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even as jim nods affirmatively, he knows she'll be back. just as well as he knows mccoy will always come home after his long, moonlit shifts, even if it's too an unwelcoming bed with his wife's back turned. maybe even the guest room. and it's a damned shame. mccoy is a good man. a wonderful man. jim's fingers tighten around his glass - mccoy doesn't deserve to walk this heavy.

and a wonderful man who apologizes for disturbing the peace with his own misery. it brings a faint smile to jim's lips, head shaking just so in disbelief. of course he would think of the feelings of others above his own crumbling marriage. "hey, you don't have to apologize - this isn't the first rough relationship i've witnessed."

being a teacher exposes jim to all sorts of home lives. parents who turn up at parent-teacher conferences with their child sat between them as the neutral ground between two warring fronts. parents who don't show up at all. at least jo is surrounded by love. no doubt in that. jim exhales shortly and leans forward to rest his arms on his knees, cradling the whiskey glass between his hands. "look - this sort of thing isn't easy for anyone. you gotta find a way to... forgive yourself. i wanna see that, too. you walk around with the weight of the world, i'd hate to see your back break."

ghouliic​.

i’ll give you something to make you call out god’s name. the thought strikes jim before he can stop it, and he’s glad ( not for the first time ) that his boss isn’t a mind reader. or, at least, is too preoccupied to use that required psych course rattling in any doctor’s brain to read jim like a book. luckily, it’s a common stream of consciousness at this point and doesn’t cause him to falter much, or prevent him from practicing comfort mode.

“ nah, ” jim replies, though takes a cautionary glance over his shoulder in the direction of joanna’s room. “ she did great today, so she’s got some free time to listen to the frozen soundtrack on repeat —— with headphones, you can thank me later. ” as much as he absolutely loves to see mccoy be a father, to see him take part in joanna’s hobbies alongside her… the guy looks dead on his feet.

and as jim steps closer to accept the drink, he just wants to knock it back and treat mccoy to a back rub, or something to relieve the weight from his shoulders… but he has some semblance of self control. even in the face of something so dismal. he takes a seat on the ottoman across from mccoy’s armchair, maybe closer than an employee should be to his employer. and maybe if his leg twitched just slightly to the left, their knees would brush together. the ‘ almost ’ feels electric in the air.

“ you okay? ”

at least there’s that.  there’s too much tension in the way mccoy carries himself for jim to be able to perceive how he ever so slightly relaxes at the reassurance.  as long as jo’s okay.  that’s what’s carried him through the past decade,  what he prays will carry him through the next. it’s why he still tries with joss,  why he works nights so he can be home when jo gets home from school. 

“ nah, ”  mccoy echoes,  because there’s not much of a reason to lie to jim.  their friends,  jo’s teachers,  his mom —- he and joss have gotten pretty damn good at keeping up their facade.  no need to get anyone else worried. “ nothing to do about it now,  though.  joss storm past you on your way out? ” 

even as he says it,  he regrets it.  the vows they made fifteen years ago were never ones he meant to take this lightly,  and it stings to talk about jocelyn as if she’s not his best friend anymore.  she isn’t,  hasn’t been in a while,  but admitting that to anyone other than himself and god is a betrayal. “ sorry you keep having to hear this,  jim.  we didn’t think it would be … this bad when we invited you to stay. ”

#kingdomlit #; mobile

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( kingdomlit​ - bones )

“ jim ⸻ ”  he sounds tired,  shoulders slumped ever so slightly. anyone who knows him would assume it’d been a long day at work ; there’s not a soul alive who isn’t drained by a hard day in the operating room.  not a good soul,  at least.  that’s what mccoy always insists. he thinks it used to be exhilarating,  when he was young.  now,  he’s just exhausted.  comes with the line of work. 

except it comes with the marriage,  too.  he barely has the energy to lie about it to jim ⸻ to jim,  who’s the only light left in sweet little joanna’s life,  jim,  who’s heard every single argument between len & jocelyn this summer.  damn walls.  pay a couple million for a big house,  and they still make the walls too thin. 

mccoy pours himself a glass of whiskey,  thinks for a second,  then pours one for jim,  too.  he slumps into the big armchair in the living room,  glass in one hand,  head in the other. “ assuming you heard that.  tell me jo didn’t,  jim.  give me one thing to thank god for today. ” // @ghouliic 

i’ll give you something to make you call out god’s name. the thought strikes jim before he can stop it, and he’s glad ( not for the first time ) that his boss isn’t a mind reader. or, at least, is too preoccupied to use that required psych course rattling in any doctor’s brain to read jim like a book. luckily, it’s a common stream of consciousness at this point and doesn’t cause him to falter much, or prevent him from practicing comfort mode.

“ nah, ” jim replies, though takes a cautionary glance over his shoulder in the direction of joanna’s room. “ she did great today, so she’s got some free time to listen to the frozen soundtrack on repeat —— with headphones, you can thank me later. ” as much as he absolutely loves to see mccoy be a father, to see him take part in joanna’s hobbies alongside her... the guy looks dead on his feet.

and as jim steps closer to accept the drink, he just wants to knock it back and treat mccoy to a back rub, or something to relieve the weight from his shoulders... but he has some semblance of self control. even in the face of something so dismal. he takes a seat on the ottoman across from mccoy’s armchair, maybe closer than an employee should be to his employer. and maybe if his leg twitched just slightly to the left, their knees would brush together. the ‘ almost ’ feels electric in the air.

