Hello could I please request civilian!reader staring at the batboys for a long time and goes âwhy are you so perfect and handsome, Iâm so lucky to have you and I will protect you with my tiny body and handsâ đ¸
Idk whether or not this is what you wanted anon but I hope you like it at least in some way đ
Jason canât help but let out a full belly laugh upon hearing your declaration after having stared at him for a full hour, as he walked over to you to cup your face in his hands and rest his head against yours.
âHow sweet you of chipmunk, Iâll make sure to keep that in mind whenever Iâm in trouble.â He murmurs as his thumbs stroked your cheeks.
He found it extremely endearing and sweet that you would ever go out of your way to protect someone like him but he preferred if you were to stay at home where it was relatively safe. Jason cared way too much about you to loose you, even if the comment was made in a lighthearted way.
Gotham was far too cruel for someone like you and you both knew it, the city was bound to swallow you whole before you even made it down the street.
The other thing that stuck in Jasonâs mind how you thought he was perfect and handsome, to which he would always respond with;
âIâm far from being either of those things chipmunk, but Iâll take the compliment.â
Jason didnât view himself as an ugly dude but nor did he think of himself as handsome either, he grew up in Crime Alley and was taken in by a billionaire, he never had times to focus on the way he looked or acted in the eyes of others. Until you of course.
To Jason, Dick was someone many would consider a handsome and perfect man while those same many often regarded him as the complete opposite under the same breath. So whenever you held his face in your hands and called him handsome or perfect with a look of utter love and adoration in your eyes, Jason canât help but find himself slowly starting to believe that he was in fact a handsome man.
If anything Jason views himself as the one who is lucky to have someone as good and as perfect as you and he reminds you of it day and night, whether he was Jason Todd, your perfect man or Red Hood, feared vigilante of Gotham.
Dick: found it really cute that you thought you could protect him, someone who had the insane flexibility and agility of a cat, but he wasnât one to crush your dreams and aspirations.
âMy hero has finally come to save me?â Heâd gasp dramatically as he practically falls into your arms, causing you to buckle under his weight and collapse on the bed and giggle at his theatrics.
However he wouldnât dare let you put yourself in danger in any way shape or form for the likes of him, he refused it as this life had nothing but take and take and take from him anything and everything he held dear.
He still remembered how he felt partially responsible for Jasonâs death that he tries to make up for it by being in his corner when it seemed as though everyone thought ill of him.
So Dick really doesnât want you going and pulling the heroic card on him as he wasnât sure heâd be able to handle it, heâd act like he could when in reality he was doing far worse then anyone could imagine. So it be better if you let him do the saving.
Now Dick was aware of his own attractiveness and appeal but when you were the one calling him perfect and handsome, heâs smiling widely and internally kicking his feet and saying silly shit like;
âYou still have a crush on me? How embarrassing for you.â To which you respond with âDick weâve been dating for 8 months-â
When anyone else calls Dick handsome they are pointing out an already pre established fact, but when youâre the one saying heâs handsome it has more meaning as it felt as though he was being shown something that he never knew was there before. He lived for every time you called him handsome and it wasnât because of an ego thing, he just like you calling him handsome and would never want to live in reality where he never heard you say it ever again.
Damian;
âI can protect us both without issue so thereâs no need for that.â
He sometimes takes your word a little too literally, regardless whether you were joking or not.
He was the crime fighter out of you both, so just let him do all the fighting, he doesnât want your eyes to be burdened with the violence and criminal activity that he was accustomed to.
Also when you called him perfect and handsome, Poor Damian didnât know what to think as it wasnât something he viewed himself as nor expected anyone outside of his family to either.
He could handle insults and such but soft words laced with love and care towards him was an entirely new feeling for him in general that it both scared and excited him simultaneously. Besides Damian wasnât interested in tibial things such as being conventionally attractive or whatever troubles the average person, he never thought it of any importance when other things took presidency in his life.
However when you compliment him, Damian couldnât help but feel as though he was a little boy again, he would feel himself stiffen for a moment before the appropriate response came to him as easy as breathing, because caring for you was as easy as breathing to Damian and heâd do anything to make sure you were safe and sound wherever you are; for without you heâd be deeply lost.
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Hi Jade!! I love your writing so much! you wrote a few fics of postprison!reid with kinda shy!reader like the one where she faints and I loved that dynamic and that Reid, do you think you could write some more? pls pls pls <3333333
cw non-consensual drug use /reader is spikedÂ
Spencer is quite gorgeous. He has a great smile, soft and a little shy without teeth, exuberantly bright like a commercial with teeth. Heâs smiling like he can read your mind now, fishing for your hand, and taking it into both of his. Your pinky in one hand and your index the other, he wriggles your hand back and forth and laughs softly. âYou donât handle inebriation well.âÂ
âWhat?â you ask, startled. You canât believe heâs touching you like this, casual, like heâs your boyfriend. Your hot boyfriend.
âYou think Iâm hot?âÂ
You squint at him. âWhat?â you ask.Â
He covers your hand gently with both of his. âNevermind. Do you want something to eat now?âÂ
âNo.â Youâll throw up. Chunks, probably, your breakfast. And it wasnât even a healthy breakfast. It was waffles and whipped cream and then a donut on the way to the office, Spencer will be able to tell, heâs too smart, heâs too everything.Â
âIâm not that smart,â he says kindly.Â
Thatâs a straight up lie.Â
He laughs heartily, at odds with his quiet talking, and youâre so confused because itâs like heâs reading your mind? Can he read your mind? Thereâs so much stuff about yourself you donât want him to know, your chest hurts thinking about it, you donât want to tell him anythingâ
âI think Iâll go find you a hot chocolate,â Spencer says, the sleeve of his shirt falling down unbuttoned to his wrist as he stands. He pushes it back up. He is surprisingly underdressed today and youâve no idea why. âDoes that sound nice?âÂ
âI donât think you should leave.âÂ
âI donât want you to tell me stuff you donât want to tell me,â he says.Â
âBut if you leave Iâll be by myself.â You sound strange to your ears. Crackly, like a garden fire.
Spencer perches himself on the hospital bed next to you. Youâre sitting cross-cross on the tight white and blue sheets, waiting for something? Something was supposed to happen, you know that. A doctor was going to take your blood. You look down at the crook of your elbow to find they already have, a cotton pad medical-taped to the skin.Â
âIâm not going anywhere if you donât want me to go,â he says, taking your arm into his hands with the same care heâd shown your fingers. He lifts the corner of the tape and begins to pull it away from the direction it had been stuck in, stretching it, and removing it from you without any pain.Â
âWhere did you learn that?â you ask.Â
Spencer holds your arm in his hand now the cotton ball is done. âLearn what?âÂ
Youâre not interested in asking him again. Weirdly, your throat feels dry, but you wonât tell him because heâll offer hot chocolate again and you donât want him to go.Â
âHey,â he says, ânot going anywhere until it wears off. Not if you need me.âÂ
How does he always know what to say?Â
âYou know, why donât you get into bed and lay down for a little bit? You must be tired, sitting up. Itâs so late.â His voice is a sheet of silk.Â
âI thought we were going home?â you ask.Â
âWe canât, bub,â âthatâs a new oneâ ânot for now. But we will tonight, I promise.âÂ
âWhy not now?âÂ
He smiles sadly. ââCos youâre coming down, Y/N.âÂ
You frown. âOh.âÂ
âI know.â Spencer wraps and arm around your back. âBut youâre not alone.â He ducks in until your faces are almost touching. âYou know? Itâll go away soon.âÂ
You donât know why you say it, but you say, âYouâre so nice to me. Even when youâre scary.âÂ
âAm I scary?â he murmurs.Â
You look at him long and hard, feeling the warm rub of his thumb as he smooths a short line into your back. Spencer is intimidating, maybe, because you hadnât known him when he got out of prison, and he's pretty like a model, or a movie star. But he isnât scary. Thatâs not the right word.Â
âNo,â you say. âI guess not.â You pause. âI feel weird.âÂ
He doesnât laugh like you, just hugs you tighter. âItâll get better.âÂ
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I've let this wolf into my home (I feed it even when it bites)
Blood nose and a crooked tongue (I always wanted to be someone) - series masterlist here
pairing: tim drake x reader (gender neutral)
length: 1.5k
genre: fluff ??
warnings: you don't know red robin and timmy are the same person but he sure knows you, he's also so so awkward but he can't help it
a/n: alright alright alright here we go <3
The jingle of the coffee shop door opening startles you, your head snapping up from where you're sitting, slouched over in the corner. It's a 24-hour shop, yes, but who else would really be here at 3am? The barista behind the counter looks just as surprised, blinking rapidly and looking at the person who came in.
You, on the other hand, opt not to, sighing and looking back down at your table, instead. The coffee in your to-go cup is still hot, burning your fingers as you shift them over the label. It's bright, a cartoonish sort of thing that grins up at you like an old friend you should be happier to see. You've been getting this coffee for years. You're never quite as happy as you should be.
The chair opposite you makes a horrible sort of sound as it's pulled out and you look up to see who's sitting across from you. You purse your lips in annoyance while he just looks at you.
"All the other tables have just been cleaned. They're wet," he points out. You let your eyes flit around the cafe, the tabletops shining wetly in the dull glow of the lights, the disinfectant bottle still sitting abandoned on one of them.
"Lucky me," you bite back, taking a sip of your coffee. It's sweet - too sweet, but not enough to cover the bitterness of the burnt grounds. You always think that if you pile enough sugar into it, it'll mask what's wrong. You're never right.
The man sitting opposite you takes a sip of his own - he left it black, you notice. He grimaces slightly at the taste, but keeps drinking anyway. There's no effort there to pretend it's anything other than what it is - burnt, cheap coffee sold to him in a cafe full of ghosts, in a city that should be sleeping but never really does. It's interesting, you think, as you look out the window and into the dark street. You'd almost managed to convince yourself that you were really alone - that there was no one else in this world except you, until he walked in and broke the reverie of your 3am silence.
For what it's worth, Tim regretted it as soon as he'd walked in. He hadn't meant to stay, really - ending up in a part of Gotham he didn't often find himself in, in his civvies and in desperate need of a hot cup of coffee and a long sleep, he'd stumbled across the flickering, neon sign of a 24-hour coffee shop.
What good luck, he'd thought. Now, sitting across from you, there's a desperate little part of him that thinks maybe it wasn't just that - maybe it was intuition that drew him here. You don't know who he is, of course, all your previous meetings happening in the shadows of your home with his face hidden from you. Tim shifts in his seat, suddenly aware of how naked he feels, exposed to your wandering eyes.Â
And you do let your eyes wander, narrowing them suspiciously as you take him in. Tim feels a pang of guilt that surprises him when he thinks that this is probably how you've always felt with him - like a lamb with a wolf at your door. As you lean back in your chair, swirling your coffee and letting your gaze trail away from him and towards the window, he feels his shoulders drop in relief. He's not the only wolf in your living room late at night, he realizes. You've got teeth of your own that he'd just never noticed.
You're good at this, Tim thinks with a start - you've got a foot propped up on the window sill next to you, your head resting in your hand as you watch the street outside idly. Or, at least, it's supposed to look like that. He thinks that if he were anyone normal, he would believe it. But Tim has spent enough time as prey to know when someone's pretending to let their guard down.
He looks away from you almost forcefully, staring down at his cup and running his tongue over his teeth as he thinks of the burnt taste of it. He wonders if you were smart enough to put sugar in yours - wise enough to bury the bitterness with something nicer. It's something he always thinks he should do. He can never quite make himself.Â
"I'm sure those other tables are dry now." Your voice makes him flinch, a hard, forceful thing that cuts through the silence of the night that's blanketed the two of you. Tim looks around at the dull, streaky tabletops and shrugs.Â
"I'm already comfortable here," he offers. You cock your head to the side and look at him, but make no move to fight him on it. He thinks it's probably stupid of him, inviting a lion into his home like this. He wonders if you feel the same way every time he slides in through your balcony door.
There's a silence that, once more, overtakes the two of you as he shifts in his seat. Tim wonders if he should drink faster, if he should pretend to be finished so that he can leave. It's funny, he thinks, how he finally felt like he'd stopped running away when he started running into you. It's funny that, now, he's itching for it, his hands gripping his cup in an attempt to still his heart - his need to escape.
You look back at him just in time to see him squeeze a little too hard, the cheap plastic lid popping off and hot coffee sloshing a bit over his hands. A mild, bemused sort of look crosses your face as you watch him curse and splutter as the coffee burns his hands and spills onto the table. Then, without a word, you stand up and begin to walk away.
Tim, in the meantime, is rubbing his hands against his jeans, his eyes squeezed shut in mortification as he wonders how he ruined it all so quickly. Not for the first time, he wishes he was in the mask - thinks maybe the only way to hold onto you is to make sure that's all you ever see. But then your cup scrapes across the table and he opens his eyes to see you sitting opposite him again, sipping idly and watching. There's a stack of napkins that he swore wasn't there before and - oh.
"Thanks," is all he can make himself say as he grabs them, cleaning up the mess he's made. As he goes to pop the lid back onto his cup, he looks at the dark liquid inside and grimaces, deciding that maybe it's not worth it.
"It's shit coffee," you say, and he slams his hand against the table, crushing the plastic lid in the process. Truly, he's not sure if he's ever acted this nervous before. You pay it no mind. He thinks maybe he could take off his mask, just this once, and reaches up to his face in time to remember that he's already exposed to you. "You're better off finding something else⌠or just going somewhere else." Tim smiles, then, a charming sort of thing that has you narrowing your eyes.
"I dunno,' he says. "There's something I like about right here." You glance down at your own cup, at the label that you've picked and peeled off until it's unrecognizable, the colours torn and cracked.
"There's nothing good about right here. And things like that don't change." Tim looks at you for a long moment after you speak, letting the words tumble around his head before he stands, taking his cup and squished lid and pile of wet napkins with him.Â
"Well, I've never been big on change, anyway," is all he says as he walks away, dumping everything in the bin and letting the bell on the door jingle as he walks out. Looking back down to the table, you notice the card he's left behind - the Wayne Ent. logo flashing behind his name. Flipping it over, his number's been written in a hasty scrawl.
