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You treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

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😔😔😔

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Never knew how much I loved her.

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I really hope you find your relationship goals

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Truth is I think about you often I miss your voice, I miss your smile that I used to get lost in I know you know I have this thing for you, I never lost it I think I just lost myself, in the midst of the non-sense 9 times out of 10, I'd close my eyes and dream about you Don't know what it was, but you just had this thing about you Lately we've been distant, see, I just can't be without you And my soul got so attached to yours, I can't be me without you But, we hate ourselves because we run from the people we love And we all hold on to the past 'cause we miss what it was Don't wanna feel so we try to numbin' the pain with these drugs Living in hell, 'cause we lost faith in the place up above And my anxiety is breaking me, it kills me I'm living in a world so fake, I lost touch of the real me Had to take a look back, just to ask me if I'm still me And would I still stand for this if they wanted to kill me? I can't take it no more, I just can't take it no more I can't smile like I'm okay, I just can't fake it no more I can't act like I've been happy and complacent no more 'Cause every time I try to change, it is the same as before My karma's coming, my karma's coming, it's weighing in I'm drinking till all my feelings just fade away again And mama, she always told me "this ain't a way to live But, when you feel what I'm feeling that's just the way it is I'm trying not to break down but I just can't hide this pain Saw myself in the mirror and I'm just not the same But who's to blame? I guess we all change We hurt the ones we love because of our pain

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I told myself I was over it, over you. Then I saw you again and it was like the last sixth months never happened. You gave me that smile and just like that, I fell in love all over again.

Am I ever going to be over you? //Part I// (via inkyconstellations)

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Aint no whiskey strong enough to make things right

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Remember the first time you stayed with me? 2 years later and it feels like you're a million miles away from me. Drinkin to much, since you've been gone I can't get gone enough. I'ma drink it all till your not around. Never wanted to be a heartbreaker, turning your friends into match makers. I know you want your privacy. You got nothing to say to me. I

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Like you the only one feeling how you feeling. I get that. I was stuck for awhile. I love you, the things that cross my mind while im by myself. I hate you, these things go through my mind while Im by myself. I'd fuck you.

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I sent a hundred thousand text, don't think you ever sent one back. Funny, then you could tell when all your friends were talking shit then you could spell.

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I often think about hurting myself. The infusion of chemicals inside my brain push me to smash my head against the wall. I picture it; my skull fracturing like confetti as a celebration that I am no more. The fragments scattering across the floor, a mess of my distress because I make the biggest impact when I am delirious…and it’s never the one I want. Eyes discovering me, a twisted puzzle, and only realising the scope of the damage when my mental anguish becomes a physical attribute. When I don’t fit back together. Oh god I often think about hurting myself. It’s better than letting you.

// A.S (via the-teenage-poet)