“ you okay? ”

#kingdomlit

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Grantaire got wild 😏

#* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ ship: enjolras / grantaire. ⦆ #I'm here for r absolutely wrecking e

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❥    feeling   things   ,   a   sentence   meme   .

what are they called again ? emotions ? ugh .   ( taken off of pinterest )

❛  you were dead.  yet, here you are.  ❜ ❛  speak your mind even if your voice shakes.  ❜ ❛  you inspire me to be nothing like you.  ❜ ❛  every day i wake up more tired than i’ve ever been.  how long will i stay like this?  ❜ ❛  fuck you’re cute.  ❜ ❛  don’t get attached.  ❜ ❛  i am fire.  i am hatred.  i am consuming.  ❜ ❛  there is a certain amount of truth behind everything that people do.  everything they do tell you a little something about them.   ❜ ❛  i wanna fucking date you, stupid.  ❜ ❛  which is it?  are you in love with a person or an idea?  ❜ ❛  you will get better.  maybe not today, but someday.  ❜ ❛  there’s a reason i never told you all of this.  ❜ ❛  let’s get drunk and tell each other everything we’re afraid to say sober.  ❜ ❛  i wanna see what happens when i don’t give up.  ❜ ❛  yeah you’re cute but are you good for my mental health??  ❜ ❛  … and then i just snapped.  ❜ ❛  i still repeat the things you said to me in my head.  ❜ ❛  your hands are scarred from murder, and yet i trust them completely.  ❜ ❛  shit.  i think i have feelings.  ❜ ❛  i believe in annoyed at first sight.  ❜ ❛  what did it mean to you?  any of it?  ❜ ❛  can someone please be proud of me?  like fuck, i’m trying.  ❜ ❛  i sometimes wonder if things only get better so that they can get worse again.  ❜ ❛  hey, sometimes you gotta kill a guy.  ❜ ❛  i broke my rules for you.  ❜

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🎊🎉And that's a wrap!🎉🎊 Phew, all 7 days of codywan week, done! A huge thank-you to@codywanweek for hosting! And a shoutout to everyone for paticipating!! We did it!!!!

As you might've been able to tell, I was purposefully assigning a distinctive colour palette to each day. I think, when put altogether like this, it looks quite cool!

(I've also uploaded the artwork for this week on INPRNT, if you want to buy a print!)

#VARIOUS AUS OF HUSBANDS

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“Lightsaber” prompt for Codywan Week 2021!! Have a Force Sensitive Cody hehe. AU in which the clones took over their cloning facilities with the help of force sensitive clones before the war could start and kicked all the trainers and Jango out (he was allowed to take Boba with him). Another Jedi was drawn to Kamino as part of a Search and long story short Cody became a Jedi Knight and falls in love with Obi Wan (there’s a reason I’m an artist ;u;). The war happened anyway because Palpatine can’t help himself but this time the clones are fighting for themselves. And Cody cuts Palpatine’s head off in the end.

#; Obi-Wan #; ship: Obi-Wan / Cody #THEY'RE BATTLE HUSBANDS

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ghouliic ——— indie ship-focused multimuse. written by lilie. (21+)

                                               MUSE LIST     /     RULES

                                                                                                                    ( temp. )

#fallout rp #the arcana rp #dragon age rp #harry potter rp #les miserables rp #jesus christ superstar rp #jcs rp #tsoa rp #myth rp #marvel rp #natm rp #pokemon rp #spartacus rp #star trek rp #star wars rp #until dawn rp

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so i went ahead and made the stupid shipping only blog

it’s for characters i don’t want to write fully, just the ships, or some characters i do write fully but Really want those ships. come join me for just trash shipping. available to friends or new people as long as i feel our writing is compatible. if we’re not mutuals (like if you’re a personal blog who just wants to rp), submit your url into the interest tracker and i’ll reach out to you.

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[safiya nygaard voice] hello friends and welcome to a new blog

i’m lilie, i’m twenty-seven, i’m she/her, and i’m a gay disaster. also seen on cryptiique.

this blog is for complete and total shipping! if you’re here, i assume you want to ship! here’s how it works:

check out my interest tracker. add your url to the ship you’re interested in. i’ll check out your writing and see if we’re compatible. this makes allows personals to roleplay, but i would prefer if there is a specific blog (sideblog is fine) for roleplaying. if we’re compatible, i’ll reach out to you.

we’ll chat and plot around first before jumping right into the ship so we can build the background and our thoughts on how it should go. and it’s more fun to know the other person.

i’ll likely give my discor.d after chatting enough, as it’s easier to plot there.

if there’s another ship you’d be interested in that i don’t have listed, but you know i’m in the fandom, let me know!

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Jesus Christ Superstar (Sweden, 2014)

"then, we'll write the gospels and angle it so judas gets all the blame."

jesus played by ola salo, judas played by peter johansson

#* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ musing: judas. ⦆ #* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ ship: jesus / judas. ⦆

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“Patroclus is my sworn companion. His place is beside me.” 

The Song Of Achilles, ch. 10

#* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ musing: achilles. ⦆ #* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ ship: achilles / patroclus. ⦆

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June 6th, 1832, dawn.

#* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ musing: enjolras. ⦆ #* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ musing: grantaire. ⦆ #* ｡✧ ━ ⦅ ship: enjolras / grantaire. ⦆