fromsurvivingtoliving222

[fromsurvivingtoliving222]

Neck Deep - In Bloom

[fromsurvivingtoliving222]

Poverty

I had the realization that writing a book is my way out of poverty. I get defeated easily, which is something I'm trying to work on. So starting to write a book when I have not practiced writing anything may not be the best thing to start with. I feel like I am coming out or I am completely out of survival mode. I want to practice *writing because it is therapeutic and I want to practice what I encourage. And I just realized that I want to learn how to be present in the moment so i have to just type away. That is why I will have an editor. And since I am just blogging right now, I can learn how to be my own editor. Just keep writing and flowing with the thoughts because that is being in the present. You are always trying to live in the past or the future. Wow I am aurally being in the present. I have never felt more peace than right now. Oh my god I am typing with my eyes closed so i am just using my intution typing this. I got distracted at the end. wooooo. Holy fuck. the "woooo" i backspaced and retyped. and still typed it without mistakes. Damn my intuinion is dope.

I have to trust myself. I need reassurance all the time, when I can soothe myself. My words are powerful.. my intuition is powerful... My energy is powerful. i cannot wait to use it for good in the world. I'm here to make people feel like they're not alone.

My sister is the missing puzzle piece I needed in order to start my journey with writing. I am remembering a lot of memories ... but I need to trust my own intuition. Nope, that just auto corrected. Not everything is what it seems.

Damn, a free write is crazy... wild.... those are not negative words. crazy in love is supposed to mean good. But why is crazy bad?

If someone knew me, they would think i was schizophrenic when i just wanted to free write in this journal to begin my journey.

take care.