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peaky blinders sentence starters

❝ there’s no rest for me in this world. perhaps in the next. ❞  ❝ if i shall die, you shall die. ❞ ❝ did you know that madness sets you free? otherwise we’re all just peasants obeying the law. ❞ ❝ despite the bad blood, i’ll have none of it on my carpet. ❞ ❝ everyone fucking needs me. ❞  ❝ forbidding is forbidden to us. we can do anything. nothing can stop us. ❞ ❝ you know, it’s a pity. i was looking forward to killing you. you’re at the back of a long queue. ❞ ❝ the truth? you’re unlike any person i’ve ever met. ❞ ❝ i owe you a little something, don’t i? i do. ❞ ❝ the past is none of my concern. the future is none of my concern either. ❞ ❝ but there is a part of me that is unfamiliar to myself…and i keep finding myself there. ❞  ❝ i learnt long ago to hate my enemies, but i’ve never loved one before. ❞ ❝ who’s going to stop us, eh? nobody. ❞  ❝ don’t point the fucking weapon at me. ❞ ❝ why do you play games with people? ❞ ❝ i know your weaknesses. it’s freedom. madness. killing. ❞ ❝ i get really quiet when my mind is too loud. ❞ ❝ i’ve heard very bad, bad, bad things about you. ❞ ❝ am i laughing? ❞ ❝ you’re behaving like a fucking child. this is an adult’s world. ❞ ❝ i have found them. the person i can’t defeat. ❞ ❝ i’ll rekindle all the dreams you took a lifetime to destroy. ❞ ❝ it’s just myself talking to myself about myself.  ❞ ❝ those who fight by the sword, die by the sword. ❞ ❝ this is who i am! and this is all i can give you, for what you’ve given me. ❞  ❝ and i got close. i nearly got fucking everything. ❞  ❝ i’m not a fucking child. ❞ ❝ maybe it’s time you forgot about them. ❞ ❝ i’m glad i didn’t shoot you. it would’ve been a kindness. ❞ ❝ i will remember everything and forget nothing. ❞ ❝ but lately i’ve had a feeling. a feeling i can’t put into words. ❞ ❝ looking back, i have no regrets. ❞ ❝ you and i are opposites…but also just the same. like an image in the mirror. ❞ ❝ may you be in heaven a full half hour before the devil knows you’re dead. ❞ ❝ i warn you, i’ll break your heart. ❞  ❝ i’m guessing that all the bad ideas around here, they’re you. ❞ ❝ look at yourself. take a long, hard, fucking look at yourself. ❞ ❝ i try not to fight. i try not to react.  ❞ ❝ my god. some devil gets into you, doesn’t it? ❞ ❝ it’s in the past. the past doesn’t concern me. ❞ ❝ don’t sit there in my chair and tell me i’m losing my war. ❞ ❝ don’t let two people teach you the same lesson. ❞ ❝ it’d be hard for you to walk anywhere with a bullet in each knee. ❞ ❝ who broke the mirror? that’s seven years of bad luck. ❞ ❝ it’s not a good idea to look at me the wrong way. ❞ ❝ i know that you want me to say that i’ll change. ❞ ❝ those bastards. those bastards…are worse than us. ❞  ❝ you have to listen to the voices you hear. ❞  ❝ intelligence is a very valuable thing, isn’t it? and usually it comes far too fucking late. ❞ ❝ i don’t have a fucking side. ❞ ❝ truth is, you’re going to be fucking dead soon. and then your starlings - they’ll peck out your ___ eyes. ❞ ❝ all this time, our love still remains. ❞ ❝ you’ve got nothing to prove. you have got nothing to prove, and you’ve got a precious young life. ❞ ❝ look down on earth and see the seeds you have sown. ❞ ❝ yeah, there are rules for a reason. quite simply they have to be obeyed. ❞ ❝ i have responsibilities here, people i need to protect, and people who i love. ❞  ❝ if i had an important decision to make, i used to flip a coin; perhaps i will do it again. ❞  ❝ i just put a bullet in his head. ❞ ❝ from now on, you must do everything you want to do. ❞ ❝ i need