As you thumb a corner of the card, you wonder when he'd slipped it onto the table - when he'd written on it. Mostly, you wonder what kind of person he'd have to be to do it without you noticing. You trace the numbers with your finger and think that something, far in the back of your mind, is telling you that there's a familiarity about it all.Â
But what's familiar about seeing someone in a place where you never should? What's normal about that man, appearing like a ghost in the night and disappearing just as fast? As you pull out your phone to add his number to your contacts, there's a part of you that thinks maybe you should run away - that maybe you're not the only thing stalking the streets of Gotham this late.
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Red.
Remus Lupin x fem!reader
"I'd rather not see you at all."
"You'd miss me."
based on a request.
warnings: banter, probably fluff, my writing
8.1k
author's note: i dont know how i feel about this but enjoy. english is not my first language so beware <3
You stood on your feet, staring dead into the brown eyes before you. You weren't even aware of your frown, but you were sure you didn't look happy. His mocking eyes were eliciting you, sending waves of rage down your chest.
"How about you two sit together?" James asked, smiling with his eyes.
You reminded yourself that your anger wasn't aimed at James but rather at his tall and vexatious friend. Thus, instead of snapping at him, you sent him a mere warning glare.
"Or you can just fight. That'll work," James shrugged and turned around.
Your eyes averted back to Remus, who had slouched behind your deskâthe same desk you had been sitting behind for years.
"That is my seat, Lupin."
He didn't budge at all, keeping on staring at you.
"I didn't see your name on it."
You pinched the bridge of your nose. This boy was going to be the end of you.
"Remus," you said, "I've sat there last year and the year before that, please go find yourself another desk."
"It's a new school year, though, is it not? Make a change."
He must be testing your patience, which was at its limit. The lesson was about to start and yet you were still on your feet.
You blamed Remus for that.
The desk he had been resting behind was yours. You didn't need to write your name on it, everyone knew it was yours. For six years of Transfiguration, you had been sitting there, listening or sometimes disturbing the class with James and Sirius. It had a nice view of the board and could hide you well if needed.
Thus, you had always sat behind Pads and Prongs while Remus satâŚ
Well, you didn't know where he sat, but it was definitely not next to you.
"Miss Y/L/N, sit down please."
You closed your eyes for a moment when you heard Professor McGonagall's stern tone. With a quick glance around, it was obvious that you were the only one standing. So after a sharp exhale, you sat down next to Remus.
"Wanker."
Remus let out a derisive hum.
This. This was what would drive you crazy. This was what would make you want to strangle the boy, burn the body and get away with murder. That mocking, jeering and pleased hum.
James and Sirius would always tease you for not getting along with one person that anyone could get along with. Always fighting and bantering with one person that anyone could have a proper conversation with.
The problem was that they weren't exactly wrong.
You always witnessed how Remus was kind and gentle with everyone, rendering it absolutely impossible to bicker with him. He would smile and nod, easing his way out of every dilemma. He wouldn't pick a fight, and certainly wouldn't provoke anyone.
Except you.
With you, he was acting like a moronic person. Or that's what you thought.
When you were little, he would pull your braids in the mornings, but would mumble a quick 'I liked your hair today' in the evenings.
When you were famished for breakfast, he would grab the last waffle before you could, leaving you frowning with an aching hunger, but then leave bars of chocolate on your books during class breaks.
When you would be studying with the Marauders and couldn't cast a spell, he would smirk and mock your ineptness but would seek you out before the exam and explain how to move your wrist better than any professor could.
He would never disrespect you, but wouldn't let you stay sane throughout the day, either.
Lost between his inconsistent behaviours, you would find yourself confused, overthinking every tiny interaction to fathom if he cared for you or not. You would often decide on the latter.
For the sake of the other boys, you would ignore his gall and cheekiness. Although you had moments of outbursts, which would eventually lead to a bigger fight, you had managed to keep the problem under control so far.
"Miss, Y/L/N?"
You jerked your head up, finding the source of your name. McGonagall was piercing through you with her icy eyes, almost judging you for not listening, without voicing anything.
"Yes, professor?"
"Answer the question."
What question?
She asked a question?
You parted your lips, shuffling useless facts or overlooked memories in your mind to stumble upon the right one.
You felt one second drew out to one minute, or maybe it was simply your anxiety. Embarrassment was making its way under your skin with every second- or minute?
You were starting to sweat as your body was on fire.
"Levicorpus," Remus whispered under his mouth.
Not wasting a second, you repeated the word, earning a nod from the Professor. She turned away, carrying on with the lesson.
"What was the question?" you asked the boy. He didnât bother to look at you.
"Pay attention next time."
âJames, itâs a terrible, horrible, and incredibly foolish idea.â
You were dawdling around in the yard, enjoying the weather while you could. With the chill breeze mingling around your hair, nothing could ruin your peace. That is until the Marauders entered the scene.
âExactly. Thatâs why we should do it.â
Being friends with James and Sirius was hard, especially if youâre the only one with common sense. Who would believe making a firework explosion in the middle of the Great Hall would earn them a ball to celebrate Christmas?
James and Sirius.
âWe need to call Dumbledoreâs attention. Bring it right up to the headmaster, or it wonât work,â Sirius backed up his friend. You ignored Remusâs scoff-like laugh.
âYour worry is that if you bomb up the Great Hall in front of any other professor except Dumbledore you wonât get a ball?â
âSee, now youâre getting it-â
âWhat makes you think you will get a ball?â
James stopped walking, put his hands on each side of his waist in disappointment, and frowned.
âNow, youâre just repeating Moony.â
You glanced at Remus, who was staring at you with blank and tired eyes. This boy really needed to sleep, but that was another dayâs problem. Your eyes lingered a bit longer on his attire before returning to James; tawny jumper with black lines and ivory trousers under a pastel orange trench coat.
âRare moment of your Moony using his common sense,â you shrugged. âYou know youâll get a huge detention, right?â
âWhat else is new?â James smirked. âAre you gonna help us?â
The prospect of a ball during Christmas did entertain you. Fancy dresses and music, all while carousing with your friends was something no teenager would reject. And you knew if things wouldnât go as planned, Marauders wouldnât acknowledge your involvement; that was an agreement between the four boys even Remus had honoured. So you agreed to help them.
They made you regret it a few moments later in the Gryffindor common room.
âIâm not working with Remus.â you shook your head intently, wearing a displeased expression.
âOh come on! Why not?â James pleaded. âYou two are the best at Charms! You just need to figure out how to charm the fireworks to act how we want them to. Pete will get them and hide them, while Pads and I will handle transforming them into letters.â
âBecause last time we worked on something together, it blew right in our faces.â you point at Remus with your hand. âI got zero when I couldâve got the best point available.â
âWasnât the potion perfect? Professor gave you a zero because you wouldnât stop bickering,â Peter said. âIt was very distracting.â
You cringed at the memory. Your hard work had held no value only for a little (or not so little) quarrel with your partner. The only nice outcome was that they rarely partnered you two together anymore.
Remus was slouched on the couch, legs apart with one hand placed on his thigh, while the other held a book. He lowered his book to look at your discontented face.
âIâm not happy about it either, yet you donât see me whinging.â
You winced at him in aversion.
âIâd rather not see you at all.â
âYouâd miss me,â he tilted his head, wearing a feigned smile.
James clapped his hands to prevent another incoming tiff.
âAlright, you two will start your research when you see fit and keep us updated. Donât drag it out until November though, itâs a bit of a complicated matter.â
By the time a month had passed, you had figured that irritation was like a bunch of thorns piercing through your skin thanks to Remus. You had also learned that you can murder someone by spoon, but why would anyone bother themselves with shoving the spoon down Remusâs throat?
Therefore, you had been sitting with Remus every week, halting yourself from stabbing him with your quill. He wasnât helping you out at all.
âStop hitting my arm,â you whisper-shouted once more. Was Remus Lupin thick-headed? He didnât look like it, so he probably just enjoyed getting a reaction out of you.
âWhat is your armâs business next to mine? Sit properly.â
âRemus, If you havenât noticed, youâre tallââ
âThank you.â
âI didnât mean it as a compliment, shut up,â your head snapped in his direction, facing his smug grin. âYouâre taking much more space than me.â
âWell, sorry for you.â
âYouâre distracting me from my studies.â
âYouâre doodling right now,â he pointed to the paper before you with his brows. âAnd miserably failing, if I may add.â
âNo, you may notââ
âIs that supposed to be a rabbit?â he inclined his head an inch more to the paper. You smelled his shampoo from his hair, crisp and woodsy and; the brown locks were so close you wanted to run your hand through them to see if they were real.
âThatâs clearly a cat.â
âWhy does your cat have two paws?â
âSheâs sitting!â
âYou really suck at this,â he propped his head back, offering you a pitiful look.
âOh, and youâre rocking?â
âTen points from Gryffindor, Miss Y/L/N,â you flinched at your name from McGonagall.
âBut professor, Lupinââ
âOne more distraction and I will make it twenty.â
You clenched your jaw shut and lowered your head, letting embarrassment swallow you whole as all Gryffindor students sent you scrutinising glares. Of course, you would be the unlucky one that would get picked by the professor, not Remus, who was provoking you in the first place.
So, until the end of the class, you kept your head low and zoned out with your doodles.
You drew a circle, but it was more like a sun in your mind. Or the moon. You didnât remember.
You drew ears for the moon, and it seemed like two triangles stuck to a circle, but you didnât mind that either.
You even took some notes of the lesson but then you scribbled something thatâs supposed to be a lamp or a cactus on them, so they werenât very readable in the end.
You only snapped out of it when the unusual noise rioted, signalling that the class was dismissed. You had spent an hour doing nothing; an amazing use of time.
Remus pushed a parchment on your art pieces, covering them. You didnât see what was scrawled on the parchment as Remusâs hand had blocked the ink.
âI do rock,â he said before heading out of the classroom.
You stared after him as he disappeared behind the door. You thought he would be in the library as you lifted the parchment.
It was a sketch of you from the side.
You took the red velvet cookie in your hand, examining it for any trace of poison. They seemed perfectly fine, delicious even. What was troubling you was that they were a treat from James. Thus, there was no way you could get good-looking, appetising, tasty cookies without a headache.
âHave you two started your research?â
That was it. You had a headache.
Therefore, you deserved the cookies. You took three of them in your hand and threw yourself next to Sirius. You turned to lock eyes with Remus, all while nibbling on your sweet.
You noticed him looking at you and then your hands and then...your lips? You immediately pushed the thought deep into your mind, not indulging it even a second. No, he was probably staring at the cookie next to your lips.
Unconsciously, you put the sweet down and arched a brow at him.
âNot yet,â he said without breaking eye contact with you.
You heard James groan and used it as an excuse to avert your eyes, but you could still feel his brown gaze set your body aflame. You couldnât quite figure out if it was his hatred or something else that you refused to voice that was burning through you. You didnât dwell on it.
âYouâre waiting for Christmas Eve to do it?â
âProngs is right, Pick a time and do your homework, lads,â Sirius agreed. âPete is done already.â
âItâs hard to mentally prepare yourself for Remus,â you said, mouth half full.
âDonât talk your mouth full, itâs disgusting.â
âYou havenât seen yourself eating, have you?â
âHere we go again,â James complained. âJust go to the bloody library and find the spells, will ya?â
Remus stood up, and strode up next to you, towering over you. You stared at him like he was a crazy person, which he was in your opinion.
âLetâs go,â he said.
âNow?â
âYes, you have things to do?â
You didnât have things to do. In fact, your only to-do list for today was eating red velvet cookies. Thatâs why you didnât know why you were hesitant to go and be alone with Remus. You didnât know why your heart started to pick a race, either.
âIâmâŚâ You looked around, seeking an excuse that you knew didnât exist. âEating cookies?â
Remus grabbed the cookie jar. âYouâll eat them on our way to the library.â
All four boys were looking at you expectantly, so you hopped on your feet. You didnât bother to take the jar from Remus.
âDonât sulk, Y/N, itâs for the greater good!â You heard Sirius call after you.
You exited the common room, went down the stairs and hastened to the library. You didnât look back for Remus; you knew he was there. You could feel his presence.
You didnât question how he had managed to get the cookie jar in when you entered the library and he placed it on a table. You simply turned to the books, chasing their titles with your finger.
âWhat are we exactly looking for?â
âSomething that will charm the fireworks to act how we want,â Remus mumbled, too focused on the book titles. You noticed him examining the shelves that you had passed because of your height. It both irritated and tingled you the way he effortlessly could reach the top shelves.
âAnd how do we want them to act?â
âFly around in order, not the way they fly around usually.â
You hummed and didnât engage in anything more. Taking a cookie from the jar, you started reading and digging into all sorts of books.
How to charm your brush to comb your hair?
Not the one you've been looking for but sounded nice, you should look it up some other time.
Charms to take revenge on the ones that wronged you.
Would Remus get suspicious if you picked that one? You should look that one up too, next time.
Charms for cheating in the exam.
Why did a school shelter a book like this?
Charms for celebrations.
You smiled, looking up at the red-covered book. If there was a celebration, then there certainly would be fireworks.
You stretched out your hand to take the book, but your fingers only brushed its spine.
You climbed on your tiptoes, trying again. This time you could feel the engraved title letters on the spine. But other than that, to no avail.
A heft and warmth, that didnât belong to you, stroke your body. Your skin reacted faster than you did. You felt the surge of an unfamiliar heat and shivers under your skin, unable to fathom the hand on your hand.
You turned your head back, almost bumping it into Remus's chin. He wasn't looking at you, but you could see his clenched jaw and stiffened shoulders. The close proximity was suffocating, or maybe your breath had hitched. Either way, you held your breath.
Remus grabbed the red book, stepped back and started skimming it.
"You're starting,â he said.
It took you longer than usual to react to him.
