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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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TRANSOGRAM

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Monopoly house rule that everyone starts in jail because LANDLORDS ARE SCUM

So no one can play until they pay 50$ or roll doubles

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southern tgirls are are sooooo hot what is the cause?? we need to investigate

#trans shitposting

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Oh goody! It turns out they're talking about someone finding a paranormal image within the internet archive's wayback machine.

Hey, Foone, quick question: where are you, right now?

Lemme just watch this video about analog horror after midnight, alone in a former church. That'll do well for my paranoia

#Foonecam

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Lemme just watch this video about analog horror after midnight, alone in a former church. That'll do well for my paranoia

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The idea is an alternate version of The Wire where instead of an anti-torture implant, Garak has had his lizzussy getting continually ate through a portal for years, just to survive the station's horrors. It's finally broken down, and now his vagina is lost in subspace. Bashir has to help him through his cunnilingus withdrawal, and eventually Tain tells him where Garak's vagina is so Bashir can help him through the orgasm-deprivation shakes.

Is this a terrible idea for a ds9 fanfic? Yes.

Do I still want to read it? Also yes.

transman!garak transman!bashir the_wire portal_device edging overpleasured

#star trek deep space nine

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Wait this isn't the ao3 search box

transman!garak transman!bashir the_wire portal_device edging overpleasured

#star trek deep space nine

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transman!garak transman!bashir the_wire portal_device edging overpleasured

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Whichever is available

Went to the dispensary and accidentally got the CBT edibles.

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Also, the way he was discovered is amusing.

So the US ran Project Venona to decrypt Soviet communications. This started in 1943 because a US colonel was afraid the soviets were gonna negotiate a separate peace with Germany, to let them focus entirely on defeating the US/UK.

Now the soviets were using a code book plus one time pad, which is an unbreakable system if used correctly. It was not used correctly.

A working one time pad system requires the pads to be random and unrepeated, but the book of one time pads they were using had duplicates, compromising the whole system.

Why did it have duplicates? Because it was put together in Moscow, in 1942.

WHEN THE NAZIS WERE ASSAULTING THE CITY.

So understandably they made some mistakes and cut some corners. They were trying to write a book full of secret random numbers and the fucking Wehrmacht were shooting at them with tanks and artillery.

So they duplicated pages to get it done faster. This let the US intercept over 2000 messages. This included enough information to identify most of the Soviet union's US spy network.

So yeah the moral of the story is that if you're doing work under pressure, the quality can suffer. And the ultimate pressure is FUCKING NAZIS TRYING TO CONQUER YOUR CITY.

The Bretton-Woods conference, the post ww2 conference to try to determine the shape of the world economy, was apparently dominated by Harry Dexter White, the senior US representative.

He ended up talking over John Maynard Keynes, the British representative, who wanted the fix the post-war economic problems by inventing a new world currency, to be used by all nations.

That currency was called the Bancor.

Harry Dexter White, who imposed the US's idea of a world financial system and was also the first director of the IMF, was also a Soviet spy.

History is weird.

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The Bretton-Woods conference, the post ww2 conference to try to determine the shape of the world economy, was apparently dominated by Harry Dexter White, the senior US representative.

He ended up talking over John Maynard Keynes, the British representative, who wanted the fix the post-war economic problems by inventing a new world currency, to be used by all nations.

That currency was called the Bancor.

Harry Dexter White, who imposed the US's idea of a world financial system and was also the first director of the IMF, was also a Soviet spy.

History is weird.

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Went to the dispensary and accidentally got the CBT edibles.

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Beautiful!

deer girls with antlers

it's really the perfect gender, in my opinion.

It's like; a highly visible way to indicate you're trans, you could have taken steps to try and hide that to pass better BUT YOU DIDN'T, and if anyone gives you any shit you can kill them with your antlers.

what's not to love?

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I find this Antonov An-74 plane hilarious. Not just because of the weird engine placement, everyone finds that hilarious. This (and the related AN-72) are nicknamed "Cheburashka", after this cartoon character:

But no, the even funnier thing, to me, is how they've labeled this plane. Lemme zoom in:

THEY PUT THE PLANE'S FAX NUMBER ON IT

who sees a fucking plane and goes "hey, maybe I should send that plane a fax"?

#planes

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something you said has been on my mind for a while - "kink is not inherently sexual". good faith! I don't understand that at all, could you explain it a bit?

This post is educational, hooray! Extensive discussion of kink under the cut. Nothing explicitly sexual is described in detail.

