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BORN TO FORGET

WORLD IS A BLUR

I Am Memory Issues Man

410,757,864,530 FORGOTTEN PRECIOUS MEMORIES

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So after experiencing a terrible loss a few weeks ago, my brain decided to process my grief with some more IR thoughts bc of course it did

So y’know how people keep bitching about the poem “Can I keep up with it? The speed of the world without you in it” and saying it’s not about Rukia, but about Zangetsu? Even though we’ve established time and time again it makes no sense for it to be about just Ichigo’s powers?

Well, I was thinking that it’s not solely that Ichigo stopped seeing Rukia because he lost his powers. Let’s think about what that symbolizes. His powers involve seeing ghosts, spirits, dead people. Essentially, Ichigo lost Rukia to death. Because she’s dead and he’s not. Like he knows death is not the end, but without his powers, he won’t see Rukia again until he dies. And isn’t that just terribly painful? That horrible knowledge. He knows Rukia is okay, that she has a life in death, that she’s not alone. But the point still stands that he won’t see her. He’s stuck living his life until his heart stops beating and for all he knows, he might live a long life. Obviously if Rukia used a gigai, they could see each other and this is all a bit of a plot hole (what else is new in Bleach), but just the heart wrenching thought that he won’t see her again until he dies gives the poem a new meaning. Isn’t that what we all ask ourselves when our loved ones die? Beyond a breakup, or however else we can interpret it, this reads as “death parted them”. This is grief. Ichigo is mourning her.

And this isn’t the first time death has taken someone I love, but idk, I just really felt this poem in a whole another level. Can I keep going without this person I love? It’s terrifying when you just don’t see them anymore. This ache in your heart. And if you’re religious, you know you’ll see them again, or at least you hope for it, but seeing them again involves you dying and who knows when that’ll be. And I knew Ichigo was depressed, but putting this grief related to death into more perspective… he was destroyed, and that’s how that poem now feels for me. This extreme longing for someone who’s not alive. This great divide between them. They’ve always been about life and death in some ways, but now this very key relationship aspect seems even clearer to me.

It’s funny that in my darkest times, I find myself understanding another layer of this ship, one of the most painful ones, because the same can be said when Rukia was taken to the SS. Ichigo lost Rukia to death then too. It gives more perspective to the knowledge Ichigo’s second worst experience was Rukia going to the SS. It’s not quite death as he knew it, but it might as well have been without being able to see her, and then knowing she was going to be executed, dying yet again.

#I’m so sorry for your loss op #this is a beautiful and heartbreaking way to see it #I hope you can feel my virtual hug

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Just got fired from my job for bombing south-saharan farmlands, can anyone spare 700 000 dollars so I can buy a small carribean island?

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#wwid (what would Ichigo do) #every option down from “I trust that she is there (please?)” is him #getting increasingly desperate hehe #ichiruki brainrot real #rukia is the first option. because she has unwavering faith and a steadfast step (and she doesn’t dare to hope anything more) #(that would be ingratitude)

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Maeda Masao 1940

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and on the sixth day god created the gas station convenience store refrigerated beverage section

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simonetta ravizza fw18

#Rukia

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watching the sunset at a grocery parking lot is like omgggg love is so so real and i feel really good now

#me today bc it went crazy was fucking stunning

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I have SOOOO many thoughts about the council of mirrors puckabrina.

I’ve been trying to mellow out to the ending and I think I’ve kinda learned to like it now. My biggest problem with it is that we don’t get to see Puck and Sabrina truly confront their feelings with each other although both of them concede to it after finding out they’re married in the future. I get where MB came from completely when he said Puck can’t provide Sabrina that stability she so craves before she learns to let go and they both def needed to grow up, I just wish they did it together. Sabrina should’ve gone on that worldwide trip with Uncle Jake and Puck! Puck’s whole thing with aging from when they were both kids -because of her- is bc he wants to grow with her. Their moments build so much that the ending falls flat with the introduction of Sabrina getting ready to get married to..someone else. And he crashes the wedding, but the thing is, marriage is such a huge commitment, how did Sabrina bounce back from that 😭 I wish he had more space to write them

but that scene where sabrina latches onto his pant leg and falls and he catches her kills me. I also love how MB writes them being unable to understand the other bc of their diff experiences I just think they should have kissed after idk

#Sisters grimm #puckabrina #brainrot. #and a wee complaining #I needed a little more pining than Sabrina wondering where he was for 5 years and specifically asking on her wedding day 😭 #on both parts #puck is v sensitive to what Sabrina says and does too #Sighs rlly hard #Bradley jump scare #Is that even his name idk don’t remember #Sabrina stand up and go drag your boy fairy back urself and kiss him while ur at it bc he’s scared of rejection and confused af growing up

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recently pulled out my sisters grimm books (I absolutely love the old designs btw so s/o to the jagged storybook edges and richly colored hardcovers with gold titling and really beautifully painted illustrations for the cover) and now my puck/sabrina brainrot will not LEAVE. when an immortal boy fairy doesn’t realize it but he falls in love so hard he unconsciously starts to get older for the first time in 400 years because he can’t imagine a life where he and sabrina grimm aren’t growing together. For the first time I wanted to grow and mature with someone in my soul of souls. Are you KIDDING me

#It’s like I’m in middle school all over again I fucking love them what the hell #Sisters grimm #puckabrina

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Weeping Willow, 1919, Claude Monet

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Angel’s Egg (1985) // dir. Mamoru Oshii

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ストップ!! ひばりくん! illustration：hisashi EGUCHI　江口寿史　1981 #江口寿史 #hisashi EGUCHI #少年ジャンプ #ストップ!! ひばりくん ! #illustration #manga #Japan #stop!! hibari kun! #stop hibari kun #hibarikun

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i am so happy for you and your ugly fucking boyfriend im serious

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Unintellectual property. Really dumb but it's mine.