"I found the book first," you said after recovering from the sudden and uncharacteristic surge of heat. You hoped your face wasn't flustered.
"Why didn't you take it first then?"
He was mocking your height difference, and it didnât annoy you this time. It did, however, make you conscious of your heartâs rhythm.
"I was close. You interrupted me."
Remus looked up from the book, a teasing smile gleaming on his lips.
"The only thing you were close to was hitting your head on the shelf."
You frown, being absolutely free of his previous effect on you. You snatched the book out of his hand and sat behind the table. You didn't raise your head when Remus stood in front of you and over your head, with his arms placed on the table.
You focused on the ink, forgetting Remusâs suffocating presence. Thatâs why you didnât want to be left alone with him.
After a few minutes and lines or pages, your eyes twinkled with mischief. Two pages of instruction on different ways of charming fireworks.
"Found it."
The easy part was done.
You let Remus take the book from you. He read the page with a wrinkle between his brows and nodded after finishing it.
âWeâll have to start practising it soon.â
âHave some pity, I exceeded my weekly tolerance of you, today,â you murmured. âI canât spend any more time with you.â
âAnd what made you think that I enjoyed our time together?â Remus stepped a bit back and leaned into a shelf.
You parted your lips and then closed them again. Time had gone rather unproblematic with Remus today, and ended without a headache. It was almost...boring.
âYou never even once did something to annoy me.â
His lips curved, eyes gleaming in amusement.
âDo you want me to annoy you?â
You hated the teasing in his tone. Something between confusion and disclosure hit you in the gut, goosebumps rose in your arm as a response to your fluttering heart.
âWhat? No, why would Iââ
âDo you enjoy bickering with me, Y/N?â
âI donât!"
âYou sure? Sometimes it sounds like youâre picking fights with me on purpose.â
âYou flatter yourself, Lupin,â you laughed, a bit awkwardly. He was smiling now, one step away from smirking. You noticed you rarely saw him smile this big around you. It was beautiful.
âJust like you said, I wasnât the one annoying you today. You started it.â
You felt the temperature rise in your body, embracing you without your consent. You didnât appreciate the way he threw the accusations at you or the way his eyes wrinkled adorably when he beamed.
âYouâre not the only one hating the other.â
Your lips uttered the words but you didnât hear yourself. You were too busy to stare at his changing expressions. His smile ebbed a little, but not enough to wipe the soft wrinkles around his eyes. He walked up to you, excruciatingly slow, looming over you. You watched his eyes rambling between your eyes, and even travelling to your lips, too. Your eyes, however, stayed only on the brown orbs, sorting out every layer, every colour, every blemish one by one.
âI donât hate you,â you heard him drawl.
Before you could take in what he murmured, his face changed into something else. You fathomed it from the twitch in his jaw and his faltering blinks.
âYouâre just annoying,â he said as if recovering his tone.
He stepped back, eyes lingering on your lips for one more second before turning away. You bit down your lips as you watched him exit the library.
âI brought candles,â you announced, tossing the candles to the wooden floor. They made an uncomfortably loud thud on the ground, causing you to grimace in displeasure.
âYes, please make sure to break all of them. Donât leave one unharmed,â you rolled your eyes at Remusâs cynical voice in the other corner of the Requirement Room.
You two have been visiting there to learn the charm of the fireworks every week. For two weeks, you had been working with the sticks and had mastered them. Thus, it was time to finally alter the sticks with candles, something that resembled a firework according to Sirius. They didnât want to work on fireworks, it would be a waste for James.
âTheyâre fine. Donât be dramatic,â you said to him as he walked up to you, glancing at the candles on the floor.
You felt him squat down, grabbing a white candle. He showed you a crack on it that wasnât there before.
âIt was there before.â
âYeah, sure,â he grinned. âWhatâs with the colours?â
You shrugged. Why choose only white candles when you could have red and yellow and purple and pink also?
âDonât mind the colours. Letâs start.â
Remus lit a candle as you took out your wand. He placed it on a chair, and stepped back, waiting for you to cast the spell.
When you first muttered the incantation, nothing happened.
You tried again, this time more fiercely both in your spelling and movements.
Nothing happened, The candle was sitting on the chair, mocking you with its flame. You were sure Remus was also repeating the same internally.
âYouâre too hesitant to bend your wrist,â he said.
You didnât hear any teasing in his voice but still cringed in embarrassment.
âYou wonât put out the candle if you bend your wrist a bit hard, Y/N. Stop hesitating,â he said again.
You tried once more, despite the sweat forming on your temple from anxiety.
With sticks, it was easy. Say the spell, bend the wrist and aim the wand.
With candles, you were afraid you would mess it up somehow; maybe put out the fire or even start a bigger fire. It was a fire, after all, it was dangerous.
When you failed again, Remus made his way to you, standing only a step away behind you.
You felt his breath behind your neck as he closed that one step, laying his body onto yours. You didnât manage to ask him what he was doing, you didnât need to. Your heart dropped when he put his hand on yours, lifting it in the air. He aimed it towards the candle, but you were too out of it to apprehend.
Your whole body was focused on his skin on yours, savouring his touch on you without your permission. Suddenly, you didnât think the sweat was from anxiety. You didnât think your heartbeats were from embarrassment. You didnât think your whole body was aflame because you were conscious of your ineptness.
You knew what it was. You knew what it was that set fires in the core of your chest, grasped the air from your lungs, and took the strength in your muscles away.
But you didnât acknowledge it.
You let Remus move your arm, copying the instructions. You let him brush your hand with his fingers. You let him show you how to bend your wrist all while his hand on yours. You let him whisper the incantation in your ear.
You felt the void around your fingers when he withdrew his hand and his body from yours.
âGo on,â he said, so low you wouldnât hear him if you werenât holding your breath.
You aimed the wand, bent your wrist, and cast the spell.
The candle rose to the air, attracting a few candles to itself and lighting them up.
âAttagirl. My turn."
You said nothing as you stepped away, letting Remus place himself in front of the chair. You lighted another candle for him and put it on the chair.
You watched him take a stance and aim his wand. You didnât know if it was because of his stance or his long legs or arms, but he lookedâŚhandsome.
He looked handsome with his serious expression; wrinkled brows, clenched jaw, stiff shoulders and narrowed eyes.
Heck, he looked handsome with his smiling expression too; curled-up pink lips, brown locks decorating his forehead, chestnut eyes glistening as his smile.
You cursed yourself at your admission.
He cast the spell, succeeding with the first attempt. The side of his lip inched up with pride for a tiny second.
You did it. You were ready for the plan. The only thing left was James and Siriusâs work.
He turned his eyes to yours.
âWe did it.â
âYes,â you nodded and got to collect the candles.
Remus frowned, visibly uncomfortable at something.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked.
âWhat?â
You refused to glance at him. You didnât want to admit anything else just because his ridiculous gorgeousness affected you.
âSomethingâs wrong. Youâre acting weird.â
âHow am I acting weird? Iâm just cleaning up the mess so we can go and eat.â
âYeah, but,â he started helping you out by gathering the unused candles, âYouâre a bitââ
âI didnât know you cared about me,â you snapped your head in his direction.
He stopped whatever he was doing. You saw him swallow.
âI donât.â
âGood.â
You almost threw your candles at him.
âIâm going to dinner.â
You didnât wait for him. As you exited the room, you reminded yourself that he thought of you as annoying.
âStop panicking.â
âIâm not panicking!â You wiped your palms on your cloak, counting to ten to calm your nervousness.
âYeah, sure, thatâs why your breath is unsteady.â
âWhy are you even focused on my breath?â
You frowned when Remus didnât reply.
It was a big day. In the end, you'll either end up dreaming about your ball dress or worrying about the detention.
James and Sirius were in the Great Hall, hidden under the Invisibility Cloak. They were waiting for your charmed fireworks as you and Remus were waiting for Peter to bring them behind the gate.
Everyone was busy eating their dinner, like a casual evening. Chatters and clatters were mingling in the air, serving you an opportunity for secrecy.
Remus was standing next to youâa bit close, as your arms were glued together. His eyes were on the corner where James and Sirius were, as your eyes should be looking for Peter.
Except that you weren't looking for Peter.
No matter how much you wanted to prevent it, your eyes were drawn to Remus.
For the last fifteen days, it had been this way. You would look for Remus in every corner, and your heart would chirp like a bird when you would find him. You would start agitating him so maybe he would react, and wouldnât back down when he would annoy you first.
Even now, you couldnât help but steal secret peeks at him. Sharp jawline and unblemished face despite the scars were completed with downy hair and hazel eyes.
He was stunning and you were attracted to him. Your five-years-ago self would roll her eyes at you if she was to see you. You were attracted to him despite his annoyance with you, and your pride hated you for that.
You were sure if Remus knew your newly emerging feeling for him, he would mock you to the point you cried.
You turned your head away from Remus when you heard heavy step voices. Peter was bringing a box full of fireworks, trying to be as discreet as possible in the meantime. You stepped up and helped him. He nodded at you before entering the Great Hall like a starved boy whose only intention was to have dinner.
You pulled Remusâs sleeve and he turned to you. You heard him mumble ârightâ under his breath before taking out his wand. You repeated the same, waiting for him to sort out the fireworks.
âWeâll do it at the same time, remember. Or James wonât be able to Accio all of them at once.â
You nodded, aiming your wand all while alerting your senses to Remusâs voice. Between all the noise from the Great Hall, he had to raise his tone from whispers.
âOne. Two. Three.â
Both of you cast the spell. You made sure to bend your wrist this time. Two of the fireworks lit up and attracted other fireworks to themselves. Remus sent James the signal.
Seconds passed, but the fireworks werenât Accioâd anywhere.
You waited a bit more, glancing at Remus to see him do the same with a frown.
Another few seconds passed.
Nothing.
It was getting dangerous. You couldnât be near them. They were about to blow up.
You squirmed close to the wall, adrenalin filling up your veins and piercing your heart. Remus was sending the signal over and over again but to no avail.
You wanted to run but your legs were glued to the ground, not even managing to help your standing let alone running. You winced as the firework got close to blowing by a second.
One more second and it was going to explode right in your faces.
One.
You felt Remusâs body on yours, pushing you hard to the wall, almost squeezing you with his torso. His arms held your sides as you leaned into him, clenching your eyes shut.
You waited for the big hit.
But it never came.
Remus raised his head from yours, checking around.
Fireworks werenât there.
Just when you moved to get away from Remusâs hold, blaring cracks emerged in the air. You let out a scream, thinking it came from near you. Remus squeezed your arms, snapping his head to you.
âBloody hell, Y/N, my ears just bled.â
You looked around frantically, still standing between Remus and the wall. Your eyes averted back to Remus when you saw the real firework art was going on in the Great Hall. The fireworks were forming letters.
Chatters had turned into cheers, screams of excitement and joy echoing in your ears. You felt the colours of the fireworks on the walls, halls, your clothes and Remusâs body.
Remusâs body, which was too close to yours.
âSorry,â you uttered, gazing into the depth of his brown.
âYou alright?â he asked low, not letting you out of his grasp.
âYeah, yeah,â you nodded. âYou?â
âIâm alright.â
âGood.â
âGood,â he drawled, repeating to you.
His hands around your biceps were now burning up your skin. He was supposed to let you go now. Let you go and put a distance between your bodies.
Your heart cried at the thought of space. You begged and hoped and prayed that he wouldnât loosen his grip.
You started counting seconds. He didnât let go.
His stare at you darkened, breathing getting heavier by the second.
Your eyes lowered to his lips. They looked both soft and chapped. He parted his lips.
You looked back into his eyes. They were piercing through you, welcoming thoughts in your head that you so desperately shunned. You felt his touch on your skin tighten.
You yearned for his touch not only on your arm but every inch of your body.
You reminded yourself that he was annoyed by you.
You didnât blink. You didnât inhale. You didnât exhale.
You put your hands on his face and crashed your lips onto his.
The butterflies inside you resonated with the fireworks inside the Great Hall. Your heart quivered at the feeling of his lips on yours. Your chest flamed up in lust, your body smiled when you felt Remusâs hands wander to your back.
He kissed you back, welcoming the passion to run free in your veins.
You arched your back just to have him closer. You felt his slips stretch into a smirk, his fingers digging into your skin.
You kissed him harder.
His heavy breaths mingled with yours, hovering over your face. Your whole body shivered under his silky lips, sheltering the heat of your chest under his touch. His hands covered every inch of your body, learning it by heart. The heft of your lust drowned under the intensity of his manoeuvres.
Your heads were up in the clouds, unaware of anything going down around you.
You forgot where you were. You forgot what you were doing. You forgot why you were doing what you were doing. The dark in your eyes leaked shadows in your mind, blackening every thought.
That is until three boys intervened.
You pushed Remus away, putting the distance you so despised between you two. You pushed your lips together in an attempt to hide their red and swollen state. You ignored the cry of your lips, body, heart and soul for Remusâs caress.
âWE DID IT! WEâRE GOING TO CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH A BALL!â
You grinned at James and let the boys have their celebration. You didnât cast a glance at Remus. You didnât see him not taking his eyes off of yours for even a second.
It was Friday. The last Transfiguration class before the well-deserved ball.
You were seated behind your desk, definitely not waiting for Remus.
You two hadnât talked about the kiss since it happened. Hell, you hadnât even talked to each other properly.
You might be ignoring him a little bit.
You were leaving the room when he was entering, going to sleep when he was approaching you, and being busy when he was trying to talk to you.
You might be ignoring him not so little bit.
Your leg was bouncing up and down, and you were fighting with your urge to not check the door every ten seconds. You hadn't quite figured out how you were feeling, but you knew it was something intense that your hands were freezing not because of the winter but because of the nervousness.
The same nervousness that made your mouth run dry when you saw Remus enter the classroom. The same nervousness that made you breathe quicker and feel dizzy when you felt Remus sit down next to you. The same nervousness that turned yanked the colours out of your face when you heard him talk.
âWill you run again if I open my mouth?â
âYou just did,â you say, trying to sound as casual as you could. You werenât facing him just the way he wasnât facing you.
