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the whole point of girls doing the not like other girls thing is basically them believing that the girls around them lack an interior life. they were raised on depictions of women as shallow caricatures and they recognize themselves to be actual people with thoughts and feelings, but instead of drawing the conclusion that these depictions of women are incorrect, they draw the conclusion that those depictions of women are correct and that must mean they're smarter and have more substance than the "average" woman. to exit the not like other girls phase means recognizing that all real life women have the same level of interiority as you do, and that depictions of women in the media as consistently empty headed and frivolous are misogynistic stereotypes not grounded in reality.

i say all this to say that to exit a not like other girls phase does not necessitate taking an interest in "traditionally feminine" ways of dress and makeup, nor does it mean never saying anything negative about the beauty industry

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This was my old mindset lol. I’m glad to freed myself from all negativity and finally sorted it out.

moving away from my parents would fix me

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Update: So karun, I’m pressured on how to tell Bro Jo na it wasn’t really intended jud nga muapil kos reporting field. Sadyang chismosa rako sa Student Reporter webinar. Never have I ever thought I would actually be a trainee. Yuwu. I can’t be a reporter. Di nako ma balance akong time.

Tbh, medyo nanghina ko 😓 I don’t know where I’m good at anymore. Last minute deciding din if whether ABM or STEM kay i don’t think maka survive ko sa STEM. I’m also confused with either law school or film school pero I’m fixed with accountancy kay planning jud ko for business. I feel so ashamed na I feel like saling pusa na lang kos prod. I feel so excluded 😅 idk basin ako ra sab. 😭 I’m only 17. Idk if ipagkakaloob pa sa ako 1 year to live pero planning for the future scares me. I hope everyone knows when they’ll die para fixed lahat.

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I am emotionally stressed. I thought I can handle it already.

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Pathology 🥀

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I feel included diay hahaha sa encoding part ragud guro ko, welp, trust the process and give your best before saying anything else

Gusto ko kunti mag iyak kasi idk unsa najud akong posisyon sa prod team 😭😓

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Tbh, medyo nanghina ko 😓 I don’t know where I’m good at anymore. Last minute deciding din if whether ABM or STEM kay i don’t think maka survive ko sa STEM. I’m also confused with either law school or film school pero I’m fixed with accountancy kay planning jud ko for business. I feel so ashamed na I feel like saling pusa na lang kos prod. I feel so excluded 😅 idk basin ako ra sab. 😭 I’m only 17. Idk if ipagkakaloob pa sa ako 1 year to live pero planning for the future scares me. I hope everyone knows when they’ll die para fixed lahat.

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And I kinda feel nga na usab ang treatment ni kuya ret. or maybe sadyang attached najud kaykos iya.

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Gusto ko kunti mag iyak kasi idk unsa najud akong posisyon sa prod team 😭😓

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Wow, it’s been a while since my last visit on tumblr and it never fails me on how honest I was with what I’m feeling. It’s a good step to growth. Keep it up han! And I’m sorry that you have to go through lot of invalidation, and emotional stress. You don’t have to have the saddest history just to be sad all the way you want! Everyone is built differently sweetheart. You still have a long way. Don’t rush things and be patient.

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No like literally get a job.

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Onward

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Random Hiyao Miyazaki fact I learned a while ago.

Hiyao Miyazakis Howls Moving Castle is based on a book series. When making the movie, he flew to Europe to meet the writer and get a feel for the area the books setting was based on.

While there, he found out that she had gotten the idea for her books from watching Castle in the Sky, and had based a lot of her storytelling around his movies.

Howls Moving Castle is a Hiyao Miyazaki film, based on a book, based on a Hiyao Miyazaki film.

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