you to be alright. i need you. ❞ ❝ you’ve got five minutes. ❞  ❝ i don’t think they trust me. ❞ ❝ what do i have to do to make people fucking listen to me? ❞ ❝ i found you. and you’ve found me. we’ll help each other. ❞  ❝ if you’re not gone from this city by tomorrow…i’ll kill you myself. ❞  ❝ i will never forgive you or accept you. ❞ ❝ feel sorry for me. it’s fine. ❞  ❝ i hear you want to kill me. ❞ ❝ you’ve got smart eyes, but you’re young, so you think that what we do is all right. it’s not all right. ❞ ❝ when we succeed, even the king will not be above us. ❞ ❝ you betrayed me. don’t be here when i come back. ❞ ❝ kill and kill…the only way to make people listen. ❞ ❝ the only thing that interests me is the truth. ❞ ❝ i know who you are. you’re a bit of a failure, aren’t you? ❞ ❝ listen, sweetie. ❞ ❝ look, i just wanted to say that you’re welcome to come home. ❞ ❝ who were you talking to? ❞ ❝ there is not a single day i spent without thinking of you. ❞ ❝ the end of a rope has been your destiny since the day you were born. ❞ ❝ i am emotional, i just don’t know what fucking emotion it is. ❞ ❝ those i can’t charm i can kill with my own hands. ❞ ❝ how soon did you know that i was not dead? ❞ ❝ walk like a king. or like you don’t give a fuck who’s the king. ❞ ❝ my fury is a thing to behold. ❞ ❝ men are less good at keeping secrets out of their eyes. ❞ ❝ someone’s responsible for all this fucking mess. ❞  ❝ let it hurt then let it go. ❞  ❝ it’s war you want, it’s war you shall have. ❞ ❝ you can change what you do, but you can’t change what you want. ❞ ❝ some nights it was you who stopped my heart from breaking. no-one else. ❞  ❝ when you’re dead, you’re finally free. ❞ ❝ i’ve told you to keep the doors locked. i could’ve been anyone. ❞ ❝ violent men are the easiest to deal with. ❞ ❝ who the fuck are you? ❞  ❝ the war is done. shut the door on it. shut the door on it like i did. ❞ ❝ he’ll wake up. granted he won’t have any teeth left but he will be a wiser man for it. ❞ ❝ did you know that madness sets you free? ❞ ❝ lies travel faster than the truth. ❞  ❝ you mother said: ‘it’s their cleverness that will kill them’. ❞ ❝ and i don’t care because i’m already dead. ❞ ❝ who wants to be in heaven when you can be sending men to hell? ❞  ❝ nobody works with me. people work for me. ❞ ❝ i never got used to seeing horses die. ❞ ❝ it doesn’t seem to change you. nothing seems to change you. ❞ ❝ that’s funny, don’t you think? a war about peace. ❞  ❝ you have your mother’s common sense but your father’s devilment. i see them fighting. let your mother win. ❞ ❝ today i killed three men. ❞ ❝ brave is going where no man has gone before. ❞ ❝ today it will be me dead. or you. ❞  ❝ do you think your repentance will mean you are forgiven of your sins? ❞  ❝ i will pour you some gin…distilled for the eradication of seemingly incurable sadness. ❞ ❝ my biggest problem? i notice everything. ❞  ❝ how many sons have you cut, killed, murdered? ❞ ❝ you crossed the line. ❞ ❝ you won’t tell anyone my secret? ❞ ❝ i heard you dress well. but now i see, not as well as me. ❞  ❝ fuck it. i’m not in the mood today. ❞ ❝ how far can we go with this beautiful dream? ❞  ❝ i’m not much good. you’ll find that out soon yourself. ❞ ❝ no, i’m not god. not yet. ❞  ❝ i think so that you don’t have to. ❞ ❝ we’re close. always within punching distance. ❞ ❝ i need you to understand that your best is not good enough. ❞ ❝ sorry about all that mud. and all that fucking blood. ❞ ❝ i was just explaining to everyone that, well, we’re fucked. ❞ ❝ when i do sleep, i dream. and in my dream someone wants my crown. ❞ ❝ the man we’re about to meet is