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google how to turn off social anxiety fast real

#person messages me in dms very friendly and open about their thoughts #my immediate reaction: they hate you and think you’re the worst and also cringe and also annoying #WHY AM I THIS WAY #HELP ME BE NORMAL

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hey I know the reason why dipshits are scared of the solar eclipse is because of the “X” it makes over the usa but like. honey if you look at an eclipse map they make X’s all the time. this isn’t special. say it with me now, just because it’s happening over the usa doesn’t mean it’s actually significant <3 y’all are just stupid <3 <3

#usamericans stop being a fucking embarrassment challenge (difficulty: impossible) #i hate living here I hate being surrounded by these people I feel insane #‘the earthquakes!! it’s a sign of the end!!’ babygirl earthquakes happen all the time it’s not my fault you don’t pay attention <3

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brooo i know my dad did not just say that christians are the most persecuted religious group 😭 come onnnnn man come on

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It’s my opinion that like if a white supremacist/Nazi is going to be reformed. They need to do so willingly. The only times I’ve heard of successful rehabilitation of fascists is when they made the conscious decision to no longer be one anymore and seek atonement. People who try to like hug and change fascists that don’t want to change are fucking morons

#god. i nearly fell down the same pipeline as a kid. #the area I was raised in was already super far right. like. 'seeing confederate flags in you neighbor's front yard' far right. #'the south will rise again' far right type shit #doesn't help being raised fundamentalist christian. what with all the homophobia and xenophobia and such #oh and the misogyny. cant forget about the rampant misogyny i internalized #all that was basically a perfect storm for me to get sucked into a lot of shitty ideologies #i am glad to say i never felt that vitriol that's so common in those circles #I mostly just wanted to have a reason to distrust the people my religion told me to distrust #but when one of my closest friends came out to me as gender-fluid #I was like. well OBVIOUSLY I was wrong about this because my friend is great and I love them. what else was I wrong about? #and that lead to me slowly deconstructing all the messed up shit i had incorporated into my worldview as a kid #proud to say I'm now a dirty dirty leftist and make my right wing parents uncomfortable every time politics come up o7

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religious nuts are literally insufferable

#stuck listening to a ridiculous podcast in a car with my mom #the speaker is just. so up her own ass #every other word is either an unhinged conspiracy or a ‘kids these days’ statement #if I rolled me eyes every time she said something idiotic they’d roll right out of my sockets

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i feel like that one greek god. phosphorus or whatever the fuck. the guy who gets his organs eaten by birds every day

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ok slight social blunder addressed and turns out it wasn’t a problem we’re GOLDEN

made slight social blunder killing myself immediately

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made slight social blunder killing myself immediately

#tried to send someone a bit of money cause they had a post up about needed aid #but it’s for their business PayPal and i didn’t realize #so now it’s acting like I bought something from them #but I just wanted them to have 20 bucks cause I can’t afford the art they’re selling #but now I feel like a doofus!! it’s a business PayPal how did I not realize!! #but it’s not like I’m gonna request a refund or something!! #AUGH WHY DO I HAVE ACTUAL ANXIETY ABOUT THIS #I JUST WANTED TO HELP SOMEONE WHAT IF I JUST MADE THINGS MORE DIFFICULT CAUSE NOW THEYVE GOT A PAYMENT FOR A PURCHASE THAT DOESNT EXIST #WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

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does everyone else hear silence or is this tinnitus. it's not ringing but it's. something. what is white noise that only exists inside your skull called

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EUGH my tumblr mobile app just updated for the first time in forever (I did NOT authorize this) and itS SO UGLY AND AWFUL AUGH I DIDNT HAVE TO SEE TUMBLR LIVE UNTIL NOW THIS SUCKS

#DIE DIE DIE I HATE THIS ITS SO UGLY

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i love thunderstorms :)

#rain tip tapping on my window #distant sounds of thunder #feels good man

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i haven’t updated my phone in like. 5 years. but the new update for ao3 says my browser is out of date and i think its the final nail in the coffin for me

#literally using ios 11 #i may be stubborn but. for ao3. i will change

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survived bible study by spending the entire time journaling instead of listening. and you know what. when I went home I saw some fireflies outside the house and they were very pretty :)

how does one tell their very religious parents that you don’t want to go to bible study, since it’s the time when everyone there feels comfortable saying the most unhinged things that cause you the most psychic damage? and also your parents are the church founders, and have no idea that you disagree with almost everything they say in regards to religious topics. asking for a friend

#t​he horrors may be endless but the world is also filled with beauty if you look for it

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I’m really glad I made this blog. if I didn’t have an outlet for all the negative shit I think/feel I think I’d go crazy

#unrelated. isnt it funny how christianity frames any and all negative feelings as sin #isnt. isnt that funny guys.

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was asked directly by my dad if I would come, in case my grandma starts feeling bad partway through and wants to come home. caved and immediately agreed. why am i like this

how does one tell their very religious parents that you don’t want to go to bible study, since it’s the time when everyone there feels comfortable saying the most unhinged things that cause you the most psychic damage? and also your parents are the church founders, and have no idea that you disagree with almost everything they say in regards to religious topics. asking for a friend

#its comical really #this always happens #i fold like a wet paper towel #literally i do not know how to say no to things #why can i never establish boundaries. perhaps it is because i was never allowed to do so as a young child. hmmmmmm inch resting #anyway. completely unrelated. anyone know any good therapists

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how does one tell their very religious parents that you don’t want to go to bible study, since it’s the time when everyone there feels comfortable saying the most unhinged things that cause you the most psychic damage? and also your parents are the church founders, and have no idea that you disagree with almost everything they say in regards to religious topics. asking for a friend

#brother i am not happy. the rest of today has been good. but that means i cant pull the ‘ooo i dont feel well oh nooo’ card #perhaps. if i stay in my room and dont speak to anyone. theyll leave me alone and i wont have to say anything