âAnd you didnât run.â
âI didnât.â
âGood,â he nodded. âYouâve been ignoring me.â
âNo?â
His head snapped at you, forcing you to turn to him as well.
âDonât mock me, Y/N,â he warned, irritated.
âIâm not mocking you, Remus. Iâm justââ
âWhat did I do wrong?â he cut you off. âTell me.â
Your heart skipped a bit at his question, clenching around a pain that you wished to ignore.
âYou didnât do anything wrong.â
âI donât understand,â he frowned. â You kissed me. So, Iâm guessing you wanted it.â
You didnât reply, too busy reliving the whimsical moment that had been keeping you awake at night, attacking your heart with butterflies.
âYou did want it, right?â
âYes,â you snapped back to the moment. âYes, I did.â
âThen tell me what I did wrong and maybe I can rectify it,â he said. âTell me what I did that youâre ignoring me.â
You didnât know what to tell him.
You couldnât tell him that you were running from him because you were too embarrassed to look him in the eye and admit that you were attracted to him. You couldnât tell him that you were still figuring out what you were feeling, too afraid to get your heart broken.
You couldnât tell him that despite your fears and doubts, you were still yearning for the sound of his laugh and craving the touch of his skin on your skin. You couldnât tell him that there wasn't a moment in which your mind could offer you any other thought than him.
So you told him the first thing that came to your mind.
âYou didnât do anything wrong. It was me. I shouldnât have kissed you.â
Remus looked appalled, eyebrows furrowing.
âWhat?â
âIt was a mistake.â
âA mistake?â
âYes.â
He laughed bitterly, shaking his head.
âWe both know it wasnât a mistake. Stop lying to yourself.â
âI-I just donât think itâs a good idea for us toââ
âIâm not asking you to marry me.â
âI know!â you said, losing your temper for a second. âI know, Remus. Iâm just not sure about...well, everything.â
You watched him inhale deeply, contemplating something in his mind. You wished to know what was going on in his head but didnât ask.
âWe can, uh,â he started, âWe can try to be friends.â
âFriends?â
âYeah, until we figure out whatever this is.â
You stared into his eyes, they werenât pleased. Like they were keeping something back. You didnât know how to ask him that, so you didnât
âFriends,â you repeated as if testing the word. âI guess it can work.â
Remus nodded and stretched out his hand to you. You stared at his hand for a moment, recalling the way they caressed your skin a few days ago. You ached for that feeling.
âAnytime before I graduate would be nice,â he said.
You muttered a quick âsorryâ before shaking his hand.
Geoffrey Fawley had asked you to be his date for the ball.
He was a nice boy from what you had heard from James. He was in the Quidditch team with James and was a good chaser. Of course, you hadnât mentioned either James or Sirius about your date. You wanted them to be surprised so you could mock them later on.
You hadnât mentioned Remus about it, either. Why should you? Right?
It was only two days since you had agreed to be friends and in those two days you barely even talked, mainly because you were too busy choosing a dress for the ball.
To your delight, you had found the perfect one.
Checking your attire with one last glance, you turned your heels and walked out of the dorm room straight to the hall.
Geoffrey was waiting for you with a smile; he was an undeniably charming boy, you had to admit. Blonde hair sparkling above the green eyes with a graceful frame, he could steal any girl's heart.
Except that yours was already stolen by a pair of brown eyes.
You pushed Remus's visage deep in your mind, refusing to revive your disappointment when he didn't ask you out to the ball as his date.
You let Geoffrey take your hand and curtly lead you from the door to the ball.
"You look absolutely gorgeous."
"Thank you," you smiled.
As you two occupied yourself with small talk, you didnât notice James and Sirius making their way to you. You had learned that Geoffrey has two elder sisters, he doesnât like chocolate and he unsurprisingly loves Quidditch. He was kind, sensible, and a great listener.
He was everything and nothing you ever wanted. He wasnât Remus.
âFawley! Y/N is your date?!â James called, smiling from ear to ear as he approached you.
âYes, Potter. Apparently, she deemed me worthy of standing by her side tonight,â Geoffrey joked back, smiling at you gently.
âAh, yes, fancy words,â Sirius dropped his arm around your shoulders. âHave you kissed yet? Her lipstick looks intact.â
âSirius!â you hit him in the torso.
âIâll take this as a no and head out to Remus,â Sirius said, âHeâs been a moody bitch these days.â
âWhereâs he?â you asked, forcing your tone to the casual.
James turned back, pointing at someone with his hand.
âThere. The one with the sour face and brown hair.â
He had leaned against a wall, looking around with a frown. He was captivating in a black suit, his hair falling into all the right places and creating an art-like view. You enjoyed the view a few moments more, memorising every little detail about his figure. You wished he could be a bit closer to you.
âHe doesnât look like he enjoys himself. Should we invite him?â Geoffrey asked.
âI donât think thatâs necessary. He looks comfortableââ
âNonsense, Y/N,â Sirius cut in. âOi! Moony! Come here!â
You squeezed your lips together as Remus reached you. He was without a date.
Would it be malicious if you felt relieved by that?
âYou guys have fun. Lily is waiting for me,â James said before leaving you four together.
âHe is with Lily?â you asked Sirius, both surprised and happy.
âGeoffrey must have really swept you off your feet,â Remus drawled, staring into your eyes.
You felt uncomfortable. Not because of Remusâs words but because of Geoffreyâs presence. You smiled at Remus awkwardly, knowing you had Geoffreyâs eyes on you.
âYou donât have a date, Remus?â
âNo,â he said to you. You felt cold at his tone.
âOh, Iâm sure youâll find someone here.â
âI donât want to find someone.â
You felt Geoffrey grab your hand.
âWould you like to dance?â
You smiled and nodded at him, letting him carry you to the dance floor.
He put his hand on your waist as you placed your hand on his shoulder. He intertwined your other hands together and started moving with the rhythm.
You glanced at his eyes only for a moment before dragging them to every corner of the room. They landed on Remus.
His eyes cut through your chest like a dagger, reminding you of every feeling your skin, heart and soul had felt two days ago.
You hated that you felt nothing if it wasnât Remus touching you. You hated that you felt nothing if it wasnât Remus smiling at you. You hated that you felt nothing if it wasnât Remusâs words that were whispered in your ear.
âYou seem distracted.â
âOh,â you locked eyes with Geoffrey again, smiling. âForgive me.â
âItâs Lupin, isnât it?â
âExcuse me?â
âYou have been acting weird since he stopped by.â
Your smile ebbed as guilt prickled inside of your chest. Geoffrey chuckled at your fortified expression.
âItâs alright, you know. I knew you had no feelings for me when I asked you. I just didnât think you may have feelings for another.â
You lowered your head to his chest. There was no point in denying it.
âIâm so sorry Geoffrey, truly. I didnât mean to disrespect youââ
âYou havenâtâ
âOr offend you.â
âYou havenât either,â he shook his head in a warm smile.
âI shouldnât have said yes,â you mumbled before looking up at him.
âIâm glad that you did. I wouldnât be able to move on if I didnât hear you reject me.â
You admired his genuinity, and his pleasant smile and his gentle manner.
You adored his kindness and good heart. He was the kind of boy that would never annoy you, bicker with you or hurt your feelings.
But he wasnât the kind of a boy that would make your heart race in excitement, passion and desire.
He wasnât Remus.
When the dance ended, you couldnât find Remus.
âGo,â Geoffrey said, âIâll be alright. Itâs obvious that you two need to talk.â
You thanked him before placing a short peck on the cheek. Then, you dashed to Sirius, who was too busy getting drunk.
âPadfoot, whereâs Remus?â you yelled, attempting to drown the music.
âWhereâs who?â
âRemus! Whereâs Remus?!â
âIâm here,â you startled at his voice behind you.
You parted your lips to speak to him but he acted faster.
âCome with me,â he said, holding your hand and dragging you away from the people.
He led you to another room and closed the door after him.
âA bit quiet.â
You nodded, feeling the blood in your veins rush. It had only been a second since you were alone with him and your feelings were already messed up.
An awkward silence filled the room.
âRemus, I donât want toââ
âYou didnât tell me youââ
You sighed, hoping that he would talk first. And he did.
âYou didnât tell me you had a date.â
Your heart skipped a beat.
âI didnât know I had to.â
âI thought we wereâŚfriends,â his teasing tone daunted your nerves. You forgot what you were searching Remus for.
âWeâre not that close friends.â
âYou seemed pretty close with Geoffrey.â
Pride clawed at your insides, taking an internal scream from you. It didnât hurt, you felt powerful.
âJealous much?â you managed to hide the smirk but you didnât hide the smug tone. You saw Remus clench his jaw and clear his throat before talking.
âWhat if I am?â
âThen Iâd ask you the reason,â you said. Your smug tone changed into something different, something desirous.
âDonât tire yourself, love. Iâm not jealous.â
âNice,â you smiled, stepping forward. âThen you wouldnât mind if I returned to my date.â
Remus filled the void between you and the door with his body, not letting you go through. You peeked at his lips momentarily.
âWeâre not done talking.â
You hoped you could cover your jitters with cheekiness because your heart was racing, your mouth was dry and your hands were trembling with anticipation. You didnât even want to mention the surges of fire and flood inside you exhausting each other.
âOh, isnât this new? You finally want to talk to me after years of vexation.â
âThatâs what friends do, right?â he shrugged.
The way that âfriendâ word agitated you was ridiculous.
âIâm all ears,â you told him, still not backing away from him, holding onto the distance that could easily be conquered with one step.
You were finally close enough to him to easily feel him under your touch. You could see the beauty marks, freckles and scars vividly. You wouldnât even need to get closer to caress them. You only needed to raise your hand andâ
âI fancy you.â
Your eyes shot up from his lips to his eyes, widening in bemusement. You chose not to let your ears deceive you, not to let the words plant hope in you, not to let butterflies escape their cage.
âWhat?â
âYou heard me,â he frowned. âIâve been fancying you since you were a little girl and I was a little boy.â
âYou hated me when you were a little boy and I was a little girl.â
You shook your head. He did the same.
âNo, I didnât. Annoying you was the only way to get you to talk to me, so I clung to it for years.â
You felt the heft weighing you down drag you onto the surface, letting you finally breathe. You felt the fireworks inside you, or maybe that was just butterflies. Your heart chirped in its cage, ready for you to set it free.
âI fancy you, too.â
You set your heart free from its cage. You let him fly away, welcoming the warmth that the boy before you had to offer.
Remus straightened and closed the distance between you two.
âYou do?â
âYes,â you whispered. âI do.â
You closed your eyes, giving into the night when you felt Remusâs hand on your cheek. You drew a breath in when you felt his other hand on your waist. You parted your lips when you felt his hot breath on your lips.
Anticipation climbed its way from your stomach all the way to your heart, shaking your breath. One more inch closer and you would die in his lips, one more second later and you would break down under his touch, one more breath in and you would crumble into pieces by his kiss.
âWould you like to see how I ruin a friendship in a second?â
âYes,â you pleaded.
He closed the one last inch, spent the one last second and inhaled the one last breath.
He kissed your lips.
You died in his lips, broke down under his touch and crumbled into pieces by his kiss.
His lips, so soft and silky, intoxicated your mind. His touch, so gentle yet so firm, ignited your skin. His skin under your hands, so warm and flawless, blazed your fingertips.
You melted under him, ready to die in his arms.
He kissed your lips until they were red and swollen. He kissed you until you were breathless and dizzy. He touched you until he sent shivers down your spine.
When you pulled away, his eyes dark and in trance were still on your lips, his lips placing pecks on all over your face.
You smiled into his lips, letting him embrace you.
âJames owes Sirius ten sickles.â
âWhat?â you laughed, taking in his scent.
âTwo years ago they had a bet on us,â he said, and you loved the way âusâ echoed between his lips. âSirius said sooner or later we would get together."
âWe just made Sirius ten sickles richer.â
I love that I can write Remus both as a kind, gentle, sweet boy and as a mysterious, complicated but hot boy. It just makes sense in both ways.
Anyways, if you've read this far, thank you so much for your time. And thank you to the person that sent the request.
Please let me know what you think!
and if you loved this fic or my writing, buy me a coffee <33
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the prophecy - taylor swift
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This is soooo sweetđĽš
I am kinda curious
What would Jason be like if the coffee Cafe owner!reader built in a small library in her Cafe just for him,like she saw he liked reading and went like 'yup. I am building a small library for him'
This is such a fun idea, but omg please forgive me, I went a little overboard. Once I figured out what to write, I couldnât stop. I apologize for how long it is. Also, this is completely gender neutral, so anyone can read!
But omg also, I was literally kicking my feet and giggling writing the end lol, Anyways enjoy!
Owning a cafe was a difficult job, there was always much to doâ customers to attend to, drinks to make, and maintenance to do. You were always busy, but you loved your job.
You had spent a lot of time curating the perfect atmosphere for your beloved customers. The lighting was warm, with fairy lights and lanterns dangling from the ceiling. There was wooden furniture and two old couches that sat by the glass windows. The tiny space smelled of freshly brewed coffee and sweet bread. The cafe was always inviting.Â
You had many regulars at the coffee shop, each one with their own story, a different purpose.
For the past six months, twice a week, every Thursday and Saturday morning, a tall man walked in. Jason, you recalled his name from the many times you prepared his drinks. Heâd order the same thing every time, a small London fog and a walnut banana bread.
Heâd sit at the table nearest to the entrance, his back never towards the door.
Every morning, heâd come in with a new book. You had seen him read Franz Kafka, Oscar Wilde and Jane Austen; heâd read a lot of Austen.