the devil. ❞ ❝ there’s god. and then there’s us. ❞ ❝ i want you to acknowledge that your anger is un-fucking-justified! ❞ ❝ i am the first one who understands you. ❞ ❝ i won’t be on my own. i’m never on my own. ❞ ❝ i’m no gentleman. ❞ ❝ for those who make the rules, there are no rules. ❞ ❝ they’re not going to hang you. you’re going to hang yourself. ❞ ❝ last thing i want is silence. ❞ ❝ it’s not pleasant to look at and be around. i’m sorry. ❞ ❝ i am now able to just rise above those kinds of insults. ❞ ❝ today is for forgiveness. ❞ ❝ we don’t get to decide who lives and who dies. ❞ ❝ you don’t get what you deserve. you get what you take. ❞ ❝ i’ve dealt death. now death has dealt with me. ❞ ❝ so you shook hands with the devil? ❞ ❝ i am my own revolution. ❞ ❝ it’s in our blood. we live somewhere between life and death. ❞ ❝ i promised someone i would change the world. ❞ ❝ i will continue until i find a man i can’t defeat. ❞ ❝ sometimes death is a kindness. ❞  ❝ i may choose to stay here and just starve to death and choke on sapphires. ❞ ❝ i bet hundred to one…that you’re fucking lying. ❞ ❝ they are always hopeful, therefore they’re always wrong. ❞  ❝ oh, i do bad things. but you already know that. ❞ ❝ i didn’t choose this life. it chose me. ❞ ❝ you fucking stand there…you. judging me?! ❞ ❝ these hands belong to the devil. ❞ ❝ people thinking i’m going to fall, they start behaving in a different way around you. they start to circle. ❞ ❝ i wanted you to stay. and normally i get my own way. ❞ ❝ i don’t see the same thing in your eyes. you should get out. ❞ ❝ i came here not to make enemies. ❞ ❝ i love you and i promise i will keep us safe. ❞  ❝ you stay away from me, i’ve had it. ❞ ❝ you don’t understand the wicked way of our world. ❞      ❝ they say life is too short to hold grudges. i think life is too short to be letting people get away with the same shit. ❞ ❝ if only i could what? ‘if only you could change’. go on, say it. ❞ ❝ the thing is…i love you, not them. ❞ ❝ will you help me? with everything. the whole fucking thing. fucking life. ❞ ❝ why? because we fucking can, and if we can, we do. ❞ ❝ you remember that god spared you. but what did you do with the extra time that he gave you? ❞ ❝ if you take the king’s money, the king expects you to kill. ❞ ❝ do i look like someone who wants an easy life? ❞ ❝ and you…you’ve captured my curiosity. ❞ ❝ in all the world, of all the people, you alone i know i can trust. ❞ ❝ i know you like to be asked properly. can i have this dance? ❞ ❝ i rarely answer questions, is what i do. ❞ ❝ shut your eyes. go on, shut your eyes. now, come with me. this way. ❞ ❝ you want everything to be different. the whole world. ❞ ❝ there’s only one thing that can blind someone as smart as you. love. ❞ ❝ can you let me in sometimes? into your head. ❞ ❝ i’m not accustomed to being spoken to like that. ❞ ❝ and what fucking line am i supposed to have crossed? ❞ ❝ i know what i know, you know. if you don’t know, then you don’t fucking know, do you? ❞ ❝ drink the fucking wine and smile. that’s what i’m doing. ❞  ❝ you once said to me that people like us can never be loved. ❞  ❝ before the day is over, your heart will be broken. ❞ ❝ what do you think i am, hm? you think i’m a fucking idiot. ❞ ❝ we can walk away from all this. it’s so easy. ❞ ❝ to apply pressure on a person for this line of work you have to know their weaknesses and i know your weaknesses intimately. ❞ ❝ rule one: don’t punch above your weight. ❞ ❝ if i come for you, i will wear high heels so you can hear my approach on the cobblestones, and have time to repent. ❞  ❝ my brother and i are the same person. ❞ 

