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“If you hear a voice within you saying, ‘You are not a painter,’ then by all means paint … and that voice will be silenced.”

— Vincent van Gogh

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long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on

#on holiday I was like oHHHHH this is what living in the moment is! What listening to your body is! what not worrying about how you look is #but doing what makes you happy #and then …… I came home and got sent the pictures #+ my friend being. unintentionally fatphobic as fuck #while hurtful as fuck too #and it’s all just been piling up too since I got home because I’ve been having a lot of conversations and seeing a lot of people that #confront me with who I used to be and who I am now and how I’m really not happy with that #and it feels like it’s not gonna get better #like I’m destined to be in a job I like but isn’t what I want because I’m not capable enough and I’ll never know what romantic requited love #feels like. I’ll never cure my vaginismus I’ll never be able to let someone in or they won’t want me this is just it for me #and SOMEHOW the way I look has become the ultimate culmination of all those things? #my face is suddenly a woman in her thirties face #I keep gaining weight despite not even eating all that much because FUCKING PCOS makes it impossible #my hair in my face grew back. my stomach is hairy and that plus the added beer belly just makes it look like I’m a 50 year old man #I am soooooooo tired of the dysphoria #and the way pcos ruins fucking everything because I can restrict calories all I want and move all I want but will it help ? No ! #and of the fact that it impacts the way I feel about myself so much because I’m convinced now I’ll never find anyone #should have tried harder when I was 21 because that was the only time in my life I reasonably fit society’s standards like That was my shot #I’ve been taking supplements everyone says will help but I’m not sure I noticed anything in the past six months and I can’t take berberine #because it fucks with my heart medication. which. That too. I have that too #and I’m in pain! All the time now! ALL THE TIME so I can’t even work out to keep the weight stable because guess what ? #just after a normal day at the office I come home and have to lie down because everhthing hurts so much ! #today I got an impromptu massage in an attempt to feel better but it didn’t fix shit and I had to buy clothes for kings day after #and I didn’t try them on just quickly grabbed some orange shit to try on at home and at what I saw in the mirror I genuinely got nauseous #I just don’t know who that is in the mirror but it’s not me and I can’t accept it. I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t #it genuinely makes me so sad and I keep telling myself that a reduction will help in feeling more like myself and it will help with the pain #but what if it doesn’t? what if my pain doesn’t go away after af all and my stomach just juts out and I feel like a gremlin all the time #what then. what the fuck do we do then. also I’m so fucking scared of that surgery anyway that I don’t fucking want to do it anymore #I want so many things and all of them feel out of reach and I know my own brain is my worst enemy and it’s not rooted in anything real but. #Isn’t it? really — isn’t it???????

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bangtan gif battle with @joonie​ @illegil @nochuie @jinsbts @sugawithluv @dearbangtansonyeondan @namjoon @hoshees @taehyungland

↳ week 2: bias → yoongi + hobi aka sope [cr.]

#give them back to me STAT #sope

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I found it HERE with free worldwide shipping

#not to be like that but yoongi by the camp fire in nz

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🧡💛🩷

#why is the headband getting to me #explain!!!!!!!! #(…… it gives pirate vibes while he’s wearing pink and his hair is long so triple whammy yes whatever)

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🎥: magicshop

#still have to finish the last episode but I don’t want it to end so I’ve been putting it off 🫠 #175 ? more days !!!!!!!!!!

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Violet-backed Starling (Cinnyricinclus leucogaster), male, family Sturnidae, order Passeriformes, found in southwestern Africa

photograph by Nigel Voaden

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Lord, how I love the chance of any escape— from what? to what? I'm disoriented;

Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry written c. October 1931 featured in “The Diaries of Virginia Woolf,”

#Virginia my girl

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can someone like. kiss my neck or pay attention to me or something

#Whooooooo #I’m a sad drunk today apparently #in a complete ‘I wasted time and will never catch up again and my prime is gone and I am inherently unlovable’ spiral #and don’t wanna text anyone about it because NO ONE CARES #or we’ve had this conversation twenty thousand times #fiiiiiixxxxxxxx my braaaaainnnnn oh my god I’m SICK of it #anyways neck kisses #or attention #either way both good 😭😭😭😭😭 #also fuvk these cocktails and fuck deep talks with women about society #(no that’s a lie I love it but now I’m Thinking) #(goddamn)

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not to promote misogyny but i think this should happen i think it would be really funny

#the replies to this are so fucking biphobic I’m so fucking annoyed

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if you don‘t personally own one but your roommates/parents do and you are allowed to use it, that counts as yes

#no but I have a steamer #that I use ….. sporadically

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ok idk if people on here are talking abt this idk if I’ve seen it but one of the funniest/most awkward things about the immediate aftermath of the queen’s death was audiences that night going to see musicals on the west end, specifically Wicked. apparently before the show some official came out and called for a minute or two of silence in honor of the queen. makes sense. silence concludes, lights come down, show begins. the overture begins very loudly with dramatic and fast-moving music, moves to a slower section, and at around the minute mark, becomes a very brassy, loud, cantankerous kind of aggressive melody. and then, after a minute of silence and a minute of overture, the audience is greeted with the first words of this musical, the words that have started the musical every night since 2003, now being sung loud and proud in london on September 8th, 2022:

“Good news! She’s dead!”

#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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Perrie - Forget About Us

#mmmmmmmmmmmm. #yeah okay. #she still ! #cool. #(also I’m sorry but the snippets of the song all over TikTok were better than the whole song? #like she just repeats the chorus 29292929 times but the real height of the song doesn’t start until the bridge #and that’s what she was using everywhere which I GET because that part? amazing. showstopping. stuck in my head for WEEKS #but the whole song? #it’s a bit. lacklustre. it misses something. #but as far as first solo singles go it’s fun and I like it much better than what leigh and jesy have released so far but. yk?)

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Jimin x The Starry Night

#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

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love me now

#Wowowowowowoowowowow

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art meets art: taehyung x the night café

#OP im sorry but you went straight into my heart with this series so I’m afraid I have to reblog them all right now

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art meets art: seokjin x road with cypress and star

#oh. oh my god