He was a mystery and you wanted to know more.Â
You found Jason quite handsome. His skin was scattered with scars and you often found yourself staring at the permanent wound near his lips. You wanted to run your fingers along it, to trace it, to kiss it.Â
His eyes were always kind, a deep shade of green, forest-like youâd think to yourself.Â
He spoke with kindness. His voice velvety and rich, much like the espresso youâd brew everyday, except his voice was never bitter, almost always doused with honey.Â
Sometimes youâd catch him looking over at the counter, at you, youâd hoped.Â
Your coworkers were afraid of him, telling you to stay away, but you couldnât help yourself. He was like an enticing book, waiting to be read. Theyâd warn you, âdo not engage in too much conversation with the strange man.â But it was as if they were talking to a small child, their words would go in one ear and out the other.
âStrange,â you would never use that word to describe him.
From the small talk you had with him, to his choice in books, to even his taste in tea, youâd never describe him as strange.
Gentle was the word youâd choose.
He was huge, all height and muscle, terrifying to most, however to you, he was everything but that. You saw an angel and you didnât even know him⌠yet, youâd tell yourself.
There were days, where you almost gained the courage to ask for his number, maybe ask for small detail, perhaps get a glimpse of his life. But each attempt was futile. Why was it so hard to speak to him for more than five minutes, youâd curse your inability to speak to attractive men.
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You were beginning to give up on your dreams of getting to know the beautiful stranger, when he walked in through door.
The conversation began as per usual.
âMorning Jason, what can I grab you today,â you asked politely. He smiled softly in return and you stare at the scar by his lip as he begins to speak.
âUhh surprise me,â you look at him confused, heâs never done that before and he finds himself smiling harder. âJust kidding, Iâll just the take the usual please,â he says as he places his copy of Jane Eyre on the counter to take out his wallet.
âBrontĂŤ, why am I not surprised,â you reply, gazing at the book. You take the cash from his hands and your heart drops. Shades of purple and crimson coat his skin. Theyâre bruised, again.
âWhat can I say, Iâm a man of taste,â he smirks. You roll your eyes and giggle.
âNow who told you that,â and he shrugs. Then thereâs a lull, you donât know what to say now. It isnât awkward, but you find yourself starting feeling a little uneasy. God, if you only you could come up with something else to say. You shake your head slightly and begin to warm up his banana bread.
You turn around and wait for him to leave, but he doesnât walk away to his usual table this time, instead he takes a seat next to the counter. Odd, you thought.
Jasonâs gaze doesnât leave you for a second, he watches you in admiration, you donât quite catch on.
If you thought Jason was handsome, then he thought you belonged in a museum. You were a work of art in his eyes. The kind of beauty they wrote poetry about. Absolutely stunning.
He wanted to get to know you, speak to you, but he was afraid. If you didnât reciprocate his feelings, then he may never be able to see you again. The trips to the cafe would no longer be necessary and he wouldnât know what to do with himself.
However today, Jason pushes his fears aside, he feels bold. He finds his confidence and he speaks.
âDo you read much,â he asks suddenly. You place his cup of tea and bread in front of him, and nod your head.
âI do, but not what you read,â you reply and he stares into your eyes, curious. âI mostly read magazines, you know Vogue and stuff,â his smile drops a little, heâs trying really hard to not look judgemental. Cute, you think. âKidding, I read fantasy mostly,â and his face lights up again.
âSo like J.K. Rowling,â he questions.
âNo, Harry Potterâs good, but Iâm not really a fan of her, you know as a person. Iâve been reading a lot Neil Gaiman recently though,â you say.
âOh fuck, yeah, sheâs said some pretty crazy stuff huh,â and you nod again. âGaiman though, I donât think Iâve ever read his stuff before, he any good,â he asks and your eyes go wide, youâre excited.
You spend the next hour of his visit speaking to him about books, about the things that you both like.
You only part from the conversation when there was a customer.
Youâve never felt this way before, all the assumptions you made about him were true. He was an angel, a kind and gentle one.
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A month goes by and you notice your relationship with Jason change. Now, instead of sitting by the entrance of the cafe, he sits near you, back against the door. A sign of trust, you assumed. He smiled more, he showed his teeth and he laughed, hard. You loved the sound of his laugh. His eyes looked brighter, greener, emerald-like. He still walked in with a new book, but when the conversation began, it was long forgotten.
You watched his bruises heal and you watched new ones appear, you were always curious, but never had the courage to ask. Heâd tell you when he was ready.
As time went by, you found yourself wanting to do something for him, you wanted him to know that you cared. You thought that if your words were going to fail you, then maybe your actions would prove otherwise.
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Working a closing shift at the cafe on a gloomy Tuesday evening, you find yourself thinking of different gestures you could do.
Ideas came and left, nothing felt good enough. He deserved the best. Trying to busy your mind elsewhere, you begin to sweep the floors and thatâs when inspiration hits you.
There, in the coffee shop, lies an empty corner. An odd spot, not necessarily small, but also not large enough either.
A perfect fit for a decently sized bookshelf. A library, for the community, but most importantly for Jason. You smile to yourself, proud at the thought. Heâd love this, you knew he would.
The next morning you find yourself drilling holes into the pale walls of the cafe, trying attach the large shelf you lugged down to the shop.
Once everything was fixed into its rightful place, you begin adding the books, by genre and then by the authorsâ last names. You add many of Jasonâs favourites, multiple copies of Austen. You add childrenâs books, comics and something for yourself.
The shelf fits right into the ambiance of the cafe, elevating it honestly. The corner looked cosy and you found yourself wanting to sit by one of the couches with a book and a cup of hot chocolate.
You stare at the shelf once more, proud. Now, you just had to wait.
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Jason walks into the cafe the next day, heâs late. He arrives near closing time. Itâs just you and him in the cafe, most of your staff left for the day and not many people stayed this late. Itâs quiet, the only sound coming from the machines on your side of the counter. Heâs holding another book in his hand, but he has no intention of reading tonight.
His hair is slicked back, and thereâs a small cut on his forehead. Heâs dressed in a white dress shirt and black pants. He looks like heâs coming back from a big event or maybe heâs going to one later. Either way, he looks pretty like this, his arms look more defined and you can make out the muscles on his back when he walks around the room, waiting for his drink.
His eyes wander around the cafe before settling on the bookshelf nestled in the odd corner. His eyes soften, heâs never noticed that before, it must be new, he thinks.
âWhenâd you get this,â he asks, his fingers running along the spines of the books. Heâs smiling, thereâs so many books.
âYesterday, itâs for you,â you say, holding your breath. This is it, the moment youâve been preparing for.
âFor me,â he looks over at you as you settle his tea on the counter. You begin walking over to his side, slowly, riddled with nerves.
âYes, since youâre always here, I thought youâd like having a book shelf here. Itâs like a library, you take a book and then you-â he cuts you off suddenly.
âYou made a library for me in your cafe, are you serious,â heâs trying to hold back a smile, you can tell. His scar gets more prominent when he does that. âWhy,â he as asks, his voice is soft, it feels like warm milk with honey, comforting.
âYouâre gonna make me say it,â you canât see your face, but it feels hot, you can tell youâre blushing.
âYeah, say it. Why is there a library in your cafe for me,â he says, enunciating the words âyourâ and âfor me.â Heâs smirking now. He knows the answer, he just wants to hear it from you.
The point of the library was to not have to say anything, for your actions to speak for you, but here you are. Ears burning and palms clammy.
âIâŚ,â you trail off, you look around the room, anywhere but his face. He notices and walks closer, his hands gently make their way around your waist.
âSay it,â he exclaims, itâs not forceful, heâs smiling and shades of pink dust his cheeks.
You close your eyes shut, fuck, youâre going to have to say it.
âI really like you jas-,â and with that, his lips find their way to your own. You move in harmony, much like matcha and oat milk. His lips are sweet, he tastes like the banana bread, he decided to eat while pacing around the cafe. Your hands find their way to his shoulders, you pull back and smile. You peck his lips. Once where the scar is and once more on the centre. He grins.
âYou donât know how long Iâve waited to hear that from you,â he mumbles against your lips, waiting for you to kiss him again.
And you do, you kiss him again and again.
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I wolf you - Stiles Stilinski Imagine
Author: @sweet-pea-channieââ
Pairing: Stiles Stilinski x wife!reader
Words: 6,2k+
Requested by anonââ: Hello! Can I request a stiles x fem!reader imagine where theyâre married and have a daughter and something happens to the reader and she turns back to 16 (like the age ritual happened to derek) and like sheâs really confused cause everyoneâs changed and she has a wedding ring (she thinks Stiles is still in love with lydia) and thereâs a little girl who claims Stiles as her dad. The pack decide not to tell her but later she discovers it by herself and gets really overwhelmed and stiles calms her down. In the end she goes back to normal. (Also i would love to see Stilesâ reactions and his emotions for this situation)
AN: I found that gif and I knew that I had to use it for that request, it also gave me the idea! So thank you! And I loved writing this! I had so many ideas, that I had to decide which one to take all the time :DÂ
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You groaned as you slowly opened your eyes and woke up with the worst headache again. Your head was pounding like crazy, and you could really feel the throbbing in the right area. You had your eyes tightly closed, your nose scrunched up until you gently pinched the bridge of your nose with your thumb and forefinger.Â
The light bothered you next, the sun slamming down on you with full heat so that the skin on your bare arms was already starting to burn. Your head was already completely heated as well.Â
With your free hand you reached beside you and slowly pushed yourself up from the ground, the slightly too long blades of grass tickled your palm, and you carefully opened your eyes. It took you a moment to adjust to the brightness, but you quickly realized that you had once again sat down under the bleachers at the lacrosse field.Â
Your constant studying must have been so exhausting that you must have fallen asleep under the bleachers. You couldnât explain it any other way. With all the exams and the project in bio ahead of you, you didnât know where to start. After all, you hadnât had any time for it at all the past few weeks. Only recently, you were able to free Stiles from the clutches of the Nogitsune. However, not without sacrifices.
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doing grocery shopping with the batboys
Could you write something fun and fluff please?
is one of my favorite activities.
I love what you write so much. My favorites are Dickie bird and Jay bird.
Donât know whether this is fun or fluff as youâd wanted it (kinda went on a personal rant in Jasonâs a little bit but I donât regret it) but I still hope you enjoy it not the less. Also thank you for enjoying my Jason/ Dick stuff! đŤśđŚŚđżď¸
Dick:
You go in for certain things that you need and come out with way more then you probably should. (And most of it isnât what you actually needed)
Half of the stuff you get is mainly what Dick thinks Hayley might like and she ends up only liking 50% of itâŚthe âdaddyâs little girlâ doggy shirt was pushing it tbh.
Dick tends to wander off when your shopping together that when you went to ask him a question, only to notice that he was gone, you sigh and say;
âDick?â
A few isles over you heard a faint âyes honey?â
He was in the pet section. again.
Youâd have to remind him that you were only there for specific things and nothing else, but Dick would always try to persuade you into allowing him to get something was wasnât on the list at all, by battering his eyelids at you and saying âpretty please.â
You naturally canât say no to you pretty boy who acts like a man child when shopping, especially if youâre the one whoâs paying.
The shopping list you made might as well have been thrown in the bin with how often you come home, only to be reminded that you barely got 25% of the stuff on the shopping list thanks to Dickâs impulsiveness.
However Dick would only use this as an excuse to go shopping again later on in the week/month and do it all over again without remorse.
Also Dick is way too polite to tell people blocking the isle to move, he wants to, he really does but all he does is breathe in deeply and plaster on a smile before soldering on.
Jason:
Grocery shopping wasnât a favourite of Jasonâs but if he were to do it, heâd rather do it with you because he got to be a little goofy with it.
And by that I mean him getting a little affectionate and pinching your backside and you snacking his bicep and scolding him for being inappropriate in the frozen food section.
âIâm not doing anything chipmunk.â Heâd defend himself as you glare him.
âIâm sure as shit there isnât a perverted ghost here that pinches peopleâs backsides for fun. Now pack it in.â You hissed as you rubbed your ass in hopes of soothing the sharp pain you felt seconds ago.
âSorry sweetheart.â Heâd chuckle as he kisses your cheek in apology.
You couldnât help but smile as you could never truly stay mad at your sweet Jason, not unless he was staining your carpets with blood from a night out on patrol, but that was neither here nor there.
Other than that Jason would take the trolley from your hand and storm the store with a determination to get the fuck out as fast as possible.
His long ass strides tend to leave you behind in some random isle somewhere. So to combat this from being a reoccurring thing, Jason would just grabs your hand and puts on the trolley before putting his own on top; Now you were being dragged instead of getting left behind in somewhere with people blocking the fucking isle.
How sweet of him.
(If youâre one of these ppl, go fuck yourself bc what the fuck is so interesting that you have to block the ENTIRE FUCKING ISLE? MOVE!)
Speaking of people blocking the isle, itâs Jasonâs biggest pet peeve because WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY TAKING SO MUCH FUCKING SPACE?! FUCKING MOVE YOU LAZY BASTARDS!
He will fucking glare at anyone who even dares to lean over his trolley to get something and when you tell him about how obvious he was being, heâd only response to this was: âtheyâre privileged with the use of a voice, they should fucking use it sometime.â
Youâre basically there to calm him down before he bulldozes some poor bastard by guiding him to a lesser crowed isle and get some junk food for later as a reward, followed by your magical cuddles and kisses.
Jason hates shopping but with you it was made just that little bit enduring, only a little bitâŚhe still wants to fight the young couple who wouldnât fucking move in that one isle and honestly you donât blame him as you would gladly join him.
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â Watermelon, Surfing & Butterflies
summary: meeting JJ & him becoming an absolute simp for you at first glance
âAlright Iâm hereâ JJ announces as he walks into the surf shop. John B glares at him. âJJ we opened two hours ago.â The boys finally opened their surf shop they dreamed about, but we struggled with the actual working part.
JJ glances at you, who looks around the shop confused. As if,youâre not sure what youâre looking for. JJ could feel his cheeks flush just by looking at you.
You were wearing a flowy sundress, covered with tiny flowers, a bunch of brightly designed bracelets on your wrist, and dangly earrings of a shape he couldnât make of.
Everything about seemed like you walked out of a Jane AllyâJane AlstonâJane whatever book Kie mentioned. That didnât stop the urge he felt to walk over to you.
