, and my medications wont calm me. The people in my head say that my mom is trying to send me somewhere, but also the police are involved? And they are telling me to leave my home town. Talk about crazy shit. All over some suicidal ideations? I dont understand. I need to talk to someone who specializes in this before my brain physically hurts me in a way that I cant fix for whatever reason. This is my cry for help. I hope this message recieves anyone in time before anything gets worse. I couldnt make this stuff up. Totally outside my perspective of reality, and while simple in hallucination, very physically harmful to my body and ideas of what it means to be human. I need someone to find out if any of this has ever effected them before, or if I am the only one. I feel very alone, very isolated, and i'm becoming suspicious. I want to be independent but I dont have anyone to lean on emotionally. And I fear the worst. If anyone out there gets this please pray for me or think of me in a positive way, or at least try to understand. I may not be alive for the rest of the year, but if anyone finds this, please know that I truly and deeply care about all of you who struggle the same. And I want to reach out to anyone who knows or has similar experiences. Because my therapists give me worldly advice and my psychiatrist just gives me different pills. All of which seem to calm me down but never relieve the symptoms. I need someone.

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ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND — 2004, dir. Michel Gondry

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Tyler Lawrence Gray

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David Corenswet as Max in The Greatest Hits (2024).

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HENRY CAVILL as STEPHEN COLLEY I Capture the Castle (2003) | dir. Tim Fywell

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ERIC ABRONS (@eric_abrons) on INSTAGRAM.

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I'm sorry health department for being so expensive, and disingenuous. You guys work so hard for us, and know so much about health. I've been wrong before, and I'm sorry that this time I was so wrong.