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pt 2

i am who i am cause i wanna be

slowly growing strong and sturdy 

like a redwood tree’s trunk

my roots are memories of college youth

it’s time spill my college dreams of fucking party girls 

down the flusher - no plunger don’t want em back 

cause im a smart young man 

who plays a leadership role in the technology industry

I was a young and more experimental in college

Now I’m calmer and plan... wait for what I want while going out to achieve the smaller goals on the way to the larger one which drive my being into existance

i want to be a powerful man with a family. The kind that leaves behind the ideal of the modern dynasty. Aspects of these include, but are not limited to a family trust, real estate holdings, and businesses. And it is with that goal which I have chosen a wife. Katrina is the perfect companion. She's loyal, loving, gorgeous, fun, and easy to trust. i look forward to the life we’ll breathe into existence. 

it’s always about breath. 

A moment is everything in life. 

Attention, respect and space 

provides room for growth...

that feeling is a state of existence 

Whose palpable silence fills 

observation with knowledge. 

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new trancendance

i think i spend too much time hustling and not enough doing quality work.

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Dissatisfaction

Where does it come from A reliance on external circumstances Need for validation What is the truth and why does it matter What do you need To grasp To feel whole Again Like it ever existed Why Why Why Why Necessity

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Bar

Sitting Chilling Reminding Myself of past times Like usual Reaching out in my mind Metaphorically to Women I Loved Maybe

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ch 1.

this is for me. artistry. sell out. fake. be real. be offensive. make a change. do something bro. just fucking do something. be aggressive. get more. make things happen on your own. be everything you are and want to be solidly poised towards the center of a target gaining momentum. always accomplishing things. this is real. #stolen. the thrill of thinking lyrically. rhythm of thoughts. paddling, the boat. you. conquer, these stones. climb to the top. and hold.  #deadpansilence. 

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life is great.

i feel a sense of deep happiness because i am one with myself. i feel whole and complete like i belong places rather than feeling like an outsider. i realize im tremendously privilaged to be able to feel this way. im very financially literate so i wont ever have to worry about money. my problems are now, whats some sick shit i can learn more about or do with my friends and not about the next paycheck. i have the freedom to explore the world and a sense of duty to myself to contribute, because im taking. lifes my oyster.

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Hence my preference

Idk what someone younger than me could offer. I probably objectify younger women more. I probably objectify women but respect age. Hence my preference

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being good at sex is like being good at life. you use the same core competencies. you're exciting, trying new things. communicating, culminating your feelings  like bubble gum's pop. finding a releasein a social dynamic. self actualizing.

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fuck you

you’re a piece of shit

you threw me out of your place

you threw me out of your home

your heart

with no warning

i was the dog on its belly

and you brought a knife

not a warm hand

fuck you sam i am, part 2 and im done

new begginings begun

im a baller, cant put this homie on a collar

im vicious, this rapsodys me honestly telling  you how i feel

you backwards bitch

kill switch and disengage

you’re dead to me

if i didnt want to be more than mad, id stay sad

too many things pulling me to be glad

im bold, my hearts gold, and the worlds mine to behold

no niggas ever gonna sour that

and im not gonna pop a cap in his bitch ass

too good to fail, never gonna end up in jail but forreal though, apart from this silly rhyme which lets me release my feelings. my definition of success demands poise and emotional restraint. without control over ones self i will never be able to give back with a sense of clarity

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i really wish platonic relationships were more important. i’m tired of losing friendships because i’m less important than their significant other. i hate that i’m automatically not as close to my friends because i’m not the person they’re dating/sleeping with. and i hate how whenever i complain about it the response is “you’ll find someone too someday!” like no I shouldn’t have to “find someone” to feel loved and important, maybe we should stop promoting investing all your time and effort and physical and emotional intimacy into one romantic/sexual partner idk

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she wanted a poem

she makes me feel aloen

in my own mind

i rewind time as i seek these lies

she hated me

she loved me

shes on my mind

im alone and i cant find

anyone to be mine

do you hate despir, broken beyond repair

do you enjoy my sadness

thats what i offer you - importance.

to be immortalized in my eyes

let me hold you there

hold me. 

does everyone know 

does everyone need to be

mattered

silly

i want to get drunk and forget myself

it all hurts too much

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When people ask who I am I say I'm learning more about myself

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This is I

The free-forming relationships are based of the perception and complimentary awareness of value(s)

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I finally did it Get the fuck out of my wild wild way