âYouâre right. Going to get started right nowâ JJ says walking towards.
âWait reallyâOh ok â John B tells him a teasing tone in his voice.
JJ glares at John B but still continuing making his way toward you.
âYou need helpâ His questions startles you as you been focused on trying to find what you were looking for.
âOh um no thank youâactually yes pleaseâ JJ smiles which makes you feel at ease.
âDo you know what surf wax is. I attempted surfing the other day & I kept slipping off my board. Iâve got like five big bruises to prove it. Anyway the internet said surf wax was supposed to help with that.â You ramble.
âYou live in OBX & are just surfing now?â It was rare to find someone at Outer Banks who didnât know how to surf.It was staple there.
âOhh iâm not from here. I just moved here. I start college here. I mean technically itâs community college. I decided if I can only attend community college then I might as well attend somewhere pretty.â JJ wouldnât be so sure about the pretty part, but he wasnât going to crush your fantasy.
Butterflies. Your earrings are butterflies, JJ finally noticed. JJ interrupts his starring and realizes youâre waiting on him to answer your question.
âOh surf wax, yeah we have surf wax. â He says, directing you towards the section where itâs located. He points out all the different scents before you finally decide on watermelon.
You were about to leave the store, thanking JJ for his help before JJ blurted, âYou know, if you're still struggling with surfing we offer lessons.â They donât, that wasnât a thing.
âReally?â You ask hopeful. Any help you could get would mean so much.
âOf course, just stop by any time & Ill teach youâ JJ knew how much of a fool he was making of himself, how desperate he looked but he couldnât stop the words from coming out.
You let out a smile. A genuine smile, one that instantly causes JJ to make it his life mission to have you smiling all the time.
Once you leave the shop, JJ turns around to find John B & Sarah watching.
âShut up. Shut up. Shut upâ JJ mutters but is ignored by John B mocking him.âOh Iâll teach youâ
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Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses?
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Hiii how are you? Could i please request a jealousy fic with jason and dick, like how would they react? What would they do about it? I'm sorry its reallyyy cliche, but i love it anywayđ
Hi anon! Iâve been fine, been taking lots of power naps whenever I can, especially after work, but Iâve fine.
Jasonâs jealously more or less comes from a place of insecurity.
He fears that one interaction with the right guy/ girl/ whomever would be enough to make you see that there were better options out there than him.
He never doubts your loyalty to him, never. He wasnât that pathetic. He just didnât trust everyone else that even looked at you in the same light as he did on the daily, and it was extremely evident when Jason didnât like the looks of someone; Furrowed brows over narrowed judging eyes, his form practically towering over you protectively as he stares down the person whom he believes might take you from him.
His protectiveness tends to spike up periodically the moment he see the person get a little too close for comfort and he would clench his jaw to prevent himself from saying something he might regret later on; Jason tries to restrain himself for your sake but it was blatantly obvious that he was on the brink of exploding.
So when you both got home Jason didnât waste any time in letting you know how he felt during the entire interaction after having forced himself to hold his own tongue.
âDid you find that person attractive?â Heâd ask.
âNo.â you said. âwere you jealous?â
âI thought me staring down the poor bastard was evident enough.â Jason scoffs and you hugged his waist all the while pressing reassuring kisses at the base of his neck, when his hands reached to hold yours and intertwine your fingers together.
âI know that you know I love you very much, no one else catches my eye when I have you,â you reassured as you pressed another kiss to his neck, âmy beautiful boy, my beautiful jay birdie.â You added in a whisper as Jason felt the last remnants of jealously fade away into the background with every kiss you gave him.
âAre you sure you can see yourself being with me? long term I mean.â He then says as he squeezed your hands in his search of comfort from you and it broke your heart when he didnât see himself the way you did, but you were more then willing to kiss and cuddle away his troubles if it meant reminding him of his worth.
âWithout question.â You confidently told him, squeezing his hands. âI donât see myself with anyone else but you because even though you may not think it, you are more then enough and you are not broken, to me you are whole and you are perfect.â You finished by pressing a gentle kiss between his shoulder blades and resting your head there as you focused on his breathing.
âCanâŚcan we just forget about all this and just cuddle like any other cliche couples do?â Jason asked, finding himself feeling a lot better upon hearing you laugh against his back as a smile crossed his face.
âSure big guy.â You replied. âWe can go cuddle now.â
And with that Jason was quick to pick you up in his arms and carry you off towards the bedroom where you inevitably feel asleep in the otherâs arms, happy and content.
Dick wasnât one to speak up on his emotions much, which was something that he knew he could better work on for the sake of your relationship with him.
Heâs seen himself in the mirror. He knows his own appeal very well but physical appearance were secondary to you as it was his personality that won you over in the end. However he knew that beauty was subjective and that one day you might come across someone more physically appealing than him.
Heâd act as though nothing was wrong but if you could easily tell something was off by just his stance alone, crossed arms over chest and a look in his eyes, as though he was trying to deduce the person you were trying to have a civil conversation with.
He may stand close to you and put a hand on your waist or throw an arm over your shoulders, pull you into his side and press a kiss to your forehead with a smile plastered across his face, but he wouldnât say a word in hopes that would be enough to get across to the person that you were very much taken.
Upon arriving home however, Dick acts he wasnât even remotely jealous to begin with, despite the glaring fact that he very much was.
âMe? Jealous?â He asks incredulously but upon seeing your face, he knew that this act of his had long since stopped working the moment you grew the ability to read him.
âYes, you were and you werenât even trying to make it discreet at all.â You told him as you settled aside your things on the kitchen counter and sighed. âI just wish you would talk to me about these things so that we could get this together like couples should.â
Dick frowned as he moved next to you and gently took your hand in his own, caressing it. âI know and Iâm sorry that I havenât been more open and honest with you itâs just-â
âYou find it difficult to do so I know.â You cut him off, looking him in the eyes. âI donât blame you for that and I never would, you know that but I just wished that you trust me more to speak to me about these things.â You tell him as you squeezed his hand. âI only want to help you.â
Dick kisses your forehead. âI know you do and I appreciate it very much.â He whispered against your skin. âI just donât know what you see in me sometimes, nor do I understand how you could have possibly put up with me as long as you have given how closed off I can be sometimes.â He adds as he pulls away, his heart weighing heavily in his chest as he awaits your response.
âI stay with you because I love you stupid.â You said softly as you bumped his shoulder with your own. âAnd maybe because Hayley is too cute a pup to ever leave.â
âI had a feeling Hayley was a major factor in you staying.â Dick laughed. âCanât say I blame you though, she is indeed very cute.â He adds as he looks over at the staffy, who was very much fast asleep in her little bed in the living room before looking back to you with gentle eyes. âBut Iâm glad that you did stay. I love you too, dummy.â He utters softly as he nudged you with his shoulder, vowing to himself to do better by you from this day forth.
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â CALM AFTER THE STORM
pairing:Â remus lupin x reader
summary:Â the 4 times you hate each other, and the one time you donât. alternatively, remus lupin is a pain in your arse and yours alone.
warnings:Â enemies to lovers, swearing, kissing, mention of blood and wounds, some bad writing as always which is unedited
authorâs note: just a little e2l fic for my own indulgence as its my fave trope and its criminal how i barely have any e2l fics⌠also havenât written anything in ages soooo enjoy!
when he just has to be controversial
The sun was beaming, colourful rays reflecting over your book through the stained-glass windows of the Gryffindor common room as you lounged on the sofa with your head in Lilyâs lap. You were barely paying attention to the chatter of your friends around you, choosing to focus on your copy of âThe Catcher in the Ryeâ and Marleneâs soft guitar playing. The lazy afternoon is a welcome break from the increasingly stressful N.E.W.T lessons that have had you all so exhausted, youâre not sure if Peter is asleep or dead from his curled-up position on the rug.
You donât even realise someone is saying your name until Marlene tickles the sole of your socked foot with her guitar pick, making you yelp and draw your legs in from where they were previously tucked in between Marlene and her guitar.
âWhat was that for?â you grumble, nudging her arm with your foot.
Marlene smirks, nodding over to James. âHe told me to get your attention. Didnât specify how.â
You roll your eyes and turn on your side to face the boy in question, his grin unfaltering as he multitasks polishing the handle of his broomstick and talking to you. âNot my fault youâre dead to the world when youâre reading,â he says, matter-of-fact, continuing when you raise your eyebrows in impatience. âI was just wondering how you could look so interested in that book. Remus said heâd do my homework for a month if I finished it the other day and I couldnât get past five arse-numbingly dull pages.â
You scoff, adjusting your position again to face Remus as well. âAnd why was Remus betting you to read my book, exactly?â
âIt was my copy,â Remus replies, scribbling away on his parchment, cross legged on his chair, to undoubtedly finish the Potions essay that Slughorn had set yesterday. Youâre transfixed on the way his hand is moving across the page for a second, unable to fathom how someone can have such messy handwriting. You arenât surprised in the slightest that the next words coming out of his mouth are ones you disagree with. âI wanted to see how long he lasted reading the slowest-paced book in the world.â
You abruptly sit up at this, shutting your book and forgetting plans of relaxation.
âHey, watch it!â Lily exclaims, lifting the bottle of black polish sheâs using to paint Siriusâ nails from its balanced position on her thigh to avoid you spilling it all over her white top. âIf youâre about to argue, please refrain from throwing things until after Iâve done the second coat of nail polish.â
You pointedly ignore this and narrow your eyes at Remus who, infuriatingly, still hasnât lifted his head from his essay. âIâm surprised you found it hard to read such a slow book. Thought thatâd be perfect for you.â
âLook what youâve started, Prongs,â Sirius sighs, examining his nails.
Seeing the corners of Remusâ lips pull up into a slight smile at your comment just spurs you on in defence of the book you were previously enjoying. âBesides, itâs about a real-life teenager with real-life struggles, not The Hobbit on his latest adventure.â
âWhoâs Hobbit?â James mumbles, scratching his head in confusion as Marlene just shrugs, equally oblivious.
âItâs overrated,â Remus insists, finally setting down his quill to look at you. The amused expression still hasnât left his face and you make a noise halfway between a scoff and a high-pitched squeal of indignance. âEven James agrees.â
âOh, and Jamesâ opinion on literature is the standard now?â You raise a brow, tutting when James starts to protest. âThe only book James has finished in the last six years was Quidditch Through the Ages.â
The way James slowly slides the aforementioned book under one of the sofa cushions doesnât go unnoticed by anyone. Sirius starts snickering, much to Lilyâs annoyance as she tries to control his hand. âShe got you there, in fairness, mate.â
Siriusâ chortling seems to stir Peter from his sleep and he opens one eye to peer at you. Seeming to catch sight of your irritated expression, he frowns. âAre these two arguing like an old married couple again?â
âMerlin help us if these two ever decide to get married,â Marlene utters under her breath, bent over her guitar and avoiding the weight of your glare.
âYeah, he wishes,â you grumble, shuffling around on the sofa to get back into a comfortable position with your book. Remusâ smile has only widened in response and he seems to enjoy your discomfort as you overcompensate for showing your annoyance by wriggling about.
âI dream about it every night,â Remus replies, dryly and Peter giggles below you before turning over to sleep again. Â
You overcompensate a little too much by moving around, because Lily huffs from beside you and starts scrambling around for a tissue. âWhat did I say about the second coat?â
âI didnât throw anything this time!â
2. when he wonât let you give someone a black eye
Defence Against the Dark Arts is your favourite N.E.W.T subject for a lot of reasons. You enjoy the lesson content, itâll be useful in future years, and itâs the one lesson you share with every single one of your friends.
Youâve gotten used to James and Sirius messing around while Professor Marigold recites fact after fact about spells and creatures and wizards of dark nature. Its like soothing background noise to you and your classmates who all concentrate in silence most of the time.
Which is why your quill stops on your page and leaves a growing ink blot when you hear snickering and whispers from the other side of the classroom rather than from in front of you where the marauders sit in a line.
The scoffs of disgust coming from Snape and Mulciber are loud enough to attract the attention of the rest of the students and even the teacher, who eventually sets down her piece of chalk in the middle of talking about Wolfsbane potion with an impatient sigh.
âIs there some sort of pressing issue that canât wait until after class to discuss, boys?â Professor Marigold asks with a tone of ire that would impress Professor McGonagall. âEven Black and Potter have decided to give it a rest today.â
Sheâs not wrong, you think, noting how theyâve been less disruptive than usual for this lesson, probably tired out from setting each otherâs robes on fire in Charms the hour before.
âThe pressing issue is werewolves,â Snape mutters quietly, as though he doesnât want to make a big issue but canât stop himself from speaking up. âWe should be learning more about how to kill them and less about the price of potion ingredients.â
Lily gasps from beside you and Sirius and James tense up at his words. Remus doesnât lift his head, but you absently notice how his grip tightens around his quill when Peter nervously turns to him. Peter isnât one for conflict and heâs always been nervous around this particular group of Slytherins, so youâre not surprised heâs anxious.
âWerewolves are still people, you canât just go around killing them!â you find your mouth moving on its own, before your brain can catch up. When Snape turns to direct his scowl at you, its matched by your own as well as Lilyâs disappointed frown. âThey didnât ask to be werewolves, they physically canât help it! How would you feel if people wanted to kill you for not being able to control being such an arse.â
âMiss Y/L/N,â Professor Marigold warns, setting her stern eyes on you. Youâre not one for disrupting lessons or getting into trouble, so when Remus turns around to look at you with a raised eyebrow, your cheeks start to warm and you stubbornly donât look his way again.