Please note that in this post, I use the terms top and Dom/me interchangeably. This is because I personally identify as a "top" and not a Dom. Some communities draw sharp lines between these two terms, and it's useful to make sure that you're using the same definition as other people when you're talking. Some people use "top" solely to refer to the giving or penetrative partner, which is not synonymous with the dominant partner. Topping subs, power bottoms, and all other permutations exist. I just use that term for myself because I don't like being called a Dom. It sounds like a guy's name to me, I don't like it.

When I text my wife in every morning, "Please bring me my coffee," and she answers, "Yes, Sir!" is that sexual? I'm surely not feeling sexual when I'm barely awake. When I hold my other wife's hand when she's having a depressive fit and tell her, "Daddy's got you, it's okay," that's kink, but it's not sexual. In that moment, neither of us feel particularly sexy, and we're surely not engaging in sex, but it's kink that - forgive the pun - binds us more strongly together.

One of my girls wears a 24/7 collar that I locked in place. (She can ask me at any point to take it off, or she can take it off herself if she wants to, but she chooses this.) That's kink. It's also... a necklace. That's not any more inherently sexual than her wedding ring, though it - for us - certainly symbolizes part of our relationship that happens to sometimes include sex, exactly the same as a wedding ring.

There are a lot of types of kink that don't include sexual contact in any way or which might include sexual contact but don't need to. One of my friends is a sex-repulsed ace bootblack. They literally take care of the boots of tops, usually at play parties. For them, this act of service and submission allows them to go into a particular headspace that's very fulfilling for them. They are explicitly serving the people whose boots they clean and polish. The Dom/mes receive that service and not only get really great-looking boots out of the deal but also get the feeling of power from having someone eager to take care of them and serve them. For some of us, that kind of service allows us access to a feeling of power that can be hard to access in our daily life, and that feels really good.

Sometimes, it can feel good in a sexy way, and sometimes it feels good in a "makes lizard brain feel powerful but not sexy" way. Neither one is inherently better or worse or more or less kinky than the other.

Sometimes, people who like being whipped like it because the line between pain and pleasure is like a wave on the ocean, and they want to surf it. Sometimes, that involves mashing squishy bits together, and sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes, it's just about riding that endorphin wave and then having someone take care of you afterwards.

Sometimes, people want to be tied up in elaborate shibari knots and fucked. Sometimes, people want to be tied up in elaborate shibari knots because that process requires a lot of trust and is an intimate ritual that takes a lot of time. Sometimes, it's both. Sometimes, people want to tie up others because it's a beautiful work of art, because that ritual of binding is a ritual and accesses something sacred for them. Sometimes, they want to be tied up because it's playtime, and that's fun for them! Sometimes, they want to be tied up because when they're tied up, they are 0% in control, and they want to just surrender control to someone whom they can trust.

Some people want to go into sub space - that headspace I talked about earlier - because in their everyday life, they have a lot of responsibilities and stress, and going into that space where nobody can ask anything from them, where they have no responsibility to make any decisions at all, is a relief to them. That might involve squishy bits, or it might not. Some people like going into that sub space because being someone's Good Boy, Sweet Girl, or Good Pup is gender-affirming for them. A friend of mine only feels really safe when he's got his pup hood on, because that means he's With Master, who will protect him.

Some people get gender affirmation out of being in control, being someone's Daddy or Mistress, Sir or Boss. It allows them to access a power that helps them to square their shoulders and take on the world.

All of this entirely skips over the fact that a person's primary sexual organ is between their ears, and some people do get sexual fulfillment out of kink even when no genitalia are involved at all, but I cannot stress enough that the reasons that people enter into the multitude of kink situations in the world are as varied as the people involved. People gain access to comfort, to feelings of stability and order and control over their lives, to gender affirmation, to endorphins that are or aren't sexual in nature, to release from responsibility, to ritual and intimacy, to the ability to provide for others and take care of others in a way that their outside lives may or may not permit. For that matter, they may simply gain access to a paycheck, and that's fine, too. That's no more or less "selling your body" than when I used to run my ass off for 13+ hours a day at my retail job, and I guarantee they're making way, way better money.

The fact that so many people see kink as only and purely sexual means they're missing out on so much of what kink can offer, and narrowing down the experiences of others to this tiny little sliver of what actually exists. Yes, it can be sexual, but it doesn't have to be. The reasons that people engage in kink are as varied as the reasons that people engage in any other kind of interaction, and the fulfillment they get from it is as varied, too.

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