#prompts. #me every few months: what if i was funny

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#( character study ) / * radio .

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me lovingly making a vibes playlist for wren.

#its what she deserves...

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she is sad be gentle. ^_^

#my skittish goth girl

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me when i log in here every few months: hmm...goth girl...

#i wuv u wren

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@lifesver  asked : where were you before?

’ a... facility... ’ her voice is no more than a hushed whisper, eyes flickering with an unsettled paranoia. like they were listening. like she half expected to see those white coat fucks at the most subtle mention of the sleep room. she isn't sure how to describe it to him—a place that felt like static, left rorschach tests seared behind shut eyelids. there's discomfort in the way she's curled in on herself, toying anxiously with the loose threads of her old sweater. it had certainly seen better days.

the house had almost reminded her of the facility; an amalgamation of entrails and bones, blood and gore, the smell of death and slaughter. for a moment, she truly thought she was back there, in a new place, a new trial. only when she had reached for the night vision goggles that were no longer there did she realize that it was a new hellscape altogether.

’ imagine that house. ’ she says tentatively, green eyes falling away to look anywhere but him, like the way she fiddled with her sleeves was far more interesting. ’ but with scientists watching it all happen, day after day. they would make us do these... terrible things, and... grade us on our performance. ’

#lifesver #me like well what if murkoff dumped her in tx #after she was released from the facility #[dissociates in the slaughterhouse] this is normal to me #sorry leland ur now responsible for a girl #that legally doesnt exist to the government now #( in character ) / * response .

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force of nature by jane harper sentence starters

don't panic.

we have to get out of here. now.

it's hard to feel too sorry about that.

do you need a hand?

pretend you like each other.

there's someone out there.

you don't like it, either?

do you mind if i smoke?

where were you before?

when it goes wrong, it can really go wrong.

it sounds a bit lonely.

i used to come camping up here when i was younger, so i know the terrain.

i can find my way alone.

you know what it's like in there.

i thought you said you weren't into hiking.

i want you to know i'll make it up to you.

too much to drink last night?

i think i should stay.

look, to be honest, i don't really remember much of it.

i'm not sure this is safe.

you're awake. thank god.

you haven't got any siblings, have you?

why were you out there?

it sounds like you all had a very difficult few days.

you get paranoid out there, though. your mind starts to play tricks.

i don't mind the dark.

do you know how to do that?

and you should try to get some perspective.

don't go without me. please.

is everything all right at home?

it doesn't make it easier, though.

that way. there's a shelter.

why do you have to be so difficult?

how long have you been here?

you can't be here alone.

i'm not asking your permission.

we shouldn't stay here.

i'm sorry about before.

maybe we can't help how we are. maybe we're born a certain way and there's nothing you can do about it.

forget having choices and being in control. what if that's all bullshit?

come on, you're smart enough to see that i'm right.

i didn't know you could cook.

this flashlight is broken.

none of this would even have happened if it wasn't for you.

keep your voice down, will you?

everything will be all right. i promise.

i honestly didn't mean to kill them.

not everything deserves to be forgiven.

#makes a mrrp sound like a cat #dw i just need some things to drabble here #and then i will surely get back to connie #when i lose the temporary brainrot

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hi to everyone that followed i dont have a carrd as per usual so ill write the sparknotes:

got married when she wuz young like 18/19.

her partner was not actually a good or nice person to her and she accidentapurposely shoved him down the staircase during an altercation (he deserved this).

she got arrested for this but evil little murkoff corp has a habit of yoinking prisoners and she was one of them.

transferred to the murkoff facility to participate in their "trials" as a reagent which is like forcing u to do some whack ass shit while also trying to not be murdered by ex-reagents.

idk sometimes they make u murder a guy or make bleach soup its all very weird and traumatizing.

she is personally not chaotic or confrontational she is x-ray rig trying to avoid shit at all costs do objective and leave.

oh also they drill night vision goggles right into ur skull.

theres a mechanic in game where u can "earn ur freedom" (u cant actually murkoff is evil) but for the purpose of rp we'll say for aus she does and she is just ? wherever

she is pretty messed up from the murkoff "therapy" very skittish and also impossibly covered in scars but the most obvious ones are going to be from...yknow...the goggles that were literally drilled into her skull.

shes not mean not nice just kind of neutral bc shes not very trusting of anyone (for good reason).

