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CW: death

Posted by Lotsodoodles (Salamanda) Friends, I am so terribly sorry to share this news with you. Our friend Susan/Hixy, the owner of this account, passed away yesterday, Wed. May 17, 2023. Please reach out if you need support. You are loved.

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So this is a scale my therapist showed me the other day, to sort of put my feelings in perspective. It showed me that what I consider good days are still a 6 on the scale, and bad days are a 7 or an 8.

I haven't seen this here on tumblr and according to the creator's website, it's okay to share. I thought others might benefit from seeing this, too.

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1. ⁠I am so happy that I will literally go insane if the happiness is sustained for any length of time. 

2. ⁠I am feeling pretty rad. I vaguely recall times I’ve been unhappy but it feels like distant memories now. Things are looking up. 

3. ⁠It is not the best day of my life… I have stuff on my mind, but I don’t think of suicide, except when that one weird friend brings up stupid hypotheticals. 

4. ⁠Suicide doesn’t occur to me except in moments of frustration or stress. It’s like a weird escape hatch my brain has decided to just go to in an attempt to escape stress. It doesn’t feel serious, it’s almost a joke.

 5. ⁠The joke is getting really stale. Suicidal ideation and other intrusive thoughts keep happening, but I am mostly interested in other things. It’s like a low key death affinity.

 6. ⁠I am thinking about suicide a lot. It has become troubling. I can distract myself if I really try, however if an out of control semi was headed towards me, I might not move. I am passively suicidal.

 7. ⁠I cannot stop thinking about suicide, and unfortunately I cannot distract myself. I might be doing more risky things like driving recklessly or drinking to excess. I have graduated from passively suicidal to having a death wish. I need help. 

8. ⁠I am no longer fighting the thoughts, just sort of indulging in them. I sort of want to make the suicide plan, but I am stopping myself. I am holding on, but barely. It isn’t safe for me to be alone. I am suicidal. 

9. ⁠I am actively making a plan to end my life. I am telling people goodbye, settling accounts, and starting to write THE note. I am actively suicidal. I need to tell someone.

 10. ⁠I am actively trying to kill myself. If I do not get medical attention it is very likely I will die.

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What fanfic writers say vs what they mean. Btw.

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People not on tumblr will never experience the experience of experiences which is becoming intellectually involved with and emotionally invested in the plot and characters and themes and images and fan art and meta analysis and criticism and ongoing development of a show you've never actually seen but have formed a deep attachment to because your mutuals post about it all the time and the scraps of dialogue intrigue you and the gifsets compel you and the inside jokes make you laugh and you don't even need context at this point because it's already a whole thing in your head and it has shaped you and you love it.

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microdosing on being your.friend by liking your posts :)

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can’t drown my demons they have pool noodle thingies

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she's in a better place now (her bedroom)

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Collection: I Search the Bookcase!

This 3-page collection of ideas for books on your in-game bookshelves should help you figure out what to say when one of your players goes to inspect the mad mage's books. Books are a great way to embed lore into your world and share it with your players. Additionally, some books may have been owned by magical creatures, or a wizard may have left a note or two in the margins, creating a whole new adventure for your players to chase after. Or maybe you'd rather make your own books? These tables will help you decide what it looks like, how it's written and what's so special about your books.

For better, full-page high quality imagery, take a look at the collection "I Search the Bookcase!" at the Homebrewery here!

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Ublock origin isn't blocking adverts on youtube videos anymore. Is there something you can do about this?

Yes. You can get a fix for it here.

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#never been able to whistle

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Know Your Dashes

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i have three responses to "how is your writing going"

1) it's not

2) it's going

3) i am ENTHUSED. i have been BLESSED with the POWER of the MUSES. i am an UNSTOPPABLE FORCE OF CREATION i am the MOST ULTIMATE OF ALL WRITERS

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Daisuke Samejima, “Flatball 2019 No.03“

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babies!!

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