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*through gritted teeth* every day i choose to be kind *barely restraining myself from violence* i choose to have compassion *tamping down the vicious bloodlust inside me* i choose to care and to be kind and to love

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The moment I’m all alone and have nothing to distract me is when I fall apart and I give in to self destructive behavior

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Every night I lay awake just staring at the loaded gun next to my head wondering who the shell in the chamber is for. Me? Sometimes well more often than not I hope it is for me. I drink to try and gather the courage but never seem to find it. So a few more sleepless nights I guess.

#depressed #sucidal #self hate

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Am I mentally fucked or I just don't cry anymore

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I'm so tired.. just pass me the gun.. or the address to that high building with the beautiful view... because I can't handle it anymore..

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I just want 2 be considered 😔

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I just want 2 be considered 😔

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