Snape ignores her to continue glaring at you. âI donât have the capacity to kill people in a feral rage now, do I?â His gaze flits from you to Lily and Marlene and then lingers on the boys. âOf course, youâre defending werewolves. Itâs no surprise considering who you choose to associate yourself with.â
âMr Snape.â
âYou have no need to fly into a feral rage to kill people,â you reply, voice steadily rising in volume. Sirius and James turn their heads back and forth like theyâre watching a tennis match and you know the only reason they havenât piped up to agree with you is because theyâre too entertained watching the way youâre about to jump out of your seat to pounce on Snape. âAll you need to do is show someone your face for them to die of frightââ
âENOUGH!â Professor Marigoldâs booming voice cuts through the laughter of everyone on the Gryffindor side of the classroom and when you turn to look at her, you see even Remusâ shoulders are shaking with silent laughter. Youâre not sure why this pleases you, but it doesnât last long enough for you to figure it out before Marigold waves her wand in the direction of the door and sends it flying open. âBoth of you will wait for me outside the classroom until the lesson has finished so I can discuss your appalling behaviour.â
You gape at her for a second, before relenting and grabbing your bag, not wanting to argue with her authority. Your friends have different ideas.
âThatâs not fair!â Marlene exclaims, standing up in protest. âShe didnât even do anything wrong.â
âYeah,â James agrees, also standing up. âSnapeâs the one who was being an annoying priââ
âSit down, everyone,â Marigold cuts him off, pursing her lips. âEveryone except Mr Snape and Miss Y/L/N. Do not even think about speaking Mr Black, or I wonât hesitate to suspend your and Mr Potterâs Quidditch privileges until further notice.â
Sirius shuts his mouth after a nudge from James and you shoot your friends a grateful smile before making your way out of the classroom, followed closely by Snape.
The door shuts behind him and you donât bother sparing him a glance before dumping your bag on the ground and leaning against a wall to focus your gaze on a suit of armour for the next five minutes. Youâre about half a minute in when you notice that one of the hands are slightly wonky and the classroom door suddenly opens.
Remus, of all people, enters the hallway to join the two of you and quickly shuts the door.
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask, furrowing your brows and getting up from against the wall.
âYeah, what are you doing here?â Snape sneers at him, and you give him a scathing look before turning to Remus for an answer.
Remus pointedly ignores him to stand next to you against the brick wall. âI just pointed out to Professor Marigold that you both have your wands and she may not have two students left out here by the end of the lesson.â
âI can defend myself,â you snort, folding your arms. You arenât sure if youâre annoyed that Remus is insinuating otherwise, or if youâre touched that he doesnât want you to be hexed into oblivion by Snape. âEspecially from him.â
âOh, I know,â Remus raises both hands in surrender as his tone becomes grave. âItâs not you Iâm worried about, trouble.â
âHa ha,â you deadpan, rolling your eyes at the nickname. He started it around a year ago when you got your first ever detention for helping Sirius and James Charm the Slytherin chairs to throw them off every time someone sat. Your friends had kept quiet about your involvement, but Peeves had spotted you, the nosy bastard. The nickname stemmed from the fact it was the first time you had ever gotten into trouble and it never failed to irritate you. âYou better be careful I donât hex you.â
âI wouldnât dream of annoying you,â he says, but the serious tone of voice is ruined by the way his lips are twitching in an attempt not to laugh at you. âAfter what happened when I said I didnât like that one Jane Austen book? Forget it.â
âHey, you insulted one of my favourite characters,â you point out, resting a hand on your hip. âWhat did Emma ever do to you? You had that hex coming.â
âI had pink hair for a week,â Remus narrows his eyes at you, but you can tell he isnât really angry. Although he refuses to admit it, you know for a fact he didnât hate the pink hair considering how good he looked with it. An annoying indiscretion on your part. Remus looks behind you for a split second before leaning in a little to whisper. âI wonât get in the way if you want to turn Snapeâs hair pink, though. Preferably a very bright shade of flaming, hot pink.â
At risk of your own cheeks flaming up from how close he is â really, whatâs the need? â you shake your head let your hair fall into your face. Almost having forgotten Snape is also there, you start when he scoffs (for what you think is the millionth time this afternoon) and you sigh before facing him begrudgingly. âWhat now?â
âCouldnât handle the content of todayâs lesson?â he asks, tiling his head. Youâre about to ask him what the hell heâs talking about before you realise, he isnât actually talking to you, but to the boy behind you.
âUhâŚâ you trail off, not sure how to respond. All three of you currently standing in the corridor know that Remus is smart enough to tackle any type of content, especially something as memorable and interesting as werewolves.
Remusâ amused demeanour has been wiped away and you canât determine his exact expression, but his voice is cold when he talks to you. âJust ignore him.â
âYou and your group of friends canât help themselves when it comes to defending strays and all sorts,â Snape continues, much to your confusion. âItâs not enough that youâre a group full of blood-traitors and mudbloodsâŚâ
Remus tenses up behind you and you find yourself frozen for a second.
The next thing you know, youâre lunging at the greasy-haired Slytherin with every intention of hurting his face with your fists, wand long forgotten. Your fingers barely brush his robes, however, when you feel yourself being hauled back by strong arms that wrap around your middle.
âLet go!â you snarl, enjoying the way Snape has backed away, eyes wide and worried. âDid you hear what he said? Remus, let me go.â
He doesnât relent, still holding onto you when he leans down to speak in your ear. âYouâve already gotten into trouble. Youâll get into a whole lot more when everyone walks out to see Snape with a black eye and you with bruised knuckles.â
âWorth it,â you grit out, still pulling away from his grip and throwing daggers with your eyes at Snape. After a few more seconds of pointless struggling, you relax very slightly just to turn in his arms so you can direct your next words to him more pointedly. âNot only is he a slimy, blood-supremacist twat, but he also wants to kill a poor bunch of werewolves. We should be throwing him into the bloody Black Lake!â
âI know, I-â Remus is cut off when the door opens and students start flooding into the corridor to provide a barrier between you and Snape, indicating the end of the lesson. Remus finally lets you go when he realises youâre in direct view of Professor Marigold who stands behind her desk, waiting for you. âI had no idea you were such an advocate for werewolves.â
Itâs the last thing you expected him to say and you immediately look up at him and frown. âAgain, theyâre people. They donât deserve to be victims of prejudice just as no one does.â He doesnât respond, staring at you with an unreadable expression and a hint of a smile. Your frown deepens in confusion. Was he⌠laughing at you? Especially after you had just gotten along. âIâm so glad you find me amusing,â you say, scowling and storming back into the classroom and away from Remus.
3. when he's too good for flower crowns.
âTell it again,â James insists, grin wide as ever plastered onto his face despite the withering look you send his way. âGetting a glimpse at even the possibility of Snivellus getting pummelled by Y/N would have made my entire year.â
âThe galleons Iâd give up to have been there,â Sirius releases a wistful sigh, closing his eyes as he lies down, facing the sun.
You hand him the daisy chain crown you just finished and he dutifully dons it. âIâll alert the Ministry of Magic to order in a time-turner for an issue of utmost urgency,â you say sarcastically as you start on the next daisy chain. Sirius merely winks at you.
âI think you shouldâve let her have at him, Remus,â Marlene states, unapologetic. You nod vehemently in agreement, a little too enthusiastically as you end up splitting a daisy down the middle.
Lily tuts, adjusting her own flower crown as it slips against her silky red hair. âIâm glad you didnât. Godric knows what Professor Marigold would have done,â she shudders at the thought, ever the diligent student.
âForget Marigold,â Peter chimes in. âImagine what Professor McGonagall would have done.â
You donât miss how he looks over his shoulder in case your head of house is taking a stroll along the grassy grounds.
âShe would have combusted when you called him an ugly arse,â Remus pipes in, unhelpfully might you add, from where he sits slightly away from the group under a tree, reading.
The comment sends Marlene, Sirius and Peter into a fit of laughter â James is too busy staring at the way the sun is making Lily look ethereal and sheâs too busy pretending not to notice while being secretly pleased. Doing a quick survey of your friends, you see everyone now has a flower crown except Remus. You make your way to the tree heâs resting against while the others chat, and sit yourself down with purpose.
Remus lowers his book very slightly to peer at you and your too-sweet smile. He raises a sceptical brow. âShould I be scared right now?â
You drop the fake smile and hold up your flower crown expectantly. âEveryone has one, but you.â
âHow observant,â he says, setting his book down to look at you in mock astonishment. âHave the Aurors at the Ministry caught wind of you yet?â
âDonât be a pain,â you groan, dropping it onto his open book. âI want everyone to wear one for the picture!â
Remus sighs, looking at the large camera over by your bag. You had saved up all summer to buy a magical camera to be able to take pictures of you and your friends in your final year at Hogwarts. The time you used your own muggle camera was a disaster of sparks and broken bits of plastic that took hours to mend. âI already agreed to your incessant picture-taking,â he reminds you, acting like itâs the most painful thing in the world. âThe flower crown is not happening.â
âFine, you miserable git,â you flick a handful of grass at him, sending him sputtering. âNow come and sit for the photo.â
You return to the group with Remus behind you and get everyone in position before hunting down someone to take the photo. Glancing around, you spot a close bunch of first-years and send Lily to use her Head Girl credentials (and warm and inviting personality, of course) to rope one of them into coming over.
âOkay, smile everyone,â you order, plopping down on the grass next to James. You elbow him in the ribs, not even having to look at him to know what heâs doing. âStop looking at Lily and look at the camera.â
With a couple of mutterings and some nudging, the nervous first-year Hufflepuff girl shakily takes the picture and hurriedly hands you the camera in the middle of the picture sliding out of it. James and Sirius go back to playing with a golden Snitch while Peter watches, while Remus returns to his book.
Lily looks at the picture and coos over how cute everyone looks at the same time as Marlene complaining about her hair. You impatiently take the picture back to slide it into your photo album and something catches your eye.
Sirius is making a peace sign behind Remusâ head. His head that wears a flower crown.
4. when he bleeds out on you.
Youâre not sure what time it is â either very late at night, or very early in the morning. You do know, however, that you want to finish your Herbology essay so you can enjoy tomorrow (or today) and cheer your friends on in the Gryffindor vs Ravenclaw Quidditch game. You only have the conclusion left and youâre confident itâll be done in the next ten minutes.
If you can find your damned quill, that is. You could have sworn you had it ten minutes ago, just before you snuck down to the kitchens to persuade the house-elves to give you the strongest cup of coffee they could make. You take a quick sip and grimace at the lukewarm temperature before setting it down and getting up to search. After turning every sofa cushion upside down, you go to crouch behind the sofa.
You hear the door to the common room being swung open and the hushed voices of the Marauders enter, but you donât take too much notice as you squint for your quill. It isnât unusual for the boys to be roaming around the castle at odd hours of the night, but a hiss of pain grabs your attention at the same time you spot the quill.
âCan you guys manage taking him up to the-â Sirius cuts himself off when your face pops up from behind the sofa. He freezes in his efforts to hold up Remus, who you notice is leaning on him and James and Merlinâs balls heâs covered in blood.
âWhat the fuck happened to him?â Your voice comes out weak as you walk over to the boys. Remus has deep, bleeding slashes over his chest and an assortment of little cuts on his face and hands. He seems barely able to keep his eyes open but when his gaze meets yours, he winces. He isnât the only one hurt and you realise Siriusâ arm is damp with blood and trembling, the same going for Jamesâ thigh. âWhat the fuck happened to all of you, oh my GodâŚ?â
âPeter, you were supposed to keep watch,â James hisses at the boy who looks like a deer in headlights. He looks a lot better than the others, with only a couple of small cuts scattered around his face and arms.
âShe was behind the sofa!â
Jamesâ leg buckles and you snap out of your state of shock to dart forward and keep him steady. âRight. Shit, okay,â you breathe out, holding off asking any questions to prevent anyone from bleeding out. âJames, Sirius, set Remus down on the sofa and take off his shirt. Peter, help these two up the stairs and go find a first-aid kit or something.â
âWeâve got a couple in the dorm,â Sirius says, summoning one of them down with a quick Accio and handing it to you. He hesitates for a second, probably unsure if he should stay and explain things, before deciding to turn in the direction of the stairs with James as Peter rushes to help them up. âLook after him, please. Weâll be right back, Moony.â
âTake your time, Iâve got him,â you utter, already fiddling with the first-aid box and trying to open it with shaky hands. Youâre no healer, but you know enough to panic when you see Remus has had his eyes closed for the last few seconds. âRemus, keep your eyes open!â
He groans, cracking one eye open to look at you. âIâm injured and bleeding out and you still manage to yell at me.â
âI wasnât yelling,â you frown, unscrewing the bottle of dittany and scrambling for the cotton pads. You try to avoid Remusâ gaze because you feel extremely silly about being more panicked than him when heâs the one with claw marks down his chest. âDonât move, or itâll hurt.â
While dabbing the liquid onto the deep gashes in an attempt to close them up, you ponder on the fact that he probably knows it hurts from experience. Youâre not completely clueless.
âWhat are you thinking?â Remus whispers in the stifling quiet of the common room, looking unsure.
You donât cease in your movements, changing cotton pad after cotton pad. It takes you a minute to muster up the courage to meet Remusâ gaze again and this time he looks more nervous than youâve ever seen him. âYouâre a werewolf, arenât you?â
Remus gives you an almost imperceptible nod, like he doesnât want to admit to it. You take a deep breath.
âWho else knows?â you ask calmly, as if youâre asking him about the weather.
âThe boys and Lily,â he admits, swallowing hard. âOh, and Snape.â
âSnape?â you exclaim, halting your dabbing to gawp at Remus. âIâm not saying you had to tell me or anything, but Snape?â
 Remus winces and you donât think it has anything to do with his injuries. âIn my defence he found out on his own and hates me for it,â he rushes out. âAnd itâs not that I didnât want to tell you⌠I-â
âItâs fine,â you cut him off, waving him off and wondering how good youâre hiding the fact youâre a little hurt. âYou didnât have to tell me.â
âNo, I wanted to. I did,â Remus insists, looking earnest. Thereâs something in his voice thatâs a little pained and desperate that has you meeting his eyes. âI just couldnât have dealt with it if you started looking at me differently. The boys and Lily sometimes do, yâknow? Like Iâm made of glass or something. Itâs refreshing whenever you scowl at me or call me an idiot or an arse or a stupid gi-â
âOkay,â you stop him, stifling a grin. âI get it!â
Remusâ eyes flash with relief for a second before you notice doubt start to creep in again. âYou donât need to hide it, by the way. I wonât hold it against you if⌠If youâre scared or disgusted, or-â
âWhat?â you cut him off again and scrunch your nose in confusion. âIâm not scared or disgusted. Why would you think that?â
âYouâve been a bit too calm,â he points out.
