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Again! why!!!

04.26.24 it's me hello again, how are you? unthinkable events that will repeat and repeat, is it that obvious to just ignore you again and again? I was in a situation where I didn't know what to do to save myself. I'm here in the four corners of the room I'm not familiar with while the person you thought would be with you through all the hardships is sleeping soundly as if nothing happened (how did you manage it). I did not know that I would return to this situation, a small world that feels like it is waiting for help even if there is none.. I want to pour out the pain but how?

the pain subsided…

#randomblog #hardtimenoone #sos

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-05.18.23-

Happy Special Day,

It's fun to celebrate together, the one you remember without reminding you of something or a day or event. It's really fun, that's true, but you just lose your appetite every time something happens that you don't expect., every situation is new, so it made me wonder why maybe it's like that?..

so ignore it because it's not a big thing to think about, I know it's not a priority, I understand, but in life or in the relationship you have, why can't be celebrated for just a little bit of time, there are so many alibis and so many things that are not possible, right? We don't need to plan but it's okay it's always okay..

It shouldn't be like that.,, money is not always involved. Can't everything just go together depending on the cooperation and respect for the relationship we have...

Just want to have a good time with you. Don't think anything is not involved in us.. that's it!...

BTW ILOVEYOU STILL........

#ARantSometimes #PBlog #JStoneWriting

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Midnights is a wild ride of an album and I couldn’t be happier that my co pilot on this adventure was Jack Antonoff. He’s my friend for life (presumptuous I know but I stand by it) and we’ve been making music together for nearly a decade HOWEVER… this is our first album we’ve done with just the two of us as main collaborators. We’d been toying with ideas and had written a few things we loved, but Midnights actually really coalesced and flowed out of us when our partners (both actors) did a film together in Panama. Jack and I found ourselves back in New York, alone, recording every night, staying up late and exploring old memories and midnights past. We were so lucky to also work with our brilliant collaborators Sam Dew, Sounwave, Lana Del Rey, Jahaan Sweet, Keanu Beats, William Bowery, and Zoe Kravitz. Laura Sisk was our excellent engineer. The wonderful and wise Beth Garrabrant took the album photographs. Midnights is a collage of intensity, highs and lows and ebbs and flows. Life can be dark, starry, cloudy, terrifying, electrifying, hot, cold, romantic or lonely. Just like Midnights. Which is out now  

https://taylor.lnk.to/taylorswiftmidnights

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10.10.22 - 3:45am  To BELLA, 

I hope you know that every morning since I came to know you has become great. You have turned my darkest days into a cloud full of blues and butterflies whenever I look into your eyes. Thank you for the butterflies you’ve made me feel atleast for once I thought It was love a love to lasts. That it would be different than the heartache and pain I’ve been. That you would show me that there is this love again believe again, I really thought that was it. That you wont break my heart or you would help me see my worth. And that we don’t have to go on own trying to find our worth. You'd take the lows even if sometimes I can feel your empty. But I guess just like the stars in the sky who gives us thousands of reason to strike a smile, we'd eventually get to a point on losing sight. We're too scared or its just you. I was hesitant when i met you but I trusted and instilled on my mind that no-two are the same and that some people weren't really up for games. Maybe I hope too much? Or I see too much appreciation in your actions that I’ve come blinded by the red flag thinking its an acceptable standard. You made me fall too hard that when you left I felt like my soul has detached within me. I lost sight of knowing everything and every reason there would be, I guess this is love or I’m just easy to fooled?  But regardless of the reasons, I’m assuming some people are like seasons they can sweep you off your feet and can leave you stranded in a blink.  well Some people are a season who can give you a lifetime lesson. Thank you for feeling happy like this again but i l know it’s wrong. Signing Off, and start new with my own.  

#LetterForMyB.... JStoneBlog

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Equality pls noted!

