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The fact that I will never get to fully come out or transition is literally killing me inside

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Its one of those days where I strongly believe I shouldn't believe anybody and I don't deserve happiness

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I'm also really sad and scared I'm gonna be left behind and be out of place so thats also fun should I kill myself yes or yes

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Whaddup its time for that #weekly body hatred!!!

#i gained weight #and im so unsatisfied with my body like #id love to be more masculine and boyish but! im too feminine for that #and!!! if i try to be more feminine #im so uncomfortable #i hate this.

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And nobody cares If your heart is aching Nobody cares If you want no moreNobody wants to know You cried the night before

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i think this is the end.

no more bluffing. 

#i ruined his goddamn life #and fuck he doesnt even think i love him #but hey painkillers feel so so so good

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My self esteem is so low and I'm so insecure this past day I've been so hard to love my body but god do I want to punch a mirror everytome I look at myself and I want to cry so hard

#god every pretty girl ever hurts to look at #i tried to make myself feel better by putting a cute outfit on #only to be filled with so much srlf hatred

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Its over. I lost the only thing I cared about. I was the monster in this. He begged and begged and begged.

I didn't want to but he was in pain. So much pain. I set him free. He's a good person. Hell find someone better than me, anyone is a step up from me.

Its really over for me.

To my beloved. I love you. I always will. Be happy okay? Anything for you.

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I'm just gonna fucking kill myself, I guess.

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Suicide ideation is very strong today

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wow hahaha fuck this i mustve done something really fucked up in my past life to warrent this shit today

imagine only caring about 2 things in your life only to have them being destroyed. im a hopeless cause. i wanna die.

maybe tonights the night ill see a new life, perhaps this next one will treat me better. 

goodnight. 

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dark tunnel by juansen dizon

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