Rolling your eyes, you grab a bandage to start patching up the worst of the injuries before you move onto the minor cuts and bruises. âI didnât want you to think I was freaking out, or looking at you differently,â you quote his own words to him with a pointed look, making him smile again. âI donât, you know. Think of you any differently, I mean.â
His expression is unreadable as he just looks at you and you just look at him, bandage hovering over his chest before his fingers come up to brush the back of your hand. He lightly holds your hand, softly running his thumb over your knuckle as his voice drops to a whisper again. âThank you.â
You offer him a gentle smile, holding his gaze for a second longer before focusing on bandaging him up again. His hand drops to the side and you oddly find yourself missing his warmth. The large bandage adheres to his skin and you run your fingers along the sides to stick them down, feeling him shudder under your touch.
You quickly busy yourself with looking for more supplies in the kit to hide the way your own breathing has increased slightly. âHey, anyway, I almost walloped Snape right in the eye for you. If that wasnât any indication of my standing on werewolves, I donât know what is.â
âAh, my knight in shining armour,â Remus chuckles before breaking into a wheeze as the muscles of his injured abdomen contract. âFuck, donât make me laugh.â
âDonât laugh at me then!â
5. when youâre definitely not jealous⌠youâre not!
Three cups of coffee. Youâre on three cups of coffee. Itâs also the same number of hours youâve slept and by Godric can you feel it in every inch of your body as the muted chatter of the Great Hall buzzes around you. Your head is in your hands as you contemplate stealing some Polyjuice potion and bribing a first-year to take a dose with your hair in it so you can go to bed and they can pretend to watch the Quidditch match.
You knock back the last sip of coffee when you sense a presence sliding onto the bench in front of you. Groggily setting the cup down, you see that its Remus. It takes a second to remember why this is concerning.
âMorning, h- Wait, what the hell are you doing out of bed?â you hiss, leaning forward to avoid anyone listening in. You scan your eyes over his chest, two seconds away from ripping his shirt off to check his bandages. âHow are you even standing?â
âRelax, Florence Nightingale,â Remus says, rolling his eyes at your dramatics. He does his own quick sweep of the table and sees that most people are out in the Quidditch stands already, so he proceeds to pull the neckline of his shirt down slightly to reveal an already fading scar. No bleeding in sight. âI went to Madame Pomfrey with the boys this morning and she hurried up the process like she usually does. I feel achier than a 90-year-old woman with a metal hip, but the brunt of it is gone and Pads and Prongs are good as new.â
âOkay,â you say slowly, narrowing your eyes slightly. âIf youâre sure you can sit out in the standsâŚâ
âI can once Iâve consumed every cup of tea on the premises,â he says, reaching for the teapot. An annoyingly smug smirk starts to appear on his face while he pours. âWhat, are you worried about me, trouble?â
You scowl instantly. âNo, I just donât want you collapsing on me in the Quidditch stands while Iâm cheering the boys on.â
âRight.â He hides his grin behind his cup of tea.
âHey,â you mumble, nodding to Patricia Holloway who looks like sheâs making a beeline to your table. More specifically, towards Remus. âBright and cheery Hufflepuff incoming.â
âMerlin, itâs too early for this,â Remus whispers, taking another sip of tea before his face breaks out into a charming smile directed at the girl who slides into the empty seat next to him. âMorning, Patricia.â
âYou look good today, Remus,â Patricia rests her elbow on the table and tilts her head to look at him with simpering eyes. Itâs no secret Remus is good-looking and youâve heard a million girls talk about him before. Youâve never seen any of them approach him yourself, though. You canât say you enjoy it. âAre you⌠okay, Y/N?â
You didnât realise you were scowling until she addresses you and you rapidly smooth out your expression, clearing your throat. Remus looks amused, which makes it harder to keep the scowl off your face. âFine! Iâm fine, just a bit confused since Remus looks half asleep,â you attempt a laugh through gritted teeth and are spurred on when Remus is actively trying to fight a grin. âAnd his hair currently makes him look like heâs been dragged through the Forbidden Forest.â
He canât stop himself snorting at that, but Patricia just looks confused as though unsure how to react. She settles on a nervous little laugh, turning back to him. âI can fix that for you, here,â she says, scooting closer and starts to run her hands through Remusâ hair. You poke your cheek with your tongue, marvelling at how bold sheâs being and how Remus is just sat there, still looking amused as ever. âThere, what do you think?â
âA hairbrush couldnât have done a better job,â you deadpan, softening your expression slightly when Patricia begins to look a little disconcerted. âYou keep doing that, Iâm going to head off to the Quidditch field.â
You all but storm out of the Great Hall, exhaustion having left you completely. Itâs replaced by a newfound whirl of irritation that pools in your stomach and creeps up your throat, making you feel a little sick. It must be the coffee, you think, and youâre trying to remember if the beverage has ever made you experience this when all of a sudden thereâs a hand circling your wrist.
âStop, Y/N,â Remus says, a little breathless. You didnât realise heâd run out after you and you feel bad about his injuries before your gaze snags on his newly tousled hair. âGodric, you walk fast.â
âI didnât ask you to catch up to me,â you snap, purposely scowling this time. The cheeky bastard still looks amused and your irritation is growing faster than ever. âBesides, the match doesnât start for another fifteen minutes. Plenty of time for Patricia to give you a whole new hairdo. Maybe she can give you plaits orâ Why are you laughing.â
âYouâre jealous,â he exhales with a smile, sounding positively delighted. Any feelings of concern have disappeared and are being rapidly replaced with wanting to thwack him upside the head. âOh my God, you really are jealous.â
âJealous, my arse,â you scoff, turning your back to him with every intention of speed walking out of the castle. His long legs keep up with you easily and he rushes in front of you to stop you going anywhere. You glare at him. âLeave me alone, Lupin.â
âNot until you admit that youâre jealous.â Remus is positively giddy with glee and you feel a flush of heat crawling up your neck. You set your jaw stubbornly and heâs incredulous as he shakes his head. âMerlin, you really have to argue with me on everything donât you? I donât care about Patricia Holloway and Iâm glad youâre jealous. Means youâre less likely to break my nose when I kiss you.â
You barely get the chance to make an incoherent noise when Remus grabs you by the waist and presses his lips against yours, kissing you like he isnât prepared to let you go anytime soon. His mouth slides hot and wet against your own and you gasp into the kiss when he nips lightly at your lip, your hands coming up to slide into his hair, making it unruly all over again.
Remus is the first to break apart, too soon, and you physically restrain yourself from chasing after his lips. He pulls back slightly, breathing fast to look into your eyes, searching for the answer youâre unable to speak yet.
âYou⌠uh, I-IâmâŚâ you trail off, dazed and breathless and head swirling with every emotion under the sun.
Remus laughs, pulling you impossibly close and leaving a soft kiss on your jaw, which doesnât help your current speech issues. âIf I knew that was all it took to shut you up, Iâd have kissed you years ago.â
âWha-!â You slap his arm, snapping out of the haze. You hide your current uncertainty behind a glare. It hit you like a ton of bricks, but you realised about five seconds into the kiss that you wanted Remus Lupin in every way, shape and form. Youâre more than a little terrified, so what better defence mechanism than anger? âWhy did you actually kiss me, you prick?â
âYou are the densest, most clueless,â Remus begins, pausing to kiss you lightly a couple times when you start to scowl. âMost stubborn and most beautiful little witch Iâve ever known. And if you havenât figured out after almost seven years that I love you, then Iâm afraid we might have to admit you to St Mungoâs, because really-â
âStop,â you whisper, lifting a finger to press against his lips, effectively silencing him. âYou love me? You actually, seriously love me?â
He rolls his eyes and nods, like itâs obvious or something. You huff. âThen why have you been such an annoying pain in my bloody arse, Remus Lupin?!â
âBecause,â he says, the word coming out muffled and you hastily remove your finger. âIt was a good way to keep your attention. Plus, I like when youâre angry. Itâs cute.â
You scowl without thinking and his smile impossibly widens.
âSee?â
âShut up and kiss me again,â you say dryly, pulling him in by the collar to give him a short, searing kiss. âOh, and I guess I love you too.â
âSo, no broken noses in my future?â Remus asks hopefully, softly sliding his nose against yours.
âNo promises.â
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Roses and Purple Scarves
PAIRING: Spencer Reid x Reader
SYNOPSIS: He catches her eyes in the window's reflection, and there's a small part of him that's waiting to catch the frown on her face, or see her nodding along while looking down at her phone pretending to listen.
His heart skips a beat when he finds her looking directly at him with a smile, eyes so soft and interested it makes something warm settle in the pit of his stomach.
NOTE: I am NOT taking requests at the moment.
"Spencer I don't need more flowers," She laughs, trying to yank at his arm to get him moving. It's to no avail by the way he stays rooted to the spot in front of the display window. "I still have the last bouquet in a vase at home."
"I know." He says it so matter of factly, it makes her raise her brows and stop tugging.
"What do you mean 'you know?'" She relents, joining him to look into the store's window.
"I keep a flower from all your bouquets for myself. That way I know when they wilt so I can get you new ones." She's stunned at the answer, the gesture is so thoughtful and...and nice. It's so Spencer, and by the half smile on his face he's trying to hide, he knows it too.
"You're too good to me." She says after a beat, meeting his eyes in the window's reflection, "I don't need a dozen roses to know you love me, for the record...but they are appreciated."
"Flower language." Spencer hums, peering through the glass at the colorful array of petals. "It's fascinating actually, people tend to associate the origin of floriography to be from the old victorian era, but traces of meaning can be tracked all the way back to Persia and the Middle East much before that." He catches her eyes in the window's reflection, and there's a small part of him that's waiting to catch the frown on her face, or see her nodding along while looking down at her phone pretending to listen.
His heart skips a beat when he finds her looking directly at him with a smile, eyes so soft and interested it makes something warm settle in the pit of his stomach. Spencer blinks, turns to face her for real. "I read a book about it a while ago," He shrugs, offering her a smile.
"I'd love to borrow it sometime." She responds, looping their arms together. It's a chilly day, snowflakes peppering down casing the cobblestone street below in specks of icy white.
"Really?" Spencer raises an eyebrow.
"You know I love flowers." She confirms as they continue down the little street. "I've always wanted to have a garden of my own, but the balcony of my apartment isn't big enough."
Spencer listens attentively, keeping her close to his side. It's instinct, the way his gloved hand rests against her waist as they walk, the gentle push and pull of weaving through among other people going this way and that. The contact makes her feel warm and wanted, a small gesture that encompasses all of what Spencer is.
Meaningful. If she could describe Dr Spencer Reid with one word, it would be meaningful. Everything he does is purposeful and attentive.
Remembering how she takes her coffee in the mornings without her ever mentioning it. Watching her frown at the days crossword because he knows that if she wants his help she'll ask for it (even if Spencer can't help but cringe at her sighing dramatically loud at a puzzle he'd solved in his head 25 minutes ago). It was the little things, woven with meaning that made her feel seen.
Made her feel understood.
Reaching down between them, she grabs his hand, intertwining their fingers, squeezing gently.
"You could always look into aeroponics." Spencer smiles as they come to a stop in front of a crosswalk. He pushes the button with his elbow and the both of them are left to wait for the indication to cross.
"The exposed roots freak me out." Remembering the pictures she's seen sends a shudder down her spine. "I mean, it doesn't look natural does it? Plants were meant to come from the earth, watching them dangling in the air just feels wrong," When she glances up to gauge his agreement, the rest of the words die on her tongue.
Spencer stares at her with a soft smile and enamoured eyes. If you asked him, he wouldn't be able to repeat half of what she'd just said despite his impressive memory.
It's frightening, how often he gets lost in her. In the way she furrows her brow, the manner in which she moves and the cadence of her voice that make him lean in closer to hang on to every small inflection like a siren's melody.
"What?" She asks, brow furrowed. "Have I got something-" He leans down and steals the words from her before she can finish, kissing her soft but firm, hands tangling in the hair at the back of her head. He can't help it, especially when he sees the little parts of himself that she's adopted, mirrored from how much time they spend together. Time and time again she's assured him that she thinks his monologues and rambling are endearing, pulled him out of his head with sweet words and lips when he gets too wrapped up in himself.
He's starting to understand. Watching her talk about roots and plants...God, she could talk about paint drying and he'd listen and commit each word to memory.
Kissing Spencer isn't fireworks.
It's a symphony.
From start to finish, he puts his heart into every movement, feeling bleeding into every quirk of his hands, every tilt of his head.
She mumbles his name against his lips and he barely stops himself from chasing her when she pulls back with a hand on his chest. Taking a minute to catch her breath, she graces him with a radiant smile that knocks his away. "I didn't know you loved plants that much."
"I love you." He knocks their foreheads together.
The indicator flashes green across the street, prompting them to cross, but the two stay where they are letting the atmosphere sink in. Spencer smiles softly, moving to brush off the snowflakes on the shoulders of her coat.
"You're cold." He observes when his hand brush against her neck.
"It is snowing." She smiles. Spencer huffs, unwinding his scarf from around himself. Ignoring her protests, he wraps it around her snugly.
The purple is a horrific clash to her outfit, but it's warm, and it smells like him, the calming scent washing over her as she sinks into it and takes a deep breath. "Won't you be cold?"
"I've survived worse." He chuckles when she smacks his shoulder.
"That's not funny!"
"It's a little funny." He argues, smiling against her lips.
The crosswalk flashes red, cars start moving but the world stays still around them.
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(19/04/2024)
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CAUSE IM A REAL TOUGH KID I CAN HANDLE MY SHIT THEY SAID BABE YOU GOTTA FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT AND I DID
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