10.05.22

im not showy with my emotions but i get really talkative when in love. I'm not gold to be high maintenance when it comes to love or as a partner, . just listen to me and my drama char-char ramblings, I'm not difficult to handle, even though I know I'm always treated badly by people I treat as important. I hope they are the same to me... who wouldn't ask you to respect them the same way you respect them because you don't want them to get hurt or lose respect in the relationship witch is not beautiful thats it. just be fair and be treated fair too.

#PBBlog #JStoneBlog #BeYourSelf

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--Suddenly--

Sept glimps...

Sorry If Liked You, Liked That I Know I Can't. Is this time wrong again? because I found you at an unexpected time, a time when I know now you're the one who makes me happy, it's time to just peek and have fun, time to hope you used to notice too but I know you don't. I Know It's Wrong But I Want To Fight Wrong. Another test but I want you to know I want to kiss you oh at least Touch But how? and where to start if I don't have the strength to pull it off.

You're not covering holes or anything. All I know now is that you're the one who makes me happy. And I can forget everything just to get you in for a moment.

sorry for the sudden arrival But how?

you are in the Mind at the beginning of the day but the emotions are uncontrollable How come?

this is what is written today, but hopefully tomorrow there will be an answer. but thank you for feeling happy like this again But I know it's wrong.

#Crushy! #PBlog #JStoneBlog

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---ACCEPTED---

06.12.22

I finally accepted that it's time to let you go now

I miss you for a while

I cried over it

I spent along time wondering why you did what you did

But eventually i accepted it

You will always hold a special place in my heart

But you no longer belong in my life

I've learn a lot from you and i see my worth now

It's time for me to move on with my life.....

Signing of to my Home Before and Open a new Home With My own.

#Acceptance #PBlog #JStoneblog

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Pain 💔

_05.18.22_

I Miss the late night talks with you,

I Miss how you care about me,

I Miss how you treat me,

I Miss the vibe that we have,

Sheeet!

I really Miss the old days and things that we use to do. 🥺

#PBlog #JStoneBlog #Sadness #inpain #anxiety

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-HOPING-RECAP-

04.19.22

...I hope you find the kind of Love that makes you a softer person. The kind of Love that makes you want to be a better Man/Woman, The kind of Love that believes in you & supports you, thats stands by your side.

...I hope you find someone who quickly becomes your favorite thing someone who makes the fall less fearful, Someone you can't help but choose every single day.

...I hope you find someone who Shows you just how deeply you can feel, Just how deeply you can Love.

...I hope you find something real, because nothing is more beautiful than loving someone who Loves you back.

Nothing is more beautiful than Loving someone who builds you a home in their Heart.

#PBlog #JStoneblog

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Wow, what a character.

This made me realize what a journey this has been.

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8.14.21 1:33AM What's Your Drama!!!

Maygad! Im back Again, Sere!

Thinking about what Woooh! Maybe its not Good Now to composed something but sorry im here now again, Miss to write Something in my head With random feelings! Ee drama Wooo!

Well! Sometimes im sad and tired you know self how much it is, what Hahaha Sabog ka gorl!

And yeah thats life, sorry for being rude Mixing emotion ddnt know What i want to write now just Missing something or someone though i know the Answer haist! Hahah Gulo ka gorl?

Btw basta yun yown! I want this Like a Random post just want it to Read it when i was Okay na! Bye for now hahaha Happy self!

#Randomthoughts #PBLog #JStoneBlog

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Deep Mind

02:55am (With Continuation)

Mind Blowing Again, But still I didn't know what Happen to me again and again. Maybe it's because I'm just tired of successive events, why can't I control it like that?

At the same time, what I can't understand is coming back as a memory, A memory that I'm not with,The intense is! relationship she had before is already included in this memory, the weirdo But Why ???

Suddenly Comes Into The Mind and Felt With an Accompanying Question. Chaotic Too Chaotic, Chaotic that can't be answered That worsens the depth of thought, Is it just fear Or what?