#thank u for ur time #outlast is definitely a game #with like every tw under the sun #so do keep that in mind -___-

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#thinking of her #( character study ) / * vanity .

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#( character study ) / * vanity . #🥰

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@edensflower asked : ‘how do you rate our chances of survival?’ from saki (after their other two teammates have died or left maybe?)

she has never particularly been of the glass half full mindset—even prior to their teammates getting early access to a lobotomy from gooseberry, which surely sets her pessimism in stone. navigating these twisting corridors is difficult enough with all four persons still alive... but no amount of foresight or information from x-ray goggles could stop stupidity.

she's crouched in the corner of dark room that they had slipped into, her arms hugging her knees in a self-soothing motion as she catches her breath. needs a moment to think about how the hell they’re ever going to get out of here; murkoff sure as shit wouldn’t be taking any pity.

green eyes lift to squint through the shadows when her company speaks, offering very little to make their situation better. ’ well... without lying, i think our chances feel like shit. ’ wren admits, but he doesn't need her to tell him that. frankly, with only a small bottle of medicine pocketed away, she isn't entirely prepared to be helpful either. brows knit, and she has to wonder how far he's willing to shove her under the bus to guarantee his own out. certainly, it would be naïve to trust that he has any interest in seeing her preservation as much as his own.

’ but—i guess it's only zero if we sit here like a couple of assholes. ’ still, it doesn't sound too reassuring, and tastes bitter on her tongue. ’ i'm good, i swear. i can finish what we've got left in a heartbeat if you can keep that bitch distracted. ’

night vision goggles flip down and she pushes herself off the ground—she's not interested in dying, or a bad grade: ’ do you trust me? ’

#edensflower #literally my first game ever #other two teammates dying and dc'ing #and mr gh0stleafy carrying us in a duo to victory =__= #( in character ) / * response .

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Wren. Winifred Austen (1876-1964)

via

#( character study ) / * aesthetics . #birb :) it’s a wren!

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Vampira

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@jocktrials asked : ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜

a downwards spiral wasn't entirely how she planned to spend her morning, but sleepless nights and swelled anxiety in her chest are all too familiar feelings. exhausted green eyes glare daggers into the white brick walls that surround her room as she lay there on her side, curled in on herself; she would be content to stay here forever, she thinks, would the scientists not take issue with it. but, of course, 'therapy' waits for no sulky moods.

he was more polite than the guards, anyway. knocking on her open door. asking to come in. and she would let him—even if he only made her feel worse. not that he did anything wrong, but remind her that he's another notch in her long list of mistakes.

’ i lied to you, you know. ’ she grimaces when she says it, and she's at least grateful that she doesn't have to look at him when she does so. for her lack of trust has waned—he's been nothing but kind to her since their first encounter, and a reliable, if not brash, teammate in trials. so, she figures, if she's going to lay here feeling sorry for herself, then there's no better—or worse—time to absolve herself of some guilt.

’ when we met. my name isn't jane. ’ she sighs, finally finds the energy, and the courage, to roll over to her other side, spare a fleeting, shamed look at her company. ’ it's wren, like the bird. ’

her head turns away from him again just then, instead burying her face in the crook of her arm. ’ i didn't know you, and it felt... safer, to lie. so, there's your out, if you want it. ’ she mumbles. surely, it would make passing by in the sleep room, and trials, awkward were it to shift his opinion of her. but, that's how it is to face the consequences of your actions, isn't it? ’ i'm sorry. ’

#jocktrials #wren vc everything is terrible except for u #and u dont even know my real name -__- #sorry for lying to u im basically the worst person ever #( in character ) / * response .

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therapy core ( x )

#i luv this picrew #( character study ) / * vanity .

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#( character study ) / * car radio . #dont come for her she enjoys this song

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#her 🥰 #( character study ) / * vanity .