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“You were the one that I wanted to feel the earth rotate with.”

— Shinji Moon, This is No Longer About You (via purplebuddhaproject)

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Mood Indigo (2014) Michel Gondry 

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“The loves we share with a city are often secret loves.”

— Albert Camus, from The Myth of Sisyphus and Other Essays; “Summer In Algiers,”

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when they ask

When they ask you how you are don’t say fearful. Narrow your eyes and kiss your teeth but don’t say afraid.

Don’t say more scared than ever before, or floundering. Don’t say lost without cause or that you’re not always sure you can make it. Straighten that back you are sex. Look like sex.

Wipe the blood from yourself. Don’t tell them what went on when the sun was busy in another street.

Do that Thing The People Do. The people who are fine, fine, fine until you get home and find them gone, gone, gone.

Keep suffering because it’s your God- Given Right. Brawl with your being. Fight the bad fight.

Fight.

If they ask you how you are don’t say stolen. Don’t say forgotten, passed over, ignored. Don’t you dare say Orphan. Don’t say beaten by the system oppressed and disturbed and don’t you dare say disappointed don’t you dare say damaged.

Smile. Smile with all of your teeth, even the rotting ones. Even the rotting ones.

— Yrsa Daley-Ward, bone

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“Always defend your right to heal at your own pace. You are taking your time. You are allowed to take your time.”

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“Don’t even bother with places that feel wrong. Drink enough water. Read about love.”

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“Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will always be yours.”

— Reyna Biddy (via deeplifequotes)

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“No, I don’t think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That’s what’s wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how.”

— Margaret Mitchell

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Yogi Firefly-

“Accept, then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it, always work with it, not against it…” ~Eckhart Tolle

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“I know I’m not easy to love. I’m a chronic over-thinker. I overreact more than I should…And every once in a while, I might be a little insecure. But if I am in love with you, I can promise you wholeheartedly that you will be loved with so much passion and intensity that you’ll forget what life felt like before I came along. You will always be cared for and you will always have someone in your corner. Maybe I’m not the best at being loved - But I like to think I’m pretty good at loving.”

— Chelsea Carroll

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I want your Monday morning sleep soaked eyes dream drenched voice, lazy bones ‘five more minutes please babe.’ I want your Tuesday afternoon coffee break, glasses off, laughter on ‘just hold me for a while it’s been a hard day.’ I want your Wednesday evening fingers through hair teeth nibbling nails neck craning, eye glazing ‘this paperwork never ends’ I want your Thursday night drinks for two bones unbind muscles let loose flats, slacks, ‘just me and you’ I want your finally Friday stretch soul smile, sun sipping light from the glaciers in your eyes fingers unfurl, hand extends ‘c’mon babe, lets go wild’ I want your weekend. your movie marathon Saturday reading by the fireplace kissing in the blankets want your Sunday morning orange juice and pancakes white sheets, tender skin hair like the Fourth of July ‘let’s not get out of bed today.’ I want your ordinary and your stress, rest, release I want your bad day and that terrible night I want you drunk in my arms forgetting the place but never my name I want your lazy and your lonely and your fist full of fight I want you everyday in every way for the rest of my life.

On Both Knees | alfaazkibarsaaa. (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

My wife.

(via trenttron5000)

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Questions Women In Healing Have To Ask Themselves About Lovers

1. Am I seeking this partner from a healthy place or an empty place?

2. Does this person resemble my abuser? My parents? My family patterns?

3. Is my partner safe?

4. Does my partner understand, seek to understand and acknowledge my trauma? Does he/she/they want to explore my childhood?

5. Does my partner retreat or show up when I want to talk about my trauma or healing?

6. Does my partner have patience for the days when trauma wins? Anxiety wins? Insecurity wins?

7. Am I getting my needs met through manipulation of my partner or from their true behaviors?

8. Is there chaos here?

9. Does my partner treat my healing seriously and with respect?

10. Does my partner give me space to do the things that I do to heal?

…to be continued

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“Someone once said that the moment you stop to think about whether you love someone, you’ve already stopped loving that person forever.”

— Carlos Ruiz Zafón

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“You deserve to be happy. You deserve to live a life you are excited about. Don’t let others make you forget that.”

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“Sometimes the worst thing that happens to you, the thing you think you can’t survive…it’s the thing that makes you better than you used to be.”

— Jennifer Weiner (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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“Live the life you’d be envious of if you saw someone else living it. This is my personal mantra. Whenever I’m going through a difficult time, like a breakup, and I’m wishing to be the person who could get over it and move on, I tell myself to be that person. Instead of waiting to be inspired by someone else and being jealous that they’re living a life I wish I had, I tell myself not to wait for that moment and to start being the person I want to be.”

— Olivia Dunn

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All these years I thought I was writing about the hole my lovers left.l know now I have been writing about the hole my mother left that I’ve tried to shove my lovers into.