It's been a long time, after all, it shouldn't be talked about anymore.

At the same time I just want a peaceful mind.

I'm very sensitive to everything including words and just a throw. Is it because of my age or what else?

Pure question Question how long will I take ???

#ContinuesBlog #AMindChoatic #PBlog

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Playing Mind.......02/10/21 2:37am

Halllluuu! Again its me, miss me? Sorry for writing So..so.so Late!.

Actually Im on O.T right now and in front of my PC i was Bz Yes! Then Suddenly i started Thinking, Well i Stop for a little bit of time. I Don't Know I just Don't know, Sorry For Thinking Of you Again and Again why??! Actually i really dont know. I hate to think of you because it's been too long and it shouldn't be like this anymore.

Hope and hoping You are always okay With The Kids And your Husband 😢😭...

Namaaaan iiih! (Teary Eyed)

Can't Hide The feeling, Breakdown-Near.

Okay will try to Calm down. Please shut me up (Silence) 😔☹️

#ThinkingAappsss #PBlog #OMGItsMe

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In just one SNAP.

10*28*2020. 12:33333am

What happened ?, Why is it like that right away maybe because something is wrong So it is like that right away, Whenever something small happens yes! small And I do not know why the impact is so strong, I know that in a situation It is inevitable to avoid because of sulk or sometimes Angry, But that does not mean that you can forget that in a small sulk You can forget about something or someone. awtsu! Sooo weak In that feeling, Or maybe it's just like that, In the mind more It hurts even more if you can just not think why not?,.

Hide-and-seek is just a game, isn't it? That in the amount of good you have done in a mistake is still based since that is the one who makes you feel hurt every time there is such a situation.

Why are people like that Huh? they join in their anger instead of thinking that person or thing is included in everything in their life, just forget it? Wow! difficult! Too much! Or maybe more often in pain aaawwttss ...

People nowadays: di na maintindihan, Di Baling mawala yung pang habang buhay Kesa Matapakan ang Ego. OoowwNooo it's really hurt but Super True. 🥺😢

"Pag Ginawa ang gusto Magagalit, pag Hindi naman Ginawa Magagalit parin"

"Gumawa ng Mali Marami-raming Masasabi, Pag Gumawa naman ng Tama may Masasabi parin"

Hello Were are you 'KATARUNGAN?' ang gulo sa Earth Paki kuha nga ako ng Saglitan maka Hinga lang kahit sandali...

#snap #igger #nottalkativebutwritingisgood #PBlog

#insidemind

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10*22*20

11:42pm

How to be Brave?!

Time again, It seems like you don't want to be in the world anymore and you just want to disappear at any time.

Feeling heavy, heavy on the chest, can you not help as if you will fall at any time, if it can only disappear in an instant. I really hope so...

If crying is the only solution to reduce this weight even if it floods. maybe there are always tears and will not disappear every time you feel the weight, it will make you feel even if it is a bit heavy in just such situations. Tears will not be lost that at any time it will drip as much as he wants Because it accompanied you with the feeling that You do not know where else to release energy !. (Hard Time Again!) 😵

I know its a part of Reality 🥺😢.

But why do I seem to never understand the moments and situations again, My world is gradually shrinking that I want to re-enter in the old place with my shadow and never come out again.

Because the turmoil is on the outside, outside of whatever you fix and bring out what you know you can't do, what you know you can't But you do it Because you have to expand And show that you can get out of Yourself always locked up But you do not know how to act And you will return to normal in an instant because of a situation you cant control! Yes so! That's right!.

Till here for now, I still have a lot to bring and tell...👉👈

#bebrave #igger #imnottalkativebutwritingisgood #PBlog

#writeyourownrisk

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We can ride wherever you want to go......legoooo!

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#misstoride #igger #nottalkativebutwritingisgood #PBlog

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What the! 🤣🤣🤣

#amongus #funnymoment #reblog #jstone

me, meeting dabi in a dark alleyway